The children would not stop arguing,My husband was always arguing with them as well as well as him gambling all our money.so much so that it wasn’t until 3 days before Xmas that i could go out and buy presents and food even then Xmasdinner was a chicken. My mother was finding it hard to care for my grandmother who has dementia so i was dealing with that to.I also had my first rib removed because of a tumor and have a permanent implant to help with the pain.I had no one to talk to.On boxing day the whole family got together, everyone said i looked ill and […]
Hello I want to let you know if you need anyone I am here
So if you want to talk my email is metalingus5150@yahoo.com
I will do my best to help
I am only 16 btw but I know how it feels
I am empty. a shell. and when im not, im pain. im using. im self-harming. im trying to escape. fucked up family, to the max. i cant even write all of the shit i’ve been through with them. molestation memories haunting my mind. 2 lost loves. who use me. i was in a abusive relationship… still am. no one wants me around. my thoughts eat away at me. i feel trapped on this earth filled with black hearts and evil souls. cruel happyness surrounds me, yet a grey cloud always seems to hang above my head. I have wanted to die ever since i was […]
Exactly one week ago tonight, my girlfriend and I were on vacation at a resort – having a few drinks in the nightclub. My girlfriend was dancing, the smoke was getting to me, so I went for a little walk to get some fresh air. My sense of direction isn’t the best, perhaps my girlfriend assumed I’d gone back to our room. But I eventually made my way back to the nightclub the back way past the swimming pool, and to my surprise, I saw my girlfriend nude, in the pool, screwing some younger guy she’d been dancing with in the […]
If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional – only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.
I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you’re reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here […]
The same fake laugh.
People think I’m better, cause of those two techinues I perfected, and becuase people havent seen any new cuts on me. Yet. Everyone knows I’m troubled, cause my arm is riddled with scars. I dont even try to hide them anymore I know people will somehow find out I’m still harming myself; then I’ll get sent away to a looney bin. But I dont care anymore thats in the future, I dont plan on living much longer anyway.
I know only being 15, I shouldnt be complaining, other people have it much worse then me. With some having to deal with […]
I’m sorry, but as usual I’m feeling sorry for myself. I’m all alone. I used to be somebody.
Here is the problem:
I’m married my wife is distance from me we hardly ever talk anymore, she comes home after work I sit at the computer looking for work, my background could or well screw me over for a job. I’m a disable veteran my back always hurt which causes me to lose sleep and I stay up for days on end. I have nightmares every night. I feel her pain that we cant talk and she would not understand what I’m think to cure the problem. I understand the problem is me. She trys to help me feel better. But I’m a drain on […]
I don’t feel like I belong. I never have. I can feel completely alone in a room FULL of people. Sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong century. I have a decent job a wife and 3 kids that I love and adore. They’re the only reason that I keep trying. Maybe someday I will give up and just call it quits like my mother, father and step mother did. Some days I still have hope that my outlook on life will get better but those days are getting fewer and further between.
I can’t afford to see a counselor but I have […]
I don´t know why am i writing her. I don´t feel sad or happy, just numb. Like everything is so far from me and even if I try to reach for something everything disappears. Incloding me with it. I don´t understand whats wrong with me? Why do i feel nothing?
In school i don´t let people see me depressed anymore, because they don´t understand whats wrong with me. I don´t want anyone to laugh at me and talk about me behind my back anymore. so to stop it i act crazy, laugh and make silly jokes. They say i am crazy and act like an […]
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to be able to hold your hand when you’re shaking from fatigue or frustration
to kiss the back of your neck when i see you at the university
to pick up the phone and call you whenever i want to hear your voice
to hold you until i absorb every bad thing that’s ever happened to you
to feel like you love me even half as much as i love you
…
But I know this won’t happen. We’ll go back to being perfect strangers in the company of others, and once every few days, when neither of us have a class too early the following morning, you’ll invite me over […]
Ok, at 50+ years old you would think I would be old enough to be wise, yeah…right. Two years ago my partner left me for a younger guy (quote: “She wanted the excitement”). That took me a year and a half to get over; the thoughts of darkness, the nights of fear and loneliness, often thinking how inviting the thought of taking myself into the painless arms of ‘eternal sleep’ was.
I was finally getting on an even track when she came back into my life.
She told me how wrong she had been, how much she still loved and missed me. She said that […]
Have been depressed for the most part of my teen life, and I thought i’d conquered it in adult life, but tiny things offset it now…
Am on H4, and hubby likes to restrict my freedom, he doesn’t know what it is to be a woman, and to be inside home all the time, he even once asked me why I keep the window blinds open in the day, as people from outside can see me inside.
Lack of sunlight, friends, laughter, the discipline, independence and self worth that comes with working, everything is driving me nuts.
Things seem fine, till he starts sulking, and I find […]
im 21 years old and i have tryed to kill myself alot (pills)(mixing pills with alc) hanging myself) ….. the resone i try is becuse i fell deaply in love with a girl that i have known all my life we were in 1st grade together and became friends well we fell in love and i did everything just to make her happy i moved out of a 3.5mill house sold a 15gcar and moved in with my other friend shering a room with 2 men the room was no bigger then a van or a small buss vary small but i dident cair i […]
i’m tired. i don’t wanna be depressed anymore. if i can’t be happy, i’d rather end everything now. i’m living on 15th floor. it has a balcony. it’s so tempting. i can just jump off the balcony, then eveything will end in a second… right?
i just keep think of my mom. she kinds of knows that i’m depressed again. i don’t wanna let her down, but i still wanna end everything. i have no hope. no reason to live for.
a while ago, after writing a short memo, i went out to the balcony and sat on the edge of the wall, looked down. no one […]
I don’t really have a story to tell other than I have been suicidal what seems like my whole life. Some days I just feel like my brain is hardwired to self destruct. But last night has pushed me so far that it is getting rougher, and I thought maybe posting would help.
Right now there is an overwhelming nausea, tears falling off my chin, and a creepy calm flowing in and out of my lungs while I type this. This is all brought on by a nightmare I had last night. It wasn’t a reoccurring one, it was all brand new. And I will tell […]
I just dont feel motivated to do anything…
I feel too weak to end it
and too un motivated to change myself…
guess i’m just a sorry excuse for a person….
today i was hanging out with my friends, i felt so depressed. i havent seen HER in a long time. as we all walked home i staired at the ground, then i looked up and i saw her and she smiled, i said hi and walked away.i love her, but she dosnt kno. so the i kept walking and i got a text from her saying nice to see you again. it made me feel really confident. i want to ask her to hangout but i asked a few times b4 and i dont wana annoy her. can some1 help me?