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by reba2013 9/10/2013

written by reba2013

Been a while since I vented to my fellow suicidies. Thankfully, I haven’t been feeling so suicidal lately– but I still feel mentally unstable. I guess most of the reason for my mental stability has been my comfort in solitude and repetition. As much as the repetitive drag of everyday seems to weigh me down, I’ve felt quite anchored in it.

A few days ago I received the ominous “hey” text from an ex boyfriend. My repetitive reality has been temporarily shattered. It’s been almost a year since I last spoke to this ex boyfriend. I’ve been through a couple stages: When is he going to […]

9/10/2013 4 comments

Loneliness.

by buffalosong 9/8/2013

written by buffalosong

I need really to talk.

I got a whole buch of meds just beside me. I don’t know if it’s enough, but it’s all I got. I got a whole bottle of wine already.

I feel lonely. I’m 33 years old years.Thanks I got already a therapist. Doesn’t help that much.

I’ve been chasing the same guy for two years and half. I’ve met a guy a few days ago who just don’t reply anymore to text messages. Even though he seem very interested.

I met a girl last month. She just told me today I “was a nice person” but she met someone else. It’s rare I got […]

9/8/2013 1 comment

One month of bliss, 2 years of hell

by theoneguywhodiedinside 8/28/2013

written by theoneguywhodiedinside

My head hurts right now, but not as much as my… thing that pumps blood? Heart! Oh yeah, I almost forgot I had one. Mangled, shot, and stabbed, and still breathing till this day. Quite impressive resilience.

Maybe it’s because college is here again, or I’m slipping into insanity already, but I started missing my ex again. Relapsing, if you would. It’s been getting stronger and stronger the past few days, even though it’s been 2 years already. And I don’t know why. I’ve even resorted to jacking it to her public profile pics on the Book of Faces. Probably my lowest low of all the […]

8/28/2013 2 comments

Bitching and Moaning

by PortableHead 8/27/2013

written by PortableHead

Hello! I’ve decided to use this site to blow off steam, to get some weight off of my chest so to speak. Everything I post I am positive you have heard it all before so feel free to skim over it and move on. I just need somewhere to ***** and moan as the title suggests.

The cancerous bastard that is depression didn’t fully hit me until the day of my 19th birthday (I’m 21 now), though I know that I felt pangs of it before that. You could contribute it to teenage hormones and what not but in High School I was not the happiest […]

8/27/2013 2 comments

I really don’t know what to do…

by Ann 8/27/2013

written by Ann

It’s taken me my whole life to realise that have never been “happy.” I was never happy as a child, tween, and now into my teenage years, my sad feelings have developed into anxiety, anorexia, self harm, and suicidal thoughts. I turned to drug use and alcohol. I still smoke and drink a lot. I have these sleeping pills and sometimes I just hold them and think about how easy it would be to just go. I am disgusted by my body and spirit. I think sometimes, it’s not worth living if I can’t even love myself. I have been trying to like […]

8/27/2013 5 comments

School.

by ussmd 8/26/2013

written by ussmd

I’m back on campus and it’s just overwhelming. Between school and my other responsibilities I get so stressed. And I just cry. I’ve been doing good about not having bad thoughts (why am I alive? whats the point? why did I die when I tried? etc..) but the past few days they’ve come back with a vengeance. And I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to do life.

8/26/2013 3 comments

starving for affection

by blindaudio 8/26/2013

written by blindaudio

My home life really isn’t as bad as some here. But, I’m not going to say it is spactacular, because I would not be telling the truth.

But at home, there is always conflicts. People are always unhappy. And if I want to talk to anyone in my family about my feelings of depression or emptiness or loneliness, they get shoved asside. When I went to the mental home last year and my parents found I was suicidal, it was more like, you’re turning your back on god, or, how could you be so selfish?

I never want to be a greedy person or selfish, […]

8/26/2013 13 comments

Accident

by renegadeRaenbow 8/25/2013

written by renegadeRaenbow

I thought I would be okay, but in three day’s time, I had another accident.
A few days ago, I slit my wrist up. Never deep enough to kill, but just enough sting to get the point across. I padded it up and wrapped an ace bandage around it, claiming I just sprained it. No one at work questioned it, my boyfriend didn’t say anything outright about it. It’s hard to keep things from him though. So I told him. He grabbed my wrist and took a glance. He said my name, which sounded so… Off. It doesn’t feel right when he says it. It […]

8/25/2013 5 comments

Rationality!!

by RealTalk30 8/24/2013

written by RealTalk30

I was just thinking.. And I feel this way often. Suicide can be a very irrational way of escaping your problems. For this reason particular (but not souly for this reason alone)

Point being.. You are going to die anyways!

I’m not trying to be illogical, ignoring how people feel and the terminally ill.

But it’s true..you are guaranteed to die, wether it’s in the next few days or weeks or in 90+ years from now..it’s going to happen.

There are manny reasons people would not want to live, mostly these reasons revolve around Situation, Declination, and Mindset.
But in any situation, in any level of desperation..Mindset […]

8/24/2013 6 comments

I have to kill myself within the next few days

by mooninlove89 8/22/2013

written by mooninlove89

Hello. I have been suicidal since my teens and I am now 23.

