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when suddenly there’s a thick brick wall between you and the one you usually could talk to. when suddenly you could not enter your sacred sanctuary anymore. hold on,buck up, i tried and i’m tired. looking back, what you said back then seems to be nothing now. maybe it’s my mistake i fall for you. and it’s certainly a mistake telling you that. i know. you’re very special to me. i wish when i told you i just want to let it all out,want you to know, i wish that was the truth. i try to believe that, that is the truth. but i’m […]

i’m not going to say any bullshit like i’ve had a hard life because i’m sure there are people out there who are far worse off, this is more of a way to relieve some anger or feelings because i don’t want to talk to any friends about this. i’m 17 now and some people would consider me pretty popular. i started having suicidal thoughts when i was only 13 which is fucking scary. my dad left when i was 2 years old and i still talk to him and see him every week but theres no real relationship because i feel he will judge […]

something I wrote recently to reflect upon myself, this will most likely have little or no meaning to you.
Also, pay attention to the start of each line (lines start after periods).

Luminescence ov the Universe, swallowed whole by gaping jaws ov the Abyss.
Into the void I walk through it’s perpetual seamless gazing eyes ov torture.
Flames ov black fire, enraged with berserked fury.
Engulfs all life into smoldering cinder.

I inhale the ash of 6.6 Billion, earth choked out by its charred remnants.
Sulfur is the potent poison in my veins, corroding like acidic pools ov Tartarus, consuming me.

Visages of mortals projected in Astral Chaos.

im weak. people see this.. they feed off this… people are not good. deep down no one really understands anyone else’s problems… or cares. deep down everyone judges and condemns. deep down everyones a vulture.. feeding off the weak, and not so deep down, life’s a *****.

painfully obvious that my eyes and my thoughts and my pain aren’t my own. i’ve been tasting colors with my dilated pupils and i’ve transcended my anchored skull. i can’t even look you in the eyes anymore. i’m a fucking animal. i’m a rabid dog. euthanasia is my resolution to this empty and dried skull face. keep my mouth watered with the lord and hide my demons from my angel mother. lets see how far this waste will last. until it paints my bedroom walls blood red. schizophrenia taking me further down than hell and i can feel the earth rotating with my temples. triangular […]

It’s not as if I’m not trying, or that it’s all in my head.

Everything is whittling me away and I feel as if I will break. Fail a test, not the end of the world, I can re-take it. Just try harder, study more and it should be all right…

He loves me…
He loves me not…
He loves me…
He loves me not…
I loved you once…
You loved me not…
I loved you twice…
But I forgot…
‘I love you… But you’ll never love me…’
You never loved me…
You never will…
But even so…
I love you still…
Forget the times he walked by,
Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name,
Remember your feelings arn’t the same…
‘You leave me here, with my broken heart to bleed.’
Forget the times her hand held yours,
Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget those times and […]

i think that the suicide solution is only in something that we hate

Hello.

Well let’s just put it this way, for a while now I havn’t been feeling like myself. Actually for the past month or so. And I’m starting to change in a bad way. I used to love hanging out with friends and my boyfriend and family. but now days all I want to do is sit in my room alone and do nothing but stare at a blank television screen. I’ve lost intrest in a lot of things I loved before. Like my favorite thing to do is bake. I love it, it’s peaceful, yet takes a lot of time and energy if you do […]

Hi im 14,

I stare out my window everyday just see  the a new day come. At school im popular and happy to everyone but smiling is just a mask to hide all the depression i have.

ive had 5 to 6 sucide attempts my parents dont know ,my friends dont know .Only 2 people know and thats my BF and my boyfriend (who is trying to  “save” me from death) ive lost the touch of ralitiy

My mom was the only parent who was really there to raise me. my biological father left me for alchohol when i was only 3 years old my other father didnt […]

I know this is the last thing that anyone wants to hear but there is hope! I was in the same position many of you are in now, and i used to hate hearing stories by strangers who claimed they got though it all. At the time i thought no one could really understand what i was going through, no one could have possibly felt as miserable and useless as I did. There was no way in hell i was going to listen to anyone. I’m a 22 year old Italian guy, I grew up in a rural town located far away from any main […]

I am going to overdose on a whole bottle of seroquel 25mg sleeping pills. Will it help me die? I hate life, it has caused me so much pain and no happiness at all….

We have scars you and I… so hold on to me won’t you? I’ll hold on to you… I promise to never let go… Yes, it’s love. But it’s mostly the pain that will sustain us–because it was the pain that brought us together. We have scars inflicted in our minds and on our souls by such heartless others… Like hit and run crime scenes that play over and over again in our minds as horrific films. I know it hurts… It really does…
We have scars you and I…so lets hold on–together we will live forever… ..

Church is a shithole where stupid-ass pricks think they can go and pretend like they are saints and they can’t take shit from anyone. They love exploiting peoples weaknesses and saying things like,” Oh!!! That is very sinful of you, if you don’t stop, you will go to hell. People scare believers so they can believe the bullshit. I hate going and church believes in dusty old books that everyone should make a new edition and stop reading the crappy old one. I feel like burning down my church and everyone who makes it out alive, shoot them in the face. I want to slaughter […]

i decided i have no other choice…friday night is the night. i just think that maybe its my time to go home now. since this home was anything but welcoming maybe my home in heaven will be more happy and wonderful. i do love my parents and my friends and my boyfriend but they dont understand. ive thought a lot about this and i have no other way out..im a burden to my family and a pain to others. this will make everyone happy im sure of it. now all i have to think about it how and where.

I too suffer from depression….Four years ago I attempted to take my own life after finding out that my husband of 8 years had been having an affair and several other aspects of my life were also falling apart. I tried 3 different times to end my life (the first 2 times only being superficial attempts) and finally almost succeeded when I took an entire package of sleeping pills….I was found before the end however and rushed to the hospital where I faded in and out of conciousness for about 20 hours….It was horrible….I’m not religious, but I now believe in hell. All […]

Nothing’s working.

I want to stop pretending I’m happy.

I want to stop pretending that I care.

I want them to ACTUALLY notice there’s something wrong, even when I’m wearing my mask.

They’re trying to make me better, but I don’t know if it’s even going to work.

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I actually also have a question.

I’ve heard of suicide with apple seeds. Does anybody have any percentages on this? Like is it actually effective?

I always promised myself that i would never fall in love, yet fall in love with a guy. Well I did. His name is Jason and he means the world to me. He told me from that he was not looking for a boyfriend. But i later found out that he fell in love with a guy name Don and a Dr. named Chad. I just want Jason to hang out with me and love me like I love him. The only problem, is that i do not know how to kill myself that will be painless and effective. […]

I am 21. I have been depressed for 14 years now. It started with my parents divorce and suddenly moving from my home, school and friends. My sister and brother left soon afterwards and my mother was always working. So I was left alone, without an explanation or anyone to talk to about it.Starting this time I lost all closeness with them. I don’t know the first thing about any of them to likes, dislikes, their birthdays or their age. I generally raised myself, taught myself my own values and my own lessons and determined on my own the difference between right and wrong. […]