I’ve lost hope in my life ever turning around again. My mother has been abusive to me for years now and no one ever listens. I’ve been trying to get out of the house for years now. I’ve talked to social workers many times. It never works. I’m not in a good place. I only have about a year and a half left at home but it’s still hard. I don’t know if I can handle living on much longer. The only one who actually messages me to make sure I’m okay is my brother in law who lives two states away. No one else […]
Well, I’d like to start this out with an apology. I know it’s a little late for this (or, more accurately, far too late), but I assume that it’s probably best for me to apologize all the same.
So, I guess, I’ll start out with you, Mom and Dad. I’d just like to say that I’m super sorry for making your lives miserable. I really wish that I hadn’t come (you know, like be born and stuff) when I did. I know that I kind of ruined a lot of things for you guys and I just want to say that I’m honestly sorry. And, […]
I have always had a inkling in the periphera of my mind that this life was just an elaborate level of many levels of a dream while in a deep sleep or coma. I have figured it is time to find out. Not because life is not worth living or simply because I only want to find this out. It’s just that my particular life is not worth living.
I have hit a dead end in my life. Even though I have contemplated suicide half of my teen years and all of my adult years, I have held on to some form or strand of someone […]
I don’t know what to do. I’ve never felt so lost in my life.
My ex boyfriend broke up with me two weeks ago. Because we lived together, I had to move out. Two days ago, I found out I was pregnant. When I told him about it, he stormed out and basically told me he wants nothing to do with any of it.
I’m so miserable. I wake up and go to bed every night miserable and I don’t see a logical path of it getting any better. Last night was the closest I’ve ever come to killing myself. The only thing that stopped me was […]
Yesterday was my birthday, things weren’t looking up so I took about 20 of the only over the counter sleeping pill my parent’s had (they don’t take much) and I swallowed them down with a soda. I though it would be a peaceful, surreal, almost lovely experience, but as I sat outside on the hammock I started to feel dazed and tired, my body just kind of bobbed around for a few minutes, I thought I could just lay down and drift, but the feeling only intensified, and though its what I wanted, naturally my body responded negatively to the effects of the pills, and […]
after years of suffering, it’s getting good at last.
i think i’m feeling happy and it seems to last for a while. the question here is, why did God tortured me like that?
i know that the day would come that everything will turn upside down again and i will feel down and suicidal -since no happiness is everlasting and no sadness, too- and i think that i’m not ready for that day.
i definitely feel stronger than before all these things happened to me – i don’t really want to say what i’m referring to by “these” – but i don’t like the idea of being put […]
Hi guys,
I thought I should be a leaning shoulder to several people out there willing to put an abrupt end to their lives.
Firstly, it is safe to say I have been down that road as well and I know exactly what it feels like to be empty and isolated. I held on to one string (scratch that, two strings actually) : my pregnant girlfriend and God… If my girlfriend wasn’t pregnant, I probably wouldn’t be writing this today because I wouldn’t have anything/anyone to look back to… She loves me too much to hurt her. Then, God! I remembered everything they said about suicide, how […]
I wish I could stay here…
However, talking to you all and reading
All of your stories…
Makes it harder for
Me
To Stay
…
I’m always going to be falling
Apart.
And yet, I post this and you people try
To make me stay…
Yet that decisions isn’t yours to make…
I try to make wishes to stay
…
I have so much going on I have a feeling that
I won’t make
It to the end of summer,
Unlike what my friends
Want me to
Do…
Even though
We do nothing together
They make it harder for me to stay…
Alive…and well and a whole bunch of random crap…
My life is
A
Bunch
Of
Random
…
Crap…
Nothing to see here…
I’m done…
Just
Plain
Done…
Sorry Farah
i am the cause of my pain..
i have a history of suicidal attempts, everyday i try to fight to survive , hoping one day it will be better soon, my family and my friends they don’t know im dying inside.. and then i met her. i met her at my worst. she lifted up my spirit each day i am with her. she loved me despite of my difficulties, my dramas, my sarcasm, my ego and craziness and stubborness.. but each day that my love grew for her, the more i fell in love with her, the more im ruining the relationship. The more i […]
I don’t want to be that post that you’re probably sick of reading, about falling into depression and healing from it. Three years. Three years of constant debating on weather i can stand myself or not. Starting to slowly fall back into a constant mind of self loath is so difficult. I’ve put my body and mind through to much shit to start being like this again. Scary thing is i don’t think im going to fight as hard as i did the first time.
