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I want to pull the fucking trigger

by Urm8451n 12/27/2017

written by Urm8451n

that is it. I had enough.
I had enough of this kind of life.
I screwed up a few times. other times I got screw over.
Im fucked up.

I want to be soulless. I want to be with out feelings
I want to be a fucking robot.

I don’t want to communicate. I don’t want to love, to cry, to be mad.

God. If you are out there, when I wake up tomorrow morning, please wake me up feeling less.
Please help me become this hollow shell.

Why would you take away from me so much, without taking my feelings too? […]

12/27/2017 0 comment

Never felt so mentaly naked

by Urm8451n 12/24/2017

written by Urm8451n

I’ve been told by a psychologist, that my “inner sensitive /feeling persona” is being held chained and at a close space inside my mind. He also stated that I’m good at dividing between having this horrible pains due sickness, and between fully functioning at my life and doing the best I can. He explained that my feeling persona gets to the conscious only when it has strength, and that happens when it is mad, or which when I’m mad.

He said that right after the pain stops, I totally repressive it from my consciousness, and I do it for […]

12/24/2017 5 comments

there might be hope

by lovvely 12/13/2017

written by lovvely

note: This is very important. I want to share this and show that hope does exist.

so, hi.

Again, all of the sweet comments, were as my name says, lovely.

Thanks to the people who were concerned about how I’m being treated by others, and also the people who said they had also experienced depression or anxiety. It was very reassuring.

Today was shockingly a decent day, it’s not yet finished, and the night is yet to come, but maybe it’ll all turn out okay. Night is always the worst time for me, and probably the most difficult to get through. I try to sleep it off, but it almost […]

12/13/2017 2 comments

What are you doing Chloé?

by Esty Deekay 12/12/2017

written by Esty Deekay

Its 12.30pm on a Tuesday morning, people my age are at work or school doing something meaningful with their lives yet here am I: Lying on my bed with no intention to make today worth it. I don’ t even know how I found the strength to type this. I have a job interview in a couple of hours yet I am wondering if I should go. I feel like doing nothing. Nothing interests me anymore. I have lost my appetite, my eyes are swollen from crying everyday.

2017 was one hell of a year. I graduated from college, I turned 24, got my first car, […]

12/12/2017 7 comments

Reasons to live – Are there any?

by Urm8451n 12/5/2017

written by Urm8451n

I woke up.
It is 2:00 am, everything so dark outside.
Most of the people are asleep, some are driving cars, which lights are being shown in my room, from those cars passing around my street.

All birds are dead quite.

It is me time. Because there is no stress around, I can finnaly see clarity. What does even bother me now? I’m happy. I’m glad to find peace once a while.

However, tomorrow keeps its own demons waiting for me. The stress is greater than ever. Some obstacles, will sure make me trip down.
I will fall.

But even then, I will keep on going my way, doing […]

12/5/2017 2 comments

Last post here, time for a goodbye :’)

by Urm8451n 10/11/2017

written by Urm8451n

-introduction – This is my last post here, not suicidal though.
I believe I have completed a shift from the young boy I was 4 years ago, to the man I am.
I wanted to share some experiences and conclusions of my travel through agony, happiness, loss, and faith. I wanted to give you other users, the tools I learned, from others.
This shall be a post with my final words to this community.

I have completely ditched social media, removed my accounts from internet sites, stopped playing video games, focused on my own personality, and my family’s health state.
Today I accomplish to sustain […]

10/11/2017 10 comments

I wasn’t prepared…. were you ?

by Urm8451n 10/10/2017

written by Urm8451n

Good day you all,
This post will include; panic attack, co op failure, overcoming love.
Added bold words to make reading easier and able to jump
edit: Also added conclusions down the page.

start Today I had a great day, studied, and got few compliments, perhaps even started few new social relationship here or there.
It is really nice to start a new page at a university.
But…
change in events I went back home, a friend contacted me, he asked if I wanna go out with him like we did two days ago. Back then [8.10.17] he said “I want you to know that I completely respect you, […]

10/10/2017 2 comments

Relapse.

by Eccedentesiastsoul 9/25/2017

written by Eccedentesiastsoul

5 days ago I lost 136 days of being clean of cutting. It might seem like nothing but it took all of me to get past those 136 days. When I broke them it wasn’t like always. Right now, I feel so shitty about myself and I’m in a really bad place. I got through the last school year taking vitamin supplements because the doctor told me to do so. I stopped them about 2-3 months ago and for the past week I’ve been feeling so down and tired all the time. Last night, I slept for the longest I have ever slept since school […]

9/25/2017 11 comments

Sin.

by Eccedentesiastsoul 9/22/2017

written by Eccedentesiastsoul

“Wanting to die, is a sin”

Our English teacher read that line. I was in shock. I could hear people whispering and laughing. No one seemed to care. How could she say that? How could the author of the book write about that? How do they want people to admit that they have been wanting to die when they are being taught that it is a sin? Telling us that, would only make us wish we were dead already. We have already got the sin, haven’t we? Why wait around and collect more sins by thinking the way we do? Wanting to die isn’t a choice, […]

9/22/2017 3 comments

Hello Halcion

by The Distress 9/22/2017

written by The Distress

Halcion, you’re my friend.
But Halcion, where have you been?
When I slept with you there was no option to wake.
As if a dreamful slate of life appeared just for the take.
And it was beyond great to never arise.
From a slumber which no words could surmise.
I can do whatever I want in my dreams.
Beyond my wildest fantasies so it seems.
Yet when I dream all day and night to never face reality.
I might as well shut my life down, mark me as another casualty.
But like I’ve always stated, I’m too afraid to jump.
I’ll stand there, slowly emotions […]

9/22/2017 3 comments

Pathetic Person w/ Pathetic Reasoning

by AllBarkNoBite 8/28/2017

written by AllBarkNoBite

At the very least, I hope this scatter-brained post will give you a laugh. Just kidding, I don’t hope for anything, save for what I mention in the following. Well, maybe some sections of this post will resonate with anyone who might read it some day.

