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if i could just casually say that i am going to kill myself and nobody would take it seriously. and nobody would worry about me. and nobody would later seriously claim that they want to kill themselves too. and if i could half sarcastically sit with people on the ledge, just hoping that there was a way out of all the stupid situations that this world puts us into.

i think i may be living in a different world than you. but i just never seemed to have an opportunity to do these things.

No hope
Tired
Everything is nothing
Surrender

Feeling like I’m getting pushed to the edge

Not suicide related

I’m so lonely… I’ve been kinda trying to interact with others in the online game, even though the game isn’t there for socialising.
I don’t want others to find out what I’m like though, they’ll probably laugh. I’m useless, miserable and am done with life.

I don’t know why I bother. Most people in this world are needlessly judgemental anyway.
Most people also don’t care about others, that’s just how we are…

I believe that there’s someone out there for everyone. Unfortunately we’ll probably never meet this ‘someone’ in our lives.
They are out there, just the likelihood of ever coming across them is […]

Things are lookin up for me n gettin better. I hope im not jinxing myself by sayin that. But they are gettin better n i hope it continues.

Its just not possible for me to be happy. Im sorry.

If anything happens to me i hope you dont find out. I know how youd feel and i want you to know its not your fault.

I wish I could express myself to the people I care about. I’m a private person, and there was a time in my life where I realized that oversharing was never good. People don’t ask, don’t care unless it’s about them so why continue to talk about the things I like or my concerns? I stopped talking about myself and it’s been 2 long years and people haven’t got a clue on what I do because they don’t care enough to ask! They would say “Don’t worry”, “It’ll be okay”, “That’s cool”, etc. Could you give me any other repetitive dull, common response? Are you […]

there are several reasons why it doesn’t seem worth much for me to keep going.

once i get out of this, once i regain control over my mind and my life, i don’t really get any tangible reward. it will be just simply the end of the struggle, that’s all there will be to it. and once the struggle is over, i will be still in the same messed up world feeling even more out of place than ever before.

i somehow ended up thinking about how life is just this massive trap where accomplishing things actually feels like failure because it too […]

I’ve read shit on google about it, but does anyone else have problems with BDD? I’m trying to get to the bottom of why I hate my body so much

1 friend blocked. Another on mute. I’m so done with all this bs. I’m done going to therapy until this problem is dealt with, I don’t care if it takes months. I’M DONE DEALING WITH IT.

I’m NOT going to psych. And it’s not my fucking BPD.

And now I’m waiting for a message from my other friend, “What happened? Are you ok? I saw the post.”
Yeah I’m fine, just done dealing with people. I’d kinda prefer to ignore it all right now if you don’t mind though…..

I’ll spend my weekend getting drunk, high and doing whatever I please.

Becoming a friend of death;

[still no title option admins, so here I am typing my feelings out using outdated self formatting.]

I remember when I was just a little kid. I grew up in a rather conservative christian household. Obviously, it was not a natural fit. Yet there were moments when it almost was. When I joined a drama/comedy group for example, or when we sang specific songs. One such song is called “I am a friend of God”

Like so; “I am a friend of God, I am a friend of God, I am a friend of God, he calls me friend”

Yes, I was aware at […]

i am leaving for a lake trip i guess thats what i could call it.. ill leave in a few hours since its kinda morning now. i have my stuff packed but eh i dont feel to good about it if im being honest, like i had a idea for me and my little brother to go sleepover at our grandparents tonight so we can all just leave together in the morning but i had a freak out (totally my fault..) and called my parent/s to pick me up while my brother stayed the night. me and brother birthday is also the day after we […]

That feeling, the overwhelming darkness creeping, the feeling of freshly sharpened nails attached to long slender fingers closing in around your throat.
Being sad or depressed, or grieving, it all gives off the same feeling. Pure, overwhelming black. A black mood some would say.
For me, it comes and goes. Some days I’ll be fine, smiling, laughing, happy. And the very next I can’t find the same joy I did the day before. Repeating the same monotonous tasks day in and day out. I’m too young to feel the way I do. Or so that’s what people tell me. I have my whole […]

I’m sick of shit,sick of friends turning against me,sick of fake people,sick of everything!!I wish I just had an off button I could push!I came close today,real close but something stopped me..tomorrow is another day though so it’ll all just start again.every waking moment is thoughts about not being here anymore..sorry,needed to let it out

This is the first time I’ve posted on here and I am in my early twenties. It’s not like I haven’t struggled in the past I just never knew how to start writing what I’m feeling because I don’t even know. Here it goes….

Ever since I could remember I always felt off in my life. I never felt like I was good enough and thought that I had to be perfect in the eyes of those around me. As I have grown older, I have contemplated suicide but I have realized want death, I just want to disappear. I feel as if […]

The struggle to make a ‘living’ has never seemed worthwhile to me. It’s not that I don’t have a work ethic – I’m pretty damn conscientious, once I get started. I’m even quite bright, in an abstract, head in the clouds kind of way. I like to be helpful where I can. I like things to run smoothly. I have skills – they’re just not very marketable.

What I most lack is any ability to deal with other people’s shit. Ask me to do a clearly defined task that’s within my grasp, and I’ll happily oblige. Ask me to deal with whatever hectic schedule you’re running […]