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I haven’t been on here in a while, it’s been about 2 months and in those 2 months I’ve been content with myself, I’m not anymore I don’t even know why. There’s pretty much all new people on here since I’ve been. on I haven’t seen one person I remember. Not saying its bad just differen. I am sad though that idk what happened to those people. I remeber a girl named Sophie that would post random thoughts, I really liked those.
I don’t really know what to write. Don’t really even know why I’m here. Well lets start off by saying I’ve been depressed for ATLEAST a year. I don’t honestly really even have a reason, I just want to leave this cold world and never have to deal with anything or anyone again. Well last saturday, like a week ago me and my mom went to dinner with her ex and a boy he works with, we kept smiling ar each other, and were throwing ice at each other. And then afterwards we went to the movies, held hands the whole time and gave me a big hug […]
Yes. It’s been a hard week for me; My dog of 4 years was hit by a car? What an asshole, They didn’t even stop.. Mann I’m gunna miss that little dog; My father thinks its his fault.. When he wasn’t even there..
– I’m back at the point where I could give 2 fucks about guys.. I’m tired of it.. Here goes more of my rant..
I’m back to the drugs.. Don’t you see what you’ve been doing to me? Are you just playing with my mind.. Acting like you want me all over again after 2 months with her? I sometimes think […]
I try and try, but whatever I do I screw up. It’s always my fault. I’m tired of trying to act like myself, I know I’m falling into a hole an I’m so scared. Im talking less and less buy know one is noticing. You know why be asue none cares I’m just taking up space! Im not even trying anymore to put up a act.
I feel shitty ad ugly every single day! I’m not happy in this life anymore.
Well I’m giving up. I can’t take it. Just when things look up I go right back down. Tonight may be my last. Fuck off world I love you jesus
im sorry mom dad and Josie and all my family. I still love all of you after death
I’ve just cut myself for the first time,and now I feel like shit,but also kinda relieved.
Tired of this life, this shit, the same struggle, the same fight over and over, same feelings, always worthless, always pathetic, never good enough! It’s exhausting. So why can’t I cut? I can’t be that painful. A few quick slices and its done, oblivion, and yet I can’t do it, I can’t even scratch myself. Plenty of you self harm yet I can’t even nick myself with the scalpel. Just. One. Little. Cut. It can’t. Be that difficult, can’t hurt that much, can’t possibly hurt as much as this shitty life does. So why can’t I do it??? I just don’t want to do this […]
Yes, it’s been a couple of months since I got to the absolute depths of despair. And yes, I’m still here.
I’ve had a couple of pretty big circuit-breakers in my life that blocked the exits for me: a new job and a relocation to a small town about 3 hours away from where I used to live. The new job is great; living alone in a new town has allowed me some breathing space. However, I still see the family most weekends.
Something else I did was approach my doctor to discuss my issues, mainly under the insistence of others that I do so. He seemed […]
I’m lost. I can’t be found. I don’t know who or what I am. If you ask me two years ago who and what I was I could’ve told you. Now I can’t even begin to wonder. The relaxing thoughts now don’t even dare to step into my mind and it makes me rather sad. At least something made me relaxed and I miss the thoughts. I want them back. I’m done with my pills because even though I may be getting better nothing else is. I’m not strong. I can’t live life. Like I said, life is a test to see who’s strong enough […]
I’m in so much pain, my stomach hurts, my chest hurts and ohh my head is killing me.
God i really don’t know what happen. I used to be the girl who never had a negative bone in her body and now am a girl who just want an escape.
I never meant to brake my promise to her. i said i would sleep over and have the best Christmas with my best friend, especially since she was having some problems at home and things were finally getting better again.
I FORGOT OKAY!!! and the worst part of forgetting was that […]
I’ve been on this site before and took a pretty long break. A lot of stuff has happened, but I’ve decided to probably end my life sometime today. I’ve been suffering from severe depression since I was twelve and have had suicidal thoughts every day since then. I’ve tried to live for others but I don’t have a will to live anymore. I tried to die multiple other times as a child and carried the pain around me for a long time, no treatments have worked and it hurts to wake up everyday so I’m going to finally liberate myself through death. If you want […]
im going crazy these two days. i dont know why. I sent to ***** all of my Loves. Sitting all weekend alone by tv and being a vegetable. Tomorow i totally move out from my city and i will be living totally alone in a small city with no friends. I am going to quit my job at ambulance tomorow totally – i will even delete that one shift.. Somehow im deleting everything and preparing for a new start from 0. I just dont know why. I miss my friends and i miss attention, but somewhy im pulling myself to sadness black and dark period. […]
Ok, I have Major depressive disorder, Bulimia Nervosa, Borderline personality disorder, Chronic suicidal ideation and Post traumatic stress disorder diagnosed. I have been on Zopiclone, Flouxetine, Bupropien, Quetiapine, Topiramite, Promethazine, Clonazepam. Currently on all apart from first two. I have legit no friends and attempt suicide all the time. I’m a frequent overdoser and have had 4 suicide attempts caught and put in hosp. Last week I took 30 pills, a deadly combination, it worked almost, I had a seizure but then later on 2 hours later, I started hallucinating. My mum caught me hallucinating as I text my sis in them and told them […]
i fell worthless basical everyday people think that i am happy hyper girl they expect but deep inside i fell like shit like everyone hates me i struggle to learn i am a really slow learner i try my best. i hate everthing about me my body my eye my face everthing i wear jumpers in summer and leggings somtimes because i fell so fat and that people will judge me i hate getting notice by people i somtime fell like i want to be invisble i fell like no one cares about me no more i hate looking at my self in the mirrow […]
well it all stated last year…… i meet its guy and we started going out … all my friends and i where close ..then my boyfriend started to hit me and made me do things i didnt want to do .. then he went and told everyone everything then i started to be called a slut and a hoe and ugly and alot more things .. and my friend started to talk about me too they where saying that i went to a party and slept with a guy i dint know and got prenent .. well alot happen but i feel alone and wish […]
Honestly, if I had to say who I hated the most, I’d say myself. I’m such a mess. and I don’t think I’m worth the life that I’ve been given. If I had to say who bullied me, again, same as above. I just feel so worthless and that I don’t deserve anything. I hate everything about me. my face, my body, my smile, I just nit-pick at myself until I feel like crying and it’s exhausting. but I can’t stop. it’s a vicious little cycle that my mind has grown attached too.
Like, for example, I don’t think I’m pretty, at all. far from it, […]
today i found out i have cancer (leukemia) i dont know what to do, i dont have long to live, ive always wanted to die but now its coming im scared, the sad thing is i will never get married, have a family of my own and never have sex.
ive been crying most of the day and i still am, ie cut my wrists about 50 times deep and shallow and i feel nothing. im scared im really really scared, i was going to end my life in a week but now i know i have leukemia i am really really scared. im in a […]
it’s okay too be done and give up right? whats the point of thinking i can go on i have tried and tried to deal with peoples lies and bull shit but it gets harder to ignore all the time and i do not even trust very many people at school that i meet because they are just going to tell other people and spread the words that you say and mabey even twist them around. gossip is a monster i am sick of the lies i am sick of always sucking it up and trying to get threw it whats the point? what is […]
Excuse the paragraphs if its too long I am terribly sorry. I just need to get this out before it eats me alive. I dont know how people would feel about me afterwards but whatever happens will happen.
Hello. Im 16 years old and I started hurting myself when I was 13.
I had friends as a kid. My family was okay and everything seemed well. Though in the 5th grade thats when I really started to think about things about people. Thats when I started to see people as liars and fakes. Everyone was a liar and I couldnt trust anyone.
When I entered […]
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