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The Practicalities of Self Deliverance

  November 14th, 2018 by BehindDeadEyes

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  November 14th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

I’m gonna run out of antipsychotics to put me to sleep eventually. Then it’ll be back to feeling like I haven’t slept in years.

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Sorry Mom

  November 14th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

Sorry, I had to yell at you about the whole mother, older brother, and younger brother dynamic but it was the only way to remind you that he will end up playing you and then end up coming back to me you need to stop talking to him not for my sake but for all our sake because he will relapse back on opioids I already made my choices which are good and bad inaction and action and choice led to mistakes and consequences but the repeat of the 10 1/2 years of the back and forth I can’t deal with that because I need …

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Getting ready

  November 14th, 2018 by Lastdaysoon

Here I am right before the holidays and life sucks worse than ever. This time I am not going to APS. Im gonna hang myself in the garage and that’s that. I feel numb after years of anguish so this should be easy….

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Im broken z

  November 14th, 2018 by Grizzly bear

When we were young i was a kid. I was stupid. I didnt realize how awsome you were. I know when we had the abortions it killed you inside. What i never told you is i also lost a part of myself. It wasnt your faul i was broken. I was in pieces before you came back. I was gonna end it then you came back. Gave me a beutiful baby girl to raise. And the next few year were the best of my life.

It was never easy. Those years with you were rough enough. We were young and not ready but at …

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flash fiction

  November 14th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

i sit alone on my bed. or so i think i’m alone until i hear a faint “hello Claire” i turn my head slightly. “oh its you” i reply casually “i didn’t think you were going to visit me today” i say as i go back to looking at the blank space on the wall. wondering what to put there to fill the emptiness. “why wouldn’t i visit you today. i do every other day don’t i?” my friend asked me. “well. yeah. i guess you do.” i look away from the wall and down at my hands. ever so neatly folded on my lap. …

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Lie

  November 14th, 2018 by Lie

It’s tough living the life where you have to keep on guessing and thinking are u doing the right thing. Is he still interested in u. What did u do wrong today why he is again today not into you. It is sad. For a person who always dreamt a life of love. But u miss the warmth. Coz the Guestures which keeps u going are the one that does not interest him at all. The conversation which excites r the ones which bring a grin on his face.

U wanted a partner. But right now u are a dependent soul craving for affection.

When did the …

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Lie

  November 14th, 2018 by Lie

It was such a bad day that I was not allowed to log in

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These days

  November 14th, 2018 by Chanty

These days I don’t feel anything. Things that I used to care about seem uninteresting.
I feel like I have been on a road to self destruction. I see myself doing things that I know will only hurt me, but I can’t bring myself to care. I can’t bring myself to care about anything anymore and that scares me.
My grades are slipping, my relationship with my parents is straining.
I know that I should try to fix everything while I still can, but I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to do anything anymore.
The thought of dying have been on my …

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One More Day

  November 14th, 2018 by rivets

It never ends. It’s like being stuck on a hamster wheel, spinning round and round forever. Just one endless eternal day spinning round and round until you’re sick. The wallpaper never changes, the floor is always filthy, the ceiling is boring, and the hamster wheel squeaks as it turns. Can’t they at least oil it? Stupid humans. Stupid, stupid humans. At least they invented beer. That’s one positive, I guess.

 

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Positive Affirmations

  November 14th, 2018 by ADoseOfReality

24 minutes is pretty short compared to eternity. For those who find they still have some fight in them, even the slightest bit, I hope this helps 🙂 All you have to do is hit play, hit “watch this video on YouTube”, and listen.

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Incapable

  November 14th, 2018 by PatheticMale

I am depressed because I am lazy. I am lazy because I am depressed. I am insecure because I m lonely. I am alone because I am too insecure to find someone. I really wanna die but I dont wanna kill myself. I am incapable of doing anything productive or meaningful. Useless people like me should be fking taken out by natural selection but humans just cheated the evolutionary system that has been around for millions of years…. Survival of the fittest isnt evil.  For weak disgusting creatures that cant succeed in life death is a mercy. Its kinda fked up to me that nature …

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  November 14th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

I have come curiously close to the end, down
Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole
Defeated
I concede and
Move closer
I may find comfort here
I may find peace within the emptiness
How Pitiful

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I hate that you can hurt me so easily

  November 14th, 2018 by outinthedark

It’s stupid shit too. I get hurt over all the stupid shit. I can’t do this anymore. I want it to be next week already so I can leave you.

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Afraid to be a burden on society

  November 14th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

So I forget I am not allowed to type certain things on here but I am thinking that I am better off dead wish someone was allowed to kill me since I am not strong enough to do it myself.

Rebound as always which is awesome but still sucks that I am still alive when I want to die just not strong enough to do it myself.

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The Body

  November 13th, 2018 by BehindDeadEyes

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The Others

  November 13th, 2018 by ravingbean

I need to find a way to make them stop. They talk constantly. They have music blaring too. They’re out front. And next door. Inconsiderate fuckers.

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Loss of words

  November 13th, 2018 by infinitePrime

I feel like I’m out of words now. I’ve been replying to people in a single word. I can’t talk properly. I wonder if I’ll become dumb forever.

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Inhuman cold world

  November 13th, 2018 by nuclearbackpack

Our lives are meaningless

It’s nothing but survival of the fittest, meaning survival of the best looking, most cunning, most heartless.

 

Is it any wonder people kill themselves

 

Every time I go out I just want to go home and cry, the world is hideous

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  November 13th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

I never met a real human, the way l need a human to be, l’m always disappointed.

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