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October 13th, 2017by Robigson

I don’t wanna die but neither live like this
I wonder when will liberation come..
There is something wrong with this world.
What do you think?

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Warning: Emo-ness is a little too strong here.

October 13th, 2017by Blugirl16

(instead of creating a thousand posts, i’ll create just one rant with most of my issues, I don’t expect you to read this)

According to most people this is what’s wrong with me:
-I’m too dramatic in my words, I guess i’m just a wannabe poet
-i’m too quiet when I try to speak, because I feel as if I have nothing to say
-I’m too creepy in my expressions, and even in my anxiety
-I’m too annoying for the ones who “care” about me
-I’m too ugly in my appearance for your eyes, with my skinny frame, and my big brown eyes
-I’m too stupid in my education as I fucked …

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I need to be needed, otherwise I think people will leave…

October 13th, 2017by PurpleK

I’ve been doing a lot of self reflection recently, maybe it’s the short psychology course I took. Here’s what i realized:

I expect the worst from people. In my head, they’ll leave me as soon as I make a mistake, or become an inconvenience or simply cease being useful. So I wear a mask, of a nice and happy girl. I smile and I laugh at things that aren’t funny. I jump at the opportunity to help out, I never argue or oppose decisions, I never show anger or disappointment. It’s not like I want to be this way, it’s not a conscious decision. I don’t …

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Fucking Zombie

October 13th, 2017by cornflowerblue

Where do people even get the motivation to get out of bed, to eat, to take a shower, to pay their bills?
I feel so helpless, I just think that someday I’m going to end up staying in bed, losing everything, ending up on the streets, and dying in a cold alley of starvation and emptiness.

Everything makes me nauseous with disgust and exhaustion; relationships are meaningless, food is tasteless, everything is so fucking pointless, and still, despite this horrible perception that has taken hold of me like weeds in a garden, I still get up and do what I do.

That’s the part that irritates me most. …

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?

October 13th, 2017by Robigson

Do you believe, think there are people in this world which could be your friends for life, with which you could have long lasting happy relationships but the problem is that you haven’t found those people and you don’t know where they are? What do you think?

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October 13th, 2017by Atintofgreen

Once a beginning now an end.

The end of December.

The less there is of you…The better?

The better.

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October 13th, 2017by Robigson

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October 13th, 2017by Robigson

Lost in a big world.

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Question

October 13th, 2017by AnonRaigonis

I have just been through a few posts from a few people here.

Do people do that often here? Just flicker out?

I know where I am at. And asking this is like begging someone to say “Kid, you are in the wrong neighborhood”.

Just that, it has been 5 years. 5 years since I know how easy it was for people to just go. And it is still hard on me now.
Is it like that, everywhere?

 

and,… what does it feels like to be depressed.

I know this sounded dumb or fake or whatever. But, before I feel like this. I was at a state where I constantly felt …

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Nervous

October 13th, 2017by lostallhope001

So I ordered the package with what I am killing myself (without giving any details, because I will not discuss methods anymore) and it should be delivered by tuesday. Is it normal to feel this nervous and scared? It’s like now it’s for real that I am scared

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Realized something

October 13th, 2017by idontevenknow2

I came to some conclusions just about now. I guess it’s just the old usual ones. Worthless, ugly, all of my friends should leave me, abandon me. I don’t deserve them, they are too good for me. I should just be left alone lmao. I also really want to self harm, really fucking bad. It’s been so long ago, I miss the touch, the feeling and tbh the pain. But I am scared people will notice and question it, and then like idk leave me, but honestly maybe that would be an easier way. I just want to do something to myself

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lonely

October 13th, 2017by Number

Just.. lonely. Feeling empty. Wishing I didn’t push people away.. Wishing I was more sociable and less… awkward.

I swear I am a likeable person… once you’ve known me for agggess and finally I let my walls down. This never happens so …

Hence why I’m feeling fuckin awful.

I’m probably just looking for validation from people. Just using them to full a void. You read everywhere that you shouldn’t look to people fot validation blah blah. What am I meant to do? Read a fuckin book?? Oh yeah. Great. My misery is cured.

Or start a new hobby?? Oh yes. Great let’s start going to the gym and …

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Suicide = ?

October 13th, 2017by eternaldarkness

Let’s play word association. What do you think about when you think of the word “suicide”? In 1-2 words.

What comes to my mind:
-Peace
-The End
-Necessary

-[fill in the blank]

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Jittery-2

October 13th, 2017by eternaldarkness

So I slept only 2-3 hours last night after ingesting the stupid “burn blend” pills. Well, my usual amount of sleep these days is only 4-5 so I guess it’s not that much better. I took those pills in the afternoon too, not even like I took them at night. I thought it would wear off by nighttime. I did calm down a bit by then but not completely. Even now it’s still a little there.

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Eh…

October 13th, 2017by RoughEdges

Life’s been different lately…I guess things have changed since I’ve decided to try new things.

…but ya know if you have discord…go ahead and add me if you’d like.

Here’s mine:

Otynx#3067
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Misanthrope

October 13th, 2017by Mordred

The greeks understood the most, that people like me should not be treated as humans. We should be treated (and I quote Aristotle) as “beasts or Gods”.

People have lost the ability to judge others. As if judging others is a crime. I don’t believe in the ethics of this world, not in their principles, or their standards. I believe in my own law. It is environmental bias that makes people blind, so they get duped by people like me.

And then when I hurt them, or don’t do what they expect me to do, they ask me why. Why did I not act human?

Blind idiots. I’m …

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Too late but I’m sorry.

October 13th, 2017by Octr

There is absolutely no amount of words that could ever make up for the things i may have done or said in the past, however, I am sorry, Partially because i miss you like fucking crazy, Partially because i desperately need to know you are still alive but mainly because i simply made mistakes, did and said things i regret.
I need you.
You were my bestfriend.
I’m sorry if i scared you away…
Please let me know you are okay.
I miss you.

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Sorry Again

October 13th, 2017by AKidWithAName

Every time, every fucking time this happens. It’s not a new thing. It’s happened since the beginning, and it will continue to the end. Every time that I think I’m doing better, it never gets any better.

 

What a dumbass ***** I am. I knew nothing gets better, but I expected it all the same.

 

Change. Test. Repeat. Change. Test. Repeat. Change. Test. Repeat. Am I any better because of it? No! I’m the same shitty person I was back then. I just recognize it now.

 

I don’t want anything good to happen to me anymore. I am a shitty person and I deserve nothing more than to …

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Despair

October 13th, 2017by Katki

Its not like this is new – not like I haven’t felt it before.. but every time, it feels like I’m slipping away, further from the light, further from help – if there is any.  I tried to do it last summer – I couldn’t go through with it, couldn’t let go.  So now, night after night, tear stained pillows, stuffy noses and an unquenchable longing for someone else to be beside me fills me with sorrow and despair.   So much good when I was little, so many bad things happened to me in the three relationships I had.  They bled me dry of all …

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Loneliness strikes within the midnight hour…

October 13th, 2017by Blugirl16

I was only a young child when I had an imagination as beautiful as a carnation. Day by day, the flower grew and soon it consumed my inner spirit. All was bliss till Murphy’s law struck as I was left dying alone in the dirt left unplucked. Tragically enough, it seems as if this flower-child will die in its same lonely state…and perhaps this is the reason why I think I will misfortunately become another statistic tonight.

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