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Alcohol and reality

by wndozh8er 8/16/2015

written by wndozh8er

I actually cried tonight, thinking about what happened over these past three days. Did a lot of psychoanalysis on myself. As you all know, Thursday night I started drinking cooers light. It’s the only alcohol my aunt will allow me to have. The problem is, I sober up to fast. The bigger problem is that I feel like a monster when I’m sober but when I’m drunk all my worries go away and I can be myself (in a way). I get scared of sobering up because I know that once I do, my problems will come back.

That night, I said screw it and decided […]

8/16/2015 5 comments

please help..

by praj 8/12/2015

written by praj

I want to die and the option i have chosen is cutting vein of wrist… I have gone through all advices. But i just want suggestions for some painkillers to avoid the pain after cuts. Actually i cant see blood, and if its with pain then i am sure i will fail. I am 21 years old girl. Please give me suggeations and list of drugs which will easily available in medical.

And do anyone knoe what it advil/avil.. I think its a drug; overdose of which will cause death. Please give information about this also. Do fast as i habe just 10-12 hours left.

8/12/2015 16 comments

The wheel weaves

by FeelingFunny 8/10/2015

written by FeelingFunny

We all have so much to deal with. I wish everyone in this life the best of outcomes. The wheel keeps spinning regardless of whether or not it’s too fast to keep pace with. Don’t fall off the tracks my bros and sisters. Just keep running, falling, and getting back up to do it some more. Peace and love be with you all.

8/10/2015 1 comment

Fight or Flight

by WhiskeyGirl 8/1/2015

written by WhiskeyGirl

I have been a fighter all my life, molested as a child and growing up in extreme poverty in Flint, Bullied constantly and then raped when I was 15. Depression has never been a stranger to me, but I always wondered whether it was circumstantial or a chemical imbalance. I met my boyfriend of 7 years in high school and attended college, I even sought help from a psychiatrist who prescribed me Seroquel and told me I had Bipolar Disorder, the pills made me a zombie for 5 years but for once in my life my insomnia went away. Fast forward to now, my boyfriend […]

8/1/2015 4 comments

Why Now

by hiitsme0819 7/28/2015

written by hiitsme0819

gone away now does he dare
take the path that leads nowhere
all alone and without hope
he’ll no longer have to cope

just a sip is all it takes
to wash away all his mistakes
half asleep and fading fast
now his pain will finally pass

now he’s gone and how they cry
in the grounds where he will lie
no one cared when he was here
why now must they shed a tear

7/28/2015 0 comment

Lost Loved Ones

by brodie3750 7/27/2015

written by brodie3750

i don’t understand how people can be there one day and then all of a sudden they’re gone.

It’s not fair that we should talk every day for weeks on end and create this beautiful friendship where we are open and honest with each other and then lose it all. And for what? We got together and I spent the night at your house and we stayed up talking and kissing and, to put it in a word, caressing one another. Then when I admit my feelings to you, you shoot me down. It’s cool if you don’t want a relationship, I can live with that. […]

7/27/2015 1 comment

Goggles

by Bisban 7/27/2015

written by Bisban

A peasant from a thousands of years ago

I’m falling in a south-west

Somewhere, with fast speed internet

And then you’ll be, alright

I want to, maybe an Argonian

For so long ago

Shooting lighting and breathing fire

I’m so quick but doesn’t exist

Autumn is coming and farewell to you

7/27/2015 1 comment

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by sadsadist 7/15/2015

written by sadsadist

Fight me slow fuck me fast your still my friend take off the mask

7/15/2015 0 comment

Revenge finally sweet.

by BrokenAngel8 7/12/2015

written by BrokenAngel8

Its funny how ones mood can get better so fast for a moement. I went on a trip to a water park yesterday with my sister and a few friends. Found out from one of my friends that my recent ex tried to sabotage me publicly and his planned backfired on him badly…. Just because I spoke about the bullshit hes done to me behind my back on social media. I havent felt so good in a long time. XD

Now off to work for the next 6 days off the day after then traveling for 2 days after that.

7/12/2015 2 comments

10 points

by puffin 7/5/2015

written by puffin

I like lists, here’s “my story” in a list:

1. Decent (but not decent enough) suicide attempt in 2012 (overdose and wrist-cutting). No prior attempt and no attempt since (yet).

2. Spent a while in hospital recovering.

2. Mis-diagnosis of bipolar disorder.

3. Lived in a phyciatric hospital for a few months.

4. Re-diagnosed with major depression and anxiety.

5. Tried all the drugs (citalopram to lithium and all in between).

6. Lost job (and everything else). Unemployed.

7. Fast forward to 2015.

8. Finally back to “living a normal life” (Job, boyfriend, etc.) Not on any medication for a year.

9. Seriously considering suicide again (most likely gassing or hanging). I have a plan […]

7/5/2015 2 comments

Effexor day 4

by Rotted_Flesh 7/4/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

The goods: Sleeping patterns and grogginess in the morning significantly improved even with my Xanax, Restoril and Seroquel taken right before bedtime and those usually leave me feeling pretty sluggish the morning after. Energy levels have improved somewhat, slight restless feeling mirrored with a slight feeling of being content. Less flashbacks and bad memories so far.

