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I’m so sick of being so damn poor! I can’t even afford over-the-counter medications! I want to OD so bad, but can’t bring myself to steal. WTF do I do? I have no friends and no family; I’m all alone. I’d steal if it weren’t for fear of being caught and arrested. GODDAMN IT.
What do I do?
**And please, nobody waste my time by encouraging me to seek help, or telling me that it’s going to be all right, or any of that shit. It just pisses me off even more.
Does anybody know whether the Gladd Group based in California is still selling ready-made helium”exit” bags? I understand that it is $60 and may be ordered through mail only.)
Do you ever feel like your just going through the motions of life? Well that is exactly what I am doing. Go to work, come home, go to work, come home. What exactly is the point of it all? Why continue? I am in my mid thirties and my life is the farthest thing from what I expected it to be right now. I have had depression off and on all my life but it has never been stronger then it is now and I have never had a stronger desire to end it all then I do right now.
The only thing holding me back […]
everytime i get close to someone they either leave me or really hurt me, and i mean badly… My homophobic father is not making it easy for my brother (he’s already out), or me to even come out. My boyfriend knows im bi and he gets jealous when im around girls… lol he laughs and acts like he’s not uncomfortable but come on girls can read guys like books! He is on the other hand getting on my freaking nerves… i went to a website that tells you your ideal suicide and mine is railroad decapitation (ouch!) at the end of the survey they tell […]
Right now I feel so alone and helpless. My family doesn’t seem to want to help me, they’re only making things worse. About 90% of the time I’m fine and generally a happy person. But theres just some times when I want to die. I’m not clinically depressed, but at this very moment I honestly want to kill myself. One of my family members treats me like shit and constantly calls me a “liar”, which makes me feel more useless. I just don’t know where to go or what to do.
Spring break
time to celebrate
going home
where ever home is
but its not home
not anymore
it’s moved on
without me
and I without it
so without this home
I guess I’m homeless
just one more less
to add to the list
right after
hopeless
helpless
pointless
goalless
useless
worthless
defenseless
senseless
maybe even soulless
anymore less
just adds to the emptiness
Fact of the matter is I am worried about leaving unfinished business behind. Basic nutshell, single parent, raised three kids, no suport, no assistance, no family. Struggled, adapted, overcame.. Kids grown except one. Times are harder now than it seems before. Job after job closing, laying off, housing difficulties, making ends meet, vehicle constantly breaking down.. it just never ends. I’m at the point where I feel like a complete loser and should just give up my child so she would have a better life. And then.. I really have no reason for living. I have no family, I have no love life, nor […]
i absolutley hate my meds and i hate my parents for making me take them. it sucks and i cant stand it. ugh stupid meds. i wish i didnt have to take them then i wouldnt be so blah., too late!!!
I see your point. As mortals we all have this innate “will to live” to defy death and look in right in the face and triumph over it.
Like in the movies: for example in 2012.
If that were to actually happen like it did in the movie (the arks at the end were far-fetched) Why try and survive? Where the heck would you go, why would one place be safer then another? How would anyone know that?
Another good movie thats hard to watch:The Road, end of the world type. with Viggo Mortensen, watch it ppl, that is exactly what would happen, and […]
Life is a card game. We all givin different hand’s. Some good some not so good. Some win big some lose big. Some just fold.
Weather you play snap or poker it’s just a game.
It hits me again
another wave
caught off guard
and unprepared
heart beats faster
too fast for comfort
racing unnaturally
lungs too heavy
can’t inflate
smothered by
their own weight
can’t escape it
left devastated
by the panic wave
yesterday i figured out another way inflict pain on myself. i forgot how strong i am when i’m really pissed. so i smacked my arm a couple times and my forearm was red. my younger brother completely pissed me off yesterday. i dont understand why he has to be such a brat. and my sister thinks everything is a frickin game. why is it that every little thing pisses me off. i really need therapy. Burning doesnt help much, but hitting my hands and arms against stuff helps a bit i feel much better. i actually almost broke my wrist by hitting it as hard […]
I’ve tried overdosing. I’ve tried cutting. I’ve tried strangulation. I’ve tried ingesting chemicals. Nothing works. And I hate it. So lately, I’ve been searching around for other ways. Other ways that won’t seem so… obvious. Other ways that, in the event I fail, I won’t be carted off to the loony bin afterwards. Â So I figure: infection. Acquire a small cut. Keep it open. Rub some dirt in it. Get it infected. It gets red, swollen, *****. Soon, I get ill, a fever, and with luck, the infection travels to my blood. It’s painful, sure, and likely to take a long time, but I don’t […]
okayy so the past week has been has been hard my mom sat there an called me names ..
dont even kno what to do any more lucky people that i love are here 4 mw they reely do help you alot:)<\3
I recall about four months ago when I went to one of my friends birthday party. Another friend had brought his girlfriend and they were so happy all night. Then he gave her a kis and the sound of it was the sweetest thing I ever heard and later that night I just completely broke down in my room and cried so hard, because he doesn’t deserve it. He always takes girlfriends for granted, hes cheated on one or two and he broke up with this one, after like 5 months. I don’t understand why he keeps getting girls and I, no matter how much […]
I’m just existing, I perform the basic human necessaties, I have extreme anxiety especially at night knowing that I have to get up and go to work in the morning It’s hard for me to fall asleep and as soon as my alarm goes off my mind immediatly ‘shuts down’ I don’t want to get out of bed and face the day, face reality, anxiety takes it hold over me, its the whole process of another day, over and over again, I avoid ppl at work, I force myself to smile, only if they smile first…the stupid little things drive me crazy. I escape through […]
Has anybody ever ordered a ready-made helium”exit” bag from the Gladd Group in California (I understand that it is $60 and may be ordered through mail only)?
I am seriously considering utilizing this method, as I have exhausted all resources for years to make things better, but to no avail; things only seem to get lousier. The chronic distress and suffering has become too overwhelming and exceeded all coping resources available, so I need a means of exit that is as painless as possible. If living is suffering, then I cannot keep going on like this. Just sick of “going through the motions” of basic living.
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When I was around 6 years old I was molested for about 3 years by my neighbour. Both my parents would be at work so I’d have to spend hours at their place. She’d tie me down onto a bed or a chair or pin me to the floor and brutilise me with household objects and afterwards would always threaten that if I told anyone she’d hurt me a lot more and no one could stop her. Being so young and stupid, I was scared to tell anyone, afraid that she’d keep her promise
My parents were completly ignorant to this, probably that my dad wouldn’t […]
Lately I have been very sad, and I usually come home from school crying. I am not sure if this is true or not, but my mind is constantly telling me that I am ugly, stupid and have no talent. My parents had me by accident, and sometimes I feel like they don’t want me. I’m not even sure how my friends feel about me. I feel like God made me as a joke, just to laugh at all the stupid things I do. Sometimes I feel like everything would just be better for everyone if I just ended it all. I am only thirteen years old, […]
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