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new

August 13th, 2017by Yasuji Kaminari

new. 

it is very interesting to be somewhere new

where people talk about leaving all the time.

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then there’s me

August 13th, 2017by matchaffee

my tongue twists
my words, I stutter
people around me are so well put together
then there’s me a star that is slowly collapsing upon itslef
a book that never left the shelf
my knees shake
my feet set firmly upon the ground
things around me has more worth, more love from others
then there’s me a car with no running motor
a heart once beating grows tired everyday
my eyes glued shut
my cheeks burning up a blush
my tears telling me to hush

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I hate my body

August 13th, 2017by an_old_child

I really hate my body. I’m not fat, I’m not too ugly, I’m  just covered with scars and a I hate it when I sweat. I actually hate my skin. I’m only 19 and I should be beautiful at this age. I can resist my stretch marks because almost everyone has them so they are natural but I can’t stand my scars. My body is full of those red things. They first appeared the first time I shaved my body hair and now they are everywhere on my hands and legs. I used to have tones of acnes on my face and now they’re gone …

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I’m fine

August 12th, 2017by Keroseneheart0

“I’m fine” I say to friends

“I’m fine” I say to my family 

“I’m fine” I say to the teacher’s 

“I’m fine” I say to the principal

“I’m fine” I say to my counselor 

But in reality…I’m not fine…I’m far from fine, I’m sitting in my room crying, I’m standing in the distance thinking, I’m looking at my one and only friend…Who left…She left me, I’m alone, That’s what I am

Alone

Forgotten

Nothing

Just someone she used to hang out with, Just someone who came to all my birthday parties, Just someone I

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Time

August 12th, 2017by rich51bruhh

“And that girl, cut her off.”

I cannot believe it has taken this long to finally fucking realize I should move on. That I might get better without her. Not that I neccessarily had to “be with her,” more like she shouldn’t be in my life for my own mental health. I have wasted the last five fucking years of my life. I don’t regret meeting her. I regret falling in love.

Lets see how long I last.

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I felt hope for a bit

August 12th, 2017by BeforeIGo97

I always thought I was very unattractive and I still think I am just a little bit less. I downloaded tinder out of curiosity. I matched with someone who apparently lived close. Got her number and we hung out. And for the time that we hung out time went still. And I felt like normal wrather than depressed. It was a weird feeling like I finally found the source of my depression. Loneliness, I always had friends so I never was lonely in that sense. But I haven’t been in a relationship since I was 13 I am now 19. I think my mind has …

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Suicide Club

August 12th, 2017by MaybeThisLyric

The most popular kid at school and I have made a “club” between the both of us. The suicide club. We made our date and I have chosen not to leave nots for my family or “friends” due to the fact that, they honestly never cared.

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Why do people commit suicide?

August 12th, 2017by stephaniearnld

Because the hurt was consistent.

Because you took their presence for granted.

Because the pain and shame never goes away.

Because you laughed at them.

Because you never understood, what alone, really feels like.

Because you turned away.

Because they became a burden.

Because they know they’d be better off.

Because It was so easiest thing to do.

Because no one really cared, until

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I will be prepared.

August 12th, 2017by eviewiththebpd

I’m collecting the pills. I’ve written the notes. I’m checking things off of my bucket list. I’m ready to go.

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I can’t tell what is scarier: living or dying.

August 12th, 2017by duringmydarkestdays

Suicide date is set for the 8th September, the time when I get my bus pass, I’ll be heading right to the station and “catch my train.” 

I wish I could come out with some meaningful posts, but lately my head is foggy. 

I just can’t stop thinking that it’s going to be finite. That it’ll be over and I will cease to exist. That I’ll be doing this to myself. Can’t say I have the guts, I’m flooded with terror. But the sooner it’s over, the better.

 

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Edgy Kids

August 12th, 2017by BlueDiamond

Does it piss you off, when people say that young people are depressed because it makes you edgy?

Or that they reason we’re still depressed is because we love our smartphones so much?

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Attraction to Cartoon Characters

August 12th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I think I know why I’m feel attached and attracted to cartoon characters, yet feel so detached to real life people. This behavior harms me because I feel so lonely all the time, yet when I’m around people I feel overwhelmed or in fear around them. I had this attraction to 2-D drawings since I was a kid. As a kid, it’s normal to be attached to your parents. Since my dad was an asshole, me and my brother hated him, saw him as the bad guy, so maybe I to look for a male role model elsewhere. Since I didn’t have another male role …

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Regrets

August 12th, 2017by lulu1999

Do you ever look back at your life and just instantly break down in tears?  I am 18 years old, and in all of those 18 years I have done nothing productive for myself or for this world.   I never tried in school, I really just barely got by.  I never focused on building strong friendships or relationships, or at least never succeeded in them.  I played soccer for most of my life, but was never great.  I like to sing and play guitar, but I’m mediocre at best.  I never excelled at anything I did, i just existed.  The part that frustrates me …

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Update On My Miserable Life

August 12th, 2017by Todamnbad

     I just balled my eyes out because of the hell I’m in. Every root of my problem comes to pain. Its so severe, i feel like there’s knives in my skin from the injuries i had. I think this is the most true saying I have ever heard, ” What doesn’t kill you makes you wish you were dead” And i wish I’m not here every fucking day, if there is the day someone has me at gunpoint, i would say please fucking do it. I want out, end my hell and put me at peace

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It’s overrated

August 12th, 2017by Piratemermaid

Just had to pay for $5 worth of gas in borrowed quarters so I could get to a job interview. I’ve got a college degree that I thought I could use to help people with, and now I’m interviewing for a second minimum wage job. This whole living thing is really overrated.

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Tolstoy – Confession

August 12th, 2017by Randall

I’m reading this book by Tolstoy, Confession. At the age of 50 he decides suicide might be a good idea because he can’t find the meaning of life even though he’s wildly successful with his writings. The whole book is only 93 pages and I found it online. I’d copy the link, but do they allow that on Suicide Project? If you’re interested google Confession – Arvind Gupta and the whole book is in PDF format or I went to the library and got it.

“There is an old Eastern fable about a traveler who was taken by surprise in the steppes by a raging wild

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August 12th, 2017by Dead Flowers

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Suicidal

August 12th, 2017by hope1996

Being  suicidal is it a joke.  I wake up with a great  attitude. But whenever I get told I’m not good enough and everything I do isn’t good enough it tears you down. It really makes you start to think “what if I wasn’t here?” “They wouldn’t be disappointed in me if I was gone” those thoughts run. But yet I wait and hope for better but better never comes………

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August 12th, 2017by snader

I am stuck on a train miles and miles away from him. And this piece of shit isn’t going fast enough, I need to be there now now now. I needed to be there an hour ago. But distance is real and teleporting is not and so I am stuck, waiting for time to pass by, hoping somehow time itself will realise this is an emergency and speed up x2.
My boyfriend is in the hospital for stomach aches and vomiting and feeling like utter crap. They’re taking scans and photos and examining him but so far they don’t know shit. Just that he’s unwell. …

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If i hadnt failed at hanging hundreds of times i would hang myself

August 12th, 2017by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

Nothing more to add I shouldn’t be alive i cant handle it anymore. I can’t even find a fucking counselor. I even ran some off.