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This will kill me..

by BrooklynBoxx 12/15/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

The shooting today.. 20 kids dead… 6 adults it brought up so many memories, that may have even no relation.

First the shock that someone can hurt kids so innocent.. then i remember my past 2 people hurt me.. when i was so young.. to innocent to protect myself. At their entire control, my life was basically in there hands…

Then i thought of how these kids would suffer 5-10 years from now. Like i do today, the symptoms of my PTSD have cause severe depression, anxiety, insomnia, psudo siezures, multiple persanality disorder, and bipolar. I agree some of these may not have been a direct result, […]

12/15/2012 15 comments

My Suicidal Story

by CrBalove 12/7/2012

written by CrBalove

My parents started to fight ever since I could remember. Â My father was abusive to my mother, not to me though. Still he screamed at me, kept me up all night telling me I was just a kid. HE broke chairs, smashed the house, broke my stuff, and hurt my mother very badly. I joined drama class at school, and he told me I couldn’t act. He crushed my dreams, and makes me feel worthless. All of my school days I have been bullied. The called me names, took away my jacket when it was cold, called me a lesbian, a wore, a fucking loser, […]

12/7/2012 6 comments

Coming up, falling down….

by the most boring person ever 11/20/2012

written by the most boring person ever

Its been a bit over a month since I made my first (and only) post here. Since then, I rebounded, was on a high, doing alright actually.

Today Ive rebounded back down. Funny how suddenly it hits. And I can tell you when it hit. Some jerk at work with no courtesy ringing and carrying on that I send him a weekly report, which he doesnt want (I guess delete and ignore like everyone else does isnt in his brain). Just being put back in my place is all it takes. Now here I am wishing it was all over again.

Of course its much more complex […]

11/20/2012 1 comment

Lemmee Introduce Myself…Feel Free To Judge Me And Do Feel Guilty Later.

by CopeingByBlood 10/11/2012

written by CopeingByBlood

Hey. I’m a freshman in highschool. I’m only 14. Yeah, go ahead tell me I’m young, and I have so much to look forward into life, but I don’t. My parents hate me. My friends hate me. Â Best of all, I hate me. Why? You may ask. Just because. My story? Here you go…

My hell, started last year, in eighth grade. I never noticed that I was always pretending to be happy, until me and my bestfriend were bullied everyday at school. Called whores, skanks, ugly, all the names in the book. It even happened over Facebook for me, I was attacked by maybe 7? […]

10/11/2012 5 comments

complicated,

by anne 10/7/2012

written by anne

I always thought I was a strong, kind and confident girl who everyone relayed on and came to for help. I was a good friend. But whenever I did something kind, I never got anything in return. Society ruined me. I wanted to put my life on track again but it didn’t seem to work out. People made me nervous. They said words they never thought that I’d over think off at night.

I cry a lot and it’s pretty weird how I fake smile everyday and I pass through the day then, IÂ rememberÂ everything at night.

I used to tell people they are strong and life goes […]

10/7/2012 17 comments

my story… well so far

by katiebear12 8/26/2012

written by katiebear12

there is so much i have to say and i don’t really know where to begin… so i’ll try to start from the beginning. i don’t really remember ever being very happy. i spent the first five years of my life with a father who did and sold drugs all the time and when and if he came home he was abusive towards my mom. i don’t remember this but my mom told me that he pushed her down the stairs when she was pregant with my youngest brother. we never really had much money because my mom couldn’t work with all of us being […]

8/26/2012 4 comments

Why Is It Only Me?

by TheUglyOne 7/12/2012

written by TheUglyOne

This is the question I ask myself everyday and honestly I don’t ever expect the answer. All my life people have had little faith in me. Telling me I will go to jail when I get older, saying I beat down a girl when I did not, and so much more. In fact I wasÂ accused of rapeing myÂ Â niece when I LOVE that girl and have told everyone that I always want to be there to protect her. If I raped her that would go against my word AND my morals. Â People have told me numerous times I look like a pedophile and that I have […]

7/12/2012 2 comments

Dont know what im doing here

by TheLastRide 7/8/2012

written by TheLastRide

Ok this is weird, i ended up here after doing some searching on the net and was just drawn here. I’m old so maybe im out of place here, heart is bad and having more problems, health has really gone down hill alot this year. I have kids that are adults out doing there own thing, they could care less about anything except themselves. I’m just tired, tired of being tired, i want to just take a handful of sleeping pills and jump on the bike and go for a ride and go out of this life doing what i love the most, taking the […]

7/8/2012 7 comments

One Reason

by U.N. Owen 5/21/2012

written by U.N. Owen

To the youth and adults who have decided to live, at least for today…

The person who makes your soul shiver.

The song that makes your ears quiver.

The food that makes your tongue dance.

The activity that lulls your mind into a trance.

The relative whose love warms your heart the most.

The pets about whom you brag and boast.

The responsibilities you prefer not to leave behind.

Their threads that your hands only can safely unwind.

The boulders you have yet to turn.

The bridges you prefer not to burn.

The safety and rhythm of scheduled routine.

The things you have not yet done or seen.

If you have one reason to stay, it may be […]

5/21/2012 2 comments

why??

by helpless soul 5/3/2012

written by helpless soul

K,
Why do I feel this intense guilt over stuff I had no control of whatsoever. I wish I could turn back time and tell them what happened to you but we were kids and I didn’t think the adults would listen. I’m really sorry this happened to you K and I truly wish I could take all the pain he put you through away. I think being the eldest cousin I feel I let you down and even though I personally didn’t go through what you did I still suffered my own shit and still am.
Fuck him for doing it.