2 months ago I became homeless (I have been staying at a shelter for Â young adults and it is also where I met my 18 year old boyfriend). Â 1 month ago I got pink eye and started treating it about 2 weeks ago trying 2 different medications, I am going to get it checked again today;…it is *really* bothering me and I cannot get rid of it. I also have eczema and Body Dysmorphic Disorder (which is why I really want to end it). Â I also want to be genderless and not have […]

8/22/2013 4 comments

Lyrics

by XxWhyxX 8/22/2013

written by XxWhyxX

Lyrics to a song have always been a huge deal for me, I like to always decipher them and hear the inner story… I came across a song I hadn’t heard in years. Hearing the familiar song made me cry, not the silent kind of tears, but the body shaking sobs that take you over for hours at a time… The kind of cry session that makes you think of every single event in your screwed up twisted life. The words to the song spinning in your head over and over again…

It was probably the most amazing thing I have ever felt… Finally […]

8/22/2013 8 comments

Kicked out, Moved in, Utterly Alone.

by Fallen_Hearts_Hopes_Lost 8/19/2013

written by Fallen_Hearts_Hopes_Lost

A week ago I was kicked out of my mothers house by her and her boyfriend because I finally told her that I plan to move in with my elder sister, who my mother hates (she isn’t her mother though). Â So all in one afternoon I packed what I needed and I got out…. in the back seat of a cop car I had never felt so free.

That freedom continued for a few days until the other night I got home from work and I cried. I hated it so much that it made me regret moving here, not that I had anywhere else to […]

8/19/2013 0 comment

Why now.

by mumblebumblebee 8/18/2013

written by mumblebumblebee

I have been clean for 10 weeks, which is a tremendous achievement for me, as I’ve never gone for this long.
The only thing that comes with this, however, is the overwhelming urges, especially at this time, when emotional release is important right now. I struggle to find any other forms of emotional release, I really struggle.
I am receiving my exam result in a few days, and if I fail it will affect me hugely, I would’ve let down my parents, who have held me a high standard I have enjoyed working towards, but the pressure is immense now.
I am also caught in […]

8/18/2013 1 comment

They underestimate me…

by Engeltje 8/18/2013

written by Engeltje

I few days ago I had a meeting with my doctor an psychiatrist, and my doctor was like: “Oh, and ofcourse next week thursday is your leaving date.” Just in middle of the conversation, and I was like: “What??!! O.o” because it wasn’t the plan, we would discuss about what next, staying longer in the psychiatric hospital or getting therapy, on next week tuesday, and he already made a discision, which he would not change clearly. They had the plan to send me home with no therapy, while I still need help, and I wrote a poem about it, because I waa really confused […]

8/18/2013 7 comments

What Have I Become?

by Soroxen 8/15/2013

written by Soroxen

Strength. Courage. Love. Happiness.

I thought I was strong, but these past few days have shown me otherwise.Â I’ve slowly been changing each and every day…and not for the better.

A few years ago, I used to be suicidal. I would only wake up in the mornings to think about death, cutting, and hatred. I hated the world around me and it hated me back. I had accepted that. I got no support from friends or family surrounding me so I had learned to depend on only myself. It took a few years, but I was able to get past all this. I had finally believed that I […]

8/15/2013 25 comments

So you want to end your life? Giving up? Lost? No one to talk to? I’m here.. No judgement. Read this first then talk to me! If it didn’t change your perspective, maybe i can.

by alexaawearsprada 8/10/2013

written by alexaawearsprada

DON’T YOU DARE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJxgrSCZJ1s

Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother, father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say â€œFinally, theyâ€™re gone.â€ No, they will not say â€œIâ€™m happy they did that.â€ No, they will not say â€œI never loved them anyways.â€ They will die. Their hearts will […]

8/10/2013 10 comments

Nowhere to turn, my time is up

by desperatefortheend 8/1/2013

written by desperatefortheend

I have been lost for such a long time.Â I sometimes think it started the day my mother died but that isn’t it.Â Â Or the day I asked for helpÂ the first time I tried to kill myself, and the military discharged me instead.Â I really don’t know where I went wrong.Â It seems when I ask for help, or try to talk about it, people either don’t want to listen or don’t believe me.Â I mean really, how can someone my age be going through this.Â I am the one who has these feelings and I struggle to believe it myself.

I left my life aÂ 5 years […]

8/1/2013 4 comments

We’re Just One Big Broken Family

by Dez 8/1/2013

written by Dez

I’ve only been on here for a few days but I already feel at home here.

I don’t know most of you, but I consider each and everyone of you as family.

In our family we’re accepted no matter how weird we are. We’re here for each other no matter what. No matter what your problem is there are people here who understand and who want to help. I really admire that in us.

We might all be broken and on the verge of death, but that’s okay. We’re all here to be repaired and to try and strive for the best.

You’re not alone in this world.

This website […]

8/1/2013 42 comments

I Can’t Stand You Now

by sleeplessinSTL 7/17/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

This Saturday, I’m going to a One Republic concert. I was really excited because I was bringing my best friend Kathrine and my other friend Morgan. Morgan and I used to be best friends, but she started ignoring me this year. In school, she would give me these short bullshit answers every time I tried to talk to her. We used to sit right next to each other, but she put two people between us. And then when we got home from school she would text me, acting as if she’d never done those things. So, I started ignoring her outside of school. She got […]

7/17/2013 7 comments

by TheBlackArm 7/17/2013

written by TheBlackArm

I’ve been fighting off my own severe depression for 29 years, rather successfully, with an attitude that depression isn’t real, and thoughts about ending my life are just me being weak and unable to handle problems. But this tactic worked better when I was younger with opportunity ahead of me and the “my future will be bright” keeping me going; now that I’m 29, over educated and underemployed, fighting off depression with sheer will is becoming harder and harder, and the suicidal plans come easier and are more realistic and acceptable in my mind.
It’s less than day to day now; it’s hour to […]

7/17/2013 1 comment

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