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Good For Nothing

June 15th, 2018by Mordred

When I think of all the things I’ve failed at, I feel like screaming. The old despair comes back.

I was born evil. I was born this way.

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I cant anymore

June 15th, 2018by ctrz

I’ve sat here, countless days, haven’t left the house, haven’t DONE anything, I have no purpose, nobody is willing to hear my cries, even my best friend, whom I thought was exactly like me cant see anything wrong. Im leaving to go to Japan in 12 days, and after that, when I get back, Im going to go see her and then, then Im done. Im done not having a reason to live, im done being hurt by everyone, im done with my deadbeat family who always bash on me. there is no way that im going to sit here and let this happen. so, …

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The Truest Truths are the Hardest

June 15th, 2018by Failure143

Due to the overwhelming positive feedback from the last poem, here’s another for you.

I know that you hate me/ I know that I’m crazy/ But I can no longer see the person you wanted me to be/ For Fathers day/ I think I’ll just go away/ Get rid of your pain/ After all I feel like cellophane/ And I no longer have something to gain/ I’ll just walk to the freeway/ I’ll leave for good today/ I’ll walk up to the the road and lay/ Waiting for my life to end/ No longer needing to send/ A text or try to call/ Because now my …

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:(

June 14th, 2018by seemokay

I pray. I ask god to help me have I committed to many sins that he ignores me now instead

i wish I was better wish I was happier wish I was healthier but I’m not

I feel so empty inside that I haven’t eaten in days I haven’t been in the mood for anything I didn’t even show up for my final exams because I’m just in a bad mood I don’t feel okay I’m really tired. I’m upset I’m depressed nothing has changed

 

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Suicide Clinics, courtesy of the Baby Boomers

June 14th, 2018by SweetQuietus

The Boomers are aging and off-site hospital clinics and surg centers are replacing stores and other businesses. Servicing an aging population is big money, that is, until the money runs out. The Gen X’ers we birthed will be bilked out of their inheritances by a health care industry gone amok.

Prolonging life at all costs, because life is “too precious to put a price on”. There is blatant disregard to personal dignity and individual wishes, just anxious family members nodding in agreement to the medical industry, that, “yes, yes, we give consent to treatment” because who wants to be the asshole that says, “no, let ’em …

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Confusing contradiction

June 14th, 2018by Walstib

Some days all i can think about is killing myself and wanting to die. Then others i worry incessantly and panic about the possibility getting some horrible disease (mostly cancer) that will kill me. WTF? Does anyone else have these crazy swings? I dont know how to make sense of it.

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June 14th, 2018by IF1002

I don’t know what happened to me. Everything was okay, I was talking to them about this Academy thing, one of them said something and shifted, and I broke down, finding my nails digging into my palm and my vision blurry. Years ago I use to get like this if they hit me or threatened to beat me, but now its getting worse. Just their presence around me makes me rage. And now I can hardly hold it. I tried to let it out by punching the wall or wood and it use to work but now all what I get out of it is …

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Halp

June 14th, 2018by thehusk

I don’t want to change. I don’t want to get better. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life desperately clinging on to my self-control. I want to be free to be my same old self-indulgent shitty self.

But I’m terrified of letting go of the possibility of change. Because old me wasn’t happy. It desperately wanted things beyond it’s grasp. And I know it’s not going to end well. I’m going to end up homeless, and alone, or in jail, or worse.

But it feels like I’m always going to be alone either way. I’m always going to struggle to get by socially. I’m …

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So frustrated

June 14th, 2018by ladolcemorte

I am really frustrated about being in this weird purgatory between life and death. I came really close to executing my plan a few weeks ago. But the plan was interrupted. I called a crisis line, telling myself that I just wanted to hear the voice of a real human before I did it so that I wouldn’t be entirely alone when I died, and also because I wanted to talk it out and be 100% sure that I was ready to do it. I ended the call, saying I was going to call back after taking a quick nap.

Instead, the phone rang and it …

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lost

June 14th, 2018by 5ara

for the first time in my life i have suicidal thoughts

i dont feel that i want to die but i dont want to live the life as it is right now and i cant change it …..

