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  September 19th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

so it looks like my narc mommy is targeting my brother next. I don’t know if I should care. There’s nothing I can do to stop/help either of these toxic fuckheads.

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Caring

  September 19th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

Just because you care about me you think you know what is best. Take youre geds. You should finish school. Dont talk to a therapist they will just drug you. Talk to a therapist you need some kind of help. Would you two just fuck off and let me live my own life. I am capable of it you know.

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Today

  September 19th, 2018 by PatheticMale

Today was the worst that I ´ve had in a while. Nothing unusual happend just my emotional state was even worse than usually. I just watched these people being happy, being normal. When I was waiting for the tram I had this immense urge to just jump under it as it was aproaching. To just end it all right here right now without thinking it through. I think this kinda impulsive way is how a lot of people take their life, coz like me they feel too guilty to act on their thoughts, think through some plan and do it “correctly”. Im afraid that the …

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  September 19th, 2018 by jr.

I hope I get fired from my job. Then I will an excuse on why I offed myself for my family. And things will not be so  for them

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Headaches

  September 19th, 2018 by morado123

I thought I was totally fine. I mean, I was sure I wasn’t stressed as much as I had been a year ago. Also, I stopped hurting myself, which is a huge plus.

However, I’ve been suffering from headaches for a few days now. Not your usual not-that-painful headaches. I mean, the ones that make you go home early from school or work.

The thing is there are no causes. It may be stress, it may be my sitting position, but I don’t really know why.

Yep, that’s what I told the doctor.

I know the cause to my headaches. I’ve been fucking stressed from my social relationships for …

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  September 19th, 2018 by Kingdombythesea

Suicide is easier said than done. It’s frightening when I actually put the plan into action. I back out the last minute. It’s so scary that I can’t bring myself to do it and it makes me angry. Its like I’m trapped, I’m too afraid of life and death

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  September 19th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

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How fierce must be the hurricanes

  September 19th, 2018 by Rainwatch

“How fierce must be the hurricanes that blow through the mind of a man that seeks solace from the muzzle of a pistol”, is how Balzac quite eloquently put the mindset behind blowing your head off, it’s as true today as it was when those words were written in 1830. The hurricanes that blow through my mind can be pacified only by substance use, namely pot and Ambien, under the influence of those substances is the only time I can think staight, the sensation of a clear head has become a long forgotten memory, what is it like to be able to think clearly? Plot …

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The Beautiful American Word, Sure

  September 19th, 2018 by deliveranceandperdition

I have probably thought about killing myself twenty or thirty thousand times in my life.

Why does life have to throw you in there and rip you to shreds?

Why does everyone have to treat you like dog shit, over the smallest things, such that you can never imagine that it would be worthwhile to grow past your pain, that there is nothing dear in this life? Why does it take so little to reduce someone so much? Why does their pain have to be so great when all they wanted was to love? When all they needed was a little recognition? All they needed was an …

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I am tired and sick

  September 19th, 2018 by tiredofchronicpain

What can I say? soon to go back to South Africa because I cannot get a job. The woman I worked for 3 weeks ago refuse to pay me for the work( yes, i worked twice for individuals here in Australia: the former did his PHd from my blood and sweat without paying me a scent, the latter, did not pay me a cent for the hard work I performed either, was tyrannical and violent).

I am pondering my existence out of fright, pain, and horror. To sum up: 29, graduated, incel, pain, depression, anxiety… I probably can find a long fucking acronym to holistically summarise …

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  September 19th, 2018 by jr.

Just can’t wait till the day I kill myself.

The day is closing in fast

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  September 19th, 2018 by Robert Hulk

How can l see posts of users who commented on my post if their username is different than their author name?

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  September 19th, 2018 by freeroma


I have a loved one who was recently diagnosed with cancer. Craniotomy to remove part of the tumor few weeks ago, chemo started this week. He’s been in pain, particularly after the surgery. Not sure i see that getting easier as this progresses..

To sum up a range of emotions difficult to separate and explain..
I’m out of my depth.

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The Beginning of the End

  September 19th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

I have it all figured out. I’ll need about $100 and 2-5 months. That’s it. Then I can be gone. No more pain. No more suffering. A clearly thought out plan that can’t fail. A bit of time before hand to spend time with a friend and distract myself from the foreseeable future. Kinda like one last good week. Its a matter of starting the plan. And knowing where to start.

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Worthless Gold

  September 19th, 2018 by ArwenOfAstora

I was born among the elite, the educated, proper folk whose minds operated in the mode of mechanical science and who scrutinized the world through the lens of a logician’s numerical calculations. Everything was numbers, statistics to be enhanced – for in their eyes progress was a thing which could only be observed through the flux of quantities, not cherished, personal victories incapable of being translated into benchmarks.

As such quantitative endeavors like that of grades and money were emphasized while the development of qualitative phenomena like that of the arts and the emotions were vastly neglected. I have never seen my mother nor father express …

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Thoughts

  September 18th, 2018 by LetTheLostKittensPlay

I can’t shake the sadness off. It’s overwhelming. I keep trying to ignore it. To shield it. To do the things that make me “happy” but nothing is working anymore. I can’t tell people about this. I feel embarrassed. Why am I so suicidal when I’m supposed to be happy? Isn’t this what I lived for? To become my greater self? Then why hasn’t it happened? Why am I hurting all of a sudden? Why do I feel like I don’t belong in my own skin and that my thoughts don’t belong to me? I don’t feel comfortable anymore. I’m considering ending it soon. I’m …

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Fifty Weeks

  September 18th, 2018 by clipped-wings

I rode my bike today. It’s been almost one year since I had screws drilled into my spine. I am so happy that I finally got the courage. I was afraid of the pain it would cause.  But I did it!

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Mom

  September 18th, 2018 by Heartbrokenme

The little voice in my ear,

Just one word that I can hear.

The little hand on my side,

The face I cannot hide.

The little grin,

Dimple on his chin.

He is my saving grace,

Snuggling in to my warm embrace.

I am too wary to go on,

But for my son.

The little voice in my ear,

The only word I can hear.

Mom.

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  September 18th, 2018 by Itsyaboy.uhskinnypenis

October 5th is the day i finally do it. October 5th. 2 days after my birthday

2 days before my brothers

That way, they can still post all the happy comments and my brothers isn’t bothered by my death

Im ready

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Addiction

  September 18th, 2018 by depresso.exp

I always struggled with some sort of addiction ever since I was little. When I was little it was huffing sharpe markers. Im pretty sure every kid did that hah. Then when i was a pre-teen it was self harming. The usual cutting, scratching at myself until i bled, pinching, biting, etc. I was addicted to tormenting myself for 7 years. Of course, that stopped. But now as a fresh adult, i find myself leaning to a new addiction. Smoking. I do vape and i find it as a casual hobby rather than an addiction tbh. But the thing about cigs is that it feels …

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