It’s fun isn’t it? To be consumed with frustration due to an immense feeling of “desperation”
Desperate to get out of a depression cycle,
Desperate to make friends,
Desperate to find love,
Desperate to become a better artist,
Desperation to be and do better,
Tired, exhausted, desperate.
A vicious cycle of undoing my seams in a desperate plight to reach a better place.
i just want someone who can understand?
if anyone is interested , i’m 14 , female , and my name is riley
talk to me
please.
I thought it would be a long time before I come back here again. But here I am typing while watching my wrist bleed. I want to cry but I can’t cry. I guess all my tears were long gone. All I can do is sigh. It stings. my wrist stings.
I’m 19 and I’ve had mental health issues all my life. I’m dumb and lazy, I’m not very good in school. Well I used to be, I was home schooled, but it sucked because my mom is kind of a shitty parent and an especially shittier teacher, but I’d teach myself things and read all day never going anywhere. I didn’t really have any friends and the one’s I did got ripped away from me or beat me up or spread lies about me. I only really knew christian people in the hack job of a church we went to. I convinced my mom to […]
I don’t know why I’m here and I think the best thing would be to just off myself. I feel like I’m in the bottom of this black pit and the murk and tumultuous grime is seeping into me. Nothing matters. Nothing matters. I’m tired of being here I just wanna die.
I’m still here, for now. First let me apologize in advance if anyone is offended by this post. Bitter sarcasm is about all I’ve got left. So here are the things I hate most when telling people I want to commit suicide.
Drum roll please…
1. Telling me that suicide is a sin and that I will go to Hell.
Wow, awesome. You just made me feel so much better. Thank you, mighty infallable one! Passing judgment and acting morally superior really turned my life around! How about instead of criticizing me and telling me how awful I am just for entertaining the thought of suicide, you […]
I still remember when I first found this page, and well, so many things have happened since then. When I look back at the past years, it gets blurry. I can remember some events, and it is hard to explain, but it’s like they are just there. I feel dissociated from them. And it is like I forget about them unless I am really thinking about them or I have one of my off days. I thought that I had gotten better at handling myself, and for a while, it was true. But this year, as well as the last months of last year, have […]
if i killed myself tonight who would really care?
I want it to shut up I want it to leave my head I want it to let me be happy i want it to go away but it fucking won’t
it wont leave me alone
i just want to spend one entire day without hearing it
i want to happpy
I can’t take this anymore I need to be free from it but I don’t know how to get away from it if it’s in my head
The only way to make it stop before it starts up again is if I’m asleep but I can’t sleep my life away not anymore
I am currently on a vacation, and for some reason I thought that going out a full weekend with some “friends” would be a good idea. Naturally, it wasn’t a good idea at all.
It’s been just one day, and I already feel left out. I feel really sad and I don’t want to say anything because it will ruin everyone else’s weekend. I feel I need new friends (again), but I’m positive that I will feel the same way. It’s always the same. I don’t belong anywhere. I just want to die. Like, really hard. Harder than ever before.
And for the first time, […]
So I’ve been dealing with PTSD for quite some time now, and been in therapy for almost 2 years now. In the last few months my situation got worse again, got completely disconnected from everyone around me(like really everyone, besides from people from work that I have no choice but to spend my days with). Probably due to some stuff that came out in therapy that I was really trying to avoid bringing up. I knew I wasn’t ready to deal with those skeletons for various reasons but I felt cornered and it just got out.
Along with that I also really tried getting better – […]
So I’m trying to get better. I’m trying to fine the purpose of this life. Trying to understand what makes people want to live. But I don’t see it. We live in a world that is so ugly. Us as humans destroy everything we see, touch, and feel. We hurt others, and we hurt ourselves. Love is a rare thing to see. And so is happiness. I don’t get the point in living. I’m loosing hope in that things will get better. But there is something inside of me that tells me that things will get better. But there is a […]
Why refrain from suicide because of supposed love ones? why hold on to human emotions if my wish is to be dead? and if I don’t commit suicide? then what, live the rest of my life doing a bunch of things that’ll mean nothing after I reach my inevitable death anyway?
If my goal is to die, then the last thing I should hold onto is things that only matter to living beings, love is a chemical by any other name, whether it is directed towards a person or a hobby.
I wish I had a time machine so that I can go back in time and stop myself from doing major life changing decisions.Why is this world so fucked up for God’s sake!?? Why do ppl hav to be such assholes to each other.Wish I was never born into this fuckin world.
Last year I was this completely happy person who wantd to live life to the fullest,who had so many dreams and aspirations.I jus had like my life plannd out.But ever since leaving my native,I feel so pathetic about myself.I feel like all my energy has been drained away.I just feel Like i don’t fkin […]
Hey guy, how everyone been?
I haven’t been doing the greatest. I thought I was doing well, but I guess not. AM a very logical person, and when ever I have a problem, I go to the internet for help for facts for support. Well I leaned that an average person can last 3 weeks without food, and an average healthy adult should each 2000-2500 calories while burning most of it. This could cause people to lose weight. But the thing is that I have been taking it to far and I can’t stop. I only eat about 1000 calories a day, and burn then and […]
Been on here for like the past 24 hours and slowly realizing i have no hope for getting better i’m pretty much going to always be sad. I need to get off this site and sleep, but everyone seems to tell their story when they first get on and i haven’t done that yet so here we go.
Hi, last year was the first time i cut myself and fell into my deepest depression yet. I had always been sad and felt as if something is wrong with me, hell i can’t remember 6th grade because of how painful it was. But anyway at 13 i […]
To be lost is dream with yourself in hell.
It’s been a long time since I last posted. I felt like writing this in because last time I didn’t, I just woke up with a headache and a noose around my neck. Tried to end it last december but the hook I attached the rope gave up (lol). After that I was just trying to go with the flow of life, waiting for another big hit to my face and make me scream to quit. And today I feel it all starting up again. I feel each problem and disappointment adding up inside me like a balloon ready to pop. I really feel like […]
I miss you. I miss the way we used to be. I miss how we met up every night. I miss being around you, feeling you graze my skin. I miss the way you kept me warm in the winter. I miss how you used to calm me down and tell me things are going to be alright. I miss how you made me happy and how you let me use you whenever i needed relief. I’m sorry that we can’t see each other anymore. People don’t want us together. They don’t want me to get hurt anymore. People who love me want me to […]
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