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I feel stupid writing this here, but i have nowhere else to say this. So, i kind of developed some serious feelings towards this guy for the first time in my life. I think that they are serious emotions because i have never wanted to be with someone in a relationship before. We text every day, all day and i love it. It has already been a few days since i have seen him because we live faraway from each other. And as time passes my feelings have started to go cold. Now I’m confused if i really have “serious” feelings for him. Is it […]

I’ve been stuck in a spiraling whirlpool and going deeper and deeper for about 2 1/2 years. Its gotten worse in the last 10 months. I feel such an overwhelming sense of inadequacy, of being a failure, of being a burden, of being useless. It keeps getting worse, and I’ve gotten to a point where I consider suicide several times a week.

My episodes of depression are closer and closer, and I feel more and more alone, but I can’t go through with anything, because I know it will cause pain to those around me, and yet I’m so sick of feeling the […]

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does anybody know what happened to the title area?
I can write the body of the post but I can’t seem to write the title.
It used to be just on the top, below the Permalink in ‘Edit Post.’
But I don’t see it anymore.

Is this happening to anyone else?
Can anyone help?

Thanks.

it’s been a couple months. i’m still not dead (surprise). not feeling great but good enough to log on and type, which is something. got a lot of very important deadlines coming up and a lot of old+new obstacles. feels like God is going out of His way to toy with me and watch me suffer, i hope it’s an amusing spectacle at least. how’s everyone else doing.

I’m nearly fifty now. I have no love in my life, very few friends, and a job that I hate but that pays well so I’m afraid to leave it. I do very little that is meaningful or substantial. The best I can be is useful, in my small and poor way.

Most of the time I feel, alone, abandoned, angry, sad, defeated, and helpless. I have been alone for a long, long time, and I can’t imagine that changing. I can’t imagine having love in my life again – I wouldn’t even know what to do with it. I barely speak to my […]

In case you need a laugh and like weird cartoons like me. Lol enjoy 🙂

I’m stumbling along blind. There is no visible answer, so all I can do is ask “What do you expect of me? What am I to do?” There is just nothing else.  I surrender.

I have lost everything in my life , my life is destroyed , I have nothing , I can’t stand the reality and justification of restrictions bc what I think and know is that the virus have less probability to kill , what this virus did is nothing , in contrary to the restrictions and laws , they took our freedom , this world is just horrific utopia, they said they want to safe lifes , and they shut everything and prevented people from walking outdoors , stay at home ironic , like living in your own prison, the economy has been destroyed , the […]

From zero to a hundred

My mood changes quickly…one moment i can feel sort of okay and the next it’s overwhelming depression and hopelessness. My mood has been like this for quite a few years now, but a recent development in my mood is my fuse becoming shorter and shorter over the past few months.

Now i can feel my self getting angry and annoyed very quickly over minor everyday inconveniences. Now to add on top of that…imagine feeling as angry as i do and then a stranger in public feels the need to taunt you just for being you.

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