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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Shes toxic bacteria

by marlajade 1/3/2011

written by marlajade

[Natalie] Anything you wish to say at this very special moment?

LIAR. FAILURE. FAT. WHORE. USELESS DROPOUT SHIT. TOXIC PREGNANT CUTSLUT. JERKOUT TRUCK WOMAN WITH A MANUFACTURED EGO. HOPELESS AT LOVE. WORSE AT LIFE. MENTAL WASTEOUT COCKEATER. DETATCHED MUTE GIRL. SEMI AWAKE REJECT. RSA ENCODED GOVERNMENT SECRET. NAUGHTY NAUGHTY FINGER FUCKIN HORNY LITTLE NAUGHTY PANTY CAM GIRL.

[bleach the girl][a bleach bottle on an empty cabinet]

[comatose[corrode[Clorox[low

Imgonnatearyouapart[imintearsasireadthis]

peroxide. mechanical surveillance culture. misery butterfly. studio meds.

i think youre conceited[and i dont believe you do care]

next to you [they [sic] love you] in the mirror

in the bar. then outside. i fell into the trap. i am a child in playboy bunny […]

1/3/2011 6 comments

Greedy little shit

by KlashingKamille 1/2/2011

written by KlashingKamille

Im tired of all of these no offense, but really, jesus-freaks attacking me with i was ‘Put here for a reason, God loves you, Jesus made you….etc.’ I honestly do not care.

Yeah, i have family. yeah i have friends.
But whats eating me inside hurts me more than anything else could.

Its like heartbreak, jealousy, apathy, pain, impatience…everything that hurts put together into one.

I want to die, and i dont care who i hurt, because my grief inside is so much worse.
‘Its just a phase, every teen goes through it’ they say.
Well if i ever get the courage, ill prove you wrong.

Im a greedy, […]

1/2/2011 7 comments

Dear Me,

by hollywood1919 1/1/2011

written by hollywood1919

you are fat. really, REALLY fat. You should just take a knife and cut it all off.

your makeup looks like shit, your hair is fucked up.

your boyfriend doesnt deserve you. he wastes his money on you.

the lights are on, but nobody is home. no wonder the only guys that have ever been interested in you were weirdos.

your family doesnt love you. the only person who ever loved you, your grandma, is long gone and dead.

your conception was a mistake, your mom would be better off without you.

you waste the money you earn on stupid shit: junk you wont use, clothes you will outgrow, food that […]

1/1/2011 2 comments

365 days till i die….

by Serafino 12/31/2010

written by Serafino

At 38,i feel like a loser, like somebody who hasn’t accomplish anything in life except savings and an apartment right outside NYC

12/31/2010 4 comments

i just need strength

by heartbroken18 12/29/2010

written by heartbroken18

so yeah here goes, okay I’ve just turned 18 days ago, had the worst Christmas ever. I’m not here for sympothy or anything like that i just need to tell my story. Well i haven’t had a bad life, I’ve a mummy and family who i love but they just don’t understand, well enough off my rambling. 12th of June – the day i met HIM. I was at a concert and it was just by chance that we met, we were strangers, litterally bumped into eachother…we just got talking you know just asked where he was from his age(17) you know just small talk […]

12/29/2010 8 comments

Hello.

by Suffocating 12/28/2010

written by Suffocating

Hello.

I am 20 years old and I have a 2 year old son.

First, I’d like to state that my son is the most beautiful and important person in my life, I love him very much. Even as a teen I have had issues with clinical depression, bipolar disorder and borderline personality. My mother had me admitted for a suicide attempt when I was 14 and there they diagnosed me and had me put on meds. I haven’t been on them since I was 15, I stopped taking them because at the time I believed I was cured and I felt like a happier person. As […]

12/28/2010 4 comments

the vicious cycle…

by mylo 12/28/2010

written by mylo

hey i’m (mylo) and i have been diagnosed with clinical depression and ocd, and suffer greatly from them daily. its a constant bother and can become horrible especially when one disorder feeds the other.

the disorders interfere with my life to the point that i’ve used numerous legal, prescription, and illegal drugs to feel relief from them and am medicated with effexor 75mg and risperidone .5mg daily. i’ve also had a history of suicide attempts ranging from overdose to wrist-cutting. i feel like i can’t really live a normal life. i have very few friends and constantly get in trouble with my family because of the […]

12/28/2010 2 comments

You are not alone.

by NeverGiveUp4 12/27/2010

written by NeverGiveUp4

Im a 13 year girl. I live in Puerto Rico. I go to school. My Family: Mom, Dad, Brother(older)and my grandparents(divorced)ect… My Mission is helping other that have been through the same pain, anger, hatred, and sadness which that cause Depression or Suicide Attempts. The most important thing is to reach them out and say ”Never Give Up” because you are not alone, If you need someone to talk to, to hear you, I’ll be here. Remember ”Never Give Up”

12/27/2010 5 comments

Purpose (die)

by RogueShadow1281 12/27/2010

written by RogueShadow1281

Well, I am writing again how life is hard for me. I am not a rape survivor or anything very big like some of the other people on here, but that doesn’t mean life is great. I cannot tell my parents anything. i have no self-esteem, never had a girlfriend, failing school, stepmom hates me, dad doesnt listen to me. Yesterday, I felt fatigued, my head hurted, muscles ached, back hurted, and i looked it up and found out for the 50th time. i have a high chance of severe depression. Only problem is, I can’t get the ****in balls to tell my mom about […]

12/27/2010 14 comments

iThink – I’m tired of the existing reality – I

by iThink 12/27/2010

written by iThink

Hello!

Before i start to share my though’s with you i must say that my inglish is not very good, and i don’t f**** care.

