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F*cked up kid

by Koiffee 5/26/2016

written by Koiffee

…my parents are arguing again. Their sudden quiet voices made me open my door slightly…they were too quiet. But not gentle-quiet.

Stone cold quiet.

I have been carrying this loneliness and emptiness and self-hatred for so long…and today it seems worse than ever.

It tears me apart so much and I feel guilty of being here…I’ll mess things up even more I know.

I don’t know how to escape this. I really don’t. I feel so lonely and detatched…and I’m not only talking about my parents arguing. I just know that If I didn’t feel so cold and sad all the time they wouldn’t be arguing so much.

Everything’s so cold […]

5/26/2016 2 comments

I’ve been through the storm, but where is my rainbow?

by Bri 4/19/2016

written by Bri

The past few weeks have been Hell, to say the least.

Since my ex boyfriend broke up with me he has been keeping me around, telling me he loves me even though he’s with this other girl. I refused to tell him I loved him, I still love him. Fuck I still love him. He tells her everything he ever told me… I find it kinda funny within a few days he was already with her too. Probably cheated on me. She’s so much prettier than I am too, probably gave him more than I could have. Yet he insists on saying he still loves me. […]

4/19/2016 6 comments

How do I tell them

by brxken._.lxcks 4/1/2016

written by brxken._.lxcks

Now that summer is coming I’m going to have to start wearing short sleeves so at one point I’m either going to have to tell my parents or they will find out about the scars that I have made on my wrist. I want to tell them that I have been doing it to myself but I don’t know how to tell them, and when I do tell them they are going to tell my whole family. And if my whole family find out they are going to start asking me questions all the time, and watching everything I do. It will make me even […]

4/1/2016 3 comments

Psyco

by Drowning 3/19/2016

written by Drowning

im not one really for emotions I still don’t really understand them but looking at my daughter In a room full of people knowing you would kill anyone who caused her any pain to cry or even make her sad and you would do anything for her is this love ?

Like I said before I don’t feel connected to anyone is this love ? I don’t think one can love anything more deep then a parents love I’m not a psyco am I it’s normal for a parent to want to kill for the kid right ?

is finding true love really a myth then ?

Anyways […]

3/19/2016 1 comment

I Remember

by DexQuietlyBreaking 3/17/2016

written by DexQuietlyBreaking

I remember their voices as I lay there in the hospital bed.

Asking over and over why I did it. Why I took those pills. Why I wanted it all to end.

I remember laying there and for a split second I didn’t know. Here’s these people standing over me, tears in their eyes, and broken hearts beating in their chest.

Whether I were their kid, friend or brother, they all had a sign in their eyes that a piece of them almost died with me.

This is what I think about when suicide comes to mind.

Even if you want to die, you have to take a second to realize […]

3/17/2016 3 comments

My Guilt.

by GTSuicide_6 3/5/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

My guilty sentiments are very vulnerable.

Everything makes me feel guilty.

From the smallest things like knocking over a pencil,

To blaming myself for the Holocaust,

I don’t kid.

I am burdened with my own blame. My own Guilt.

Everything makes me guilty.

I am the cause of everything bad and I deserve to die horribly.

What the most recent experience? Take ten seconds ago. A peer at my school e-mailed me asking what questions we had to do for class. I wish I wrote down her parts on my paper, not just mine. But I only wrote my parts, because its only my responsibility, right?

Wrong.

I’m a selfish bastard who only considered myself […]

3/5/2016 4 comments

yikes

by itsme-cammy 3/1/2016

written by itsme-cammy

It’s stupid to think that nobody would miss you if you died. Incredibly so, because someone is bound to notice and miss your presence. Your friends, family, pets, that guy you sit next to at work or class. That’s never been the issue for me, I guess.

Ive been doing so good. I thought that maybe it wasn’t so bad anymore. I didn’t want to die, I wanted to move on. Relapse really sucks. I wish…I wish that I had a better time with those therapists. I wish my psychiatrist actually helped me, I wish the pills worked but they didn’t. What […]

3/1/2016 1 comment

Protected: go away

by Dungeon 1/19/2016

written by Dungeon

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1/19/2016 5 comments

failure

by Disposable Human 1/14/2016

written by Disposable Human

the court is giving me 60 days in which to get clean and fix my mental problems or i’m not allowed time with my kid. i get drug tested tomorrow and saturday.

tomorrow is fucked. if i stop tonight/this morning – i wonder if the coke and alcohol will show up saturday?

