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Back yet again

  September 18th, 2018 by lazyjake

Since my last post in May I’ve gained and then ultimately lost friends because of how terrible of a person I am. I really don’t know why I try anymore. Maybe I give mmyself false confidence that I can actually be friends with people and have long standing friendships or have people that actually want to talk to me instead of just pitying me. I also started doing online school but I’m still fucking depressed so I have no energy to do work. My mom has gotten a lot more depressed and everything in my personal has gotten worse. So has everything else in the …

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  September 18th, 2018 by Robert Hulk

What things stop you from being the best?

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  September 18th, 2018 by Robert Hulk

Do you have those deja-vu moments where you feel that things repeat themselves?
What are some illusions that people believe?
Do you know that everything is programmed like a script?

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The perfect death

  September 18th, 2018 by passionfruit3

I have not died yet i have to wait a few days to see if i get sepsis from what i did and die.no one can know.no matter how much pain im in.i have to get this right it has to be perfect.im even considering doing something else tonight that might speed up the process possibly if i can stay awake since i took all my meds for the second night in a row really got to stop doing that so for all my other suicidal people hopefully you wont see me ever again in a few days if this works

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Sleepwalking/Loss of Memory on Zolpidem (Ambien)

  September 18th, 2018 by Yikrens

My mother said I was driving my Bike and feel. All my knees bleed. I bought some Pizza and Pork.

I remember an accident, but it is alike a general memory. I bought some Pork but it was like a week ago.

And why are my Hands swollen? I’ll take some more if my Doc is prescribing this. I need this to clear out, I study this stuff damn again!

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Edit: I’m still unaware how to treat that phenomenon. I was so secure that I’m immune of Memory Loss/Sleepwalking. I wait that they (Parents) show me the Bill of what I bought. If not, I’ll need to turn …

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God, the answer?

  September 18th, 2018 by Lostlullaby

So the other day I was saying my day was turning to shit for X or Y stupid reason (as I have a generalized anxiety disorder and I suspect I’m also a borderline  I don’t need much to feel that way) and this very catholic girl told me if I wanted to feel great I could go to the Wednesday mass if I wanted. I smiled at her and thank God, we had to return to our work. She was sweet and all and probably, like most people, had no idea on how bad I really felt. Anyway it was not the first time I …

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Alone

  September 17th, 2018 by Azure11

I just want someone to connect with and talk to and get to know again. I wish someone wanted to get to know me and want to talk all about their life and mine. I just want a connection with someone again and to have someone there for me, truly.

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Ok, I lied towards you..

  September 17th, 2018 by Yikrens

I took myself one Pill of mine. Short after I lost Consciousness. When I woke up, I was in the living room, both of my Hands swollen, mark of Stitches at both my Elbows. Strains of Blood marking both my knees. And my Medication gone.

This bastard’s are trying to turn me around. I said once to my Dad that I want to die, as he replied to me: “If you want to die, I’ll also.”, I must seen the lie earlier and this douchebag with the imagination people with this private urge can be played.

Respect is equality. None gets that from me out of itself….

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  September 17th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

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Otherside

  September 17th, 2018 by alina_01

This world is such an ugly place overwhelmingly ugly. I ended up accepting a job I didn’t intend to accept and it pays next to nothing. The boss is some slimey sneaky guy and we discussed an hourly rate and yet he made me salary. And asks me to work overtime for some bullshit day rate that he still doesn’t pay me. I hate the job and realized that I want my previous profession so much more now. I have mixed emotions about sex, I very much enjoy it but at the same time it’s so disgusting and I want the desire to go away. …

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Choking

  September 17th, 2018 by Lillian_Jean

I have recently moved to a new home in a new city with my parents, and my boyfriend of three years. I have only just lived with my parents prior to this and have had similar feelings in the past few years. In the last city I was in, I had a decent job and so did my boyfriend. I had planned all would go smoothly and I would be able to move out of their home and my boyfriend and I could buy a home shortly. But my dad got another job forcing my parents to need to move, I originally thought i could …

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I need someone to talk to and something to do

  September 17th, 2018 by Azure11

azureblu1111@gmail.com

That’s my email if anyone wants to talk, it can be about anything I just need a distraction from my broken relationship and hopefully not feel so alone.

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Waiting game

  September 17th, 2018 by passionfruit3

Ive done what i had to do now its just a case of waiting to see if it works or not

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Nothing Changes or Is It All?

  September 17th, 2018 by IrrationalLion

No matter where I am shitty people always find their way into my life. That part doesn’t change. What will change is the way I handle that. I used to think the old people in my life who fucked me over, all the people who were jealous,I now realize, and secretly wanted me to do bad, and all the people who simply didn’t care enough to stick around, were in my life because I had been in that town so long and so they knew me and the old me wouldn’t stick up for myself enough to kick them the fuck out of my life …

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  September 17th, 2018 by visual eyes

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Torn

  September 17th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

Why wont you think about me? What about my emotions? You want me to stay. The other wants me to go to them. I just want to be done with relationships. I can fix it all. Make it so i dont have to choose. Ill take a walk later and im sorry but… i dont plan on coming back from my walk. I know niether of you want this but i just cant anymore.

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Always the 14 year old lonely loser

  September 17th, 2018 by Azure11

(6:00am)

So I’m 18 now, and my boyfriend, well ex-boyfriend now, started living with me at my parents house after a whole messy thing where I ran away, got hospitalized. It was a mess, but now he broke up with me saying, and I quote, “I’m more than happy to say we are broken up for once”. The reason he said that is because he accused ME of cheating, like none of the bullshit he’s pulled in our relationship was worse than me just talking to a guy who used to be interested in me. Now he always reminds me about how we aren’t together by …

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  September 17th, 2018 by Robert Hulk

Is this life for something or for nothing? Why?
What do you think?

In what town do you live? What do you like, don’t like about it? Would you like to live somewhere else, where?

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What mask are you wearing today?

  September 17th, 2018 by OFFTheShadows

 

Today I’ll pretend I’m interested in life, talking to other people and do sth. I’ll pretend I want to spend my time doing sth that is worthy like work, study and all that shit.

My mask is pretending I’m happy and all I do is good for sth. But I know everything/everyone  are pointless.

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Bad news but expected.

  September 16th, 2018 by fakehappy

So, someone me and one of my ex’s used to try and help for a while died not long ago.

Not just died but killed himself with an overdose in the doorway of a ‘suicide prevention service’.

And then they proceed to write articles about a perfect but troubled ‘beautiful young man’. Are you fucking kidding me, that guy was low-key trouble. He seemed like he held ideologies but when he was on his own with me he’d get funny with me and just help himself to everything in the kitchen. Not to mention the heroin addiction, he wanted to reel me in. Another ex at the …

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