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Yet

by Moneypenny 2/18/2016

written by Moneypenny

Well yesterday was a good day… a lot of things were starting to fix themselves or at least thats how it felt. And yet… I am feeling so incredibly lonely…it’s as if I could go crazy if I don’t have someone to talk to.

but I am feeling so alienated… as if I were talking to people that lived in a parallel dimension, somehow I never reach no one. I feel rejected all the time.

I need people around me, and that’s so hard to achieve, because everyone is busy living their own lives, and I don’t want to live mine

I wanna stop feeling lonely…

2/18/2016 27 comments

Trying something new

by 2717_ 2/18/2016

written by 2717_

I’ve been writing like a kind of journal about how i feel and how its this pain killing me inside, and how hard is to hate yourself and have to deal with it just because you were born that way, and how difficult is to struggle waking up every morning when yesterday night you fell asleep crying and overthinking about how stupid and ugly and how much you wanna die, but there you are living again even when you haven’t ask for it, people judge because the way i feel, i didn’t ask for pain, who would actually think that i asked to hate myself […]

2/18/2016 1 comment

Im falling apart

by 2717_ 2/18/2016

written by 2717_

lately ive been crying and i hate myself so much, ive done horrible things to myself im seriously thinking about suicide with some pils. im fat af and ugly and all the bad things that someone could ever imagine. IM starting to vomit after every meal, im losing my mind lately, and no one notice.

2/18/2016 4 comments

Can’t Let Go

by thehusk 2/17/2016

written by thehusk

I should be asleep. I have to be up in 5 hours. The loneliness is eating at me again. I so badly want someone to understand what’s really going through my head. I want to be wanted for who I really am, rather than who I pretend to be. But it’s impossible. Necessary, but impossible. Can’t let go of it. Can’t fulfill it.

Wish I had something to knock me out every night. During the day I can fill my head with crap to drown out the loneliness.

Instead, I’m stuck in this cycle of feeling exhausted during the day, and then anxious/lonely at night.

2/17/2016 11 comments

Apologies if I offended anyone.

by whiskered-fish 2/17/2016

written by whiskered-fish

I just realized that the title of my last post looks like it couldn’t been a play on “twix this rainbow.” Well, it ISN’T, and I’m sorry if anyone might’ve thought that at all. I’d never mock someone like that, sorry if it looked like I had.

2/17/2016 5 comments

venting, ranting, whatever…

by Alan Ominous 2/17/2016

written by Alan Ominous

First off, I refer to counselors and “Rent-A-Friends”. Someone you pay to pretend to give a shit about you for an hour a week.
The first time I went I was 17, they flat out told me on the 1st visit I was too fucked up for their credentials. This was followed by various suicide attempts. All of which, I feel I sabotaged myself by making reach outs, or just poor planning, or pure coincidence such as a time I OD’d.
Most of my teens and adult life were plagued with severe drug and alcohol abuse.
At the time of meeting my wife, I […]

2/17/2016 1 comment

Blind as a bat or Broken to pieces

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 2/17/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

I’m not even sure how to start. I pulled up from work crying. (And that was before I read Nidda’s post i started really bawling then) Im just defeated in this moment. I will be fired soon because of the urealistic productivity standards. Im listening to an audiobook called the Confidence Gap. Its main focus is that you cant control what thoughts pop in your head but how long they stay. Also it is irrelevant how true a thought is but how helpful one […]

2/17/2016 5 comments

i don’t want attention, i just want someone to listen.

by herecomestheavalanche 2/17/2016

written by herecomestheavalanche

this is a cry for help.

it’s not a yelp for attention, for sympathy, for flowers and hugs and cards.

it’s a plea, to see me, to notice that i exist.

i feel like the world is listing, tilting slowly towards the tipping point. i pray to god above that the earth will straighten itself out, and that all the anger and hate in me turns back into the love it once was.

i want to go to the hospital, but i have too many commitments in my life right now. actually, scratch that, i don’t want to go to the hospital; doing that is a sign that i […]

2/17/2016 2 comments

I Don’t Deserve To Be Happy

by such catcat 2/16/2016

written by such catcat

The more I think about it the more I realize I’m just not a nice person. I can’t remember the last time I made someone happy. I’m just too selfish and lazy to care about too many people and I hate myself for this. Sometimes I just wish I stopped feeling the small amount of happiness I do feel so that I could do nothing but try and make people happy. But I can’t, and that’s why I’m just a waste of living flesh that doesn’t deserve to live. The only reason I’m still alive is because I’m scared to take my own life. Whenever […]

2/16/2016 18 comments

Random Quotes

by twix this rainbow 2/16/2016

written by twix this rainbow

I use to do a fun random quote of the day for my friends in the morning…here are some of them. Thought you guys might some of them funny.

Well, aren’t we a fun filled lollipop tripled dipped in psycho?

Me Crazy? Don’t make me get down off my unicorn and slap you!

Hey, I’ll be back in 5 minutes, but if I am still not back just read this message again.

