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Feeling Alone and Scared

  July 12th, 2018 by blackcat002

Hi everyone,

I’m sort of a new user and just need to get some things off my mind. I have been struggling with depression and GAD for a long time now, and it only recently got to the point where I couldn’t bear it. The feelings of uselessness and hopelessness got worse and worse, to the point where I was on the verge of ending it all one night before scaring myself and heading to emerg. Since then everyone I’ve told has offered me help and support but as much as I try and take their words to heart it never actually sinks in. My friends …

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I feel it all coming to an end

  July 12th, 2018 by Sziarvie

Hello. This is my first post here.

I’m not going to review my whole life here, but to summarise, I’m in tenth grade, have been fucked by my life for years being gaybashed by my parents and having no real friend.

I was accepted into the highschool I have dreamt for my whole life, but I’m still a tool here doing the group assignments all by myself and failing my exams. I’ve been cutting myself for months, and my parents found it out. But they just worried of people discovering it. They didn’t give me a fuck. I have some “friends” but I cannot talk about my problems to …

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Not sure how i got here

  July 12th, 2018 by Nz_Ghost_zN

I am quite new to this website. I’m not sure what’s the purpose for it.

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How can therapy help?

  July 12th, 2018 by annon111

Hello. The tittle is pretty much my question. I’ve been to therapy and at first I was really uncomfortable but then finally started talking more recently. However, I really don’t see anything they can do. Like what’s the point? They can’t get rid of the feelings in me. Like does this help anyone? If so how?

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It has come to my attention

  July 11th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

The art of the will.

What is beneficial for a young woman of no assets to leave behind. No healthcare, life insurance under biological parents.. I see a post on here of getting rid and cleaning your area beforehand to not leave a mess. How else to prepare.. I have thought it through but anything I may have missed?

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Music nerd gibberish analogy

  July 11th, 2018 by darkwillow

A cute girl asks if you’d like to hang out. V7. The date goes great. I.

A cute girl asks if you’d like to hang out. V7. They decided she’s not into you. Imin.

Youre forced to work overtime. VI. Your phone breaks. II. Your wallet is stolen. III.

You’re forced to work overtime. VI. Your phone breaks. II. Your boss feel responsible, and supplies you with the latest smart phone. V.

But not everything is so linear…

Your wife dies. VII7. Your best friend stops answering your calls. bIImin. Your suicide attempt fails. IVMin. You’re sent into rehab. VIMinMaj7.

We like to believe we are living in “river flows in …

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  July 11th, 2018 by abede21

wish people could try to help me in ways that I’m able to see instead of ways that only they can see … my wording is awful I don’t know if that made sense I just needed to put this out somewhere thx for reading

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Back Again

  July 11th, 2018 by Lastdaysoon

Went to inpatient again. The meds worked for a few months but now am in a rough patch again. Tired of dealing with a life that never seems to work out. This time I won’t ask for help. Im gonna vapor lock and leave this awful world.  🙁

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Songs to kill yourself to

  July 11th, 2018 by HamboneFakenamington

I’m planning to kill myself while listening to this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zTm6bGOT7Wc

What’s your suicide song?

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My body – again

  July 11th, 2018 by wanttodie2

I went shopping today. Winter is quite severe this year and I really need new clothes. Of course I couldnt find anything cause I am to skiny. I am ridiculously thin. I look like a monster. It is not even a human appearence. Words cant describe how I feel.

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Already Dead

  July 11th, 2018 by bd2342f2

When thoughts of what you’re doing for dinner and what shows you want to watch are interspersed among fantasies of putting a gun to your head and pulling the trigger. When your life ended in your past, and you’re nothing but a walking corpse waiting for an opportunity to lay in your grave without causing more harm. Certain that things will never be okay again, and feeling that if they ever were, that would mean something went wrong with you. When everything is a distraction to escape being alone with your own thoughts, feelings, and memories- while simultaneously not wanting to ignore them.

Days, weeks, months, …

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  July 11th, 2018 by 5ara

i just wanna die i just wanna die i just wanna die i just wanna die i just wanna die

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It is hopeless and I’m yet to accept it

  July 11th, 2018 by Urm8451n

I just got back from the hospital (due to physical health issues) , I’m not in a great mood mentally-speaking.

I’m coping with so many things and I’m doing this well. It is extremely hard, I feel extremely alone in this, but I’m doing well.

The only problem is that the further I go, the more I lose. The more I drift away from society.

I’m becoming a lone wolf.

 

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HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  July 11th, 2018 by careforme

I just need some help please life sucks for my family and I got kicked out and have no where to go life just sucks work is painful all I do is cry I just need help someone to help me through this im begging someone before I lose my mind

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Suicidal in Seattle

  July 11th, 2018 by CMxide

Unlike most here in situations that are capable of being resolved with some expertise and grit, my situation is not. I am literally dying at a faster rate than most. Yes, it is health related. I am not one to slowly wither away, I won’t run from death anymore. Death always catches up anyway. Death is the only true exit from a doomed world that thrives on misery. Life is not precious. It is a fucking nightmare.

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Poison

  July 10th, 2018 by 500tdg

you infected my body with toxins

no antidote was made

but I just can’t get enough of you

baby, you’re my poison

 

you fill my brain

flood my veins

with your dirty words

I savor every sting

I always let you in

 

your eyes like steel

they reel me in

baby, make me your meal

 

i know you’re dangerous

i know you’re wrong

but I let you sink your fangs into me again

 

you’re no good for me I know

but you always steal the show

infect my heart

inject my brain

kill me slowly

i love the pain

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‘The Me Show’

  July 10th, 2018 by hyperballad

to start: I’m an alphabet soup of disorders. Three of those are bipolar, borderline tendencies (whatever the hell that means), and Asperger syndrome.

 

My closest support is my partner who is also financially tied to me. And I even feel her slipping through my fingers and this turning into an uncomfortable situation where we only live together because we can’t afford to live without any kind of plan which we currently don’t have and can’t foresee.

I mean. I can easily leave in a month’s time because my mother passed this June and has apparently left me a hefty inheritance. But my partner can’t. She is on …

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Can a suicide note stand in place of a notarized will?

  July 10th, 2018 by hyperballad

I’m trapped. I desperately want to die but doing so would leave my partner in a terrible position financially and as such could lose her daughter and her dog. My mother recently passed and has left me her entire estate in her will. I have been struggling against these feelings for so long and do not want to live another day. I have massive amounts of Seroquel and other rx drugs for the taking and I just want to take a walk to the woods tonight with a case of beer and down as many of them as I can. If I provided a written …

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So much to put in order …

  July 10th, 2018 by tbd

I’ve given a lot of thought to minimize the trauma. Part of that is the timing and method. I think late July through mid August is the best time as it will not crap on anyone’s birthday or holiday (other than my own).

I know that when it comes down to the final hours, it will be a bit scary. It could take me hours to die. Yes, I’ll be some place where I will not likely to be interrupted , but I’ve decided on a multi-tiered approach. If I can’t keep my cocktail down, I’ll use to wipe …

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