Any one eles  been using this since since or before 2013 or is evey one dead?

To what extent have I put myself in this position.

It is so shallow, it makes me sick.

I’m slowly crumbling away.

Willful ignorance, but never in control.

The light revealed itself, but the darkness already consumed me.

I’m not sure whats real anymore.

It’s all a sham.

My fate was sealed.

Unfortunately, my life was never in the worst.

There was always someone more unfortunate than me. I used this reasoning to shame myself on not being happy. I was mentally and physically abused my brother for 5 years. And my parents closed their eyes and ears when I asked for help. My sister made fun of me for being abused. He chocked me punched me when something was wrong. When no one else is home he kicked me out of the house and did not let me in. I started to have depression and panic attack. My parents told me that kids can’t have that and […]

Yep. I’m still around.

I really need someone right now
I really want to end my life
I really need someone
Help me

i do not even want to return. all i want is about aurora aksnes or a real healing.

the poems, the songs of love, I want to listen to them with her, I am insane, I lose all I got from lining to self-control, I am fed up, I do not want any food or drink although I need and will. all saints day feels nothing different from any other day, I think I have passed all the bloom a life can give. I want to get a weapon, I want to join the forces but actually all I want, what she hates, is being hugged […]

keep goin’ down the same road
Blackin’ out in the same clothes
I?wish?that I could?have some control
But this feeling’s all?that I know
I’m just livin’ in the moment
Doing things that I shouldn’t
I’ve been in the dark all alone
Cause this feeling’s all that I know

-PS

and i went down, and i reached down, and i looked down.

Imagination of a World I’ve never known,
adultery with the women I love,
separation and reunion in a row,
our business and the career for any alone.

Morning is half way there when my thoughts go,
reflecting my emotions and to know where I belong,
that I need to use the riffle, the gun without that to come,
I was unable to count the voices,
will corpses on my Name make it easier for me?

I could already have m< streaks of Deaths in my past,
I do need no war or once joint forces to recrute me for such,
no graveyard of prophetes, no religion on […]

Tonight, it hits me different. I’m so sad. I don’t know the exact trigger, but as i was leaving school today my eyes started to tear up. I wanted to cry so bad, but then my Mom texted me and she told me she was picking me up, glad she did because i got distracted and would have started crying.

But right now i’m mentally not in the best state. I’m trying to stay positive. Trying to stay happy, but i’m always sad. I don’t really know how to cheer myself up anymore.

I want to give up. I want to die. But will i kill myself? […]

How do you cope with being lonely?

I find myself making plans and then cancel them because of social anxiety and depression.

Tonight is Halloween and I was supposed to go out with people but I canceled on them and now I feel like a fucking loser. It’s been happening a lot lately and each time I feel more and more lonely.

and the feeling of being lonely sucks. I am a sucker for (love) company.

So, how do you deal with being alone?

At work….dont i believe i ran i to the worst possible person (at least for me theres obviously worse people like hilter although im not 100% sure its him but im going to fimd out). I spent my day feeling sick. And then didnt i go to my friends sentencing. More anxiety! Thankfully anxiety attacks dont hang around that long. I hope ill be feeling better in the morning.

Is anyone over 30 here?

I’m starting to get bad again. But this time it’s different, I don’t feel anything. It’s like my mind just shut itself off and I don’t know how to turn it back on. I get so overwhelmed with not being capable of the things I should be doing like, hanging out with friends, going to work, going to school. I push myself to do the needs of school and work. But I feel like I’m floating outside of my body looking down thinking what in the hell am I doing? What’s the point? And it’s starting to truly scare me I’ve never felt this empty […]

Everything is going downhill for me, once again. I’m losing friends, and they are losing my trust. Including my school counselor and one of my teachers, for study hall. I talk to them, but they are making me feel like i can’t open up to them because of their responses, but i don’t tell them in the moment. I don’t want them feeling bad for saying the wrong thing.

I just feel so alone. I felt alone before, and it is a feeling no one wants to feel. I even hoped to never feel, that feeling ever again. Yet, here i am. Feeling so alone to […]

I will consume you. I will completely take over your life. You’ll think you’re in control but really I will be. I’ll change the way you think about everything, the way you live. I will slowly destroy everything you once knew and loved. I will ruin your life until you don’t want it anymore. I’ve always been a winner, even when other people say you can beat me. You can’t. I will end you. Or you will end your life because you can’t live with me anymore. I’m too powerful for you to handle.

I am depression.

I’m 21 and have been in
deep depression/isolation for the last 3 years. I used to be a pretty normal teen ok grades and good socially and I was always happy and unknow of What the other side of happiness was.
Dont get me wrong my childhood wasnt perfect far from it, I was born and raised until 15 in Africa and there parents are a bit more rigid when it comes to educating children so getting beat Up until my face becomes unrecognisable because I said something on a dinner or didnt Get good enough grades was commun.
But getting back to track, at […]

I know that when I kill myself at last, I will regret it when it’s too late. I’ve heard that many suicide survivors feel that way and I can feel that I would be one of them. I would die in regret. But if, on the other hand, I do not kill myself, I will most likely still want to die for the rest of my life. Suffering a whole (“natural”) lifetime through. I’m pretty sure, but I’m not entirely certain. Is keeping on living worth the (most likely) suffering? I would probably experience some positive moments too if I continue with life but it […]

2 weeks ago i bought it. and everyone is acting like its a surprise. please! im an addict. what did you think was gonna happen? i was gonna be fine with a single joint lasting me 3-4 days. yeah right. and now i need something stronger……

I feel like killing myself plus others