Starting tomorrow – whatever life throws at me, I am just going to duck so it hits someone else.

My friend thinks he is so smart, he said onions are the only foods that make you cry. So […]

2/16/2016 2 comments

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by Moneypenny 2/15/2016

written by Moneypenny

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Why while everything is going fine, when I know how to deal with things and how to solve my problems do I refuse to be ok?

Why if I know everyone matter and everyone is valuable I just don’t know what to do with that?

Why do I feel so rejected? So inevitably rejected for all I am?

Why do I apologise all the time for what I am? Why can’t I stop apologizing? I hate to apologise for even breathing.

Why do I need to hear from others that I am ok? I need it every minute. I keep all day looking for someone to tell me I […]

2/15/2016 14 comments

I’m just a fuck up

by Drowning 2/15/2016

written by Drowning

I don’t understand why I always manage to mess things up i found someone who understands me loved me and was there for me but I sabatage the relationship that there is no coming back this time I can’t for give my self I would rather just disappear it’s almost been a year and time isn’t healing anything how can u let go of a person if u love them

2/15/2016 3 comments

Question?

by Luci 2/15/2016

written by Luci

I don’t understand how someone with so much love in their heart can kill someone so young. I don’t get it.

But I have a question for all of you:

If you have had a family member or a friend or lover that was a murderer, do you still love them, or hate them for the crime they have committed? Or do you hate the crime they committed and still love them? I would like to know. I know it is personal, but I am at a loss for words at what has happened and need to know I am not […]

2/15/2016 11 comments

Im not gonna make it till next weekend

by rayonhousefly 2/14/2016

written by rayonhousefly

Ive been getting extremely angry at those around me this past little while, and well, they deserve it most of the time. Stupid fucking irritating as fuck want to bash their skulls in every time they open their mouths. Oh how I wish I could. I never would, it makes me feel better to think about though. Stupid fat drunk ***** thinking she’s in any position to give ME advice.

Goddamn it I just need to get the fuck out of here before I hurt someone, that’s just why I’m going to hurt myself instead

2/14/2016 2 comments

Drowning

by Nobody12345 2/14/2016

written by Nobody12345

“I’m drowning
Suffocating
Being crushed
So deep
Alone………So empty
It’s dark
I’m scared
I’m sinking
Will I die if I touch the bottom?
I’m drowning
I fear
dying this way
but the surface is so far above
how much strength do i have left?
Can I reach it?
Is that heaven?
or is it just a breathe of fresh air
before my heart gives out
and i sink back
into the sea
save me
Is there anyone out there?
But who can hear the cries
of a man with no voice
for i am in the depths
and my voice lies far above
will someone […]

2/14/2016 2 comments

My plan

by Moneypenny 2/13/2016

written by Moneypenny

So I stoped talking to my parents if I can avoid it. I am going through that idea of geting my emotional independence, so if one day I do decide to put an end to this whole thing then they will be used to not having me around.

I am in a period of time when I am all alone again. My friends left the country (mine is one of those countries you always want to leave) and they are organizing their own lives. Good for them.

I was thinking that maybe this is how life is supposed to be : you grow up and learn you […]

2/13/2016 18 comments

What is Depression?

by zacsai5 2/12/2016

written by zacsai5

Hey guys. I’m new to this place but I thought I might share something I wrote a couple weeks back. I read someone’s post online saying he was going to commit suicide that day, and I felt this rush of empathetic love toward him. It led me to write a passage about depression.

A very short background about me: I’m a junior in college. Five years ago, I went through a two-year-long period of depression. I attempted suicide in the summer going into my sophomore year of high school. Since then, life has gotten increasingly better each year and I’m eternally grateful that I didn’t succeed […]

2/12/2016 3 comments

The modest, empty shell.

by Kay-Kay 2/12/2016

written by Kay-Kay

Do you ever feel like there is nothing left for you to do,
That everything inside of you has been let go of and you can’t fix yourself anymore than you have tried?
Believing in yourself had an expiration date for me; the day I was born.
Or maybe it was the day I realized I could never be a kid in my family. That I would always have to be some part-adult to take care of the adults around me. And with all of this responsibility I lost myself along the way, I was eliminated and there was no telling to what I had […]

2/12/2016 0 comment

Revelations

by TheRoadSoFar 2/12/2016

written by TheRoadSoFar

It’s true that for some people having a dream is wonderful. Pursuing that dream is the “vital support” that gives them the will to continue on, that gives them the strength to keep getting better and better, and with each day that goes on, they get closer to fulfilling it.

But what if you’re just not meant to fulfill that dream?… What if for whatever reason you simply don’t have the motivation to go on? What if something out of nowhere just holds you from fulfilling it?

Call it whatever you want to call it. Luck. Fate. I don’t believe in any of those things, […]

2/12/2016 3 comments

Kurt Cobain

by dyinginny 2/11/2016

written by dyinginny

“If you die you’re completely happy and your soul somewhere lives on. I’m not afraid of dying. Total peace after death, becoming someone else is the best hope I’ve got.”

2/11/2016 9 comments

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