For your poems.
when i heard of your death
i picked up my knife
and cut at my throat
until i saw the light
*
i made a big mess
blood on the floor
smeared little handprints
all over the door
*
i wrote them a note
explaining my pain
said i couldn’t go on
that death was my aim
*
and guess what angel
i did it , just like you
so up in heaven
i’ll see you soon <3
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heres a poem i wrote a few days ago about a friend who took their life . enjoy – xoxo , Li <3
I saw her from across the ocean
I saw galaxies in her eyes
Burning as time passed her by
I saw blooms in her smile
Joyfully promising lies
Dying as time passed us by
I saw a dream on her mind
Longingly dreaming of time
But time only passed by
I saw the tears she’d fight
Breaking and mending and kind
Her heart slowly healing with time
I saw the dawn of light
Blinding her image from sight
Time passed by, she’d be alright
To climb out of the wreckage of lies, deception and willful betrayal and duplicity. To perceive who someone really is under their ingenuous disguise of innocent princess playing the victim. Covert narcissism runs deep in a traumatized mind. I’ll burn the whole world down to achieve my success and realize my nocturnal dreams to reality. I’ll be damned if I let the insidious lies of a miserably trapped, cognitively dissonant, neurotically insipid, and untreated psychotic disassemble my life. The fire inside of me rages with flames of pride, dignity, and truth of self. The distinctive I. I, Ryze. And I know the Creator. My I […]
Title: AI in the future / A.I in the future / Artificial Intelligence in the future ; VR in the future / V.R in the future / Virtual Reality in the future ; Transhumanism in the future ; technology in the future ; Life is boring ; Life sucks ; escape from reality
The more detailed post:
AI is the future
A.I is the future
Artificial Intelligence is the future
because Life is boring / reality is boring / real life is boring / real world is boring
VR is the future
V.R is the future
Virtual Reality is the future
because Life is boring […]
I’m begging you
stop
spare yourself the heartache
I’m begging dear
I’m a mistake
you don’t want to make
turn back
it isn’t too late
I’m begging you
stop
It’s still just a scratch
I’m begging dear
please heal
give yourself time
time to mend the cracks
time to forget the past
time to find a way
any other but the way back
Depression creeps upon you quietly.
At the very beginning you struggle with the little things, but usually, choose to ignore them.
It’s like a headache.
You’ll tell yourself it’s temporary and it’ll pass.
It’s just another bad day.
But it’s not.
You are stuck in this state of mind.
You get used to putting on a social mask and you continue to live among other people because that’s what you have to do.
That’s what others do.
However, the problem does not go away.
You struggle to put on a play every day and it starts to cost you more and more.
That is why […]
Let me go
don’t be selfish
don’t you see
this is what my hell is
Let me go
let me end it
I’ll disappear without a trace
accept it
Let me go
don’t follow
see the world
embrace it
Let me go
and please, be selfish
let the sunshine in
this needn’t be what hell is
back to skipping meals but not on purpose
back to five hours of sleep and dreaming of the worst case scenario
just watching them ignore me and
watching my body shake and sweat even more
will i ever meet anyone who won’t get sick of me
listen , little angel
you’re almost there
just one more cut
now don’t be scared
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listen , little angel
you’re almost free
just one more cut
so do it for me
*
listen , little angel
you’re almost dead
just one more cut
don’t shake your head
*
look , little angel
you won this fight
now close your eyes
and see the light
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i feel like i’m never gonna get better like nothing seems to be getting better and i feel like i’m drowning in my pain and honestly idk what to do anymore cuz i wanna die but i wouldn’t even know where to […]
Hello?
Is anybody out there?
Can anybody hear me?