I wont give you any of my life details, background or something like that.I’m 20 old done not to long ago and iThink i’m tired of this reality. It started not to long ago. Actualy i found my self in a bad shaped live condition, and this is meybe affecting my psych and emotional state, since i’m a very sensibel person, may not look at the first aparition.

I don’t think of suicide or death, i’m happy to live and breath. I got […]

12/27/2010 5 comments

ripples

by lily17 12/25/2010

written by lily17

Many people on here may be contemplating suicide, but have never experienced the other side of it. I have just recently with my best friend. People who don’t believe anyone will care couldn’t be more wrong. But the sad part is that when they do take their life they won’t be able to see the ripples it makes.

I do not know how to put the pain of losing someone by their own will into words. But I will try, because I hope at least one of you will be able to take something from it. Maybe think for a second this isn’t my only option.

When […]

12/25/2010 2 comments

a glorious christmas eve

by ... 12/25/2010

written by ...

ive been labled as the worst offspring in my family. the adults think i wont get anywhere in life and my cousins just call me stupid. They laugh at my dreams and havn’t bothered to save money for college cuz they think im not good enough anyways. mayb theyre right. mayb im not good enough to get to college. there goes my dream. if i dont hve a dream or family, then perhaps friends? not a chance. to all of them, even one who i called my best friend, im just another person. things were no different from when i was a kid, so why […]

12/25/2010 22 comments

Of dilated pupils.

by marlajade 12/18/2010

written by marlajade

the punch is shit. I dont wanna be at this party any more. I want my old friends [these boys and girls are slaves][ifeel like throwing up]. I want to collapse and wake up in hospital. At least one of these people will drive me there, right. If i die in public, its murder. The police will say it was drug related, and place blame. That I was a normal happy party girl, sucking cock on MDMA. [which was my fairly broken way of showing affection]. I like it when my pupils dilate. at four in the morning . The nurse shines a light in […]

12/18/2010 0 comment

I don’t know anymore.

by Narugami 12/16/2010

written by Narugami

My life.. Why does every shit happen to me? What have I ever done?Â Everyday of my life, before I go to sleep, I always think about dying.. I always ask myself why was I even born.. Why do I have to go through everything? School and people around me, they see me as something I’m not.. I smile a lot but every smile burns me on the inside.. Everything hurts.. Why do I only have people who use me? People who doesn’t care about me? I don’t have anyone.. No friends.. My parents are divorced, my mom makes me feel like I’m just an […]

12/16/2010 4 comments

Journal Entry #3: December 15th 2010

by hollydaze 12/15/2010

written by hollydaze

Today has been interesting, I’m in a funny mood. I just got home from school and had oatmeal with banana and cinnamon and vanilla yogurt in it, It was really good. I feel very full now, and I ate lunch today as well, I had a rice cake, two crackers, and some carrots and some pumpkin seeds, not too much, but filling.

Im afraid, I have work in about an hour, and I don’t want to binge, I binge at work usually, and it helps the time go by faster, but it ruins my day. I dont know how to control it. I work at a […]

12/15/2010 3 comments

Journal Entry #2: December 14th 2010

by hollydaze 12/14/2010

written by hollydaze

Today I have decided to do this first,

Today is kinda my relaxed day. I dont have work, so I most likely wont binge, my 21 year old sister is coming home and I only have one thing I must do, which is read fifth business, the whole book, for tomorrow.

I woke up this morning late, and was late for first period, I had english and presented a project that I had no idea what I was talking about, it was on The Scarlet Letter, which is probably the most boring book I have ever read other than Fifth Business.

After I had Leadership, and I was […]

12/14/2010 6 comments

journal entry #1 Dec. 13/10

by hollydaze 12/13/2010

written by hollydaze

I found this website while feeling quite depressed this afternoon, it was not a good day: I fucked up my antidepressants and I need somewhere to vent, so this will be my kind-of blog, or journal, somewhere where others can read it, or they can keep living their lives.

Today was a tough day. I live in a quite elite aria, where social status is everything and money is important. I am one of the more popular people at my highschool, and I am in grade 11. Im a quite good student and achieve around an 80% average every semester.

I have bulimia, which has transformed into […]

12/13/2010 5 comments

to my baby sister.

by zdeathchanz 12/13/2010

written by zdeathchanz

mya. my baby. im sorry you have such a selfish sister. u dont know how close ive come so many times. i cud call a lot of people my guardian angels. but really, youve been bout the only one who has been able to stop me from jumping the gun.

im tired now baby. the dark man’s caught up with me and im breaking. im breaking baby cant you see it? please baby, im a shitty sister and i cant stand it anymore. dont look at my corpse. its too goddamn awful. sissy, i love you but i have failed you. i cant stand living in […]

12/13/2010 4 comments

SCREW THIS LETS ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!

by satans_princess 12/13/2010

written by satans_princess

On here we all talk about how this place has helped us so much and how these people uderstand us. we should start an organization. With all these people on here it could spread so FAST! help people see tha light come out of he dark and make bliss seem more reachable.

ifyou think it’s a good idea and would like to help me ge this going email me at:

rosealcorn@live.com

the more the better!

lets make a diffrence!

12/13/2010 1 comment

Absolute Apathy

by js909 12/12/2010

written by js909

First of all, TL;DR.

I read the following on one of the links from this site:

â€œIt is the part of the person that is afraid of more pain that says Don’t tell anyone. It is the part that wants to stay alive that tells you about it.â€

It just made me think about the fact that itâ€™s been over three years since Iâ€™ve admitted to anyone that I was depressed or had thoughts of suicide, even though that has been the case every single day since I last admitted it.

Itâ€™s been 1188 days since I last revealed to anyone I knew personally that I still felt no […]

12/12/2010 6 comments

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