I just got here! Sitting un the ER now… Lord help me! I need this gone… I want to be happen
P.s. If i can do this… Any of you can too!
I just got here! Sitting un the ER now… Lord help me! I need this gone… I want to be happen
P.s. If i can do this… Any of you can too!
Dear confused93,
God does not mind who you love.
Religious doctrines have been created by men, not God, and are mostly to control people.
The only command that God gives us is to do everything with love and to forgive everyone who offends against us. All other commandments follow on from those.
How do I know this? Read the reports of people who have had near-death experiences. (Put ‘nderf’ or ‘near death’ into google and then follow your nose and read, read, read.)
There are many reports of gay people in heaven. Please start investigating and reading, and then start enjoying your relationship and then thank God that He has […]
I think I’m addicted to pain (mental not physical) that is possible isn’t it like to really have withdraws from not being in pain its like Im addicted to a drug it is a chemical in ur brain it seams to me that it would be highly addictive any emotion that is not accompanied by another would be extremely addictive
I can’t deal with it anymore, I just want at least 1 good day just 1 day where I don’t cry, don’t feel the urge to cut and don’t wish I could end it all. Yet again I’ve not left the house, I’ve just sat around all day playing with my razor and realising that I can’t do this anymore. The pain in my knee is so excruciating an no matter how many pills I pop the pain won’t go away. I’m just so sick and tired of being alone and not have anybody to be there or to just talk to. I’ve not left […]
., can’t do it
I wish i could say that i’ve reached my happy ending. I really do.
But no. The depression is as deep as ever and there is a 50/50 chance that i will still be here next week.
I’m no longer with that long distance boyfriend… And now i have some annoying freak telling me that he loves me, when he doesn’t even know me.
This world is fucking strange and i would rather not be a part of it anymore.
Fuck you, Daniel. Fuck you.
<3
i come home from the pool, i walk in the house and my sister is already waiting she pulls me by my arm to my room and slams the door behind me. pushes on me looks dead in the eye and says through clenched teeth”***** i hate u, ur ugly, u r weird, what u need to do is take a gun to ur head and pull the trigger. i will be so happy when ur dead. its what all of us want u know thats true. so tonight either i take a sharp knife and slit your throat or u do it with a […]
i am 16 years old , i have been sexually abused by my elder brother for the past 6 years..everytime i would go to sleep he would touch me where hes not supposed to and now hes stopped but i go to sleep completely covering myself i can;t let people touch me or else i end up screaming i used to get bullied really badly and i hated that my mom used to be in depression so she would scream at me for no reason she calls me fat ugly worthless once she even said that she wished i would just die because i was […]
I’m so numb, I wish I knew when I was going to be completely happy. I hate all this sadness, constant hurt and pain, constant dullness. I am depressed and no one even knows. That hurts the most.
This past Saturday started off so amazingly. I was with a potential girlfriend the entire day, a girl that I overcame my social anxiety disorder to be with. We spent the entire day watching movies, playing games, talked, and went to look for some new clothes. At the end of the evening, we went to share some ice cream, then proceeded to bring her home.
On the way home, we went to surprise a good friend of ours at work until he got off. We followed his car home, and about halfway home, my car engine started smoking! I’ve put so much time and money into […]
some know me – others do not … many think i’m funny or smart or wise and others think i’m a meddling old lecherous fool … but I think most would say that i at least try to stay positive at all costs and that i try to be helpful – whether i am or not.
but – today i’m in pain – real, physical pain – i have it every day – some days bad some days not so much … but today – seem particularly bad – don’t know why – but it is – literally breathtakingly bad.
the point to this is nothing really other than […]
A noose tide tight
In a room with no light
I wear my suit of dress blues
Already shined my shoes
Its who I am, it’s how I lived
It’s how I’ll die, and I really am
My mind is so faded I cant tell time
This is the end of the line
Take a step off the bed
Or fill my self with lead
It doesn’t make a difference
as long as I’m dead
Unless someone has a reason why
Oliver, Barnabas,Isabelle,Charlotte,Matthew,Music.
the guilt if hurting my mum. the guilt of hurting everyone. (i did get past that at one point but its back again)
my promise.
my progress.
things i cant put into words, but theres just this pull inside me, to not die.
i will make it through today.i will not cut.i will not OD, i will live. i WILL. if i have to spend the whole day plotting revenge so i can stay alive i will. this day will have a point. this day will not be spent in a haze of numbness. flip if only you could buy a good life […]
I just took over 100 prescription pills. Yay for me… I don’t know if I’m scared or happy. I never thought I would do it, that’s for sure. I was really scared and was going to call someone but I didn’t want to be an attention seeker. Now you say, that’s not attention seeking. But really think about it. I have some pills infront of me and I go whining to someone to tell me not to do it. It just looks like I’ve put them infront of me to, well, seek attention. Iv’e thrown up twice. I took them about 5 minutes ago. I hope this works, […]
Everyone has a fear. Whether it’s spiders, the dark, loneliness or something else, everyone is the same. I’m different though. Yes I have these small fears, but my greatest fears are ones that no one seem to understand, humans and myself. The human fear is quite simple really. Just like having a bad experience with something worth fearing, a large number of humans that I know (including my so called “loved ones”) have all done stuff to make me feel like I can’t trust them and some have even pushed as far as to make me fear all humanity. Sure I go out with people […]
I think the worst thing ever is when people say other people commit or attempt suicide are selfish and cowards, and above all else, that they do it for attention.
Today, I checked my inbox on youtube seeing someone replied to my comment on How To Save A Life. This guy said , and I quote, “go fuck yourself in hell mother fucker. you talk to me about retards killing themselfs? only because they got bullied in school? or perhaps because their mother didn’t buy them an expensive gift? those shitheads deserve to die. and wtf?.. you say you lost people because of what? suicide? are […]
My guilt is running away. My guilt is that I am too late to apologize for my actions.
I’m just too afraid to stand on my own; to stand up towards my fears.
I know that I am a coward.
This time the new surrounds me.
Closing in
Wanting to run
Wanting to fight
Wanting to not cry again.
I pinch myself to wake up
I pinch myself to come out
I even counted
But when I opened my eyes
All I could see are there faces around again.
Calling by my first name
Calling me by my nickname
If mother found out
She would have asked so many questions
And I wouldn’t reply.
I’ll just sit there like a dumb ass again.
Fearing for another history repeat
BTW was sleepying on the bathroom floor.
Just closed my eyes for a bit
and then I was sitting on top of a tree.
Cradeling myself
Remembering the places I used to have gone with certain people.
Climbed down […]
My friend saw this website open on my laptop. He turns to me Lysie you know I love you right. I smile and nod. I do love you. I know. he continues on with I’ll hafta kill you if you kill yourself. I tell him I know don’t worry I’m fine. I wont try to kill myself. I hate lying to his face because on the inside I’m screaming from pain. I love him too and I don’t want to disappoint him.
will someone please just talk me into killing myself? tell me it’s the right this to do, tell me that since ive been doing it forever it’ll be a great solution.
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