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Random thoughts.

July 18th, 2017by WastingtheUnknown

So. Cat’s missing again (because this stupid fucking family keeps letting him out of the house), don’t really know if he’ll turn up this time, still getting the feeling the couple so called friends I have couldn’t really be bothered by me, blah, blah, blah. Went out drinking again the other night and don’t remember much other than I try to be liked way too much by people. Whatever. November 5, 2017 is the day (I’m embedding this fucking date into my mind till I actually go through with it).

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What fear do you have?

July 18th, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN

I’ve been thinking about my plan. I want to do it, but my mother will not be ok after that. She’s already made bad decisions in her life (no drugs just hopless romanticism, and untreated adhd). And she’s kind of homeless because the greedy basterd better known as her brother is trying to keep anything that we have. So I’m concerned as to what will happen to her when I commit suicide.

Another concern is that I won’t be able to take the loan I want In order to go happy. I wanted a million, but maybe 50k will do. I just want to leave money to …

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I feel like

July 18th, 2017by Robigson

I feel like if I were to die no one would care
I don’t know if I were to have something happening to me like a stroke or something else close to death if I would be saved. I don’t know what I would feel, do in those moments
I don’t wanna die
I feel like shit sometimes I don’t know what to do
I don’t understand this world

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Why am I always to blame?

July 18th, 2017by labtech93

I recently got into a relationship, everything started off great at first. Now we’re at each other’s throats constantly over petty things. I’ll always apologize for my part in the argument and bend over backwards for him, but it’s like he’s completely innocent in his eyes. He doesn’t see what he does wrong and it just seems that because I’m so terrible is why he is always angry. He tells me his feelings get hurt, yet when he says hurtful things it just goes back to it being my fault. I really do love him and want this one so badly to work out, I …

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It never ends

July 18th, 2017by idontevenknow2

Whenever I think that I am getting a little bit, just a little bit better. I am not. I can literally start to cry, for no fucking reason, and never stop. I don’t understand myself, I really don’t. For example, this morning. I woke up and felt kinda okay. I didn’t have any bad thoughts, so I checked my phone, you know social media. And then this person on sc wrote to me, doesn’t matter about what, but I tried to help him last night, and give him some positive energy or whatever, bc a kinda bad thing happened to him, and he answered somewhat rude. …

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Habits

July 18th, 2017by SuchIsLife

Recently I’m feeling more and more like I have potential to break out of my desire to kill myself. I think if I can just break some bad habits and create some new, positive ones, I might have a real appreciation for living.

Does anyone have any tips on how to break bad habits, and how to increase self control and discipline? I’ve been trying various things, and some were more effective than others, however ultimately I’ve been unable to permanently stop my bad habits.

Any advice, no matter how insignificant it may seem, would be highly appreciated.

A decent future seems so tangible for once in my …

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Ig this is me

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Well this is my hello, might as well be my goodbye. I am a teenage girl. Recently…or maybe not. 6 months ago my mom had a stroke….fell into a coma. Has been in the hospital ever since. Being a already depressed, lonely, alone, suicidal teenager..it was extremely hard on me. I was sent to live with my sister who I was not close to at all. Here no one ever cared abt how I was feeling or if i was down bc there was so much other things to worry about. My mom could not walk, talk, move, eat, and was in a coma for …

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I’m here for you

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Hey guys, if you see this and want/need to talk. I’m always open to talk. I really want to make someone(anyone) feel like they are worth it….

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July 18th, 2017by kamidaka

Game of thrones is so grotesque, it feels like taken out from the deep web

Don’t ever bother replying, I won’t enter here ever until my day comes.

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Chocolate Therapy

July 18th, 2017by Cordless

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Ahhhhh.

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A year since I lost…my mind, my job and now my hope is gone. Times up!

July 17th, 2017by trying44

They harass and nag my “friends” asking private or probing questions. Impunging them with the negative characteristics they want to label me with. WHy? I guess if they are too cowardly to approach me they will hound my poor friends and family… capatilizing on the old adage.., “birds of a feather stick together”.

They are dead set on some type of revenge. Or, no… they want me to admit to what THEY have decided ….their truth, NOT THE Truth.  I guess. But I know they are also wrong. I know they thrive off conjecture, emotion and miss placed pain and blame. But you cant tell them …

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If you need someone…

July 17th, 2017by Octr

I am 20 years old, I’m a techy introvert who’s main hobbies and interests relate to gaming and art and then combining the two.

second to that would be animals, my two dogs are my life.

and thirdly people, I love people.

ironic for someone who rarely leaves their little box, I was recentally officially diagnosed with being low spectrum autistic, I stopped having “real life” friendships since 2012 when I moved country.

i might seem a little awkward at times because of this, my emotions can be highly unstable and predictable and I am a very deep and through thinker, I have spent more time inside my own …

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Just thinking out loud

July 17th, 2017by lxmyrick

Hi, I have been gone for a while and since then I have had a couple of things that I have thought about and I want to hear what you think.

  1. So throughout my time with me dealing with me depression, I have heard these things Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. But you could live until you are old who suffered from depression since they were young. And also that if a person does suicide, which life is also temporary, then what is the problem with doing it.
  2. People always are saying that self harm is not the way to deal

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There are times I’m not miserable

July 17th, 2017by arachnophilia

Monday and Tuesday of last week, I wasn’t miserable. I felt, for the first time in a long time, (months at least) a kind of soothing calm, a low-grade contentment. I was reading a book at the time, and I tucked the emotion around me like a warm robe, luxuriating in it until it inevitably seeped out of me.

The last time I’d felt something like this was during a foggy morning around the middle of the winter semester, while I waited for the bus. My heart was a still cool pond, deep and clear and utterly undisturbed. It lasted for half an hour.

Most of the time …

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I’m Ok (Trying to get better)

July 17th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I going to get an injection once a month for my depression, while also taking pills. Never knew that they gave injections for depression. I’m starting to make goals for myself. I really want to do something with my life. I’ll try to go to school in the fall, and hopefully don’t collapse. Slowly putting my life back together.

I’m learning empathy. Someone on here was right, I am unemphatic. I’m sorry all the people I’ve hurt without knowing it. I’m also am learning boundaries. I’m going to go out more, and try to make real friends. Enter a socialization program later. I want to …

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My Hello Post (kinda lengthy)

July 17th, 2017by martianmatter00

Well I’ve been dragged back down again to this point although i just discovered this site yesterday. Anyway, im 24 years old (female) and everyone tells me that i have my whole life ahead of me, and it scares me. I see no potential in myself or my future, so why drag it out for how ever long I’ve got left? I grew up in a pretty loveless household and didn’t get a real hug from my mom until i was maybe 7. No father and my mom has repeated to me that she’s not the mothering type. I was bullied in school ever since …

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What

July 17th, 2017by Robigson

What makes you stay alive and not do it?

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What are?

July 17th, 2017by Robigson

What are some of the things that bother you the most?

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July 17th, 2017by EmoPanda

Its dark here. Well not dark but seems that way. I feel everything coming back. The feeling. The self hate. Everything. Its either all at once or nothing at all. I’m taking the pills again. The ones that help me sleep. The same ones where I took a whole bottle a night, made my insides hurt like death of 1000 cuts. Death of 1000 cuts would probably be better than what I’m feeling right now. The thing is when I was taking the whole bottle a night a new one would appear in the morning. They knew what I was doing and they didn’t care. …

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