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Patience.

  February 11th, 2019 by nvmm

I’m not scared of death. The world had been living without me for millions of years till I was born and I’ve never felt any pain, never suffered, never tried-and-fail, never felt desperate for all those years. I think it was a pretty good deal. I don’t mind going back to that deal.

But (there’s always a “but” for every problem or it wouldn’t be a problem anymore)… for every action we do there are some costs, some consequences. And if I decide to end it now someone else will have to pay and bear the costs and consequences of my action. And that’s not how …

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  February 11th, 2019 by Hoody

Why i am still in constant pain when i am in medication and seeing a counselor? This starts to bothering me when i am watching a documentary about bipolar. I haven’t finished it yet but from the impression i got that once you are having proper treatment and following all kinds of advice, you will go back to normal. Oh i am just bullshtting now, that is not true and they are justing not telling the hyer-dark moments in their current life,which are considered by doctors as “ok”, in front of camera. It is frustrating. I am thinking about ECT. The hospital i frenquent have …

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Bullshit

  February 11th, 2019 by nozmoking

They say “I understand. I know how you feel. It hurts – I know.”

Then they turn their heads and mutter to themselves… “What a selfish prick. Just feels sorry for himself.  I know plenty of people that hurt more than he does.  He just wants attention.”

So I sit in my fucking agony – put off the inevitable. Another day goes by because I don’t want my daughter to come come from work and find the sweet little dog screaming frantically or one of her precious cats  gobbling my brains up off the kitchen floor.

Another day goes by, so my children are spared the grief of

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Soon enough

  February 11th, 2019 by CRA2015

My friends, my family, my love……you’ll all find out soon enough that I can’t take this anymore. Soon enough I’ll break. Soon enough you’ll see how much agony I was really in. Only love keeps me here, and I don’t have the love of my life anymore.

 

(I love you Chelsea R. …..I wish we could have fixed all of our problems baby instead of fighting all the time. We fought for all the wrong reasons. I love you with ALL I am, you and your love is all I had in this world!!! I miss you so god damn much!! I’m sorry baby….I’m sorry for …

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cough, sputter, start and stop

  February 11th, 2019 by heartlessviking

12 hours into what is turning into a week from heck. I mean, I’ve had more painful weeks, but rarely a week this tiring. Literally the last four days have been non stop work, or trying to work. I didn’t prepare for this dang it, and now I’ve got another four days that look just about as packed… I’m so tired….

Is it depression if you’re just so fricken tired that it would feel nice if you had a heart attack, or if in some other way the body stopped so there was no choice?!

The dang finish line for this project set is in sight, then …

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I’m sorry

  February 11th, 2019 by xRocketroxasx

To those over the last decade I’ve let down, hurt, pushed away and made empty promises; I’m sorry, but none this will change. I’ll continue to walk the same path I always have and I can’t anymore. When you finally find this and read it just know I wish it would have been different and I that I’m sorry I have to hurt you one last time, but at least this time I can promise it will be the last.

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Vultures or Sharks?

  February 10th, 2019 by nothermonkey

I’m a loving person, for some reason. People seem attracted to that, attracted to wasting my time, using me. I think they have no respect for the side of them that wants me around, so they’re always ‘helping me’ instead of admitting that my company helps them.

I’m intelligent and hard working, when I’m motivated, and it seems to attract people who say they want to help me, see me succeed, and then they end up wasting my time and ripping me off. And then I lose motivation, look back at years and years of failures, wonder why I don’t seem to have the boundaries that …

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Is it wrong

  February 10th, 2019 by Jojogram

Is it wrong for me to think that people should commit suicide ..? I’m most definitely not for it as I have seen the difference it can make in a life. But … Have you ever put yourself in someone else’s shoes and just thought “Damn … It would be so much easier … Plus I’m not afraid of death… People should be more welcoming of it rather than afraid … But then again they have lived all their lives living it … So something different might nno be as good”

Idk … I’m just drinking here, laying down wirhaw life full of unaccomplished achievements right …

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  February 10th, 2019 by Atintofgreen

Happy birthday to all Februarians!

