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24/05/14

  July 13th, 2018 by Octr

You made me feel alive,
You made me feel like a person,
I took that for granted and ended up ruining the most happiest moments of my life.

I wasn’t ready for you and you weren’t ready for me.

I couldn’t handle anything, everything upset me, I was a broken mess right from the start, I did and said so many wrong things, I ended up hurting someone I truly loved.

You simply couldn’t handle or deal with me and eventually you had enough.

I do not blame you anymore, I know I used to do that all the time.

Only because I genuinely believed it because I was completely blind to …

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In Miami. In need of a friend

  July 13th, 2018 by Dinoracristina12345

I have reached my witts end. I am going to get the eternal sleep elixir soon and I would like someone that would like to spend time with me before I departure. If you are interested and in the Miami Area please contact me. I really need you

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Pain and Misery

  July 13th, 2018 by V95

I can’t stop thinking about you. I think that I reflect everything that has happend to me, to you. I don’t want to exist on this planet anymore. I’ve hurt everyone around me because of my own pain and I just want it to stop. I want to stop feeling so miserable and it feels like the only way to so is to stop breathing. To stop living and stop feeling. My soul’s damaged beyond repair. Something I mostly did to myself, because I empathize too much with other peoples pain. And in this matrix that we live in doesn’t seem to make it any …

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Sharing/Oversharing

  July 13th, 2018 by itsallsmallstuff

I want a healthy relationship. But part of opening up to someone is talking about wanting to die. Then this perverts the relationship with either a)flirting with the idea of a suicide pact or b)becoming its gravitational center. Has anyone else walked this line? Possibly even successfully?

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  July 13th, 2018 by freeroma

The trees in front of me looked dead. A glimpse of life, a promise of light which doesn’t dispel the stagnant growth.
Is it enough to feel brief warmth when you know the rot remains, to traverse a path of decay for an idea of an ideal?

Does new growth displace the old, or just work as a counter offer to a broken foundation? Maybe it’d be better with ivy. A take over of what was until the original is just a husk. Non parasitic but kills in it’s own way, first coexistence then survival of the fittest …

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  July 13th, 2018 by ida.daniel

Hemingway was probably right.

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Obvs

  July 13th, 2018 by rip_gato

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I’m tired.

  July 13th, 2018 by Bonjour_labing_pito

I’m tired. Tired of everything. I just want to end it all. I’m tired of living. Tired of thinking. Tired of faking that i’m happy and okay. I don’t feel that i still have something to contribute in this world. Feels like more of a liability to everyone around me including my family. I’m tired. So tired.

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Just wondering

  July 13th, 2018 by noah5678

Would any of you feel pissed/ungrateful if you tried to end your life/almost died, and someone saved you or you didn’t end up dying or your attempt eas unsuccessful? Because I certainly would.

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Strangulation

  July 13th, 2018 by Evil_Pity

Was thinking about death by strangulation. Could not go through with it, due to too much uncertainties. Currently 4:30pm central standard time was planning on using a large medical rubber band for strangulation asphyxiation. Was planning on wearing the rubber band from 3pm until i pass out and hopefully die by morning. Since reading about asphyxiation causing brain damage i backed out because i did not want to wake up a lame body individual. Still have other days to try again hopefully my neck doesn’t toughen up. If it toughens up dying from asphyxiation may get harder.

