if you dont like it you can email them about it and they may change it. it depends. although pluto is right. this isnt a site for “ratings”
March 2019
There should be thumbs options for posts too.
Yeah, maybe not a good idea.
Is a thumbs down/thumbs up option even appropriate for a site like this? This isn’t social media. And you can’t see who has done the thumbs down/up. I think its very open to misuse sadly. What if someone wrote a heartfelt reply and only got thumbsdowns… how would they feel?
I survived. The iron didn’t kill me, just made me ill. I texted all my friends to let them know I survived to their relief. Everything seemed to be okay afterwards.
Then, there’s today. I mean, yesterday was terrible because my father’s dog is seriously ill and had diarrhea. Since its in the house, it had a lot of crap everywhere that required a lot of cleaning and time. I was also sick after my attempt so that was added to the mess.
But, at least no one was fighting each other.
Today was a nightmare from hell. My father was pissy, I couldn’t stop crying, my […]
Every day I just feel older and my body is more broken. I’m old (almost 60) and it hurts to stand, sit, lie down, or walk. Every joint aches and my feet, knees, and hips feel like they have been beaten with a hammer every morning. This is the reward you get for working hard your whole life – pain. I will be honest, I am not “in shape” and have never been thin or athletic (not pretty either). I also found out that no one takes you seriously when you are over 40, and some will come right out and insult you in interviews […]
Tomorrow is my 26th Birthday. If I could go back in time a year ago and stop myself from fucking up so many things about myself and my body, it wouldn’t be like this at all. However, in the past 6 months it’s as if I’ve aged so many years and now my body aches. I couldn’t figure out what the fuck to do for work so I got depressed and ended up losing my singing voice because the c.u.n.t. I was living under made me feel uncomfortable. Cat Canary Simmons ended up killing more than just my voice, she killed me Soul & Potential. […]
I’m sicken tired of search results on YouTube being so biased. Everytime I look up physical abuse, I see results pop up mostly only involving women. Like wtf, women aren’t the only ones affected by this! How about we give the children some attention for once! It affects the children way more in my opinion. The mother had more power to end it than the child and YouTube wants to be biased?! As if the wife or girlfriend is the only one affected by the piece of shit husband or boyfriend! I take it as an insult on my pain. It’s as if YouTube is […]
Thank you for the laughs yesterday. It helped me realize that I’m not all alone and invisible. It really means a lot to me!
When I think about you I get sick. I feel myself wanting to crawl out of my own skin. I want to scratch myself out from the inside. I would do anything to get you out of my head and out of my heart. I hate what you have done too me. I hate that I get scared or cry because of you. I know I am safe but my mind can not escape you. I hate you so much, I hate everything you did. It has been almost 2 years since you decided you could do what you did. Since you thought you could […]
Tired. Drained. Hopeless.
When you fail to see the meaning of life, do you really need to be here?
The world would function absolutely fine without you…
Yeah, they would shed a few tears.
He would still have his friends, live his lifestyle.
Little one would soon forget what you look like, forget you were even once there…
I’m trapped, miserable, obligated… I need to be set free.
Too many expectations, too many disappointments.
I need to be released to a world where expectations are less, disappointments are none.
Life. Goes. On.
So ive been tryig to get a therapist for the past little while to appease my friend. Im greeted with rejection everytime. Because i dont have money. If i had the money i wouldnt be where i am. I would have gotten therapy by now. And its nice to know that people dont give a f*ck and only see us as a money grab. To them we are nothing more then the milk and bread thats on almost everyones grocery list. We need the therapy to at least have an understanding of things. To have a small hope of surviving. Nice to know they can […]
I don’t know why should l keep living, it fkin sucks
Today I’m going to laugh at myself. Laugh at my looks. At my messy house. At the piled up clothes. Chipping paint. Later I’m going to drink a few beers. And laugh. I take myself too seriously at times. Then I freeze up and can’t get anything done. I’m hoping if I lighten up it will help. Anyone have a joke to share?
I’ve had depression since I’m 12, now I’m turning 16. Oh fuck how long does it last! I’m having so much trouble explaining the emotional pain I’m in it’s awful! Even with art its hard to express such a pain. Pff psychologists make money with people like me! And I can have all the hatred of the non-depressed people, they’re just as much of a monster as me. Anyway I lost hope long ago. Depression is just an endless cycle. Apparently there are ways to break that cycle but it’s just like propaganda. It’d be best if it were true but it isn’t! But you […]
https://youtu.be/VZI4k4pRGMM
Every day is terrible, but today really pushed me over the edge. I can’t take it anymore. I’m going to try ODing on my iron pills and finally dying. I hope my family disposes of my body and not leave it there to rot because they’re some horrible people, I tell you. All rotten, all abusive, all evil people.
So, goodbye. This 18 year old is finally breaking free. No more nerve pain, no more mental illness, no more abuse. Nothing. Hopefully I’ll finally be successful this time. I can only pray.
Ive been meaning to post this for a while. I probably should have. Oh well. Im probably going to forget a bunch of things but if i do ill just make another post or something i guess. Now where to start. When i was 10 i guess.
It was almost the summertime. Last month of school. A month before my 11th birthday. My mom pregnant with my baby brother days from being born. Life seemed perfect until one day.
We were at home and a truck pulled in the yard. This made me happy because it was my grampys truck and my grampy was (and still […]
I’ve reread over my last post a few times and I see how it can come across as judgmental and condescending and as an attack on others. Yeah, its not really helpful and I executed it very poorly. My shitty judgment told me that making such a post would be helpful.
If someone else had written that, I wouldn’t have liked to have read that.
I wonder how I can get my point across without sounding so condescending?
All I really wanted to say is that… to change your life, you need to go and do something.
(Which again defeats the purpose of this post because people […]
Ive dropped all of my college classes.
Anyone else here by choice give up their chances of a better future?