5/3/2012 1 comment

I swear

by whattodowhattodo 4/25/2012

written by whattodowhattodo

I swear if i hear one more person tell me im young and too naive to truly grasp what life is really about im going to go on a killing spree (not really, but im definitely going to scream at the top of my lungs) i have honestly had more life experience than most of the “adults” i know. ive had to deal with things most people could never even imagine, most things people would NEVER even want to imagine. Ive had to be strong in situations ive seen “adults” just crumble to pieces in. Who do you think takes care of the “adults”? we […]

4/25/2012 5 comments

Parents

by U.N. Owen 4/4/2012

written by U.N. Owen

Coming from a religion heavy city and family abortion is not a choice for them.

And very few of them believe in adoption because they feel like if a person has a child that person should have no option at all but to raise the child despite the circumstances. Their philosophy is “God will provide.”

Seems like reality in some cases is a bit different. On sites like this and in RL there are so many children who are neglected and abused by their parents.Â Which of course does not doom them but does give them a more difficult start than children without that problem.

To the point […]

4/4/2012 2 comments

I want to disappear.

by NotReallyHereAtAll 3/10/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I want to disappear. I don’t think I want to die as such, I just don’t want to exist, either.

That’s it really, I just don’t want to exist anymore. If I could just flick a switch and not be here anymore, I would. I would do it straight away, no questions asked. I suppose that switch is basically a permanent one, a switch of life or death.

That’s the thing though, I’m unsure whether it’s suicide I want. I want to not be here but I don’t want to be dead.

So am I suicidal? Is it suicidal to just want to disappear?

I hate the word ‘suicide’, […]

3/10/2012 33 comments

Relapse

by sidadd 2/29/2012

written by sidadd

Things were starting to look up, but it’s all coming crashing down. I was getting stronger, not having the violent and/or scary thoughts anymore, my grades were getting better, and I was just starting to go back to my old self. Today I realized that I’m apparently not ok. A girl working in my group on a project we presented today shoved my copy in my face snobbily sarcastically thanking me for my help. I tried to help write it in class, but she took it home and never contacted the rest of us like she was supposed to, so she ended up doing it […]

2/29/2012 3 comments

Stuck

by shockwave 2/20/2012

written by shockwave

hi
i’m 15 and feeling suicidal. i have felt like this for the last 2 years, things have being getting worse every day and this is wrecking my head. i’m so sad and i no there is teenagers and adults in the world that have much worse lives than i have. i hate going to school going anywhere in public, i’ve lost so many friends in school over this because i guess i’ve changed, i just want to die but the only thing is stopping me is my family especially my mum i don’t want to hurt her. Life is really not easy especially feeling […]

2/20/2012 5 comments

I don’t know where to turn.

by Rage 2/10/2012

written by Rage

This year and last year have been hard.

I found out a couple of Â horrible things about my birth parents and family.

I’ve spiraled down ever since that and I’ve relapsed with cutting.

I’m extremely insecure and I hardly ever go out in public except for school.

I’m a shy, secretive person.

It’s hard for me to stick up for myself.

I let people take advantage of my kindness.

I hate howÂ unassertive I am.

I bottle up my feelings because I can’t express them to people.

I’m ashamed of my scars.

I believe I’m too emotional at times.

I’m constantly down on myself because it’s normal for me.

At my old school I was on the swim […]

2/10/2012 2 comments

Scared

by Bella-omy 2/9/2012

written by Bella-omy

Me, I’m scared. I’m still a young little girl and I’m going threw things I wish I wasn’t. To adults, they think its my fault. I’m starting to think maybe it is. Its ME who isÂ strugglingÂ ,I make myself struggle. I try to “Love” but there is no love for any young girl. Theres only lust. And if you have love, your a lucky son of a *****. I want to feel love. because everyone I date I say I’m in love but I’m n0t. Could it be that I just started dating?. I struggle with pain, anger, sadness and more . Â But why, why me. […]

2/9/2012 2 comments

I’ve had it with this damn double vision, My hand’s swollen, I can’t keep holding on, My heart’s sinking and stuck in deadly rhythm, I can’t fake it, I can’t, can’t brush it off….

by Nat.... 1/21/2012

written by Nat....

ok,Â So that guy started talking to me again last night, he wanted to do it again. But i made up excuses like i wanted to do but had other things to do and i had to go….

And then today on facebook, One of his friends who he told about our past actions asked me this….’answer this question honestly ok? â™¥Â if i offered to shag you 😉 what would you say? ;)â™¥’. I couldnt believe it…. I feel so dirty and used.

And all of that just added to yesterday, my dad didnt even say […]

1/21/2012 76 comments

Choice of two evils

by notinteresting1 8/15/2011

written by notinteresting1

To everyone, please think before you act. You are more amazing than you think. I have a fortune that came out of a fortune cookie, it says “No matter what your past has been, you have a spotless future.” And it’s true. I have seen so many amazing people on here, inspiring people, children, teenagers, adults, parents, survivors and people on the brink of despair. I have read posts from people who could be soulmates, people who are beyond ‘saving’ and have made up their minds. I wish you all well and hope that, if death does take you, that it brings what you want.

8/15/2011 4 comments

Losing touch and scared

by littlebluesuns 4/9/2009

written by littlebluesuns

I think I am suicidal. Â I’m not really sure, because I’m not sure of anything anymore. Â I don’t want to hurt myself or be in pain or punish myself. Â I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. Â It is getting increasingly unbearable, and I don’t know what to do.

I was almost murdered in October by gun violence (it was a very close call), and I have since been diagnosed with depression and PTSD. Â I have never been a depressed person in my life, ever. Â I just read on a website I found that PTSD can cause suicidal feelings, and I do feel a tiny […]

4/9/2009 5 comments

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