Yeah. That happened. And today is the day! :O Nothing bad has happened yet.. Well.

I woke up this morning to a lot of messages. :I People ‘Worrying’ Also had a message from my friend, Aaron. Who then told me that my sister is self-harming. Still haven’t been able to talk to her about it but my dad knows. So does that make it okay?

I didn’t get to attempt this morning. And I can’t try tomorrow morning as my friend is coming round and staying the night. To some that is a good thing.

I just don’t know what to do anymore…. 🙁

Last night was a very rough night for me.

It started with just hanging out with one of my new friends here, I call her Teru. She has multiple personality disorder. So talks to them in her head and functions everyday like normal with them. Well, her and I hooked up with a couple of our guy friends. The one she hooked up with, she felt that they could trust each other and do whatever and still be friends. She trusted him. Later that night, at two something in the morning, he broke her trust and hurt her. He poked at one of her personalities. You […]

Just wondering if someone can send me an email to the person who started this group. I am a youth worker, and looking to help.

I’ve got a plan to try to take my life.

It scares me to think that this time I want it to work.

If not many know about me, I can give a little intro if that helps.

I’m blind. That in it self, can have many advantages and disadvantages. I was adopted and abused as a child.

I’m almost out of high school and for the last few months or so, I’ve been wanting to take my own life. I’ve tried to be as kind as can be to people but sometimes I just explode and then feel so bad.

I’m tired of hurting, […]

Hey Ya’ll, my name is Leah and I want to share with you my suicide story. I just want to go ahead and start off with the fact that I love you, and I am praying for you every single day.
So, where to begin…
Ever since I can remember I have been suicidal. I have had these thoughts for as long as I can remember. I knew it was not the right way to think, that children were supposed to be happy, and the fact that I was not made me feel as if I was doing something wrong. I had trouble coping with […]

They try to tell me its chemical. Here… take this drug and you can start to live again. Here pop this pill and you can start to feel better, after three or four months. Placebos.

It numbs me from feeling anything. That’s all the antidepressants and antipsychotics do… Numb.

I don’t want to be numb. I don’t want to be a mindless drone going through the motions of being alive. I don’t want to meet someone and have them run in the other direction once they see the pills in my medicine cabinet.

Besides, its not chemcial. No. Not really. I’m 25. I had my first breakdown when […]

Sometimes you realize how much you really have to kill yourself.

When I was 11, my older sister was abused by my parents and police got involved. Because I witnessed it, I had to stay with foster parents for 3 months before I could talk to my family again. After the 3 months when everything had calmed down, my parents started treating my sister as a princess because of what they had done to her and they treated me and my brother harshly. I was jealous, of course, and wanted the attention my sister was getting. When I was 12, I tried to commit suicide with an overdose of sleeping pills because of two things: I […]

Has anyone heard from nat?  getting quite worried

I have an undying urge to be a part something larger.  I want to live in a city where there are so many things going on I have a choice where to put myself.  I want to be exposed to as many cultures as possible.  I want to cook good meals with an assortment of flavorings, meats, and vegetables. I want to be able to ride a bike everywhere.  I want a tiny apartment. I want to be able to go to an edgy comedy club, and go to a jazz bar, in the same night.  I need variety.

I have always seen myself moving to […]

I called the suicide hotline.

They put me on hold and a recording told me “Your total waiting time will be: 108 minutes.”

I hung up after 10 minutes.

What is wrong with this world?

So today was the worst day. I’m 14 a freshman in high school. I know I should not think about my body shape at this she but I do, its ugly, fat, stretch marls everywhere I can’t eat I get depressed after I look at the scale 124 lbs disgusting I say to myself! I look at other girls there ihalf my size with such a nice body why can’t I be that way there’s boys at my school who have skinny beautiful girlfriends my crush says he hates chubby girls I can’t even have a boyfriend cause I’m so fat! I wish I was […]

I have come to two all-purpose conclusions, one: in general, life sucks. Two, everything has a reason; thus if the gravity of our world didn’t suck, then we’d all fall off. Everyday dawns another with a hope that something will happen to counteract the misery, but then there are some who wake up without hope. In their world, they suck and are victims to the gravity of invisible encasement promising happiness of lies. If you are happy, then you are lucky, you are not trapped. You like who you are, people like you, you trust they like you. Others of us face the doom of […]

Cant fall asleep even tho lifeishorrible kept me up till 4 last night!

The only reason I am living is for others. My family, friends, and people I dont even know. I would have committed suicide by now, but ive told my friend not to tell anyone so if i end up doing it the burden will be on his shoulders. I dont know what to do. I havent told my parents or anything because i cant face them. I am a coward they would feel terrible, they would feel failure as parents if i told them. My life seems to have no meaning. Seems that nothing can make me happy. When something does make me happy it […]

Invisible tears are the hardest to wipe away.

I am crying. I am screaming out, asking for help. Is anybody helping me?

No. Is anybody even TRYING to help me?

It sure doesn’t seem like it. Can anybody even hear me?

I don’t know. Maybe they’ll hear, when I’m screaming harder, louder, when my throat is raw, and it’s nearly too late. I don’t know.

I don’t even know if I’m being heard by my friends. Definitely not by my mum.

I don’t think anybody even knows I am shedding tears, even when they are visible, literally streaming down my face, and making my neck sticky.

Elle once told me I look […]

hold me

Hey Ya’ll, my name is Leah and I want to share with you my suicide story. I just want to go ahead and start off with the fact that I love you, and I am praying for you every single day.
So, where to begin…
Ever since I can remember I have been suicidal. I have had these thoughts for as long as I can remember. I knew it was not the right way to think, that children were supposed to be happy, and the fact that I was not made me feel as if I was doing something wrong. I had trouble coping with […]

I keep telling myself if it wasnt for my kids id already be gone … but over the last few weeks ive pretty much been told im not a good person im crazy im poison, i ruin every thing … so if all that is true whats the point … i know my kids need me but they still have their other parent … so seriously if all i ever do is ruin other peoples lives neway and i poison everything then whats the point of sticking around to continue to poison everything… why not just take the plunge and be down with it?

i feel like an alien today more than ever. even simple inanimate objects seem foreign. I like burning myself, it hurts for a moment but for a moment its all i can think about and i like that. I cant stop my thoughts from racing. All i want to do is smoke and chill with this girl. Shes a freak just like me:) We made out yesterday for the first time. Im lonely. I cant wait to see her again. Im 23 and have almost completely gotten over my insecurities with girls. But ive still yet to be in love. My life is shit, […]