 

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Not suicidal anymore after 4 months

June 14th, 2018by Agonizing

I got fucked with an antipsychotics injection in February and it made life unbearable, I researched so many ways to kill myself and made several attempts at my life. I have been bed ridden for all this time groaning for hours in pain barely able to look after myself, I woke up daily to 5 hour long headaches and had no energy, motivation or ability to feel pleasure, i.e. anhedonia. I thought I was permanently brain damaged.

I had given hope on Sunday and planned on killing my neighbour who was ultimately the cause of why I got sectioned and injected (because he woke me up …

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Sick As F*ck

June 14th, 2018by Ree1222

I found out that two supposedly people close to the family put black magic voodoo on me. One that is near my age who I was told is envious of me made a spell for me to not conceive anymore, for people and myself to not get along, for men to not desire me and cursed my lover who died in an auto accident in 2011 to die. Two crazy sociopaths have won, as I have done no wrong to those mf’s. I am scared to go to the next step of death, as I got my package 3 days ago, I feel guilt because …

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Ever heard of SDRE?

June 14th, 2018by Casino96

 

I’m so obsessed with music that I’m borderline sexually attracted to it at this point, so I’m sure this has way less value to everyone else than it does me. That said, anyone here fans of sunny day real estate? If you’re in a funk, and I assume we all are by virtue of being here, I don’t see how throwing Diary on the turntable can do anything but help. I’ve been suicidal a few times before, the most intense point being in high school, when I found this band. I’m not gonna say something naive and stupid like “this album helped me out of …

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June 14th, 2018by born.loser

i rather be dead in my grave instead of going to work right now. i wish there was a way for me to make money with me actually not doing anything

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June 14th, 2018by IF1002

I feel like screaming. I’ve had this feeling for years but never got to release it. My day sucked, hell my life sucks. I’ve attempted to end it before, unsuccessful. Nobody in the world can understand what I’m going through. I always have this tension that I can’t get rid of. They always want be to be perfect. But I can’t!?! I don’t have time to write everything besides the fact I want to be dead already. Now about the screaming. Anyone know a good pace where I can just let go without anyone hearing?

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Waking up miserable

June 14th, 2018by thatboyneedstherapy

I have been struggling with bipolar disorder since I was twelve years old

I can’t count on my fingers and toes how many times I’ve self-harmed, attempted suicide and been hospitalized.

Lately my thoughts of suicide have grown much more frequent for the first time in years.

I thought with age, these feelings would decrease or maybe even diminish but alas, here I am.

Everyday is a struggle to combat the “voices in my head”.

I wish I weren’t so logical as to combat these thoughts.

I’m exhausted. I just want to sleep forever.

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Afraid

June 14th, 2018by OnlyFurther

I’m afraid that my life will just go back to how it was before 6th grade when I become an adult.

With no one to turn to for emotional support, or even someone I could call a friend.

Those years were awful.

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It has become so easy to give up

June 14th, 2018by heavygown

I just don’t know how to help myself. I am too much of a coward to harm myself in any way but I want the pain gone so VERY BADLY. I WANT EVERYTHING TO FUCKING STOP SO BADLY

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Change

June 14th, 2018by Failure143

I want to get my emotions out, but I suck at putting them in sentences and such so I’m going to write poems from time to time to try and help you guys out there suffering. Suffering and thinking you’re all alone, I’m going to try to help you in the only real way I can, not that poetry can get you anywhere in life.

As I wake up, I clasp my head/ Wondering how I’m not dead/ Walk inside and clean off the dried blood/ Finish up and take another med./ Think of my life even though it’s been drug in the mud/ Left there …

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All the high profile suicides lately

June 13th, 2018by Walstib

When I read all these people saying to reach out, to get help when talking about the Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade suicides, i get mad. Help can be of so little value. Yes you can call the suicide hotline and it might talk you off the ledge for a night or so but it doesn’t help much in the long run. You can go to therapy. Take meds. And still feel every single f’ing day that you want to kill yourself. Still feel the agony. If it were as easy as reaching out for help, we wouldn’t have so many people …

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