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i read all the comments i got they were helpful ( no im not going to say u don”t understand) i got two best friends who i recently told about my suicidal thoughts but not the cutting or why i have these thoughts because idk even know why but i do know why i feel like this. They look at me differently now and i cant take that if i get help and the people around me knows they will treat me differently and that’s hard when you like being by yourself. Im fine with most people treating me like im nothing because […]

Hi, I’m 15.

so, you may ask, what’s a 15 year-old doing on here? When I first made the account, I thought I had reasons. Do I have family problems? Nope, not as far as I can see. School? It’s there, but it’s not making a huge amount of difference. See, the problem here is my mind.

8 months ago, I was diagnosed as having an extreme case of bi-polar. I’ve been known to, in my moments of depression, shut myself in my room for a week. In my moments of hysteria, I nearly killed someone. I’m quite extreme, but I’m more of a danger to myself. I’ve […]

Hello beloveds.

I am broken and lost. I am anxiety ridden and hurt beyond my own comprehension. Perhaps because I speak none of the wrongs against me. It’s just my way. I used to believe love was the driving force of the universe…. But it’s as if I was asking for the disasters to ensue like a small, soft little girl to take on a world bent on remaining miserably selfish and mean…… yet it could be that i’m the selfish one meanly accusing the innocent of having wronged me. The throws of my mind have me depressedly surrendering to the conclusion that maybe I embody […]

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I haven’t written poetry in years… but.. Charlotte has inspired me. So, I started writing again.

For Charlotte, I will write for you until you walk again.

 

Wishful Thinking.

 

My days fly by,

My head in the sky,

I’m tired of feeling alone.

 

She’s not inn my life,

To cause pain and strife,

And yet, I still feel alone.

 

I hold back my tears,

I fight my fears,

Why am I still so alone?

 

I died when she left me,

I’m broken and empty,

My love has left me all alone.

 

I dream of the day,

She returns, and I say,

Now, I’m no longer alone.

It’s been two and a half years since I first attempted to end my life. I was 17 years old and going through a “rough patch”. My brother had died earlier that year and I was pretty much completely numb. Nobody really knew. I remember the day like it was yesterday. I hadn’t been thinking about it up to that point. I just remember getting home from school and looking in the mirror and just deciding that I couldn’t live anymore. That was that. I was done. I took a leftover bottle of pain pills I’d been taking for an injury and washed it down […]

hi, im back. i knew i wasn’t fine. i knew the next time something simple would happen (like a little argument with my family)i would break down. i ma at the moment. i literally would be cutting if it weren’t that im trying to type up my feelings before i actually do something that i know will kill me. i see no reason to stay alive. no one cares. dont try saying that you care because ive heard it and it doesnt help. even if i know you truly care. anyone has the ability to bring me down. i fel sick, emotionally sick. i dont […]

Two years ago I fell in love. I know, being a teenager (13-14 at the time, I’m 16 now) no one believes you when you say you’re IN love. But I was, hell, I still am. I instantly fell in love with Her, no doubt about it. We were/are soul mates, of that I am convinced. I knew she cut, and cut bad. Scars all up and down her forearms, calfs, heels, feet, hands, shoulders, sides, stomach, and back. That upset me. I struggled through her pain. We knew absolutely everything about each other, and had no walls, no secrets. We were crazy about each other. We […]

i think about suicide all the time my life sucks and i hate it .

i m still alive because of my family especially my mum

i hate my life everything is bad . I’ve been having hair loss for about a year now that’s one of the problems . I even have heart problems and i have about 1 month pregnancy and i still didn’t tell my boyfriend . I m 13 years of age i’ll be 14 soon . Sometimes i smoke because of stress and .

i hate my life so much. About a month ago i was going to jump off from a very […]

Hi, I’m new to this site and this is my story…

I’m currently a high school senior and about to graduate… I got into a good college and I should be happy that all my hard work is almost finished but a single detail is missing; I won’t be graduating. I’m a decent student (I get A’s and B’s) and nothing should be a problem with school work but last year my mom past away, and well… It resulted into an F on my English class for junior year 2nd semester. I did not retake the course during summer school since my plan was to take […]

hey, ive been waiting anxious to see a post from you will come up… at least it will be a sign that you are still alive. i hope you are okay. i’m tearing up. you don’t know the way i’m feeling right now. ill still be waiting for your response. FUCK THE ASS HOLES WHO TOLD YOU TO GO DIE ALREADY!

Not sure what is not allowed on this site? So I guess talking about stuff that is real is ok?

This is my life in a bleeping nutshell…
Sorry if it is too graphic or whatever… I just am trying to reach out for help I guess.

Thank you – whoever you are out there.

See, I have a therapist and he is great. But he has a workshop today and Friday. So I already emailed him once but said I would try other support tools. I use a support website a lot -but this is something I can’t […]

The sky ever surrounding

Endless

So high and far away

Yet we try to fly

We say that we can’t fly

But I say why not?

If people keep trying

Then there has to be a chance

A chance to become that hummingbird

You always wanted to be

To sing your song

But instead we sit

Ready for something to happen

To us

Shouldn’t we be the ones making it happen?

Afterall if were so angry at people trying to understand

But not getting it

Why don’t we just tell them

Because they may make it easier

One day

To fly

I had an abortion a little over a week ago. I miss my baby so much. This was completly the wrong choice, and I don’t know what to do. The only people that know are one  “friend” (who has since stopped speaking with me), and the baby’s father. I feel like I can’t talk to him because it seems like he’s already moved on. I’m so mad that he didn’t think we could manage a baby. I honestly don’t think I love him anymore. I’m mad at myself for not fighting more for my baby. I’m scared that the baby is mad at me, even […]

This is for Charolette. I think I might be finally comming out of my writers block.
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Normal, or emo? To cut, or not to cut? How is tht even a question? So Manu thought,questions, and even answers were running through my head. None of which o would share with HER.

SHE is a therapist. But her appearance suggests she’s a porcilen Barbie, not suitable for play or exposure to screw-ups. How she got this job, I could only wonder. There were many possibilities but I didn’t dare think hard on the subject, lest my mind go onto more unwanted areas. She had a habit of wearing […]

im happy now but there have been alot of times ive been depressed and its bound to happen soon.but heres one thing ive decided and i kno its stupid but im 15,almost 16 and ive never had a girlfriend or have kissed and its embarrasing and i really want a relationship with a girl and i want to feel loved.ive really liked 6 girls in my life and every fucking time i fuckup andnothing happens ihate it and frustratesme.my friendhas had plenty of gf n also had sex.im gona killmyself if nothing happens before im16

When we think we’ve reached the end, we’re only back where we begin.