she was like a mom to me, a figure i never had before,i loved her when she was gone, and i hated her when she was around, she was either in an over protective mood were she drove me crazy, or in a cool person mood, were you could tell her anything and not be scared,i was never use to someone being so protective over me, i was always use to being kicked out of the house and left to sleep out side under a pine tree,where noone wondered or cared if i was even alive,but with her,if i came in the door a minute […]
Well, I was totally breaking down. Maybe a couple days away from ending it all and you caught me. You found me..even though I know i’m not good enough for anyone, you make me feel like i’m good enough for you. Havent been on here in a couple of days and I’m on here again because my ex boyfriend depresses me. But you’ll text me and ask what’s wrong, and make things better. I’d hate to think where I’d be if I hadn’t met you.
It just seems a bit too good to be true…and that would break me completely.
Im sitting in my apartment listening to the verve and thinking about how lucky i am. I swear i dont im gona stop smiling for a week.
Im happier than usual because i met someone amazing. She is so perfect its crazy. I seriously never thought i would ever meet anyone i could like every again. But this girl has been relentless, i met her in the library and she has been coming up and talking to me for a few weeks now, i have been politely brushing off her advances until now. Last Saturday i was sick of making excuses, i just said look i […]
Daily I think about suicide, but I don’t act on it. It’s just that, combined with school, discovering my sexuality, my appearance and family problems, I don’t know what else to do. Every time I think about this, I think I’m being irrational, but I still can’t help the urge to do it. One thing that really led me to this was discovering I was sexually attracted to girls. Being a girl myself, I find this very hard to understand, due to the fact that I’ve had crushes on guys in the past.
When I think back on it now, sometimes I wonder whether this was […]
This is a picture of me in the summer of 2010, on my 18th birthday. Â I’m the guy in the middle, the two next to me are my younger brothers. Â I picked this picture, because it was pretty much in the middle/peak of the best time period in my life.
Me and jackie became what I would call close friends in early 2009, like around march. Â We had met october of 2008, online. Â She was 13 at the time, and i was 16. Â She lived in […]
Nothinqleft I know what you mean,why can’t they see that I’m dyinq Inside?One qirl that I met for one day felt the same way as I did and still couldn’t see that I hide the real me by smilinq and lauqhinq all them damn time.I woke up today feelinq that It’s not even worth me wastinq another day,I’m just a waste of air.I decided to start cuttinq on my wrist aqain.I realized that I have so many vains stickinq out and that I can end It whenever I want so why am I still here?Is It possible that I don’t wanna die yet?No.I don’t […]
It was valentines day, the day of love, and it was perfect. Things went on normally as they do, except everything was just so much more happier. Because as i had suspected, it would all just go down the drain instantly. Like it always does, i can’t have a great day without something twisted and messed up happening. So it’s 6:30pm and i get back from my new job i was working at [I just got fired from that job as well]. I get called into the residential advisors office because he was looking for me, really, really bad. I thought i was in alot […]
Hi guys, I hope every is feeling better today, even its just a little better, better is better.
I have started teaching at the weekends, its one of the ways i cope with my deppression, i used to be seriously depressed a few years ago, after a few trips to the er a few weeks in rehab and with the help of a new found friend i have my life back.
I work in a rape crysis center, so i talk to people on prohibly the worst day of there lifes, its tough and it tears me upinside, but i achually get to help someone it makes it all […]
I’ve finally finished reading through all my posts on here in the last three years.
ALL 101.
It honestly doesn’t seem like I’ve been doing this for that long, writing on here. It seemed like just yesterday I didn’t know what I was going to do with all my thoughts and feelings of suicide, keeping them wrapped up in my head could only keep me sane for so long and I was afraid I was going to lose it completely, more so then I already had.
Then I found this site, a place where I could get all my feelings out, where I could talk to others who […]
Past a few weeks after crash with me and my Love. I divorced with him, he didn’t with me. Really insane situation. He still needs time and time after time making some short conversation, but as a real Black Scorpio i am living my life without him and not hoping anything.