Once I become financially stable and relatively successful, I might want to kill myself in complete sobriety so that I can prove this point to my dad: Not all suicides are a result of drug-ingestion or addiction. I’ve always wanted to die since I was a child. I even told my mom that “I want to go to Heaven already,” […]

8/28/2017 2 comments

They are back.

by Eccedentesiastsoul 8/23/2017

written by Eccedentesiastsoul

Lately I’ve ben having these migraines that take everything that’s in me to stand. It’s not new, I used to have them daily until they somehow, the same pain transferred to my stomach. I got it checked out by a doctor long back and he gave me pills and said I was fine to go. Now the pain is back and it’s stronger than ever. I’m not being over dramatic or anything but it hurts to the point where I actually think there’s something wrong with me. Before I got back to my country I got a strong one and I literally cried myself to […]

8/23/2017 1 comment

My life now

by usedcanvas 8/20/2017

written by usedcanvas

My life is a mess riht now. So about a month ago i broke up with my boyfriend that I was with for a year and a half. I finally realized how mean he was. He never put much interest into me and he never wanted to help me. For example, I felt it was neccessary to tell him about the time I was raped as a child because I was having a lot of nightmares about it and I was shutting down from it. But, when I told him he got mad at me. He said why would I think that he was equipted […]

8/20/2017 3 comments

I am a disappointment

by haterlivet 8/18/2017

written by haterlivet

One thing i´ve always thought of is that it´s so scary when someone mentally ill and suicidal (me) falls in love. We start feeling whole again. Like we´ve got a purpose, a reason to be here and a reason to start and try.

But one thing that really scares me and hurts me inside to think of is that; what happens when the person who´s saved me leaves? What happens when the person takes away all the hope and love and beauty and rip out all the stitches they used to put in their partner together again and the broken soul is left worse than they […]

8/18/2017 4 comments

Suicide without hurting others

by haterlivet 8/18/2017

written by haterlivet

I want to end my life, But i want to end it in a way that doesnt hurt the people around me. I’ve come to learn that this life really aint for me, i tried for so many years to stay strong and fight the pain Im feeling, But its absolutely impossible and Nobody really understands the mental illness Im going through. I dont really like to talk about my depression to a lot of people, Cause they think that Im calling for attention or that its no big of a deal. But i really wish They knew What Im going through

My biggest problem is […]

8/18/2017 5 comments

Off on a journey

by Cognac 8/8/2017

written by Cognac

I’m off tomorrow, away for a bit. Doing something I’ve never done before – wild camping, far out. I’ve spent most of my life indoors, not being allowed to have my own independence, so my experiences are limited. I’m looking forward to it, but at the same time, I’m not.

I’ve been really slacking, not having the motivation to do much in general (which includes writing this post, took quite a bit of energy to) and get packing and sort out my room before I leave, so I’ve left it to the last minute. This is really stressful.

The long hikes I’ll be taking might drain me […]

8/8/2017 2 comments

so i just went to a concert

by Moon gazer 8/1/2017

written by Moon gazer

i just went to a concert by the killers and i just thought does anyone want a suicidal boyfriend? i am 21 looking for a girl or cute boy mostly to have someone i can be open to and spend time with ya not a dating site but worth a shot

8/1/2017 2 comments

A Prayer and Health Tips for the Depressed

by BlueDiamond 7/29/2017

written by BlueDiamond

Staying healthy is important for the depressed:

Be sure to live through your body, by this I mean by being physical active such as going to the playground to play like a little kid, biking, or regular fitness work-outs.

Along with exercise, eat a healthy diet with lots of leafy green vegetables

Never isolate yourself, try to maintain healthy relationships with peers and stay away from negativity

Reduce stress doing things such as listening to relaxation music or coloring

Pick up hobbies such as art or sports

This one I think is most important is being one with the universe, creating that oneness, or peace with God:

This can be achieved with […]

7/29/2017 4 comments

Depression Song Game

by BlueDiamond 7/23/2017

written by BlueDiamond

Rules for the game:

List the song you think is the most depressing you have ever listened to and who sings it

Post the actual music video for the song. If a music video is not available then post a lyric video.

Explain why you think the song is the most depressing song you heard

Reply to the person above you by listening to the song and telling them what you think of the song.

Can’t post the same song twice

I’ll start:

Concerte Angel by Martina McBride

This song makes me cry but strangely smile, not in a haha this is funny way. This song deals with child abuse and how the […]

7/23/2017 6 comments

The Last Knight and Runing Out of the Shit to Post About

by BlueDiamond 6/25/2017

written by BlueDiamond

I never realized how much I enjoy having dinner and a movie at the same time. The only problem is the that looking the bill or menu can be distracting as you try to look at the movie. If you know who Nostalgia Critic is, he was right about everything this movie was going to be. Didn’t feel like making some Nostalgia Critic bingo, however I think the movie may be the best out of the five. Michael Bay might be approving.

The Good:
Transformers have more lines, are more active
Less silly human drama
No Sam Witwicky unless you want to count the cameo
Transformers […]

6/25/2017 6 comments

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