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Imagine not being alone. Imagine there was someone you could be around without crippling fear. Imagine being able to let someone, anyone in. Imagine experiencing a sense of peace and contentment. Imagine not having to hide yourself from the world. Imagine not being a twisted evil narcissistic failure of a person. Imagine someone actually knowing you. Imagine emotional intimacy. Imagine a partner, someone truly on your side. Imagine the background hum of dread subsiding. Imagine feeling glad you were alive. Imagine having a future. Imagine not being consumed with shame, guilt and self-hatred. Imagine experiencing real hope again. Imagine not seeing this world as a […]

Straight into that vortex. Now I’m the focal point between the currents, wandering around looking for some ham to put on my toast.

I asked my friend if he thought i was and he said yes. And today my SO said “i havent been myself”

This is the new thing on this board. They won’t post you’re post unless they review it first. I said something about trump so they didn’t post it. Goodbye Suicide Project. I can’t think of the word. Someone please help me. I think it’s called Fear. You’re trump lovers and I get that but you’re a joke. You should have posted my post but you didn’t do it because I said something against your Dear Leader. I’m never posting on this board again.

Our Dear Leader went on a Twitter rampage again. Imagine if it was George Washington doing this sending messages by horses? “And now that you’ve come back here’s 2 more I want you to deliver.” Then when he gets back “Here’s another one. Deliver it!” The guy would have probably said “Excuse me Mr. President. Can you get your thoughts into one cohesive message? My horse is getting tired.

Tried to post but it didn’t work. “No comments allowed” What does that mean ? I didn’t make a comment. I tried to post.

I was in the shower.
She wasn’t doing great, but what was new.
She texted me to tell me she wanted to die. I knew that. I told her what I always do. I tried to come up with new things to say but nothing was quite right.
She said she was done. She sent me a picture of the a bottle full of pills.
She couldn’t open it.
I could hear the desperation in her voice despite the fact that we were only texting.
I was crying. I didn’t know what to do. Do I call someone? Who do I call? I have her […]

When will they say they care genuinely and not only because it’s convenient?

I thought I was free from it…. from this..from me
I want it to be over but I can’t seem to get away
The darkness thickened and it’s harder to breathe
I can’t believe it’s back… I guess it never went away
You can’t run from yourself

one more day and i’m gone

just one

i was so close to going through with it yesterday. so close yet so far.

i’m an ignorant *****.

i’m brainwashed.

i kept spreading my fucking opinions now they are all going to fucking hate me.

since when did i became this toxic?

***** why can’t you shut the fuck up.

absolutely nothing is wrong yet i am in a dark place? no one around me would ever understand. no matter how hard i try i can’t not be sad or down. the darkness is a bubble around me. i see everyone happy, the sun out and what not but then around me it’s just dark and sad and lonely. i hate feeling like this. like i am trapped in this bubble even if i try and get out of it.

it just doesnt seem worth it.

After I graduate
I will kill myself

Before that
Im going to do everything I want and live to the fullest
Im going to make bucket list to do

I wish something good happen so I will change my mind
But I dont think so..
I always feel something weird and sick inside me
And all of that from what I thought
I think my sad mind control my body

Im sorry mom dad everyone who care about me
But I dont have dream or something I want to achieve anymore..
Im sorry

At least I finish what you want too..

Seriously guys… I see a lot of people here because of reasons like ‘I have lost my gf/bf.. bigg sad / Problem with self confidence, anxiety, or loss of a loved one’. I’ve dealt with these issues and it just seems like nothing to me.

I’m confident, never stressed, and lost a family member and am totally fine with it. I managed to get skills like fluent english, drawing and guitar, which might not seem great for you, but that’s not the point.

The point is, I’m still depressed and I still have no friends. What the fuck? I feel like I’m the only one in the […]

If our “loved ones” really cared? Where are they? I can’t do it because my loved ones would be hurt, oh really? If they love you so much why are they not aware of your pain. Mine know and they still don’t give a fnck! We’re all programed to believe they’d be at a loss. I call “Bullshit!” After week has gone by, maybe a month at the least, they’ve moved on with their sick and selfish lives. This world is just full of contempt, a day late, a dollar short. If only we’d known… Hello!

I’m so fncking over it all. Chronic pain and illness […]

eating is now a chore, haven’t had a proper meal since Wednesday night.

i’m not hungry at all though, everything’s alright.

Its weird.

I felt everything. Now I feel nothing

I felt pain. Now I feel numbness

I felt anger. Now I feel silence

I felt crazy. Now I feel indifferent

I felt alive. Now I feel dead

I was lost. Now I don’t think I can ever find a way back