May you not grow any more sad with age

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“I’m exhausted living with people “

  February 10th, 2019 by Sulika

I don’t know what’s my problem but I don’t like talking with people (I feel awkward ) .I’m always in a sad and angry mood ..I feel like a shit ..

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Happy Birthday To Me!

  February 10th, 2019 by Dreary-elf

Tomorrow is my birthday! I’m quite excited but I hate celebrating my birthdays.
Something about them just depresses me. I guess it’s cause my family would always argue on my birthday.
It’s different now since it’s just me and my dad living here.
Maybe this year might not be so bad.
I just want to spend it with my loved ones and make good memories… You know?
-Signing off-

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Tired

  February 10th, 2019 by unknownsoldier

Im tired of not having someone to talk to in my life that I can tell the truth to. I have scared everyone off that has every meant anything to me. I fucking hate my life. I wish I hadn’t gotten out of the military.

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  February 10th, 2019 by peach

I don’t really know what to write I just wanted to post something, I feel so lonely tonight, but I don’t even like being around with ppl..I’m pathetic

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Fool[w]ish

  February 10th, 2019 by freeroma

Someone to sleep with…
Not for sex, mind. Just to sleep.

I slept with a puppy last night, few hours off and on. It was nice. And as a consequence of staying up well over 24 hours i slept for about 14…
I can do fine on nights i work, fine during the days i sleep. But back to the weekend night im back to falling apart.

Its comforting sharing warmth in bed. Ive only slept with a few people, a few more animals. I miss it. Especially nice now when its freezing.

I have things to paint, then i have to go home, to work…
Meh.

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Absence of love

  February 10th, 2019 by Once

I can’t imagine what it is like to feel love for a human. I can think of noone that I could or would ever love. Not family, not friends, noone. Absolutely noone.

Sociopath? Is this what I am?

We toss around sayings like “You only have one family!”, and “Blood is thicker than water!”, yet I would have absolutely no problem walking away from my family and never speaking to them again. I’m single, no children, big surprise there. I’ve learned love from animals, and can’t imagine a human being who is worthy of that kind of intense emotion.

My mother was an irrelevant figure in my life. …

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  February 10th, 2019 by Tellmewhy

It sucks being and feeling alone when you are surrounded by people that make you feel bad
How much can l hold on, how much can l keep fighting

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the end

  February 10th, 2019 by lostcase

i hate how empty this all feels. Every time i wait for something to happen thinking it would make me feel better it just doesn’t. i lost feelings. i want to stab myself and die. Such a big shit thing.

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I wish i was dead.

  February 10th, 2019 by Yk35500

I’m 29 and a single mom. I was hurt mentally. And being betrayed and used..  Life is so unfair. I have attempted suicide many times. I always have suicide thoughts. I tried to get some help from therapy but I don’t like it anymore. My email is yukoi3190@gmail.com I want to talk someone who has same feelings like me. I’m so fucking lonely. I’m a terrible person because I always want to be dead even though I have a son.

 

 

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The suicide of a young mother

  February 10th, 2019 by Rainwatch

The other day I heard about the suicide of a young mother. I didn’t know her personally but someone I knew was acquainted with someone who knew her. I believe implicitly that everyone should reserve the right to end their life if they wish but if you’re a mother of young children ( in this tragic case under five years of age) are you not obliged to continue. I have no children myself, in my mental state bringing children into this world is out of the question but if I did have children suicide would be off the menu. I’m not judging this mother, I’ve …

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Looking for a specific type of person here

  February 10th, 2019 by LoseSomeSleepAndSayYouTried

So,

Im back here after about 9 years. Had a quite an interesting journey through life, thought I had this behind me, but now I’m worse than ever. I’ve been lurking on this page for quite some time , feeling the desire to write something, express myself, but I was always put off by the prospect of writing sth, getting a few anonymous words of support, and then my message disappearing in the flood of posts couple of days later. The pointlessness of it. But now, I’m looking for something, or rather someone. Someone to talk to. But someone who goes through similar sort of feelings …

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