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Some things I deal with a lot

  July 13th, 2018 by noah5678

Severe ocd, severe anxiety, severe depression, heat flashes EVERY DAY, lack of motivation/absolutely NO interest in anything anymore except my cell phone and music, constant suicidal thoughts, intense self-hate, occasional lonliness, and sadness

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I try. I really do

  July 13th, 2018 by hyperballad

I’ve seen so many people, visited so many hospitals, tried so many rx combos, gotten so many different diagnoses and just none of it honestly helps and there is very little tethering me to this planet anymore and I just wish it could be in my hands to decide to let go. No matter where I go or what people say to me to convince me otherwise, I’m left feeling like a stranger on the fringes everywhere I go. I’m alone. I’m deeply unhappy no matter how much I try to change it. And I try so hard

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If time travel were possible…

  July 13th, 2018 by thehusk

There are times when I desperately long to go back, and do it all differently. But suppose it really were possible to go back in time, and change the course of events. I feel like the only way to do it would require me travelling there, as I am now, and somehow influencing who I was then. Maybe some sort of mentor figure, intervening before it was too late. Training myself to endure in the face of hostility. To stay true to myself rather than letting fear control me. Not to cut myself off as a protection mechanism. To be open to life and it’s …

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I have lost my way in life

  July 13th, 2018 by roland

Sometimes, lots of times, I think of ending it. I don’t really want to, like everything else in my life I have very little will power. The smoking, drinking, but worst of all its the endless thoughts. I am not sure if its voices. sometimes its me, sometimes its a movie character. There is never any purpose to it, just every day things I guess. I cant sleep, when I do its a crash, feels like getting hit by a freight train. I think I am afraid of the dark.

The last 2 months have been the lowest and darkest I have ever experienced. My whole …

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Lost

  July 13th, 2018 by Itried781

I made an attempt over the weekend. I just had enough of all the bad luck and loss I’ve had over the past two years. I feel like I am alone and no one gets exactly how I feel. It feels more like judgment than concern. I have been alone for such a long time, with no luck of making a human connection. Maybe I’m not supposed to make a connection in this life……

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Guilt

  July 12th, 2018 by annon111

I don’t push people away because I don’t like them or appreciate them. I push them away for the opposite reason. I do care about them and I don’t want them to have to put in the enormous effort of helping me. Not gonna lie, when someone not just says that they care about you, but truly shows it more through actions, it feels really good. But I care about you too much to let you waste your time and energy on me.

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The worst part of depression

  July 12th, 2018 by Eleanor

Depression is full of plenty cruel twists, like feeling guilty for being sad, or uncontrollable crying, or just wanting to be dead even though I really don’t want to die but I am not really living anyway and there is so much pain I don’t think I can take it anymore. Or it could be the fact the the loneliness is so deep I feel like I am being driven mad but I struggle to connect with people bc I’m so sad it can be difficult to form a coherent sentence. And I don’t have the energy to go out with anyone anymore. But really …

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lyf is all about sacrifices

  July 12th, 2018 by silentdreamer

Lyf starts getting bored when u just live for the sake of others… It is very difficult to sacrifice all ur wishes in-order to make others happy… This is what happening in my lyf… I seriously don’t know why its always me!!! Its been more than five years and now am fed up with this lyfstyle… Without being able share my feelings and problems to anyone am mentally distressed… I hate my lyf…. really really hate it!!!

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I tried to kill myself back in October

  July 12th, 2018 by izzuh

Took a bunch of immune suppressants for a disorder I have. My body basically stopped producing all white blood cells, bone marrow, potassium, you name it. I was in excruciating pain after about 15 hours and when my roommate found me she took me to the ER. Once I was admitted they gave me an anti-nausea and pain shots and it was the most blissful moment of my entire life. My roommate was furious, nurses were staring at me with sad eyes, and the doctors were telling me it would be a long and painful death, but I should be gone before the end of …

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It has been a while

  July 12th, 2018 by itsallsmallstuff

I haven’t spoken publicly/anonymously about wanting to kill myself in a long time. Probably not since I was a preteen. That’s what I want to do today. Get something off my chest about that. For me, suicide and sex are inexplicably connected. I don’t have any clear reason for this. As far as I know, there isn’t any one moment in my childhood that I can point to and say “right there – that’s when I became so fucked up.”

What I do remember is being in elementary school and staying up all night having very graphic sexual fantasies about being raped and murdered. I remember …

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