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Will Someone Stroke my Ego…

August 14th, 2017by BlueDiamond

it hurts.

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i hate the way i look

August 14th, 2017by iamdarling

i am ugly – my eyes are ugly. everything else about me is fine, perfect, even, but my eyes – they are so ugly.

i don’t know what has happened to them – they used to be pretty. the past few years, they have started to change, for some reason. the only way i can ‘fix’ it is by wearing winged eyeliner and eyeliner on my waterline, and sometimes they can look great, but usually, they don’t. i mean, they look decent, as i’m pretty good at makeup, but two minutes after applying the eyeliner on my waterline, it just doesn’t look as good as it …

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Endowed with the capacity for hope and despair

August 14th, 2017by Night In Atlantis

Wittie,

My absence is inexcusable. Please know that you’re often in my thoughts; day by day I’m ever mindful of the approaching date, and what that may mean, your decision is a weight heavy on my heart.

By contrast words, this medium seems so hollow; I’m powerless, impotent, and exposed like a nerve, waiting unbearably for the inevitable pain, yet daring to hope that there’s another way. That this remarkable, intelligent, and deeply thoughtful person on the other side of the world has found a way where others have not. My hopes rest with her, for if she cannot find a reason to go on what chance is there for anyone else.

I had written a lengthy reply some time …

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Title

August 14th, 2017by darkwillow

I slept 14 hours yesterday. i just wish I could sleep forever. I’m tired of trying so hard. Im just tired.

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August 14th, 2017by peach

I’m tired of being too coward to actually do it

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August 14th, 2017by funny123

As I was about to execute my plan two weeks ago, I had a thought midway…had I really done all I could to fix the issues I’m having and what would REALLY make this all better?
It all came down to someone who I haven’t spoken to for almost 6 months. If I could just have that person back in my life I would be willing to allow myself to feel better. I realised that neither them or I had tried to reconcile, and I was about to end my own life based on the fact that we parted ways.
Since then I’ve had a new …

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Trying to keep myself happy

August 14th, 2017by ENERGYSPIRIT7

Hello , I have made a decision tonight. So many nights I have kept letting my depression get to me. I am feeling a bit better tonight , Which is rare. But I am going to be depressed tonight again , soon. It usually gets to its worst at this time. I have been taking in much more caffeine than usual. It seems to be the only thing that works anymore. But it’s been less and less. And I know that I’m going to be depressed again tonight. I can feel it. I already am. It will get much more intense ,

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to: mommy

August 13th, 2017by mynameisnight

why can’t you love me, mom? aren’t i your child too? or do you hate me that much?

honestly speaking, i envy my brother.. for you’re always being so nice and kind to him. you’re so obviously prioritize him, always give everything that he wants. you even sacrificed my happiness just to fulfill all his demands.
just like him.. me too, wants to be loved, wants to be happy.
was that too much to ask, mom?

all the other girls can be best friend with their mother. they can tell everything to their mommy and have their mom’s support on everything.
i can’t relate to that. no, that won’t do.. …

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Do you remember?

August 13th, 2017by Atintofgreen

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Reasons to stay

August 13th, 2017by eeyore

The reason that I’m still alive today is bc I don’t want to spread my pain to my loved ones. I can’t do that to them. I love them too much. So I live for them.

Comment down your reasons for pushing on everyday

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I’m sorry.

August 13th, 2017by Eccedentesiastsoul

I’ve been fighting for so long and its time I surrender. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the perfect daughter. I’m sorry I wasn’t born a boy. I’m sorry I’m such a disappointment and I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be. I’m sorry i couldn’t open up about it. I’m sorry I was too weak to ask for help, I thought I would get over it like all my problems, just like you said. I didn’t want to cause more drama since you said I should “get over it and stop being a drama queen”. I’m sorry I wasn’t friends with who you wanted …

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Almost waited too long

August 13th, 2017by corinao

I am leaving soon. I have to because if I wait much longer, I will become too apathetic to get it done. A few months ago, I felt anticipation at leaving and it made me feel almost happier. But that has faded. I think all of my raw emotions and desperation have been depleted to zero. And, all that is left is a growing numbness and disconnect from the world around me. All I feel is constantly exhausted and a heavy yet somehow hollow feeling in my stomach.

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Black days

August 13th, 2017by ImSayingGoodBye

Whatsoever I’ve feared has come to life
Whatsoever I’ve fought off became my life
Just when everyday seemed to greet me with a smile
Sunspots have faded and now I’m doing time
Now I’m doing time
‘Cause I fell on black days

 

With the recent suicide of two great singers. For whatever reason, I’ve looked back into Chris Cornell’s lyrics and started listening to his work deeper than I’ve ever have before. His words touch my inner soul. I’ve never really liked soundgarden or audioslave till now. I always loved the grunge era. And I considered Cornell’s bands on the bottom of the list that time. I have no idea why, …

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Shame

August 13th, 2017by Birdy

I hate myself for a numerous reasons. Somedays, I look down at myself and I take a deep sigh and say that I won’t hurt myself anymore. But then I do. Trying out alternatives that I read about online, did not work because they all seem stupid and my mind always goes back to the real thing. Maybe I should try something that wouldn’t leave a scar? That didn’t work either. In those moments I know that I will have some regrets later, but I do it anyways, as if I need something else to add to my list of punishments. Why does it matter if …

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Sorry For Being Me

August 13th, 2017by Gary

Saying sorry seems so wrong. I tried but I cant do this. I simply cant do this anymore. I’m tired of fighting all of this, everything, life. It just is not in my cards. I want all of this to simply be turned off. No more no nothing.

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I don’t want family

August 13th, 2017by WOODESITY

I’m tired of this family I’m living with, i know they’re using me, my sister barely cares and talks to me, she never loved me or cared about me, my mother is selfish psychopath, my aunt, she bought new house, and I’m working on full time shift and after coming tired from work i need to work in her new house, painting, sanding and lifting all heavy staff, i understand, she says it’s family and because she’ve done many things for me i have to do the same or otherwise I’m monster, and shw makes me feel guilty whatever i say, i feel she’s controlling …

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I can’t remember

August 13th, 2017by Nevermind_

A few days ago I was talking to this guy. And he asked me a question that should be that hard to answer. ” when was the last time you were happy?” But it was! It one question I had no answer to. I can not remember the last time I was happy. Because for as long I can remember I have never felt true happiness. And that really hit me hard. In my 18 year of living I have never felt it, and I will never know what it feels like to have that.

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Isn’t it funny

August 13th, 2017by Nevermind_

Isn’t it funny how people say they love you, but thet hurt you anyway.

Isn’t is funny how they say they will stay by your side, but leave you anyway.

Isn’t it funny how they make you feel hope again, just to crush it all over again.

Isn’t it funny how I fall for it every single time.

Isn’t it funny.

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Best thing of my suicide

August 13th, 2017by John Doe

The best part on when i kill myself in couple months is that i would not have to go to my stupid job anymore. Looking forward to it. 🙂

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then and now

August 13th, 2017by lostidentity

I used to love life… every bit of it.

I used to love traveling and staying up late and being with friends.

But now my mind and body has become a mobile prison I cannot escape.

Travelling meant I had to suffer from continuous worry that somehow this trip will end up badly and my mom will find out how I tried to escape from the chaos of our home.

Staying up late meant that I had to battle my mind’s endless debates on how my life will end up; good or bad (the bad side always wins). I would always find a reason to stay awake and that alone will …

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