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How do you keep going when all you feel is that life is to much

February 19th, 2018by leah_is_broken

and your to tired of fighting yourself everyday to live?

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Family (ugh)

February 19th, 2018by eternaldarkness

I’m here visiting family. It went okay for the 1st 4 days. Then, surprise, the powder-keg inevitably went off. And now it’s awful. I’ve been here almost 1 1/2 weeks now.

I didn’t want to come here in the first place, but I needed to get my foot fixed. So here I am. And I’m stuck here. My sister was “nice” for 4 days but now it’s gone sour and I don’t want to be miserable for the next 3 weeks.

I’m in a place where you need a car to get anywhere. I’m thinking …

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Hello SPers

February 19th, 2018by eternaldarkness

I’ve been away from SP for the past 2 weeks or so. Anyone miss me? (that’s okay, you can lie and say you did) : P

What’s been shakin’ at SP?

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My 1st

February 19th, 2018by XLondonDeathX

I met him & my mother took him in. She called him “my black son” cause my dad called him “my black son”.
We were BEST friends before anyone else, before anything else….& Could give a bit of nothing (as far as care goes) when it came to assumptions in re to our actual title of relationships.
If you saw him, you saw me….& Vice versa.
Infact the assumption of anything MORE than friends, was what gave our friend the idea of the dare, that I “go out with him”
That day changed my life.
We first kissed that weekend summer of 1996.
The dare was done like our friend had …

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Sleeping W/ Sirens

February 19th, 2018by nonexistingsoul

Listening to songs of SwS makes me feel like I’m hugging my demons and it feels relaxing

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????

February 19th, 2018by Ellen87

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When will the pain end?

February 19th, 2018by Anon.agui

When will it end? When? I don’t know much more I can handle. My heart aches. I’m ridiculous. I’m repulsive. What purpose do I even serve in life? I wish I didn’t feel. I wish I was never born. I wish I could just die.

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February 19th, 2018by born loser

♪I feel safe

I feel scared, I feel ready,

But yet unprepared♪

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February 19th, 2018by Jean-bean102

I have been thinking lately… Maybe too much thinking. Anyways, after socialize with new people, it is like fresh pair of glasses put on me and I see thing more clear about relationships in general. It make me notice that my behaviors in my past relationships are not exactly okay. Just because I am very close to this person but it does not make it okay… Nothing bad happen with my new friends so far. But, I see more and more examples of good relationships should look like and I am still learning.

Today I have a thought.. “Sometimes it is good to be valuable and …

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Good bye

Good bye

February 19th, 2018by Nanika

I’m leaving.

 

I don’t want to come back here anymore.

 

After looking for suicide methods and all, finding this SP was an enlightenment. Thanks.

 

I knew great people here, but I feel powerless, as someone who worries more about others than myself, seeing so much pain and not being able to physically helping makes me sad.

 

I never liked online stuff I like real things, worrying about others is great but being close in person is even greater

I used to travel 3 hours by car to go to stay close to someone who needed help, with more 3 hours to get home.

If I could travel to every place to …

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Talent

February 19th, 2018by unknownsoldier

I really wish that I had some sort of musical talent. Music pulls me back from the ledge everyday. I would be gone if I didn’t have a love of music. 🙁

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Hopeful

February 19th, 2018by mindlessgamer619

I’m out the house, getting necessities and enjoying being outside. Today is okay.

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World so cold…

February 19th, 2018by BrokenAngel8

A amazing weekend ruined. I don’t get why does she have to fucking ruin everything. I never get any respect in my own home. No one every fucking sticks up for me. But when I did attempt all I get told is too shut up and stop being immature by my mother. But yet my sister pretty much mocks and makes fun of my boyfriend all weekend when hes not in the room and nothing gets done to defend him or me. So it was pretty much me sticking up for him and all he does is tell me it;s ok.

Umm NO! it’s not even …

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Chat bubble from above?

February 19th, 2018by nonexistingsoul

What’s that chat button from above that says when you click “Cheatin’ uh? Sorry, you are not allowed to access this site.” what’s that?

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Failed Last Night- it’s Tough.

February 19th, 2018by BML84

Last night I was all ready- I’ve been preparing awhile now.

I had the DDMP method minus actual morphine.
I had Valium & Chl in a bowl with baby food.
I had alcohol. Few stiff drinks I felt relaxed. I’d taken anti-emetics and even anti histamines.

I started taking- and it was impossible.

The baby food mixture was unearthly- a taste like nothing on earth. My mind and body rebelled and heaved.
The DDMP was in sweet fruit syrup- my first sip I retched and my stomach heaved, anti-emetics be damned.

I couldn’t do it- the taste was too much and my physiological reactions took twenty minutes to die …

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This is probably one of my last posts

February 19th, 2018by madhurgupta

Finally, it seems I am going to have some closure to this shit life. I am about to order a panacea for quick suicide, and that will be the end of Madhur Gupta.

No regrets. No should’ve/could’ve. Just death.

I’m sad. What do I say?

Did I fail at life? :'(

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I don’t understand myself

February 19th, 2018by Ziadus

As a kid I was always left out and lonely. It made me create a lot of imaginary friends and a strong creative mind. However it made me want attention and when I didn’t get that, it made me cry. I had so many bad things happen to me I closed myself off from the world and now I don’t know who I am. All I knew was that I was an attention seeker and horrible person because I did bad things just for attention. I hate myself so so much but I can’t figure this out because I don’t know who I am or …

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in regards to clipped-wings

February 19th, 2018by thetrashmen

I think about you a lot.

Are you well?

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Rant

February 18th, 2018by Taf Taf

I went tonight to the memorial of SS Oria.(I’ll attach photos at the end of this post,just to get an idea how the location is like)The SS Oria was (I’m copy-pasting from wikipedia) ” a Norwegian steamboat that sank on 12 February 1944, causing the death of some 4,000 Italian prisoners of war. This was one of the worst maritime disasters ever, and probably the worst loss of life caused by the sinking of a single ship in the Mediterranean Sea.”

I’ve been to this location 4-5 times.I don’t know why I go there.Maybe the loss of so many lives for no reason, draws me there.Maybe because …

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Idk

February 18th, 2018by vaporwave_

I’ve read a lot of posts on here without making an account for two reasons. One is because I felt no need to, and the second is because I didn’t want others to laugh with me if they ever found out that I made an account. They would follow me around on here, reading my posts and laughing, thinking that what they do does no harm.

I don’t know where to begin.

I feel like none of my friends are reliable enough. I feel like no matter what, i’ll grow up to be a failure and live alone and not do anything. I feel like I am …

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