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Comparing Pain

  January 11th, 2019 by rejection

I was born in this cruel world without anyone ever asking me If I wanted to be born.

Born because of selfish desires of my parents, I never saw anything but pain. Or perhaps, maybe I’m the selfish one here. After all, I’m the one whose mind is broken…

When I talk about my pain with my parents, they tell me that there are others who are suffering way more than I do. Agreed, my pain is nothing compared to others, but is it fair to compare one’s pain to another?

Just because you’re shot in the leg instead of the chest, should people just ignore you and …

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Any kind of better is temporary

  January 11th, 2019 by heartlessviking

I wanted to work on this with a therapist, but I have three weeks to get through before I see the new one…. we’ll see how that turns out.

It’s bothering me the sense that I’m living on borrowed time, having functional days, being capable of work. Sometimes I feel like a fraud, like any time some official will come in with a stack of papers that says “We’ve found you out! You’re not a capable student at all, you’re a no talent hack.”

It’s tiring trading my hard won attention and focus for grades, which go towards a degree that earns me the ability to attempt …

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Dark Humor Is Beautiful (Bill Burr Tribute)

  January 11th, 2019 by Two-Faced

Bill Burr has a comedy theme of the “tough guy and a weak world”. I think it’s amazing when you’re suicidal and he tells the whole thing so straight forward it’s just… funny. He’s like “It’s the little things that make me wanna kill myself” … talk about gospel truth. Sometimes I’m not even depressed but when I don’t wanna do something I just think of hanging myself. That’s funny lmao and I kinda like it. I stay awake and I’m always waiting to die so I doubt the reaper will catch me off guard. If he does then good for me.

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Supermeh

  January 11th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

I’m hoping with time, I won’t have some mysterious force telling me that I’d better ‘go and talk to my ex’. Then again I’m awake in the middle of the night doing nothing. I’m meant to be sleeping. No wonder my mind is on him.

All in all, I think I’ll be back to that video game in a few months at the latest (because I intend to try and die then anyway, I think). I have the game deleted and I haven’t visited the game server website for I don’t know… 2 weeks now? So I guess that removes alot of temptation.

I would still be …

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is the juice worth the squeeze?

  January 11th, 2019 by tiredofchronicpain

Is it worthwhile continuing life when you are 29 years old, live with pain, rejected from social circles because of your looks, and stuck with your elderly parents, living day to day in a country with no job prospects, and no future to get better. I am simply alive for the sake of my parents, but they might need to house me for my whole life. My anxiety attacks makes it hard to keep jobs too; so what is this life worth? Please tell me what do do. Would you live under this extreme circumstances? Considering you are also viral on YouTube for saying “hi …

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Do you know a place where people are friendly and good with one another?

  January 11th, 2019 by Tellmewhy

I don’t understand people
Why do people have to be so cold
It kills me inside

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Thankful

  January 11th, 2019 by Niezzz

Thanks to all of you who response to my previous story. :”

Im very appreciate the way you guys gave me an opinion abt myself. What i should and what i shouldnt.

I went to the interview. I accidntly cried when i talk to the 2 women who was interviewing me.

They understood. And they give me an advice to be strong. Because im still young. I still have a very long way to go. I hope i have a chance to get into the hostel.

After i walked out from the room, theres a girl who 1 year older than me, she asked me why do i cry. …

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Inadequacy

  January 11th, 2019 by OnlyFurther

That person was right to have called me hopeless all along.

My life is ruined now.

I don’t have any passion left.

I needed this opportunity, but now I’m the biggest disappointment of my family.

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When I’m sad…..

  January 11th, 2019 by Martin1987

When I’m sad I often go to some desolated place far away from everybody. Sit down there, and all I do is think about what a big screw-up my life is. Anyone here want’s to sit next to me?

