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I’M SURROUNDED BY IDIOTS PLEASE FUCKING KILL THEM ALL OR KILL ME
Everyone is lonely nowadays. Do you agree?
I think I’m going to quit. Only one semester in and I’m already thinking about quitting. I always joked that I wouldn’t last a semester. I guess I know myself best. I went to grad school as a way to run away from becoming an adult. I thought it would be like undergrad and I would continue just goofing off like I did there. I was scared of going into the workforce because I thought I couldn’t make it. That I would fail and become unemployable. So I ran away. Now I’m running away from this. […]
I make no secret my disillusionment regarding mental healthcare in the United States, and I know from many of you that you’ve had a tough time getting good treatment as well.
With that in mind, a US senator has checked himself into the hospital for depression. Maybe it’s just interesting to political junkies like me, but I’m curious how it makes you feel. Not getting into any political BS, just a point of interest that a public figure has willingly checked in, and admitted to the public that it’s due to depression.
I know for my part, it’s hard to imagine someone that successful experiencing something similar […]
I am a 22-year-old male. I grew up in an abusive house and was never shown what love really was. I did everything I could to stay away from home but was always pulled back by the threats. My dad said he would hurt my mom, my mom said she would hurt herself. Everything was put on me. I had to hold my entire family together while I was already falling apart. When I was eight years old I went walking down the street to my friend’s house (just a few houses down, not like my parents cared anyway) and the cop that lived across […]
Small before hand, the boyfriend I have now isn’t the same one as described in previous posts. Since the first sexual assault post I’ve had two boyfriends, both have assaulted me. This one is new and I’ve been with him for 2 years, he has never hurt me, even when (in fits of trauma) I said he could.
I found out yesterday that my own flesh and blood grandmother would not be sad, would not care, if I killed myself. She took my boyfriend aside a few days after a large fight we (me + my bf vs grandmother) had over a bag of […]
Show him a drunk man says the old proverb, I would be inclined to agree. The aforementioned expression has nothing to do with alcoholism and has everything to do with seeing or hearing your negative conduct displayed by someone else. Only then can one learn.
A perfect example being what I heard outside my office this morning. I was on youtube watching a documentary about suicide, there was chatter outside my office from what I guessed was a group of medical students early 20’s. I was trying to concentrate on the documentary in spite of the chatter. The main part of the group moved on and […]
I think I have a massively distorted sense of what might make a life meaningful (romantic love, beauty.) Possibly because I’ve never had those things in my own life, it’s allowed my mind to magnify their significance over the years. Perhaps those who do experience them are more able to view them through an appropriate perspective. But to attach so much meaning to something so trivial/inconsequential definitely seems like evidence of delusional thinking. I think a sheltered upbringing and susceptibility to modern cultural narratives has also played a part.
It might also be that I’ve clung on to the significance of those things for so long […]
Life is unbearably painful. I’m tired of feeling this way. Why am I pretending there’s a better world out there? There isn’t. I really believed in that message. The hope thing. I tried harder than ever. I felt kind of happy for a little bit. I can’t get over what happened in January. The things that were said. I’m in so much pain. And you know, I guess it’s true. I’m a loser. Garbage. This journey isn’t going anywhere. It’s going to feel like this for the rest of my life. There will never be friends. No social support. It will always be complete isolation. […]
Do you also find people cold hearted nowadays? Why or why not?
Is Sbilko still around? You said some good things, gave good advice, and I mostly just blew you off. I’m sorry man.
A day where they shove happy couples in our faces, as if we weren’t lonely and depressed enough already. -_-
People who are chronically depressed tend to stay chronically depressed till we die. We may have periods where it isn’t “so” bad, but it always comes back. It never goes away, and we are never “cured.” It’s like that song, “hello darkness, my old friend…”
One factor is definitely the Super Bowl, in my social circles it is a big deal and I just don’t care.
The one I want to deal with though, is harder to face. It’s surrounding a symptom I’ve been experiencing for the past few years. Sometimes, when I’m really upset, I shake uncontrollably. It’s not something I like people to know, it’s something I’ve kept as hidden as I can.
Today on social media there is a video making the rounds of a young lady shaking while driving. Every time I see it, I feel so alone and isolated. I can’t talk about my shaking with these […]
To not be as miserable, I think I need people in my life. Some are fine on their own, but I don’t think I’m one of them. I’m extremely introverted, but I still need people. I need to feel seen, to be known. I need some form of meaningful interaction with at least one other person on a daily basis. Otherwise, it’s like I don’t exist. I drift through life like a ghost. I don’t think it’s something I can think my way out of. I’ve spent decades trying to deny it, but I think it’s a fundamental psychological need.
This is a problem. Needing people […]
Everyone just says to go:
1- call a suicide hotline
2- talk to a therapist
People are always quick to say, there’s all these help out there, just make that call, talk to someone, etc. But I’ve done all that and NONE of it helped me. Occasionally it helps to vent sometimes (if it’s due to something that angered me), but otherwise, it feels so empty. Heck, it feels more empty than stuffing one’s face with food, bc at least you feel “good” for a tiny moment as you’re eating said junk food.
Not to mention that it takes having insurance, good insurance, or […]
Makes you wonder- is it us that is faulty, or is society sick, and depression/SH/loneliness/ despair, etc our response to this sick and broken society? Or I suppose, both.
“Is society healthy, that an individual should return to it? Has not society itself helped to make the individual unhealthy? Of course, the unhealthy must be made healthy, that goes without saying; but why should the individual adjust himself to an unhealthy society? If he is healthy, he will not be a part of it. […]
Fuck me up with a brick.