1/14/2016 6 comments

I’m back…

by -E- 12/24/2015

written by -E-

So I’m back… It’s been over a year since my last post and at the current moment I’m not really suicidal. I’m just in pain and I’m scared. There’s a girl I used to be good friends with and she was kinda like my therapist and now we don’t talk. Over the past year my emotions have built up and now they’re starting to be released… Violently. And I’m scared. There’s a girl I wanna ask out but if she says yes, what if I accidentally go off on her? I don’t want to hurt her. I really like her. I’m just scared […]

12/24/2015 3 comments

Protected: Feeling better now.

by daitya1989 12/22/2015

written by daitya1989

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12/22/2015 1 comment

This time of year

by Mary Love 12/17/2015

written by Mary Love

This time of the year is literally so hard. It is hard for me to concentrate. I hate making excuses for myself but I just try to close up this time of year. Daddy has been gone for three years now and it doesn’t get any easier. I miss him so much. There are so many anniversaries this time of year. Nov. 29th, 2012, the day I had to call the cops on my own mother because she tried to fight me in the street. Nov. 30th, 2012, the day my daddy died in my arms. Dec. 8th, 2012, the day I planned, all by […]

12/17/2015 1 comment

What lifted my heart yesterday

by SoVeryTired 12/6/2015

written by SoVeryTired

I was setting up the Christmas tree, bittersweetly aware that it would be my last Christmas, when my (grownup) son joined me for a bit, and reminisced about bits of decoration – a garland he had made in primary school – little fake parcels he had thought as a kid to contain lollies, only to discover to is great disappointment that they just contained tiny blocks of styrofoam – no matter how many of them he opened LOL

For some reason that broke through to me. All the sudden the abstract “my sons love me” became alive again.

So lets just say, I am now a bit […]

12/6/2015 3 comments

Just let him be

by outinthedark 12/3/2015

written by outinthedark

So right now in my hometown, there’s this kid who disappeared on Monday. He’s 16 and he left two suicide notes and the whole community is looking for him and it’s all over Facebook. And for some reason everytime I see one of those posts that they’re still pushing everyone to look for him and people think they saw him on the side of the freeway, everytime I see one of those posts, I can’t help but think “just let him be.” If he doesn’t want to be here, don’t make him stay. Just let him be. And I know it’s just people caring for […]

12/3/2015 1 comment

Another night of not sleeping.

by thefreed 12/1/2015

written by thefreed

Lately I have had insomnia (again). I mean I always liked not sleeping at night, guess I just liked the quiteness and tranquil aspect about it.

Yet too much crazy things are happening in my life. Do you guys ever feel like that? How reality seems stranger than fiction, and not at all how like it used to be when you were a kid. I think I am going insane, or maybe I already am…

I don’t know why crazy things are always happening in my life. It’s more than just a coincidence. Like how my life panned out. It goes all the way to my grandfather, […]

12/1/2015 6 comments

Nostalgia: Part 2

by InhalingAnxiety 11/20/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Nostalgia: Part 2

Sometimes things come up that remind me of my childhood or mostly my teenage years and it makes me more depressed. And it’s not because I had a horrible childhood (it wasn’t great, but others had it worse), but whenever I’m “taken back” to those times of my life, I automatically compare it to now. Usually what reminds me are old games no one plays anymore or popular music I remember being released and it played nonstop on the radio that no one knows anymore. Like those things I grew up with and still love to this day.. they don’t matter anymore. If I go up […]

11/20/2015 0 comment

Protected: I don’t have single happy memory in mind.

by daitya1989 11/10/2015

written by daitya1989

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11/10/2015 8 comments

Protected: The Pain Will Never Go.

by daitya1989 11/9/2015

written by daitya1989

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11/9/2015 6 comments

11:11

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 11/3/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

The time I started writing this. You’re supposed to make a wish at 11:11. In some ways, I’m selfish. I wish for a lot of things when this time comes round. And so far, I don’t think any of them have come true.
I still don’t feel comfortable in this fucking body. My gender makes no fucking sense. Dysphoria is a *****, and with fluid gender it fucking suck, because my body and gender never quite match.
It’s stuck in my head that everyone hates me. No-one bothers with me anymore, I’m just that fucked up kid that people put up with because I’m friends […]

11/3/2015 2 comments

Hey- new kid here

by Natalie 11/1/2015

written by Natalie

So um im Natalie and i dont really know what to write so i think i will just list a few facts about myself!

-bipolar

-used to cut

-smokes weed rarely

-ive been drunk once

-brother with down-syndrome

-no father

-tried to commit suicide 7 times

-absent mother

-no one to talk to

-cares for my three brothers by myself

-16

11/1/2015 6 comments

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