I’m sick of it all!! The world leaders and the stupidity, the difficulty dealing with my own stupidity and my past. I love my children; I do and people care for me but they care more about me than I do. I’m jealous of all those who have died already however they died. I have lost those closest to me except for my girls who are probably the only reason I wake up. I cry all the time. I’m stressed and have thought of more ways to die than the Mayan long count calender has days! I don’t want to die because i BELIEVE life […]
Rants
I, like most people here, am looking for answers that we all know don’t exist. Â Despite that we all continue, we push on with blind faith, hoping, wishing, praying that the answers will just suddenly appear before us. Â But I have lost my faith and hope and my wishes and prayers go without response.
I am now 45, and I have been struggling with depression ever since I was 17. Â It has been a long and exhausting trip. Â It has caused me to lose all of my friends, resulted in me being hospitalized for a total of 3 months between high school and college. Â Â And […]
She woke up today feeling happy till she heard the screeching of her mothers voice. She had overslept. The kids were not ready for school and she did not have breakfast ready. She was so tired from the night before from having to meet two men.
She slowly got out of bed afraid of what her mother would do when she saw her. She raced quickly getting the small children up and on the bus. As they left she slipped the money onto the piano for her mother, knowing she was expecting it. She found it not quite fair that she had to sneak out of the house […]
I’m not suicidal ( I think). I don’t have a shitty life (from a privileged family). I’m not a teen (no hormone imbalance).
Though, I do feel like a piece trash most of the time. (I know….you can call me a whinny ***** later)
I’m one of those people that no one will ever think to be depressed. I’m in university. I have a lot of “friends”. I have a loving and successful family. Yet I hate myself most of the time because as a single child to a very privileged family, I’m bloody mediocre and boring as a piece of white paper.
Most people around me often say I’m […]
I am suicidal. Because I’m extremely depressed. I’ve been depressed for most of my life. I’ve been on anti-depressants for four years. I’ve gone to therapy many many times. I’ve given up on life, and I want to die. But that’s not going to happen. I realized that I’m not going to die unless of old age or if I get really sick. I just left college, a really good college because of my depression. and YES I was smoking weed 24/7 and I was dependent on weed, but I am not addicted. I was just self-medicating. So once I left college in January I […]
I’m a 17 year old girl, and I’m still alive. I suppose I should start off with the positives.
I was diagnosed with clinical depression a year and a half ago, and most of my friends know. I don’t have the energy to do any work at home, and at college I can’t concentrate and just keep having to go to the toilets and cry. I’m going to fail all my exams, I’ve accepted that, and for the moment I’m just trying to concentrate on staying alive. I want to drop out and get a job, but I would keep breaking down and crying there too […]
I’ve been feeling this way for almost 11 years. I’m surprised I’ve even made it this far. I’ve lost most of my friends because they’re tired of hearing me being sad and depressed all of the time, especially when their lives are going so well. Not like they were any help to me when they were around but it’s just that now, I feel completely alone. I have no one to talk to and I’ve been keeping my feelings in for so long. No one even bothers to help me anymore because they feel its no use. After they give me advice, a couple of […]
Ughh. Well Where To Begin.. Like My Title Says Im Back TO Square One. The constant crying, being sad. Are things ever gunna get back to normal ? Because it really doesnt feel like it… I need help. But, not from a stupid therapist or conselour.. I just dont know.. HELP! Im sick of stupid cutting and emotions or even stupid hospitals ! ugh. Stupid sucide.
Her mother has six children, five girls and one boy. She is second oldest in line. The oldest sister does nothing to help the family, never steps up to her place to aide the mother in raising up the children. There is no father around, though the boy does not step up and take the mans place like he should, protecting the women and girls. She has been taking care of children since she was 6, feeding them, bathing them, getting up every 2 hours for a bottle. She had grown tired but does not complain for she knows her mother must appreciate it somehow… […]
I am going through so much drama right now and I dont know how to deal with it. I started to cut myself with a pocket knife blade that I have. I am a good student, friend, sister, daughter, etc. but lately things took a huge spin. There is this guy, who likes me a lot. His feelings for me are very strong, but the worst part is, I dont feel the same way and I am not attracted to him. He tries to make me feel special and says sweet things to me but then when I don’t say them back he gets mad, […]
I am bullied at school constantly, I can’t get a girlfriend because of my  bad looks, i was beaten when I was younger and my only girlfriend died of a seizure, I live a dreadful life and the only thing that helps is cutting myself but unfortunately my mother found out and took my razor. I’m thinking about killing myself just to end all of this, I live everyday thinking of my old girlfriend trapped by my memories. It seems suicide is the only answer, plus just on a side note I’m 14
I’m done… Just wished I had a gun right now, so I could kill myself. I hate my life. I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE!!!
