my new kitten
September 16th, 2017by iamdarling
today, i brought home my new kitten.
he is so small, and so sweet – and currently unnamed. i’ll update this post and tell you his name when i have chosen it.
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September 16th, 2017by freeroma
On Monday, I almost shot a screw into my hand.
Which would have been bad for a few reasons.
It’s something I think about a lot, one of those things that pops in my head.
I wasn’t even consciously thinking about it, applied pressure for one second and let up right away. Probably a good thing those screws are blunt. Had to untwist it from my glove.
That would have been hard to explain.
I’ve been tossed between moods all week, switched several times a day even on the same topic.
“Things fall apart; the center cannot hold”.
Except to outward appearances I’m just dandy and things are going …
Hey been while
September 16th, 2017by KatRose
It’s been good while, idk why I came back but I did! I failed my attempted suiside and I just idk how to feel about it this time…idk what to really say I just no one ever judged me on here!
Today it is
September 16th, 2017by ByeBev
Yesterday was the day I was supposed to off myself. But schedule got moved. Today is the day, I’m just waiting for a package. Might get some food, watch a movie, I have no clue.
Anyways. I guess I’m only on here, because I am bored and anxious. Hoping that nothing goes wrong. I shaved all my hair, made my holographic will, and yeah, this is my last month for rent anyways.
It all seems like a joke
September 16th, 2017by hiohneh
What am I doing? What is better? What do I want to accomplish? What do I want people to see me accomplish? Do I want anything at all? Why would it be selfish for me to take me own life? Don’t they know how much I’m suffering?
My dog is getting old. I think I’ll take him to the vet next month. I need to know if he’s okay.
When the end of December arrives I will have to decide whether I want to continue my education. I want to die. Maybe I should go get some inpatient psychiatric help. Maybe if they numb me enough I can finally …
Sorry about this rant
September 16th, 2017by Black_Heart2001
I used to want to die. No, not die. I wanted to stop existing and suicide seemed like the only option for me. It’s gotten better since then. I don’t think of killing myself anymore. I sometimes want to hurt myself when life get dark but I never do it. I don’t let myself do it. But here’s my problem, and it’ s more about me being pathetic than anything else. Please tell me what to do.
I have a boyfriend now. He’s honestly great. He’s the best guy I’ve ever known and he really loves me. I don’t doubt that and I never have. I …
Morning Thoughts
September 16th, 2017by Mordred
This morning I woke up with a couple thoughts. The first was a memory. There was a boy in highschool…I remember he would go around asking girls out. He probably asked every single available girl out. But he never had a girlfriend. I met him at a highschool reunion a few years ago, and lo and behold he was in a relationship. Found love. He was wearing a necklace, and he saw my necklace and commented “oh we believe in the same religion” (I wear a simple, small yin-yang necklace).
I asked him what the engraving on his necklace meant, and what religion he thought we …
FIRST AND LAST POST
September 16th, 2017by JRburt
THIS WILL BE THE FIRST AND LAST POST I’LL EVER MAKE
So my family are going to visit my sister in a couple of days so i started to get excited about gassing myself without anyone stopping me only to find out my brother is staying home with me then i started to have second thoughts about it not working but at the end of the year we are going to a another country to visit other family and it’s easy to buy a gun there so i’m not sure whether to wait it out or just gas myself when my brother is asleep
you know what fuck it …
I don’t know
September 16th, 2017by Rosebrider
I really don’t know what to do.
Last week I tried to OD but that didn’t get anywhere. I tried to jump off of a two story building but I backed out because I was scared. I feel like lately my life as been going downward because I don’t know where to go.
I know life isn’t easy but it is nice to think about how you could end it all and not have to worry anymore.
Rant, not really manote
September 16th, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN
I’m currently annoyed by having to try and live. It’s getting VERY hard to make it through this year. Idk if I can hold on until I’m done with my promise to finally go and kill myself. The winter blues plus Adderall withdrawals and lack of sleep are killing me. I’m so tired all the time. Too lazy to make food and get energy to function.
Life and how it ends.
September 16th, 2017by LastMonths
So i prepared myself to OD on some sleeping pills.
I’m preparing to face myself after a tiring long journey.