I’m screaming for help
Please help me
I can’t see anything
I don’t know where I am
I’m just surrounded by darkness
Help me find myself because as time goes by I feel more lost
Back in High School, there was this girl that i like, like A LOT or should i say I LOVE HER. She’s pretty good looking, athletic and the coolest girl that i know but she was out of my league, that’s the problem. I’m this skinny not good looking guy. Like I’m the complete definition of a NERD. But i didn’t care. I had to gather all this guts to prove to her that I can be the GUY for her. I want her to like me. I heard she had a boyfriend and then they broke up. I know it was a good opportunity […]
i wonder why life isn’t fair i wonder if this is what i deserve i wonder if my happiness is too much to ask for i wonder if my sanity is unattainable i wonder if you ever wanted me i wonder if you ever loved me i wonder if you were ever proud of me i wonder if you ever saw me as a person not a problem i wonder why you went to bed after i sobbed to you on the phone i wonder why my life sucks i wonder why i am like this i wonder why i can’t be grateful for things […]
Why?
I’m bleeding blind.
Why?
Cut. Cry. Rewind.
Clean and cold
Crimson tears on stone
Why?
You scream for attention
Then hurry and hide
I bear the aggression
My scars your sacrifice
Why?
I own you,
I’m the best you’ve got.
You have nowhere to go,
But a single shot.
Run! I dare you,
Escape!
Seek light. Leave me behind.
Me people will pity,
When you’re all they find.
If you dont feel loved today
Or maybe yesterday
Or maybe since you are a kid
Try to believe
One day someone will find you as precious
Or love you more than theirself
And even give you her/his everything just to make you smile
Just wait until that times come
Even in your worst condition
Believe me
You will find someone who love you
He/she will love you
Just the worst you are
Just the bad you are
And just how you still breathing
He/she will trust you
He/she will love you
She took a deep breath,
She counted to three,
A picture in her head,
Of who they wanted her to be.
They wanted her to be normal,
Happy and kind.
They never thought,
That this girl would be blind.
Not blind by meaning,
But blind in the heart.
Blinded by darkness,
Blinded by dark.
She walks around lifeless,
Her heart is beating but she feels dead.
A walking corpse.
She is lost inside her heart.
Things have no meaning,
At least not anymore.
She was not how she was once before.
She is one of the livings,
But one of the deads.
A part of her is missing.
She hangs […]
I lay here hopelessly upon my bed
where words seem to fall yet,
they never seem to leave my head
where I sit behind a colourless screen and constantly keep falling in and out of a bad dream.
The net I cast to set me free only ended up tying me up,
threatening to snap at the feel of a touch,
an emotion which is all controlled by the only constant friend,
who whispers in my ears and slowly cripples my self-esteem.
Is this the end?
It feels like I’m dying,
the comfort of my friends only seems to hurt me.
It hurts me to […]
It all feels blank most of the time. I am suicidal but i don’t plan or have a plan to kill myself, but the thoughts linger. I’m in the grey area, constantly In the grey area.
I don’t want a future, i don’t want to get a job and i don’t want to get out of bed each morning, i don’t want to brush my hair, i don’t want to eat. eat… eating is something that i haven’t done now for a few days. i have such disgust for my body and the numbers on the scale. i haven’t eaten and my body is so […]
If I showed my true colors, what would society think?
Would they laugh, show pity, or read the ink?
I’m exhausted from smiling every single day
When I know the pain won’t just go away.
Every night I cannot sleep
Because my thoughts run so deep.
They went out for a stroll
But got sucked into a black hole.
My focus is no longer there, anywhere.
I don’t know why I’m like this, I swear.
It seems like I’m just well-dressed.
That just means how much I’m stressed.
My friends all laugh and hang around.
You don’t need water to be drowned.
This darkness beneath consumes my mind.
It’s like I’m living […]
Somebody clear up the
fucking turmoil in my head
it’s a roller coaster heart
on my sleeve, i’m in a labyrinth
I don’t know how I came
in, somebody end me take
me the fuck away, it’s a
virus, a dangerous virus
I own it’s inside of me,
coursing through my veins
it’s in my bones baby
fucking break them, let
it out i’m exhausted, I
can’t survive it’s a
fucking loop, somebody
fucking end me somebody
cure me, I need to fix
this baby it’s […]
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