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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

Read this.

by iseemassacres 10/4/2011

written by iseemassacres

Hi, I’m Mary.

I see things that aren’t there, I hear things when no one is there, I feel people eyes staring at me from across the room. And I’m scared. I don’t want my medication, no, I don’t like it, it makes me feel insane. But am I insane? Who knows, but only me. I have a list on mental diseases, i hate it.

Schizophreniform
Bipolar Disorder
Insomnia
Paranoia
Personality Disorder
Severely Depressed

Am I insane?

Maybe.
You would never guess my age, well, I’m only 17. With all this hell. My family was torn apart by death. It all started with my uncle Mike, cause of death; Suicide. Then […]

10/4/2011 6 comments

Not many more days, hours to live

by gladiator_death 10/4/2011

written by gladiator_death

I don’t want to think of suicide. I truly don’t. Yet, my life is becoming unbearable to the point of which I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m helpless. I’m desperate. Any response would help me:

Over the last 4 and 1/2 years, I’ve switched high-school, gone to university. Along with this – that is, the changing of schools – my greatest hope would be to have, to make friends.

But it hasn’t happened.

I’ve prayed; I’ve practiced patience. But nothing has changed my situation.

I have no friends. I have no one to call on my cell phone (my contact list) is empty. I have no one […]

10/4/2011 6 comments

I’m not a goddamn poet, just decided to make my crappy uncreative version of a poem.

by RogueShadow1281 10/3/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

A poem to Jasmine. Fuck Nycolle, wait no I still am in love with you… (just let her go Nathan, she wasn’t meant for you…) no she and I must be together forever… T-T (stop, you’re better off without her.

10/3/2011 0 comment

Kimberly

by josepharthur 9/29/2011

written by josepharthur

3 years ago, I had a friend, Kimberly was her name, she was my best friend, we were suffering of bullying just because I and her liked to dress in black, we were taken as satanic people, people laugh at us, curse us, says that we were going to burn in hell or whatever they believe, we tolerated this for 3 years… until the day she proposed a double-suicide

“No Kim, not going to happen, sorry” I told her, after that, almost everyday she asked me about that, but I didn’t really wanted to commit suicide.

One day, when I arrived her house, she was with a […]

9/29/2011 4 comments

2 weeks worth of journals just for you.

by RogueShadow1281 9/26/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

DISCLAIMER: THERE IS TOO MUCH TO READ HERE HAHA, SPENT TWO WEEKS WRITING THIS AND IT HAS MY DEPRESSED STATE OF MIND INSANITY LONELINESS AND EVEN A PANIC ATTACK!!!

So many thoughts…Â

Filling my brain.Â

The dream about my dogs and snapping a dogs neck.Â
The thoughts of the videos I watched.
Â The woman dying in the bathtub, drowning while tied up. The video game that may have caused noises in the night, nightmares, paranoia, and other paranormal mishaps. I blame my mother for that nonsense, but whatever.
I read Maximum Ride today, the whole book of Angel which is only 300 pages, about 82 small chapters. I […]

9/26/2011 0 comment

I am 18 and life DOES get better!! (My Story)

by CarouselDreamer 9/25/2011

written by CarouselDreamer

I’ve been struggling with Major Depressive Disorder, anxiety and Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder for about 3 years. I was hospitalized two years ago for obsessive thoughts, major depression and anxiety. I had homicidal and suicidal ideations for a long time. I hated school. Hated all those pricks in it. Along with the faculty and the injustice of the school. I researched the history of school shootings, and Columbine interested me the most. I could relate so much to Harris & Klebold. Their thoughts, plans and everything. I got to thinking: “Well I hate school. I hate the injustice of the school, my classmates and everything.” I was […]

9/25/2011 5 comments

Whatever this is, I don’t want it

by Bereft 9/25/2011

written by Bereft

Where do I start? I feel like this is the end of a very long journey.

I’ve never really been what you would call a lucky person. My mother left when I was 5 and I was bullied for it. I broke out in psoriasis because of the stress from losing my mother and I was bullied for it.

I grew up andÂ started to build a glittering career. Then I met a prince of a man. He was wealthy, romantic and thoughtful, only the fairytale ended when the prince turnedÂ out to beÂ an abuser. I developed arthritis and he was bothered about being landed with a `cripple’.

IÂ fell pregnant […]

9/25/2011 2 comments

Loss of a friend

by msteele0327 9/25/2011

written by msteele0327

So my ex took his life about 3 months ago and I still can’t get over it. I can’t sleep. I have night terrors or dream of him and honestly would just rather be awake it’s less painful. I’m not sure people realize how taking your own life leaves people. I will never be the same person I was before he took his life. I have a sadness that will never leave me. I feel guilt, regret, and sorrow that is unimaginable. I have love and anger towards him. I have so many emotions that I can’t handle. I don’t think this […]

9/25/2011 2 comments

No words can describe….

by anonymous0626 9/24/2011

written by anonymous0626

My Best Friend, Jessica, tried to kill herself in 2007. Â She survived… But barely. Â She hung herself from a belt in her closet…. The belt was said to be 1/2 cm ‘too thick’ to kill her. Â Instead, it basically turned my best friend into a vegetable. Â Jessi couldn’t speak or move by herself… And two years after her attempted suicide and us fighting for her life, she passed away. Â We never got to hear Jessi’s story. Â We never got to hear the answer to all of our only question… Why, Jessi? Â Febuary 12,2009 I was visiting family 900 miles away from Jessi, and I got […]

9/24/2011 10 comments

new but wanted to share my story

by ashgarbs 9/21/2011

written by ashgarbs

Hello. I am new. I lost my cousin Richard J.Garber II on May 2, 2011 due to suicide. He played a huge role in my life. He was more like my brother. He left us all behind to pick up the pieces. Pieces which we will never ever fully get back. Our family is completely ripped apart. It was crappy before but now its worse. Some lost their jobs. Others who were close now are no longer speaking. Everyone is blaming everyone. I suppose that is how […]

9/21/2011 3 comments

DONE. GOODBYE.

by Kitty 9/17/2011

written by Kitty

i’m not going to be on here anymore.

