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DISCLAIMER: I apologize in advance for my language in this one. I normally NEVER talk like this but I was very upset at this time so if I have offended anyone in any way I whole-heartedly apologize! ~Violet Blake

I don’t know why I did what I just did. I should feel bad about doing it, maybe even horrible, but I don’t. Not in the least. I felt an emotion very strongly and for once I didn’t try to hide it or force it to go away, I spoke my mind and I’m proud of that at least.

I went to confession. I really don’t know what […]

My name’s Vee, I just recently made a website/blog, and I made it so I can give you advice…
I have a blog on wordpress, gloomeevee. I think you’ll find me.
And please post… I would love to help anybody. And if you are happy and satisfied, please reccomend it to your friends. Thank you.

to start off I’ve never done this, so I don’t really know how or what to write about and also i wouldn’t lable myself as ” suicidal “. I’ve certainly considered it, but not enough to go through with it.
I’m 18, and hoping to pursue a career as a psychiatric nurse. I’ve casually thought about suicide for as long as I can remember. What it’d feel like dying, how people would react and my funeral. What bugs me is this is a very casual thought, I usually don’t get emotional. It’s like thinking about what I’m gonna do tonight, or what to have for […]

Hi, I’m a first time poster, but I wanted to let people know that I am in a constant state where I want to kill myself when I look at how good everyone around me has it socially… All of my friends have girlfriends and I feel like I should too, I’m 20 years old and have never kissed a girl but the strange thing is, is that I’m such a nice person to people. I feel like it’s because I’m short (5’6) and all my friends are tall, they’re just so lucky.

I get so sick of it that every single day I just want […]

Well, another day goes by and another day thinking about suicide to relieve the pain. I try to move forward but no matter how hard I try I just cannot. What happen to that saying when one door closes one will open? I feel like all doors keep closing on me and I am in a cold, dark room with no way out. No one seems to understand how I feel. I am not looking for a free ride from my family I just want a chance to restart my life and get on the right track. I am so scared, confused, and alone.

I always feel like I lost a part of me and I always feel empty and sad until I get it back. It is like one half of me. Nothing in this world can fill that space, nobody can. The saddest thing is that I feel that
I have to leave earth to be fully me. Until then I’ll remember what seems like the shadowy recollections of a past happy life with poems and art.

Another birthday.  A year older, or just another day older, depending on how you look at it.  The one just past was the worst year of my life.  Maybe it will be better this year, or maybe it will be the year I kill myself.  Haven’t decided.  I was actually supposed to be born on January 14, but they took me early, on December 30.  If things don’t get better in the next two weeks, and why should they considering they haven’t so far, maybe I’ll do it on January 14.  Symbolic.

How do i ‘deal’ with it, if its all i can think about ? My best friends are pretty much what keeps me living, and my music of course. Anything sharp, makes me think of cutting. Whenever i go in the pool, i can’t help but think of drowning. My shower door, how it fogs up, reminds me of blood. So basically everything reminds me of dying.

Yes, i like the pain, which makes me weird, but its better than what i live through. No, i wasn’t raped or had family murdered, but i’m closed in. I can tell my friends everything, but whenever im around […]

My little Christmas vacation ends tonight, i have work again in the afternoon….I feel so restless, empty, and as always lonely. I lived my life much longer then i expected too as a child or teen, Am 23 and Ive never planed to make it this far. Its been a long road and Ive learned a lot, and i plan to keep going to keep thinking my philosophical thoughts to the day i die, hopeful as an old man. Yet, i left a huge gap in my life, my childhood and teen years have been spent crying in my room. As such i left a […]

i look into your left eye, and i see when everything was right
the mirrors had not appered, and youd kiss me softly at night
i look into your right eye, and see when you left
bleeding on the ground, wounded by myself
i see into the mirror, and see a stranger lost
…when did he take over, why isnt he gone?
i wake up from my dream, traped in a nightmare
only your not here, if only i was there

ive come to the conclusion that im only good enough for one night stands, and i hate it, but im so desperate to feel something other than alone, ive always been the ugly one ALWAYS my best friends a super model guys come to me to get to her, and anytime i was ever in a relationship i would either fuck it up by being clingy or the guy would turn out to be an asshole ive gotten so much better about the whole clingy thing but guys only see me as some sort of sex toy, ive ruined my reputation, now im known as […]

Does anyone want to chat tonight? I just want to talk to another human being who either cares or will pretend to care.  Please no-one under 21, sorry.

Aaron

I lost the love of my life to some skanky girl in the grade below me. I lost my mind forever ago. Ive lost meaning in living. ive gave up on caring. ive gave up on trying to be the person my parents want me to be. im done be treated like shit. no cares about me so why even be here. my sister attemted suicide maybe i should too. i mean then i know someone would care. i hate this life. Nothing is getting any better i believe my ex then he breaks me down again by dating one of my friends. everyone tells […]

To all my friends who are dealing with the pain. Thank you all who commented on my post. I do not like people leaving a joke. This is not the time to joke.

Hello everyone, it is a test wall so be careful.

I am a 19 years old guy. I have deep depression and endless suicidal thoughts that is driving me crazy. I would not say I lived the worst life on earth, I know some people posted on this site have worse stories to tell and worse lives than the 1 I am going to address in a moment. First of all, I am the oldest of my brothers and sisters and always I had to be the best role model for them, which was a little stressful in the start of my life. I was in an SAT school (which […]

Everybody hurts. Sometimes they hurt for a short amount of time, other times it’s long extended periods that go on FOREVER. The last time I was happy -not talking oh this is exciting but genuinely happy- was two years ago. My 8th grade year. I started to cut myself when I was 13 years old. No 13 year old should be cutting themselves, it’s wrong, but I did. If it weren’t for my friends that I took a leap of faith and confided in, I would probably be dead by now… They listened to me when I was sad, helped me through the tear filled […]

Ever since I can remember my mother (who I’ve always called by her first name) and I have never got a long. Every day she picks me apart. I’m to thin, gained to much weight, I need to wear make-up, I have to much make up on, so on and so on. After over two decades of this you would think I would be immune to all this. But now I’m a single mom and I love my little child more then anything in this world. And sometimes I think if it wasn’t for him I could just end it all. Until lately where […]

I am a 49 year old man who has had the worst year of my life. I am suffering from depression and even thou I am getting help it is not working. I see someone every other week and also take two types of depression meds. 2010 has been the worst year of my life. My wife of 13 years left me in June. She was the love of my life. I was so in love with her I would of done anything for her. I never cheated on her. And as time went on she became more pretty to me. I loved her so […]

finnesey,
it’s lucky to have spotted your post before you deleted it.
There’s no more excuse for you to die on hernia.

Hernia is a sickness of the protrusion of the organs.
That might be the cause of your alcohol drinking that weaken your body.

Of your rotten teeth, I’m not sure if it’s disease causing, or of the weakness of kidneys or of the stomach.
But anyways, just a sign of weakness.

The body is like an energy of air wrapping up.
When the body got weak, it’s like a balloon sagging and protruding with the weight of water inside.
Hernia then occurs. And stomach sags. The […]