The bads: Dry mouth/throat, some hotflashes, some heart palpitations, impotence, content feeling but at the same time not happy and still feel like I have even more motivation to kill myself. I guess it’s like a trade, my body feels energetic and my mind feels a bit clearer but at […]

7/4/2015 3 comments

There’s a punchline

by One Million Masks 6/19/2015

written by One Million Masks

I don’t think I ever said exactly what it was that landed me back here– don’t worry, for once I’ll be brief. There isn’t much to say.

Last year was quite frankly the worst period of time I’ve ever had to suffer through in my short, miserable life, from New Year’s day all the way through to the end of December.

This year, since its very start, has been nothing short of completely calm.

Nothing terrible has happened.
Nothing new. Nothing even especially distressing.

And yet here I am.

Still.

I can’t recall having ever hated myself or my existence among the living as much as I do currently, and this […]

6/19/2015 0 comment

Just pretended it

by Listen 6/11/2015

written by Listen

In the name of an addiction my best friend taught me to follow

I tried to stay positive even though I pretended it

It helped cause at home I was lacking a happy ending

Growing never knowing what the present was doing

Living life like a big mystery.

18, I knew I was done with it.

I cracked, cleaned up, and packed my bags.

Florida bound.

Swore I would never go back.

It’s a shame how fast time has passed.

Movin’ so fast

It’s like I’m moving at lightspeed

Slowdown..

You need to slowdown every once in awhile sometimes

To see how the world goes round

Cause you don’t know, you don’t

No, you don’t need to go so fast

6/11/2015 2 comments

by Alonelyfool 5/16/2015

written by Alonelyfool

I went driving. Thinking “how fast do i need to drive into this tree to kill me and cash.” [cash is my dog by the way] What kept running through my head was my baby. I cant leave him but i don’t have the heart to kill him.

I shoulda drove off the road that night.

Its hard to fight depression man. Its like it creeps up and takes over. And im doin what im supposed to but when im alone, my mind wonders. I get sad. I have thoughts. I hate bein alone.

I got my whole world wrapped up in a dog. When […]

5/16/2015 2 comments

manipulative, coy, playing games

by kristink 5/13/2015

written by kristink

the day is coming fast. i have things to do. death preparations someone told me. making sure things are in order- savings accounts, insurance policies, bills for the month paid. gonna start cleaning my closet. nothing obvious. been writing goodbye letters in my head. there is a small part of me who is screaming . the majority says shut up. i can’t explain what is going on in my head. rapid mood swings, not wanting to talk, wanting to be alone. all kinds of physical complaints. too late to address those. too late to address my fucked up head. i accept responsibility for the fucked […]

5/13/2015 0 comment

Speechless

by emmurementsss 5/10/2015

written by emmurementsss

Ever feel like you can’t get any words out? Let alone care enough about communicating? I guess it’s my way of saying fuck you to the world, just ignoring everyone and everything. In life is death, in death is life. Bringing an end to an inevitable miserable life is not cowardly, at least it will be on my own terms. You know what pisses me off the most? These “social norms” that we are all supposed to abide by. The “how are you”, “I’m good thanks and you” get pretty fucking old very fast. I guess I’m just sick of it all. I’m sick of […]

5/10/2015 3 comments

So hard

by FeelingFunny 5/1/2015

written by FeelingFunny

I can’t stand it anymore. Seconds feel like hours, minutes like days. This microwave dinner just wont cook fast enough. What can I do? In need of serious help people.

5/1/2015 7 comments

Why Am I Still Here?

by Anon313131 4/23/2015

written by Anon313131

Three weeks ago, I posted what I had hoped was the last thing I’d ever write. Fast forward three weeks and I am still here, afraid to kill myself. I know how I want to do it, I know what needs to be done to end it. I’ve lost my girlfriend, distanced myself from friends and family as much as possible, written my notes, everything is in order. Despite all these things, I am still so afraid to attempt suicide again because I am afraid to fail for a second time. I ask myself every day why I am here, why I allow myself to […]

4/23/2015 3 comments

Am I numb or okay?

by goingnumb 4/22/2015

written by goingnumb

I don’t know how I’m feeling I can usually tell but this morning I woke up and I just feel here my thoughts aren’t really there now it’s just images and words passing by in my head so fast it’s hard to make them out. I don’t know what I’m thinking and that bugs me a lot no being able to feel what I’m feeling

4/22/2015 0 comment

Totally Empty

by 88sswan 4/16/2015

written by 88sswan

Let me start by saying that overall I had a good childhood I alone am to blame for my current situation. My parents were very strict on me when I was young and my father in particular wanted me to play football. He always was disappointed in me. He never thought I was man enough calling me names and cursing at me even though I tried so hard.

My younger brother was his favorite and he did nothing to earn it. He never had to toughen up or try out for football or any of that stuff. My father loved him unconditionally.

Fast forward about ten years […]

4/16/2015 1 comment

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