I’m gone. <3

thanks for everyone who has attempted to help me.

sorry for everyone i have tried to help. i can’t be strong.

9/17/2011 4 comments

Suicide on facebook

by RogueShadow1281 9/11/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

Did anyone see my post on a page called suicide. Where I wrote to go to suicideproject.com, did any of you choose to go to it, cuz it seems like there’s a couple new faces…

9/11/2011 0 comment

Thatsphucked.com

by RogueShadow1281 9/10/2011

written by RogueShadow1281

Been watching the most horrible videos ever recorded including pain Olympics. Why? Because I’m curious and mentally fucked up. I’ve seen a woman drowning while tied up, it happens for 5 suspenseful fucking minutes. Saw shootouts, a cop shit to death by what looks like a M1A1 Carbine, old World War II era weapon. There’s also the suicide of Ricardo Lopez and other shit. SP administrators, in case I have broken any rules of whom I haven’t read, well sorry just showing what a suicide looks like and imagine the look on your families faces when they see an eyeball strewn across the room along […]

9/10/2011 6 comments

One Year…

by kilgore 9/7/2011

written by kilgore

Wish you were here

It’s been a year since you took that final decisionÂ … in memory I decided to post your favorite song for anyone whoÂ might care.

I’m sorry I couldn’t have helped, couldn’t have been there for you. I’m sorry I never knew.

I’ll never forget, rest in peace my friend…

9/7/2011 3 comments

What now. No hope

by karmasjoke 9/7/2011

written by karmasjoke

I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. After one simple stupid mistake I am stuck with a legal problem resulting in no job no money no prospects and aparently the realization that I never had friends. Now my family is supporting me but I’m afraid I will never get back on my feet. Creditors harrassing me, and child support I can’t pay. I think my families money would be better spent on my funeral. For one thing that is going to happen eventualy anyway, for another I’m sure it is cheep now compared to how much it will cost in 50+ years. […]

9/7/2011 4 comments

Complicated

by benvaldez1 9/7/2011

written by benvaldez1

I just wanted to share my story…. I’ve thought many times about comitting suicide but I just don’t want to hurt my family. I’ve been blessed in many ways in my life with a beautiful family, a good job and life style. But deep down inside I suffer from a deep agony from the past that doesn’t let me live in peace.
It’s just an impossible and unrequited love from the past that has been hunting me for many years now. She came to my life like a shooting star, stole my heart and left. I tried to ignore that fact 15 years ago and […]

9/7/2011 7 comments

Loss, Heartbreak, and lies

by Mickey 9/6/2011

written by Mickey

Hi. I am only 14, and people keep telling me that it’s just part of being a teenager, and being in high school. Sometimes though I don’t think so. This is only some of the stuff that has happened.

I moved to a small town year before last during the summer (so I had no friends for a summer and the majority of my 8th grade year), and let’s just say all the people around here have known each other since they were little, and most of them look inbreeded. But then I met people and Â I (thought) met the most amazing guy ever…until his ex […]

9/6/2011 2 comments

marie.

by withoutAtrace00 9/6/2011

written by withoutAtrace00

I think of you everyday.

I think of you,Â I think of you and I try to measure how much it hurts to not be able to talk to you. It has been too long that it has become hard to remember the feeling of being your friend. And when I do catch that feeling, I can feel a sense of peace, then it leaves me just as soon as I begin to remember. I have sunken and drifted too apart from you, and it was only when you abandoned me that I realized that I couldn’t get myself to be carefree and deeply happy, no matter […]

9/6/2011 5 comments

My life must be over…

by karmasjoke 9/4/2011

written by karmasjoke

After an undeserved felony conviction due to my honesty and cooperation with the authorities, I have no income, no friends, no prospects and my family is supporting me. The creditors call constantly, the ex is harassing me fo child support I can’t afford, and I cry every day. I think my families money would be better suited for my funeral so the creditors can shut up and the government can pay some kind of benefits to my child to compensate for the complete lack of compassion and understanding of the criminal justice system. My years of voluntary comunury service at nursing homes, my families charity […]

9/4/2011 1 comment

Help

by jamingjuls 9/1/2011

written by jamingjuls

Hi, thanks for reading. My names Julian and I’m 13 years old
I don’t know If I’m old enough to experience deppression. But I feel like I’m being ripped in half. I’m having terrible pains and can not eat. If I do eat something I feel really sick afterwards. I dont know what to do. It’s all happening at once and I’m torn, and I feel like no one is here for me anymore. I’ll tell you everything but it would probably bore you to death. I remember being a child id always ask my parents that they would never divorce. They always answered “no.” […]

9/1/2011 3 comments

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