Before this boyfriend i had a very very very very very big symphaty. He is so great: very funny, smart, working as a reanimatologist, so beautiful, but… usualy he’s just bastard – telling everything what he thinks and talking very dirty things. Last summer we’ve been dating, but he never kissed me as french or […]
right im 22, i live in england and this is my story.
i met the girl of my dreams and we fell in love and after 8 years she is leaving me
i just dont know what todo anymore i feel like my whole life has just been flushed away and im losing everything. iv gave so much up for her and now im having to start all over again. originally i lived in newcastle then i had to move to london with my parents and i had to start over again and there i made friends and stuff then a few years later i met this girl […]
So…. Updates for those who are interseted in me and my mental health, which is probably none of you….:/.
At 1am On Monday 6th February…my new nephew was born, i met him today and he is stunning….im in love, might upload a photo of us…
Im not talking to my dad, still. we got into an arguement after the whole police thing and thats just been it. i miss him though….should i apologise? do i even have anything to apologise for?….
I’m also considering a foster home, because as long as i’m living here i don’t think i’m going to get better…. so much stress and negative atmosphere….
I’m […]
Okay, So I’m 15 years old and my depression all started near the end of summer. It all started a few days after my girlfriend decided to take a break. Just for a week. I lasted about 2 days, Then I gave her a choice. Get back together or never be together again….She told me her friend said that she shouldn’t have to choose if I really loved her. Well She couldn’t have been anymore wrong. I went on with my normal day after that, Got high, ate, then chilled with some friends. After the high wore off I started feeling lonely. I then turned […]
I’m tired of livinq,I wanna qive,qive In Into an attemp.I hope I don’t fail.It suck’s cause I bearly met my new theropist and at first I thouqht he didn’t care but I really like him,It suck’s that I have to disapoint him.If I fail,I’m not qoinq back to the hospital!Today I woke up determinded to do It.I wanna jump In front of a car but then I gave It a lonq  thouqht,how Is It qonna be on the person?I feel like shit,why make that person feel like shit?I’m still practicinq starvinq for Incase If I run away.Who know’s when the next time I’m qonna have […]
SO, I met an amazing person on here, and i can tell I’ll meet many more amazing people. I can help any of you guys out and message you when ever you need me! I AM A REALLY HELPFUL PERSON! AND I’M REALLY BUBBLY WHEN NEEDED!
EMAIL ME!
Naiomyhernandez@gmail.com
ok so my problem is …. me and im ready to admit alot of mistakes iv made …. but im also ready for another life … death to me is freedom from my problems and i dont exspect alot of people to try and understand it …. i feal blocked out from this world and iv always felt iv never quite fited in .. yes i have met alot of people in my life and im happy i met them and wish them no harm but i want them to understand why im ready to die as why im rightin this .. not because i […]
Recently I met a girl at College and we got on really well. A couple weeks passed and I felt like we were getting closer. She moaned about her ex a lot but I thought that was quite normal for girls to do that? She’s the first girl I’ve really spoken to for about 3 years and certainly the first I’ve had feelings for for a very long time. I actually felt alive again. We speak a lot outside of college and text a lot as well. I planned on asking her to do something socially tomorrow at college. It was a weird feeling…. Kind […]
So, my problem may seem stupid to everyone, but its something that has been bothering me for a long time. My best friend… I guess former best friend and I have always fought since about a year after I met him (which was 4 years ago). We had a ton in common back then, and have changed since then and are pretty different now. However, we have always remained great friends minus the fighting all the time. Which, I may say, a lot of the fighting has been my fault as much as his. But, a few weeks ago, it got really bad. He started […]
today.. i left my facebook open.. my friend was
wondering how much i pade for a pop of extacy ..
my mother read it .. she flipped out..
so  i left home not wanting to go back..
i met up with my boyfriend .. and finally had my relese
i got cocane… but now sompthing dosnt feel right..
drugs are all i hav to live for..
I met a guy a year ago and I’ve had a crush on him ever since I saw him. we’ve always been friends and I know he’s been thro a lot and he knows I have too. I’m like best friends with his sister and I went to hang out with her and we went to a party with her bro there. he got drunk and I got drunk and we ended up hooking up. a week later I started to really like him… then over Christmas break we hooked up again.. and I still like him more then before. I’m scared to love him […]