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I need a peaceful exit!
For general topics related to the site.
I need a peaceful exit!
I only discovered this site a few hours ago and i am blown away with it , to find people that are not all happy happy and trying to convince me that life is beautiful all the time or even a little bit .
Are any of these able to buy over-the-counter in the UK???
spent saturday in the E.R. only to be diagnosed with fucking Bells Palsy. It’s tough and i hate it.The Doctor put me on a steroid and an antibiotic that makes me feel like shit….. I feel like im going to puke and its hard enough to concentrate in class when I just feel like screaming and running out of the building until I pass out.  I hate hospitals and doctors. I never recieve any good news from them its always the bad stuff “your uncle may not live”, “your baby brother died, the dr. fucked up”, ” the didn’t fix his hip only for a short time, […]
I have now realized that my life- and this planet- truly won’t get better. Everything is getting worse and the only future I have will be suffering and pain. All the joy in life is gone.
I’ve decided how I’m going to do it and I’m ordering the supplies I still need. Since this place is no longer moderated I’m throwing this out there… Anyone who needs a suicide “buddy” or assistance let me know. If we’re close enough something might be worked out.
I’m talking to my girlfriend right now on the fone. She sounds so cute and I love her with every passing moment. She makes me feel good. Except she’s a rare drug, (sorry I haven’t slept all night, talking to her on the fone) and She fell asleep. She sounds so cute when she’s asleep :). Too bad when I leave my moms house and I don’t get Internet. I can’t call her and talk to her. I will miss her and my depression will come back. She lives in Fillmore, closely to Six Flags Magic Mountain and that’s like an hour and a half […]
I need advice on dissociation and depersonalization.
I’m gonna go into the city and try and shop to make myself feel better.
I’m meeting up with my girlfriend who knows how shit I feel, have an in-depth talk. Gonna tell her my feelings for this other girl because she deserves to know and I’m going to burn the letters I wrote to people.
See, now I “failed” twice. Or is it my God telling me that things will get better. I like to think it’s God.
the hour before I commit suicide,
I will write a letter to my mother and father, tell them I am sorry for everything I put them through, all the money spent on psychologists gone to waste, And thank them.
A letter to my sister, tell her that she was my best friend, even though we didn’t even see each other much, I could talk to her about anything.
A letter to my boyfriend, explaining everything I felt when I was alive, for he never understood, because I never told him, and that he was a great boyfriend.
A letter to the boy I will always […]
I spend most of my free time giving myself temporary pleasure, whether it is through shopping, food, or masturbating. But the reason I do this is not just to be satisfied for a short time, it’s because I know deep down that I’ll never get that permanent pleasure and I have to make that up through all the little things.
So yesterday I told my aunt how I’ve been feeling these past couple months. She’s the first family member that I’ve really tried to talk to about this. Her responses really aren’t going so well with me. They all seem to be those “I’ve been there before, here’s what I did to handle it” situations, but there’s really nothing about the depression I’ve been feeling. I’m wondering that if this is how she’s treating the situation, maybe I shouldn’t tell any of my other family members cause they’ll address it the same?
I’m trying to find help with the people around me, but really nothing ever […]
I’ll be placing an ad in the free press soon, when I figure out a way to word it to a min. if anyone doesn’t know, I’m going on strike against “life”, basically, the government denies our right to live by taking away all opportunities of real help when we ask for it. Not just for severe depression but for other illnesses too. I’m going to live based on survival only, if I have to pay for it, I’m not doing it, (except food and hygeine, they are a nessicaty). If anyone wants to particpate, they can in their own way, just mention it here […]
Tonight’s the night.
Hanging is the method I chose. I’m not looking forward to dangling while conscious for 10 minutes but it will be worth it in the end. My bestfriend knows I’m going tonight which is kind of nice. At least I don’t have to hide this from everyone close to me. It’s such a weird feeling to know that these are really my last couple hours of physically being on this earth. I don’t know what happens after death, but I’m hoping for just nothingness. Like before I was born. I don’t know how people live till they’re 78. I’ve been here for 15 years […]
For the past 5 days I have been starving myself. In the beginning I didn’t really think I was serious about dying, but as more time passes I have become more sure that it is what I want.
I want to die as painlessly as possible.. Ive looked up information on Carbon Monoxide poisoning but Im not sure if it really is the BEST way to do this.. I don’t have a garage so I don’t really even know how I would be able to kill myself in this way. Is it even possible?
Would lighting charcoal grills in my car work?
What about H2S gas? Would […]
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I found this place because I typed “I’m never gonna make it in the real world” into Google. Those words pretty much sum up my biggest worry. Everyone tells me that these are the best days of my life and I should enjoy not having responsibilities like adults do. Ha, I think life sucks right now so why would I want to continue living for something worse? Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy some things about my life. However, those are too few to get me by. I usually end up completely avoiding the things I know I have to do so that I […]
I don’t feel the same anymore, about us… I don’t know what to say to you anymore, I don’t feel anything when we kiss, I don’t feel happy around you anymore, and you used to be the only one who could make me cheer up, but now, now everything’s changed, you’ll always love her, everyone does, I know you don’t love me, and I don’t blame you, I am shit, shit for you, shit for anyone, why am I still even breathing, I’m sorry for not knowing how to act, not smiling or laughing enough, not being there for you, not seeing youu enough, not […]
I would have had a brilliant night, an amazing night actually. I’m a little drunk, and I WOULD have camped in an abandoned caravan tonight with Reece and Zoe if my bloomin’ mom hadn’t said ‘noo you didn’t tidy the living room’ yes I fucking did, but nooo, everything has to be bloody fucking perfect with you eh? fuck off. thanks for ruining ANOTHER night, fuck off you bloomin’ whore.
to you, yeah this is a pathetic post, but to me, I’m fed up of her. Fed up uf her ruining EVERYTHING for me, I hate her, I really do, some birthday this is going […]
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