I’m NOT happy, I never was and I’ll never be. My parents don’t understand me, they only make me feel more worthless and lonely, like I’m a piece of trash, a mistake. Constantly have arguments with them because they don’t understand me. Therapy doesn’t work, medications doesn’t work. I’m just desperate… Don’t know what to do anymore. The only way out I see is killing myself, and actually it’s a pretty good option for me I guess. What’s life worth when […]
Is there even a point to it all anymore. All my life it’s never been about me  I live for them I fight for them I breathe for them. None of this is for me. I never wanted to be alive I’ve never found the beauty everyone keeps telling me about. I’m hardly alive as it is a shrivelled up soul forcing its body to move to keep going to pretend its alright that I’m alright when in reality I just want the one thing that would end this all no more fear no more pain no more worry just freedom. Doubt they let me […]
I don’t understand what it is that makes me so fucking stupid. I always seem to fuck something up…no matter what it is. Like I have two friends. Both like me, but I only like one. We started talking… He said that he wanted to be with me, but he was scared of hurting our friend, which is completely understandable. Well…now he’s not even sure he wants to be with me anymore…and I’ve already fallen pretty fucking hard for him. Our friend of course knows nothing about us ever talking…and he’s getting upset seeing me cry because of some mysterious guy that he doesn’t know. […]
Everyday I have a weird complex to kill my family…. Like they would be happier dead…….is that normal?……….ps…. My mom sleeps all day…. My littles brother to,d me he wanted to kill his self once….. And the middle brother. Crys a lot ….and sleeps a lot…. And Seems very depressed….
I have never felt so depressed and alone in my whole life.
I’m 18 years old, and a senior in high school.
I should probably write out why I’m feeling this way, in hope that someone can help me.
I can’t help but notice, that the voices in my head are getting louder. Every second, all I can hear is ‘kill yourself.’ It just keeps repeating and repeating.
A lot has happened in the past six months. I lost my virginity, well forced to lose it. I said ‘no’ but I guess that wasn’t a good answer.
He became my boyfriend after we thought I was pregnant. It ended up […]
I feel like I’ve had depression for most of my life, but I’ve never been diagnosed. It started when I was younger because I could tell my parents didn’t want me. I was their “surprise,” and I’ve heard more than once that I was a mistake. I’m also the youngest out of three. So yeah. My sister is my mom’s pride and joy, and as much as it makes me mad that my mom doesn’t act like she gives two shits about me, I love my sister to death. Like I said before, I’ve felt like I’ve had depression for a really long time. I […]
I’ve dealt with depression and suicidal ideation since I was a teenager. I’ll be turning 29 this week. I told my doctor that I was planning on ending my life on my birthday. He said if someone is really going to then there’s nothing he can do to prevent it. He’s right and he knows me well enough to know that statement is true.
I want it but I’m scared too. I shouldn’t be. I’ve attempted before and it wasn’t all that bad and the parts that I assume were bad (ER, ICU) I don’t remember anyway. But I am scared. I don’t want to think about […]
i’m in so much pain mentally.
can i tell you a secret? my best friend of 17 years raped and burned me with cigarettes while he was drunk. (you’re the first person i told) i have been cutting myself off and on since i was 9 because my cousin molested me until i was 12 and when i finally told them they said i was lying and i got slapped with being bipolar 2. i have one friend she is a complete ***** she doesn’t even care “it’s all about her” anyway. i am an introverted kind of person. i just turned 25 and i’m scared that […]
Drugs. That’s what caused all this. There is lump in my throat telling me i dont think anyone will truly understand the absolute s**t it does to you, but who knows. So here is my story..
*Note* I am deeply ashamed of this, and i try to forget about it as much as i can. (i have not re-read this because it was hard enough writing it, im sorry about any spelling mistakes)
Grade nine was my first year of school ever (i was home schooled) so walking in the doors of that high school healed a lot more then desks and teachers, it healed experiences. I didnt know where […]