it’s really great. Try it if you haven’t. Humans of New York is another favorite you might enjoy.
I had a great 5 yrs till I moved back home (5 hours away) to help take care of a family member that is declining in health. My family never gets along with me I’m unsure why I felt like I needed to be the bigger person, why I felt that this will be different.
Fast foward…
Im now homeless because I ended my life to help others, I have no money cuz I was living off my savings however I manage to have a “friend” who is lending their sofa/couch till the end of the month. Idk how imma eat, how imma get my […]
About a month ago I spontaneously got into making and learning all about cocktails. I barely drink, mainly due to indifference and price, but mixology always interested me. I totally dove in, staying up late getting lost in learning about the tools, recipes, science, history, combinations…that lovely flow state of forgetting that you exist, and just becoming what you’re doing. What a feeling, I’d almost forgotten.
But man, booze is expensive here. One recipe led me to another, with just one or two ingredients I didn’t have. I finally stopped myself after dropping nearly 250$ on different things. Halfway in I started thinking about what a waste […]
I have avascular necrosis in my hip caused by pregnancy. The only cure is a hip replacement. The problem is, I have a phobia way more crippling than my hip. I thought it was a needle phobia until this hip thing (although hindsight held many clues that it was more than that) and I was facing a pound of metal and cement in my body that I can never get out or touch again. It’s a phobia of foreign objects in my body. It’s incredibly rare and doesn’t have a name. I’ve only found a handful of people online who have […]
Nothing makes me feel anything anymore. The only thing I can do now is create a character with horrid backstories of abuse. Why? I don’t know. Whenever I feel upset… “wow, well *insert character* had to live through that… my life is great.” Basically just gaslight myself with the characters. Haha. I want to die. There’s no reason, really. Not that I know of, atleast. Nobody let’s me talk. I cannot talk. For if I say a single word about what’s been kept inside foe so long I will be sent to a mental prison they call a hospital! Everything I do is being watched! […]
been talking about dying for at least a solid 15 years, fully suicidal for the past decade at least…. but today was the closest I’ve ever come.
It’s not like there was a trigger. I just looked down at OBJECT_REDACTED and thought; I could go that way, nearly no effort, so I bent over and put in my pocket, and about ten minutes later I walked out of the building and got in my car, because the particular method I was going for was going to take a solid ten minutes. I’ve read quite a bit about what works and what doesn’t, and I think I […]
so lost. maybe im just getting worse because i hide at home everyday. im pissed at the world because my cats missing and probably dead from this heat or someone shot him.i cant reach out to any of my friends because they are at their breaking point too. good wishes to EVERYONE
My favorite part is when her friends confirm there’s blood everywhere and help clean it. She’d go crazy living there pretending nothing happened, everything’s fine… I miss that feeling. I miss being around better people.
I think most all of us have heard of this one. 80% of the wealth for 20% the population, 20% the effort 80% the result (apparently), and so on.
I’m quite convinced that it’s 80% the joy in one’s life experienced in the first 20% of its duration. with the average 80 year lifespan, that means that by age 16, we’ve experienced 4/5ths the joy we’re set to get. One can still feel it trickling up until around 20-24, but after that we’re just chewing the flavourless gum waiting for the next bin to spit it out into.
When my late cousin […]
am i the one thats supposed to stop my mom from crying? where the fuck is my dad? they are married so im sure he can stomach enough time to even comfort her a little bit. he never comforted me, so im not really sure if he knows how to actually. maybe the best thing for him to do is remain ignorant so my mom can maybe pretend like things are ok when shes around him. when i was talking to my mom 20 minutes ago she just said, “i need to go, i have to go, i have to go.” really faintly and almost […]
So my dads in jail again and now I’m a little bit of a mess because of it. It’s nothing new for my dad to be in jail or whatever but he promised me he would pay for my drivers Ed I work on weekends and have a VERY hard time saving when something goes wrong buying new stuff makes me feel better so I have no money saved and I need to start drivers Ed soon even if I started saving up now I still probably wouldn’t have enough for speed week. I feel bad for feeling bad for him because of everything he […]
hi i am new to SP but i ve been lurking here for a couple of weeks. this is the most relatable place i v ever been to. i really would like to get to know to some people who are willing to talk for a while, share stories etc .. hit me up iwanttodie.04@proton.me .
i hate myself. i despise myself. out of everyone in the world, its me i hate the most. and i hate myself for feeling this way.
i live with my single mom because my dad cheated on her when i was six. yeah im still in highschool and my problems right now are so insignificant compared to others in the world.
i wish i was pretty. i hate the way i look. i wish i could cut off my fat with a knife. i wish i could cut into my eyelid to change my eye shape. i hate myself for this. my mom […]
So, I’m trying to not want to die enough to be fun to hang out with tonight, right? And I’m watching videos of suicide survivors trying to find a reason not to kill myself. They start talking about all the things they would have missed out on- their kids, their music, their dog, whatever.
You know what I would have missed out on if I had succeeded in killing myself at 16?
My rape.
It speaks for itself, doesn’t it?
Anyways. I had to get that out of me. Let’s see if I can shut my brain up and not cry long enough to make my friends happy. Hope […]
I’m addicted to watching Redhead / Ginger porn. I love the girls freckles. I live in my vehicle mostly and recently started working for a job that pays $29 p/hr.
I have a decent amount of savings because I’m stingey with my money but I might see a redhead hooker one time.
I know no other word for it, because I am dancing with destruction, without doubt. Yesterday I reached a point I walked off the job, and I wanted very much to keep walking to something else, nearly anything else. Then my wife cried, and so now that escape route is cut off. It’s melt before fail. Let’s talk about melt before fail, because it was an actual engineering principle once upon a time. The idea was that a computer, rather than shutting down when reaching a critical malfunction, would instead keep running. Even if it caught fire, or melted the contacts.
There’s something undeniably macho about […]
starting today, my mom is taking off to meet with my step brother, which means i’m left alone at the house with my abusive brother
ive been feeling rather dazed, nothing has happened yet, but im still anxious to be alone with him. i hope these days pass quickly, and he doesn’t try anything. maybe i’m just overthinking things and he won’t try anything, but i still feel uneasy..
as a result, i do not plan to go out of my room at all. i’ve brought some snacks for my room with my mom and i filled a gallon jug of water. my bathroom is very close […]
I am a bad person. By which I mean that I want to do bad things. Really bad, fucked up stuff. And I’m pretty sure I’m not going to do those things. But the wanting, it hurts, constantly. My motivations, who I am on a very core level, are broken. The things that feel most meaningful to me are wrong. And I don’t think that’s something I can change. I can change my actions, and to some extent I have, but I can’t change what I want. I can’t change what feels meaningful to me. And that hurts, and it makes me want to not […]