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i am 16 years old, 6 weeks ago i suffered a miscarriage, i just want my baby back so much it feels like someone has ripped out my heart it hurts so bad. when i was younger i was sexually abused, wow that is the first time i have ever said that out loud. ever since february 16th when the doctor told me he could no longer find a heartbeat for my baby, my life has been unbearable. No one in my life gets me, and everyone keeps pushing me to get back to normal but i will never be the ‘old’ me again. a […]

So last night, I cut real bad. So bad infact that it was still bleeding this morning, it was a total mess all of my arm was red and I could have done nicely with some stitches. But, after I woke up to sheets of blood, it looked like someone was shot there. I finally realised, I’m going to get help, I emailed my tutor at college asking if I could talk to her in confidence and if it would get out or not and other’s would be involved, apparently the only time it would be nessecary for people to get involved if it was […]

No one cares do they, i may asswell just end all of this pain now then atleast i’ll feel happy

i wonder…

I’m wondering where people are from on this site?? Please comment below. I’m from San Francisco ca.

A few night ago i wanted to kill myself, i fid life so hard at the moment i don’t have anyone to talk to who understands me and i just feel so alone and i’m in so much pain. I thought that cutting would help but it doesn’t yet i continue to do it and i don’t know why. My father left me and my family a few months ago for good he lives in Wales now and i haven’t seen him since November, he had n affair yet he kept swapping his mindover and over making me ad my family more and more confused. […]

A couple days ago my ex girlfriend dumped me. She only wanted to be friends. I just want someone out there to hold, hug, kiss, talk to and LOVE. I’ve been rejected by about 4 girls so far and I have no hope of finding someone else. Just ending it all would be so good. It would be so good to just sleep forever and not wake up one day. I am just scared of going to hell. Well staying alive and feeling depressed is pretty much the same thing so why wait? I don’t eat or sleep good so everything is getting worse. I […]

I wish my love were a drug

so addicted you would be.

Begging for my kisses

kneeling at my feet.

Quivering as i grant you more

youd only reach out seeking me.

i think my only purpose in this lifetime is to be used up and thrown away like a rag doll. that’s all i’ve been treated like my whole life.

maybe someday someone will want me as a collector’s item

All i wanted was someone to care, to WANT to be with me and have me as theirs. That was all i ever asked for. I have so much to offer and give, yet i have nothing to receive. I’m done with being the one who keeps fighting for a lost cause. Sometimes I am happy and distracted, but only in public. Once the door shuts I’m alone. Completely and pathetically alone. Why doesn’t someone want me? I’m beautiful, happy (sometimes), optimistic (through out the day), passionate, and accepting.  I keep telling myself to give it more time, eventually I’ll stumble upon someone.  But nothing […]

well i’ve had enough i gave it 0ne last chance but now i realize my life will never change. it’s time to except the truth and just give up. i will never be happy. it’s time for me to go thankyou to everyone who cared and tried to help. but it was just too late. goodbye…..

Took me a long time, but I perfected my suicide method. The success rate is 99.9%. I left .1% off just because there could always be errors in anything. It’s a really painful, yet accessible method of dying. The pain should only last about 3-5 minutes at most. I was just so proud of myself that I had to brag about it a bit here.

That being said, my life got worse. It’s still getting worse each day. I find myself more alone and desolate each day. The loneliness in my heart has sunk deep into my soul. The depression that has strangled me has tightened its grip. […]

What a bunch of crap. Being born into this frickin cruel world. I don’t want to be here but do not yet have the courage to finally let it go. As much as I am struggling with whether or not there is a God, I don’t want to live in eternal hell either. This is bad enough. I can even see my friends pulling away. They’re getting sick of my pathetic life too. Sigh…………

Ever wonder where to off yourself? Last thing I want to do is bum someone out who I know. Don’t care if a stranger finds my corpse. Hotel room is one option. You end up just screwing up the maids day but leave a five spot on the nightstand for her and she’ll get over it. Next, there’s the woods/hiking trails but you run the risk of nobody stumbling across you ever as the animals will start to eat your stinking body. There’s also the swim out as far as you can in to the ocean until you drown, your body will eventually wash up […]

I mean, it doesn’t seem fair to bill a person who was involuntarily committed. Is that what they do? It also seems a little cruel to bill someone who came in voluntarily because they are suicidal. To do so would encourage more suicides, it seems.

no one on this site actually gives a fuck about me do they?

anyone want to tell me why the fuck Alyssa my so called best friend called me a *****? She doesn’t care if I leave now. Now I know for certain everything was a lie. Every word she said to me. She never loved me. She never was my bestfriend.I
I knew it was to good to be true. I knew I couldn’t have friends. That’s just me. I think she right. I am a *****. Who should die..