Sometimes I want so badly just to do something. To create. Instead of that, I do nothing. I sit here in my lonely hole, and try my hardest to empty my head and hands of everything that troubles my soul. My words don’t even come out right anymore. As the years pass, I grow more reclusive and distant from myself. It’s as if I’ve almost disappeared sometimes. Am I even real? Am I even alive? And what does living mean anyways?
I posted something here a couple years back, and its as if nothing has changed. I’m just as miserable. If anything is different, its that […]
Im just not feeling capable of handling this amount of drama and stress that seems to always find me. I just want it to stop. I finally found a place where people understood, and despite their problems they were happy and genuine. Then i had to leave. I hate this place, i hate where i am, i hate everything and everyone around me. I need it to fucking stop already. And im not going back to drugs, thats just a bandaid, if i want it to stop im going to do it the right way. My life is bullshit, and i make it thst way, […]
I tried to commit suicide. I failed, got sent to CCU , I am now back home, and ready to try again. I will hang myself and slit my wrists. If not today then another.
Dear whomever this may concern,
I’m sorry you were the one to find this. Sorry you had to read this letter from a dead person. Sorry that I wasn’t strong enough to stay alive. I’m just… really sorry. I guess the bullshit just ended up being too much for me. If your name isn’t below then you weren’t important enough to be mentioned. That’s neither a good nor bad thing. Live with it.
To J: We had a good ten years. Eleven this summer, wasn’t it? I’m sorry we grew apart, I wish we stayed closer, but at least now this won’t affect you as much. Don’t […]
This post is to allow me to see where it appears on the website and what it looks like when it gets there. I want it to appear in the “My Suicide Note” section.
There are choices on the “edit post” page which I don’t understand. Is there anything I need to do manually before posting or can I live with defaults?
Thanks.
He is in the CCU and he tried to slit his wrist open and failed. He almost died he is in the hospital. Sorry for the death the hospital just called and said he is in critical condition.
loremaster82@gmail.com if any questions
I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.
It will be rope this time
I am not entirely sure where to start. I have been depressed for several years and have been contemplating suicide since I was 15 (3 years ago). I have finally reached my breaking point and I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live either. Everything is going wrong and it is too much to handle. This past year both of my grandparents and my two month old cousin died and I was devastated. The one friend I could talk to about anything doesn’t talk to me anymore. I have lost interest in all of the things that […]
That’s my date. Other people have others but that one is mine. I’m determined to end it all on that day, but I’m scared that I won’t carry through. I’m scared I’m going to flake like Aysel in My Heart and Other Black Holes.
I literally have nothing to live for except my cat. But I know Reimi loves everyone so he won’t miss me for long.
I keep thinking of ways to end it rather than if I’m going to end it. According to the psychologists of the internet, that means I have “major depressive disorder”, and I’m a “high risk of suicide”. Who cares though? They didn’t tell me anything […]
So this is just a copy and paste from a song that i found. This portion is extremely relevant to me, and maybe you can find this relatable to what youre going through.
This is “her last words” by courtney parker.
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She sees the note and unfolds it with care
All she does is stare, “How can this be fair?”
She starts reading as the tears roll down her face
“I’m sorry Mom but this world is just not my place
I’ve tried for so long to fix this and fit in
I’ve come to realize this world’s full of sin
There’s nothing for me here, I’m […]