After 9 years of hurting people and hurting my loved ones I think I should stop. Being a disappointment and being adviced every single day is not helping me. I’m drowning on my own sadness and it feels like I can never get back up. Why is major depression a thing or rather why is depression a thing. My emotions are a mess and it feels like im messing with other peoples emotions as well. It is not fun to have this kind of sickness, I tried …
Keeping on keeping on
September 15th, 2017by NoCoToU
A rainy 2 am, Autumnal England. The smell of the sea. Salt in the air, its savour on my skin. Sinead O’Connor singing – oh, anything. Joy and sorrow. Memory lane. Lonely.
I destroyed everything that was good in my life – and didn’t know I was doing it. The chickens came home. Nemesis branded me. She took me by the scruff of the neck and beat the living crap out of me. I have the scars to prove it: both visible and hidden.
But still – at least for today – for this moment – for a rainy September 3 am in a place …
Blah
September 15th, 2017by tastelessbubbles
So I’ve been pretty down recently, everything is a haze and I just don’t really know what to do anymore. but i know that there’s plenty of people who have it way worse than me. I know how shitty it is to just lay alone at night and have no one that cares. So I want to be there for you guys.
my kik is breadbubbles if anyone just wants to talk /vent/or just whatever.
I’m new to this site so my bad if this is against the rules or something!
Over and over
September 15th, 2017by likeastone
Haven’t made a direct post here yet. It was my initial intention, but felt better reaching out to others for a while. Oh well, I finally need to get one out.
The first thought that always pops into my head when something I don’t like happens these days is “Well, just kill yourself. Problem solved”. Without fail, pure reflex. 9 times out of 10 I wasn’t even specifically depressed at the moment. Angry, embarrassed, annoyed…doesn’t matter. That’s turned into my brains go to. And it totally makes sense – it doesn’t scare me. No matter how big or how small, how important or how utterly insignificant …
Can you pinpoint exactly when you lost your mind?
September 15th, 2017by brokenandbent30
There’s a before period of completely going off-the-rails and an after period. It’s like before Christ and after Christ. I completely lost myself within the past 2 years. Identity crisis has been happening with new spiritual beliefs.
Go from thinking God doesn’t exist and not believing in such things to believing in everything basically. It’s like too much for the mind to handle at times.
So maybe losing yourself is actually finding yourself, but it mostly feels like being lost.
You know you can never go back when a certain part of your identity dies.
This is not meant to be a religious debate at all. Just genuinely curious …
Hope – The Pain Does Go Away
September 15th, 2017by jcau
Hi all,
This is one of my first posts here.
A few years ago, I was in a pretty dark place. I was convinced that my life was a burden and that I’d never be able to shake the bad thoughts that came persistently. Every day was a struggle. Nothing was improving and I was getting suicidal thoughts.
Some of you may be in the same or a similar situation. Please know that things get better. I’m still here. I’m still fighting. It is a fight. It might be the hardest thing you do, but you’re worth it. You’re worth the fight and life is worth fighting for.
You have no …
You’re a failure
September 15th, 2017by Sinful Obloquy
“You’re a failure.”
I suppose after years of being told that I’m a failure, I thought that I would’ve been accustomed to it. The first time it occurred, I was shocked. I knew I had to improve myself, so I studied. I spent hours each day, sitting in my room, studying for who-knows-what. As time passed, I felt more successful as I began to pass my classes. Each year after that, I got A’s on every test. I got A’s in every class. My success was defined by my grades. This is my last year of school. I will graduate soon. I thought that I was …
So…
September 15th, 2017by WastingtheUnknown
I may be withdrawing myself from all my classes this semester… Tonight seems as good as any night to kill myself. I mean, I have 2000mg.
I’ll try and take my life on Monday.
September 15th, 2017by duringmydarkestdays
If an overdose would’ve been fatal, might have tried that right now.
god and the afterlife
September 15th, 2017by eeyore
can anyone comment their beliefs on god, afterlife, and death
and do u believe those who commit suicide go to hell?
I personally don’t believe in god and I think the afterlife is a fake. I think death is like disappearing or forever sleep. its eternal nothingness, peace.