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Things were good for a while. Look at me now

  January 11th, 2019 by eviewiththebpd

i need one of my friends to ask if i’m okay and they won’t, and why would they? how would they know that i’ve hurt myself for the first time in months and that i’m suicidal and that i’m getting confused about time again? how would they know that i fucked up everything with my favourite person in the world and i can’t tell her i made a mistake because that’s selfish and she deserves better? how would they know that i’d kill for some alcohol because i can’t bear to think and i just hate myself so much? i’ve decided how i’ll do it. …

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Yea

  January 11th, 2019 by Tellmewhy

I feel like a prisoner that wants to break free
Queen – l want to break free
If you were to be an element between fire, earth, air or water what would you choose?

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  January 11th, 2019 by Mac-10toSchool

I’m going to avenge you all.

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different now

  January 11th, 2019 by miszion

things are calm here.

small, warm waves ebb their way onto shore. the sun isn’t quite all the way up yet, the shadows in the trees aren’t intimidating, and you’re next to me. a slight breeze slivers across the beach. you take me into your arms and kiss my neck and ear. I fall perfectly into your chest.

instead, I wake up alone. cold, unmotivated, and staring at my blank ceiling. it’s been three years since you fell into a sleep you would never fully awake from. I wish I hadn’t woken up today, either.

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What is the point?

  January 10th, 2019 by quantum

What really is the meaning of life? I cost my parents a bunch of money and feel like a burden on them. I have 2 friends that actually seem to care about me. My work is dropping me. If I end it, i will no longer have to feel this way. People will be sad, but I won’t have to think about it when I’m dead. Therapy doesn’t seem to do anything for me.

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Enough….

  January 10th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~

Its so tempting to try and kill myself. I know that I’d fail. I’m tired of looking for a place. I live with my mum so obviously she needs a place too. I’m tired of being f**ked over by real estates just so they can say NO and enjoy feeling super powerful. I’m tired of dealing with people anyhow. I’m starting to truly see that life is only for the rich if you want some form of privacy. This world is too harsh. I don’t belong here. I don’t belong anywhere. I just want to live in the Republic of Mouse Territories or be dead. …

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a tad confused

  January 10th, 2019 by frogjuice

I have relapsed into my self harming tendencies and after confiding in my parents who have supported my treatment for depression, just don’t seem to care anymore. My mother told me she could already imagine my corpse and said that it wasn’t her problem. It hurts, but her words have some truth, are my parents just denying the fact that I could harm myself further in any way or could it be something else? I’m starting to believe that my parents are invalidating my feelings even though they have been with me during my most vulnerable moments.

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Something I found while reading Nietzsche today

  January 10th, 2019 by Cause of Death: Suicide

Causa Sui 

Something that is it’s own cause – a term traditionally applied to God

Funny because that is indeed relative to my name. Just a little fun trivia here.

Causa sui (Latin pronunciation: [kawsa s?i], meaning “cause of itself” in Latin) denotes something which is generated within itself. This concept was central to the works of Baruch Spinoza, Sigmund Freud, Jean-Paul Sartre, and Ernest Becker, where it relates to the purpose that objects can assign to themselves. In Freud and Becker’s case, the …

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Help!

  January 10th, 2019 by dawn38

like a psych word a tunnel which you think hopelessly leading to something new

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If you could go back in time and change your actions, would you want to live?

  January 10th, 2019 by AXYZ

Suppose you could go back in time and nudge yourself to do something differently. In other words, you can’t change history or tell yourself about the future or what horse to bet on, you can only make yourself take a different course of action in regard to something you did.

Would that fix your life? Or at least make it bearable now?

If so, what would you change?

 

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A thought for the homeless

  January 10th, 2019 by Soda

I had to step outside my place very early this morning for about 10 minutes and it’s -7C (or -16C with the windchill or 19F/3F) here in Ontario. And I wasn’t dressed warmly enough. It’s been ages since I’ve experienced actual shivering with chattering teeth. It was so damn cold that I had to jump back in a few times to warm up and then finish the task I had to take care of.

I realized this was real torture. I’d rather be dead than to have to endure that freezing cold for an extended period of time. Homelessness should never exist. Everyone should have a …

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