It doesnt make any sense, ppl die all the time in this world, maybe do you think that because suicide methods don’t work is because someone finds you and takes you to the hospital? If you were left alone for days, then whatever may work, I dunno I’m just speculating.
I have it all researched. Now just time to practice. I’d write more about it on here, but I’m afraid that this site is moderated. Don’t want the cops raiding this place while I’m right in the middle of doing it. If that’s even possible. I’ve looked into this quite a bit and am pretty confident that it’s going to work out. I’m feeling a great sense of peace here.
Full moon tonight, not that it means anything, see how empty my life is?
I don’t want to go into great detail and spill my life story. One thing after another goes wrong. But one day, I fell in love. And I was happy. Now, i’ve suffered from depression for years. I cut for years. I’ve been on depression and anxiety meds for years. The past 2 months have been hell. I’m heartbroken. Alone. And I don’t want to feel this anymore. I’m done. I started cutting again. I carve into my skin. In places nobody will see. My hip, mostly. I have […]
For all those who are in relationships: does it help?
For all of those who are alone: Do you want to be in a relationship and why?
I’m getting used to this whole depressing lonely thing, after so many years, it fades into the back of my mind and there is no point in thinking about how alone I am, because nobody comes into my life to fill the void. Waiting for that special someone. I tried to accept that I may never remarry, maybe I’m better off alone, but I don’t want to be. I pray and pray, but it seems there are walls all around me, and blocking my path. I’m lost wandering in the mist.
Hello,
I’ve tried to kill myself more times than I can remember. I just can’t seem to stay on the noose long enough. I accept that it’s part of me now. It always has been. Now I’m starting to really realize what my deal is. I’ve always been the guy on the outside. Oh well, my past seems irrelevant now. Good thing too. My grade school years were so miserable I hardly remember them now.
I keep bullshitting my explanation of myself to everyone, including myself. I know why I’m suicidal, why I’m constantly suicidal. […]
Okay, so today I’ll do everything the same. Feel depressed and try my best to stay sane. Today my love talks to me as if I’m a disturbance, and i take her actions to feed my depression. The words she said are in my head like quotes, then my thoughts that pass me by tell me I love her the most. Tomorrow between us only got worse because now I’m turned over and hurt and now there’s an invisible sign around her that reads “Do not disturb”. Next week I memorize the words she said as they go […]
I really loved Them! I’m fucked without Them! How can they do this to me?? I have noone else….. WHY???? All i got left to help me is this computer, Tissues, my razor blade, Â a 9mm pistol, and pillow. IDK wat to do next, i cut myself pretty deep, not just a little cut… i went up the arm! ….. FUCK IT, im not gonna finish this, theres no perpose, by world…
I am a 15 year old female. My father died when I was 7 years old & my mother died last year, June 12th, 2010. I’ve been a victim of sexual abuse & physical abuse from the time I was ten years old. The sad part is my mommy never believed me.
I’ve been self-mutilating since I was 11 & have had an eating disorder since I was 13.
My boyfriend, my love, broke up with me a few weeks ago. Yes, I know it’s just a guy, but he helped me in so many ways. He showed me my worth, was the reason I stopped cutting, […]
gonna make this less annoying for you guys. keep it to more of a blog thingy.
two people know I self harm, I wanted to make it three, because one persons having a bad time, another person, doesn’t really understand, and a third would be nice. I kinda picked someone, but it’s fucked up now, I just had a conversation with him, and turns out he really hates self harm, not because of prejudice, but because he’s sick of his friends self harming. he’s been falsely taught that self harm is the cause for they’re pain, and I don’t really think I can un-teach that. but […]
My head is ringing with the voices of everyone I know calling my name. Screaming at me and hating me. It hurts a lot.
I don’t even know where to start..I hate talking about my problems, I hate having to explain things when ppl won’t even understand me or what I’m saying..it’s annoying!!! So I’m a good prison, the sweetest thing ever, yet all this crap happens to me. I’ve dealt with depression since I was about 11 or 12 started cutting at 14..the bf I had when I was 19 helped me to stop, I love him so much bit he broke up with me after 2 months for his own personal reasons..anyway I didn’t start cutting again, I kept my promise but then alcohol came along and […]
Today I found out the person I’ve gave everything to is still sleeping with his ex! I admit, I’m not in a relationship with him but when he constantly tells me he’s in love with me knowing full well I would go to anything for this guy it’s not nice to find out that he’s still sleeping with yourself and his ex? Not to mention he took my virginity after I told him how much I do love him, I know what you’re thinking “she’s young, she don’t know what love is” I do when that one person has had everything from me and made […]
An infection of the human mind
Slowly taking over
Painting your life in grey
Apathetic and idle is your new name
Terror is your closest friend
A spiral set in motion
one-way trip
Terminal illness of the mind progressing
Hollowing you out on the inside
No reason or logic found
As it consumes your heart
No lies or truth in your words
Try to find the beauty in pain
Cause it’s the only thing you will know
A mystery illness of the mind unexplained
Welcome to this other world
Alien by all means
Avolition by lack of contrast
Equality cynically redefined
order yet disorder
dreaming of corridors
with technological structures
that resemble your fears
time runs yet freezes
what exists and what doesn’t?
is there a difference?
This head will simply […]
I was caught shoplifting yesterday and i just turned 18. I’ve been accepted to a lot of colleges and i have a lot of things coming up this summer and graduation. But i just threw all of this away by making a stupid fucking decision. My mom went through hell when i was 16 to get a shoplifting case off my record so i could get into college. Now i just threw it all away, I have to tell her, but i cant. She will be heartbroken when she finds out and i cant do this. I cant sleep i cant eat all i can […]
Opinions please.
Do you think one can do it while heavily intoxicated on alcohol leading to relatively quick death?
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It doesn’t make ANY sense to keep on living after this so-called “life” took away my best years…
When I was 18, I should be graduating… Going to college… Dating someone worthy, and building a sweet future.
Instead, eversince grade 10 I started having too much difficulty in understanding what was on the text of the work I had to complete.
Contrary to popular belief, I wasn’t doing any drugs back then, it simply wasn’t happening for me. The only time I ever had a contact with
something of the kind, was 2 months before I’d end my high-school carrer (I smoked a simple […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuVuMslQWGs
Powerful.
Just want to share.
Watch it ’till ending,
and get enlightened
for the power of your choices and Life
…before ending it all.
I’ve figured it out
this awful feeling
the nervous energy
the anxious panic
the relentless restlessness
the pressure crushing
it’s dread
dread pouring down on me
overpowering and drenching
dread at realizing
that this is all more than me
I was doomed from the begining
it’s more than a little wanting
more like an endless needing
an intuitive urging
a powerful yearning
or an aching longing
and all the reasons
so many reasons
but they all mean nothing
just a way of coping
or understanding
but its more than my choosing
my unavoidable ending
Death has been calling
my soul’s finally answering
and this feeling
it’s beyond all controlling