be straight up I suppose…. My names Serena , I’m in 7th grade at Bemidji Middle School , I have a smile on my face most of the time(= , but everybody knows im ‘depressed’ , because …. I cut myself , a lot… my legs , my arms , my wrists , my stomach…. It make’s me feel better. I don’t know what else to do! , I ALWAYS get called a ; HOE , WHORE , **** , ***** , FAT , UGLY , WORTHLESS , ATTENTION WHORE , DUMB , BOYFRIEND STEALER , etc.. It sucks , a lot , I don’t really feel like anyone cares anymore. I feel like everybodys faking being there for me. , I found out some were already today.. I cried a lot today at school , and on top of that , my boyfriend , I loved , broke up with me… oh well not a big deal… but I lost my big sister … to a car accident. I wish everyday she was here with me </3& my mom left me.. I don’t even know where she lives anymore… but I just don’t know if I can keep going. I really want to kill myself.. I wish everyday that I wont wake up the next day </3 . it sucks but its true.. im not even looking for attention … I’m just putting it out there that I need someone.. to actually care? and not be pretending to care , because everythings pushing me over the edge, and I’m honestly thinking about ending my life tonight…. I just don’t know.. this isn’t even my whole story either….
I need someone.. I have no-one.. </3
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Hi Serena. I’m so sorry that people at your school are being so mean and hateful to you. Is there a teacher that you feel comfortable talking to about what is going on? No one is allowed to be bullying you at school. As a teacher myself, it kills me when I hear how mean some kids can be to others. Please don’t harm yourself. They want you to hurt yourself. Please don’t give up. I care. *hugs*
Serena, i was in your exact shoes with the school situation. It’s like you couldnt even ask for help because ppl would think of you as a freak and attention whore. But keep in mind that you’re in middle school and EVERYONE in middle school besides yourself is stupid. They dont know how to react to anything so they pick on people and knock you down. but think to yourself that one day you will be leaving them all behind. I cut up my entire body like you, i want to let you know that people know what it feels like in your situation. you arent alonen! And you know what? i care about you 🙂 your in seventh grade, theres a chance for it to get better and wish you the best <3 From 9th grader, roobus. sending you lots of love