I just filled up a 20 ounce bottle of clorox bleach and plan on drinking it soon. My story is long but basically my life is done. I refuse to change my mind so NO don’t say don’t do it. I will drink it and hopefully die asap

Sorry for my bad English guys, but I’ll try my best.

Well, I feel like theres no meaning in my life. I love my gf, and we have been together for two years, I really love her, Still I don’t feel like theres no meaning in life.. I’m always sad bekause I hate my life.. Why should we live, when we die some years later? I’m scared to kill my self, I tried to kill my self when I was 13, and I’m scared to try again.. What will happen after I die? I don’t believe in God so I don’t believe that there will be […]

my brother is gay and my father is homophobic and doesn’t like gays at all….i am just a little but i would never come out cuz im very scared of what he’d say… im thinking of leaving home but i know my dad won’t let me go… so either i run away or i take the easy way out…. u know what i mean. Just saying… if this kid goes to jail then i won’t have a place to stay. His mom is the nicest person in the world to me and she really likes me and i really like her… it’s his baby mom […]

I’m trying to end it and have my mind set. Please tell about the h2s way the mixing of household chemicals. Please help me with this asap! Reply quickly please

So the nicotine patches haven’t arrived yet so i thinking about something else. Things have just gotten outright worst this week and there is nothing I can do but end it at this point.

So can someone please quickly tell me about the h2s method . I’d really like to do it and have read that it’s just mixing of household products. But what are these products??? I’ve read bleach and ammonia or bleach and toilet cleaner but what exactly is it??? I saw new stories about people who have died this way And the reporters mentioned that the products were common household products someone […]

i could go out.

i could make friends.

maybe.

i could go out, be friendly

maybe.

but im too tired.

i dont have the energy to seek approval and impress.

im tired.

im tired of everything.

sometimes im too tired to sleep.

where did this happen?

when did my life become like this?

when did i stop having fun

and

when did i stop wanting too.

was it when i was judged.

maybe when i realised life has criteria

be pretty, but dont try too hard.

be funny, but not lame.

be confident, but not too loud.

be nice, but not so much that your a pushover

be smart, but not so much that your a nerd

i just miss being myself.

i miss wearing the clothes i […]

so i found out i have a  blood disease…why now?why when i finally had gotten my life together and i have stoppped attempting and tried to live life?

My bestfriends alyssa and markel are gone.they talk to m on acasion sure.but hey hate me.I told them I’m bi..they said okay? They just vdont care.dumb thing is….I still love them.
sorry I post about my crapy love or friendship life.this one gets better.don’t worry.
my friend christal…she’s gone too.she think liked me.then changed her mind.she has a bf now.I see them together every day.yesterday…I couldn’t take it.I cried at school for once.
yea stupid I know.

But hey.guess what..almost everyone in my family is dying:
My daddy. 🙁
my mom
grandpa
Grandma
my uncle(s)
pets
everyone.
So why sould I stay when I will […]

imagine you’re stuck in a crowd. you don’t know anyone. you don’t no where you are or how to get out and no one wants to help you. Can you image how you would feel? How panicked you would be? Well thats how my life is everyday. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression. Bad combo huh?

I have my good days and I have my bad days. Today, is you guessed it a bad day. I’ve been getting a few bad days recenty and I just.. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t pretend that I don’t freak out when I have to do something new. I can’t pretend […]

Blood flows where tears dry

I cannot stop this

I cry blood

I hold this between my fingers

My reliever, my redeemer

My best friend

My only friend…

How do I describe

this splendor of pleasure?

…as i slide it

and apply pressure

Atlast I found it

A way out of this pain

Where talking fails…

where tears dry…

The blood flows

…and saves

hello my name is Al. i’m a 26 year old male  just here to share my experience with the medical system. Its a complicated story so ill start at the beginning. when i was 15 i started having abdominal cramps. the pain was so horrible i would miss school or be late everyday. that’s when i started seeing the first of a line of doctors. they tested me and tested me and threw pill after pill at me. i tried eating only chicken and rice. i’ve done all the diets that are good  for your digestive systems.  still they couldn’t figure out what was causing […]

“You have your whole life ahead of you!”

“There is so much to live for!”

“Keep your head up!”

“Oh your husband is just stupid!”

Do you know what an ignorant thing to say that is?

To prolong the suffering of those who are broken by trying to talk them into continuing their lives is sadistic and selfish. You do it because you yourself are afraid of death and you don’t want to be faced with it, in any way. You’re extending their suffering for months at best and you know very well that they are going to off themselves in the end.

You’re creating internal conflicts for them by tempting […]

I was really stupid today. I tried to count on others and ask them for help. Of course, no one was really there for me. Like always, when I need them no one is there. I don’t even know why I bothered. Everyone’s a fake to me.  Always putting on fake masks. I have no one. I’m so stupid to believe otherwise.

I’m worthless.

I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up again. Which is weird for me to say. Which is why I don’t. Not to him. He seems to believe that if I have him then there is no reason to want death. And I don’t want death. Just an end. You know how it goes. I love him a lot. And it is true that he’s the main reason I live. But just because I’m happy with him does not mean I am happy. I’m just not a happy person. I probably won’t ever be. And he knew that before we started […]

I know the reason for my insecurities, my desperation, and my fears. The main cause that everyone else think that they can solve, but in reality only one person can fix. I hear everyone say that you need to say it out loud to make you feel any better about it, but honestly I’m perfectly fine keeping it all to myself and not telling anyone face-to-face.

I don’t need to be loaded on drugs to suppress this fact, I don’t need some person that spent 12 years of their life perfecting the theories to analyze my life and my choices. The only one who can judge […]

I’m sooo tired I just don’t want to do this any more.

How long until I can leave…

How long until its over…

I’m a failure and a freak….

How am I supposed to keep going through each day when I’m not real…

When life’s not real but only a bad dream…

When the only way to wake up…

Is to sleep… forever.

Hey all, my name is Mark, I have a loving girlfriend and some good friends. I recently lost a job that i loved. I suffer from depression, it started after my mother died 10 years ago.  i really don’t want to suffer anymore. I struggle everyday with the simplist things, like getting out of bed, eating, washing. It all seems utterly pointless and I want it to end. Seriously, i’m 40 years old i’m not some depressed kid (no disrespect meant). You get to a point in your life when you realise there is no point. Those I love will remember me for a while […]

KILL MEEEEEEEE! I HATE THIS! I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE! MAELIIN! HELP MEE!
ANYONE! HELP MEE

My best friend.i have a huge crush on her.she says she loves me.but just not the way I love her.I help her find the perfect guy…well i try anyway.but really I’m sad.I want everyone to reject her so I can have her.for me.all to me.is that wrong?hat else can I do?she’s not sure if she’s bi.she says she needs time.I give her time.but its killing me.
and my other friend.I love her too.she’s the best.we aren’t best friends.but I guess we are close.sad part is.she has a bf.I cry myself to sleep.iknow she’s happy.I’m happy for her.but…I want mto be happy too.
cutting does that.it […]

It looks like it will be a little less than two weeks for me. I’ve started by trying to put things in order. I wish my family wasn’t going to have to clean up the loose ends that I leave behind.

I don’t know why I’m posting here except that you’re forced into secrecy if you really want to do this.

Everything is very surreal right now.

I have schizophrenia.