sometimes we need distractions- they can save us from an amount of time that we spend thinking about everything and end up more depressed.
so i wanted to give some ideas. only for good intentions(: and i hope no one gets offended by some of them or anything like that.
*turning to God(:
*drawing
*coloring
*writing happy poetry
*music
*sing
*dance
*watch a movie
*read a book
*search interesting stuff in the internet like… new creatures found, news about the world, planets, jokes, games, videos of tours around the world, nature, pix of the sky, space, stars, moon, planet, nature, flowers.
*then try to draw […]
I recently read this book called “Thirteen Reasons Why” by Jay Asher about a girl named Hannah who kills herself, but before she does she makes these tapes that explain why she killed herself, and who was involved in her making that decision, and then she sends the tapes to the people on them and tells them if they don’t pass them on, then someone who has a copy of the tapes will release them to the public at school, ruining their lives.
It got me thinking: What are my reasons? If I were to kill myself, what would my reasons be behind it, and would anyone […]
Ive been thinking a lot of things through lately, trying to remember when I started wanting to kill myself.
I dont remember, I think it was just so long ago that thet fantasies started, that I just have lost track of the years.
You know the fantasies I’m taling about; the bloody bathtubs, lifeless body hanging from a rope, unconscious lump of dead weight lying on a bed, pill bottle sitting empty on the nightstand. I’ve had them all before, and many others I don’t relly understand. Throwing myself in front of a car, jumping off the golden gate bridge, going skydiving without a parachute.
I have come up […]
I want to die. it is the only way. You may try to save me. Like so many others. My mother, my only guiding light in this world is now no more. I can not live any longer. I need a way out. Please help me find it. I must put an end to it all, my hopeless life, my meaningless existance. I want something quick, something painless. please help
What should i do?
I’ll never be your beast of burden
My back is broad but it’s a hurting
All I want is for you to make love to me
I’ll never be your beast of burden
I’ve walked for miles my feet are hurting
All I want is for you to make love to me
Am I hard enough
Am I rough enough
Am I rich enough
I’m not too blind to see
I’ll never be your beast of burden
So let’s go home and draw the curtains
Music on the radio
Come on baby make sweet love to me
Am I hard enough
Am I rough enough
Am I rich […]
I’ve never done this before, so please bear with me.
I don’t really know what’s wrong with me. I have a great life, I’m going to a great college, and I have a lot of wonderful friends. And yet…there’s something missing somehow, maybe it’s me.
All my life I’ve had a hard time with making friends, partly because my family moved every two years or so. But the truth is, I’m not an easy person to know. I’m not comfortable around strangers, and I never know what to say. What makes this worse is I have ADD, but I’m not hyperactive. I just can’t concentrate on anything, […]
hello, im 15 years old. i search for help to have hope. there are many things that bother me. every time i get upset or someone i know gets mad at me and argues everything comes down on me. i hold grudges i suppose you could say, but not with anger, only pain. my pain stems from elementary school where a lot of people would laugh at me and be mean because i was chunky, short, and ugly while every one else was skinny and in good health. they also made fun of me because of my mexican accent. moreover, when i was five, i […]
I’m 17,I was on celexa afterawhile I was feeling better..I thought I was cured so I stopped taking it and I started doing things tht are unlike myself,I cheated on my boyfriend of three years I was and still am crazy in love but I honestly don’t know why I cheated,he evetually found out and broke up wig me he is now in another relationship and claims he is in love I asked for another chance to make things right but he said sorry and no,all of my “friends” deserted me I feel alone..I was so drowned my guilt I spend a month in a […]
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28
hey everyone.
i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.
there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.
the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you […]
I thought that everything will be good for me, but they had to destroy it. Why do I have to come up again after they push me down? Why? I´m so tired of fighting the fight I will never winn. Maybe my lifes goal is to suffer every day life. Who knows? Maybe life is not for me, maybe my goal is to become just a memory of a girl who had a bright future ahead. The people i trust don´t even care about me.
I try to be a happy person infront of the people who push me down ,but I am so tired […]
can someone please help me with this site? cus wen i type in this box it dosnt let me type alot of words, sorry im new to this
Relay for life has been going on at my school for about a month now.
I don’t get it. Why are people trying to raise money for a cure that we have been trying to find for years and years? I think people are living on the possibility that there is a cure, but I really don’t think there is any point in wasting valuable money we earn with hard work on something that may never happen.
Yes, IÂ know it sounds just awful not to want to raise money for cancer, but I think I’m being realistic, or at least my depressed mind does.
Something happened to […]
My mother took me out of school early today to go see a crisis counselor in some foreign area of town where it looks like everyone lives in constant fear of either being mugged, or molested, or both.
I walked into the counselors office and immediately felt like Alice must have when she fell down the rabbit hole; completely disoriented and completely idiotic.
“We have an appointment at 1:00”, my mother smiled kindly at the lady working at the reception desk.
The lady didn’t smile back, she just took down my information and told us that we could take a seat in the three chairs pushed up against a […]
living a life with Multiple Sclerosis is difficult when your own people don’t understand you… I was diagnosed with MS about 6 years ago… life was tough with pain all over the body… people who were all the time suddenly disappeared… then got married to a girl telling her the whole story… at first all normal but she took different reasons for not staying with me… now its ending of the story! BYE!!!
I am in another sway of emotion these days, seeking the idealization. There are so many people left behind, the suicide survivors that voice this sadness and displeasure, while never really comprehending our lifetime of sadness and displeasure. I wasn’t cut-out for all of this. So when I think of suicide, I tend to not think of the disappointment I will cause the people in my life…I mean, I do, but–lately–there is a bigger chunk of me that idealizes the perfect moment. That peaceful fade that I have afforded myself–through careful planning–sometime in the near future. I have my way out, just waiting. Not and […]
I don’t believe that there is some benevolent being watching over us all: Someone who is making sure that in the end we all come out square.
However, I do have a feeling that someone is assigning to me this tremendous pain I feel. What I can’t figure out is why?
Am I that Karmically fucked up?
I didn’t ask to be here. I didn’t ask to be born.
Apathy has become my existence.
I just want to go.
It all start when I was in 8th grade, I had lots of friends but I felt that they were all just my friend as pitty that I’m such a loser. Maybe I was just paranoid because there was a group of boys that I knew since kindergarden and lets just say this:They were total idiots. Middle school ended and I went to 9th grade, High school. One day in the summer my friend Mike was like ” Hey, Miss. Sad I want you to meet my friend Collin. So I said “Sure whats the worst that could happen?” Little did I know that the […]
Basically, I feel like a useless, worthless, unwanted teenager. My family yells at me all the time, and they say that I get angry at the because of that. I don’t. I get depressed that I make them unhappy. A child that makes their own parents really unhappy should die. ( only meaning me. ) My friends in school have forgotten me, because they don’t talk to me anymore, they have their own group, where I have my tree in the corner of the field. None of the boys seems like me, I really don’t care.
Since they don’t talk to me anymore, I don’t […]
It’s, Sometimes it just gets like this, You know
Who’s to say what’s right or wrong?
He walked alone, for such a time,
No fulfillment in existence, Life was just a grind,
So his heart is stone and his soul’s an empty shell He said, “Sevin, I pray for Heaven, while they send me Hell”
But what could I say when I myself don’t know the truth?
I guess the environment we were lyin in had stole our youth
Cause we were hurtin then and in some ways we’re tortured still
Dreams depictin the screams of victims we were forced to kill
And if they only knew […]