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I’ve got too much shit going on in my life and I don’t know who to talk to. My favorite sister is dying, at only 24. My niece, I KNOW, is being molested by the same man that molested me, and I can’t do anything about it. My best friend ignores me, 100% now. I’ve nobody to talk to.
My life has always been difficult. By the time I could talk, I was being molested by three men at the time. Both grandfathers (one of which being a step-grandfather), and an uncle. Later on, when my other uncle, who was about ten years older than I, saw what his father was doing to me, he began to molest and rape me, too. So it became four men that were abusing me in that way. The problem with that is everyone in my family thinks it’s only three men. Well, few know that BOTH grandfathers raped and molested me. NONE know that my youngest uncle […]
fuck my life. i hate it. i have no purpose. i give up on EVERYTHING.. my freidns all hate me, for nothing. i didnt do antrhing. my best friend for 5 years, just randomly screamed at me, for NOTHING!…i cant stnad the pain any longer. it hurts so bad. i want to DIE. NOW, soon. i want the pain to go away. but i wont. i cant change…im so far gone, it’d be better for everyone if i left. i cant stand being alone anymore. cutting doesnt help anymore. nothing does. no one does.
Fuck. I’m surprised I’m still here. Yesterday I passed out from blood loss. Luckily no one found me but imagine how I felt when I woke up. Fuck. I’m still upset. Wht is wrong with me??? Why am I like this? Why must I live with somthing I cannot bare. I know ther are people who do have it worse and are still happy. But I cnt controll depression. So fuck this.
Alright, I want to start by saying, yeah, I know that people have it WAY worse than me…. But what’s going on with me I can’t handle.
My mother verbally abuses me, every moment she gets. And it’s been happening for as long as I can remember… Ever since I was little, I was always told I was worthless, hopeless, never amount to anything. It was ingrained into my brain at such a young age that even now, even when people tell me otherwise, I can’t believe them.
I guess my suicidal mentality surfaced when I was little, in a painting that I did with a black […]
I’m 18yrs and at th moment im nt in school i do nothng al day an cry each night….
frm as far bck i cud rememba my lyf has bn shit…at a young age i witnesd my parents fighting…my father n brothers fighting …evryone always fighting…
my father is a selfish..abusive man..and so are my brothers n older sister….she taunts me evryday telln me hw worthls i am…and i blive her, nothing gud has come out of my existance…
my mother thnks im better off dead ,my father thinks im a waste….my otha sista plots against me…nd i hv a brother wit cerebral palsy whom i hve to […]
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That’s all I have to say. There’s nothing to lose here. At least you’ll keep yourself occupied for some time, then see if you feel the same way. You’ll probably have questions about this.
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I know I’m going to be attacked for this, but I can’t just sit there and not help people
Every day I try to get up and do my best during the day. I go to work when there is work to go to, there I do what ever I can during the day to work my hardest. My life seems so worthless that the work place is the only place I can get some sort of feeling of complete in my life. I got nothing to turn to, When I come home from work I avoid everyone as much as possible because well they don’t care about anything but themselves and to see how much money they can leech from me.
Everything is so […]
If you wanna kill yourself, do it! Just give me a few seconds before it, please.
by dbcooper
written by dbcooper
Few days ago, I was searching for a method to end my life. If you are reading this, than I found it. Maybe it sounds silly, but this is true.
I’m just 19 years old. Last year I’ve got my driving licence, than I broke a few cars. I was a horrible person. After the cars got repaired, (forgot to say, that the accident wasn’t my fault. Who were there know that, but other people didn’t really believe what happened, so….) nobody trusted me, so i couldn’t drive anyomre (even my parents told me, that I’m a shame, and I will never get their car […]
Hi. This is my first time posting here. My life was okay, always dark; but i never knew true darkness and depression until my friend killed himself in varsity. That destroyed me. Since then my dad died, my best friend has tried to kill himself, my other best best friend was/is becoming an alcoholic. But nevermind mind that. It was 6 months after my dad that I got really messed up. I couldn’t work any more, started suffering from post traumatic stress, panic attacks.. my girlfriend of 5 years left me too. Spent all my moving out money on trying to get better. Found […]
Things are just gettn worse for me. I posted up before and thought maybe I can over come all this pain and hurt, but I realized that it won’t let up and will continue to get worse. No matter what I do or try to do things will always turn towards me in a bad way. I get blamed for things before I even do it or even if that wasn’t my intention I still get put as being the one at fault. Sometimes I just agree to it just so I don’t cuz a fight but it still does. Can’t voice my opinion as […]
I have been going out with some kid for 8 months I am in love with him and i am only 12 years old people say that I cant be in lvoe but I really am i know I am he broke up with me then we went out again we broke up then went back out and then we broke and and he went out with my old best friend she thinks hes gay and she promised me she would never do that to me but by the end of the day they were dating and ever since that day that moment… I knew […]
please stop everyone i want to be here for all of you but i cant read all of it and keep up with all of it because i have my own miserable crappy stuff and life to deal with which i want to be over but please stop and write to me or something i want to be there because i know what it feels like to be even more hurt then all of you are and i dont want you to feel what im feeling every second of the day its more then pain its bad so please write to me im here for […]
so….im back. and im worse than ever. i seriously try so much to be happy, it just never happens!! EVER! i seriously want to die, if that will make all the pain go away. i cant stand this any longer. i try so hard, but it never happens. i miss him so bad..i know im stupid for being so depressed over a guy, but i cant help it. its just so easy to love him. but, whats so wrong with me? why cant he love me back anymore? he used too. whats the deifference now? i used to be happy. i wasn’t always like this. […]
There was a time in my life when the pain was completely unbearable. I could not live with what had happened to me; the shame, the memories that would not leave me alone. They kept repeating over and over, popping up in my thoughts no matter how much I tried to forget and think of other things.
People can be cruel. I couldn’t take a life of repeated cruelty where all I could look forward to was loneliness and hurt. The pain was so intense it felt physical. I felt it in my stomach, my arms, my head, my chest. My home situation was […]
im 18. senior in high school. you think it would be the happiest time for me. but its not. i try so hard to be happy. but inside im crying all the time. i was molested when i was in grade school, my cousin is now in jail, but if he stays there is the question. my grades are poor and no university wants me. im in an art school, but have no talent, i know it, and so does everyone else. why should i even try. i thought about just ending my life since the begining of high school, but i would always chicken […]
All are deaf , no one can see this pain , cant be ,no one wants the pain to spread to their life their perfect life. Nice big concrete jungle were big and brave souls vanish into hellish demented falsifyed existences , there they only matter as far as their budget goes.there they’re ignorance is allowed ,listen to these “i will give you false hopes to be these children your thirst will change from water to blood” you should know that hell is repitition your fear forever will follow you. ” where do people go when they die they dont go to heaven where the […]
does anyone know if a double bag secured tightly around my head with rope and belt would be enough to end my life?