I made a youtube video. It’s called Our Generation Needs To Stop. Check it out. It explains how I feel.
Rants
There are so many people here that feel exactly like me, almost as if I had written their posts.  Where the fuck are all of you???  I am surrounded by these proletarians that sacrifice their dignity in exchange for a piece of the pie.  How disgusting is that?  I almost don’t believe that these posts aren’t just a figment of my twisted imagination, it doesn’t seem possible that such people like me can exist!  I have to live alone and forego social invites because I cannot suppress the fury that boils within me when I spend a split second with all of the social slaves that […]
I’ve been through a ton of things lately, right now I’m really depressed and I just wanna throw it out there since no one else will listen, I fucking hate where I’m at and I want to go back home I’m on the east side of the country and I belong on the west. Not gang related, just two different sides of the World and I belong on one, not in between, not on the East, but on the West. I messed up, I did drugs, I disrespected myself I disrespected the people I lived with when I lived in the West. I became manic […]
My autistic sister was my only confidant. But even she is tired of me. She’s isn’t very smart, and even she says I’m worthless and should kill myself. There must be something wrong with me. I’m so tired of life and being alone. I’m so tired of pretending it doesn’t hurt.
I was doing very well. I applied to join the Navy, took the tests and aced them. Got told I had about a 2 year wait, ok, that’s fine. I knew that I’d fail the medical if I didn’t get off my meds soon, so I told my doctor that I wanted out because I was feeling better, and I WAS.
This was about a month ago, I suppose, although I’m not sure. Time doesn’t seem to move in the same way anymore. I’ve been driving people away, I’ve been called “inappropriate”, “offensive”… “a drunk”… I tell myself that I’ve always been the type of […]
This is for a friend of mine, who had longed to leave this life behind.Â
Her name was Amber and she was a ray of brilliance. Her life seemed like any other. (not to say it was perfect. Her mum never had never any time for her so, she was at my house often. Once, we even threw her a birthday party because her mum had either forgotten or didn’t have the money) Amber was beautiful and smart, too. She was accepted into one of those magnet schools and was successful in her early years of school. She quit the magnet school, however. I recall her grades […]
Yeah, i haven’t gone on here for a long time. I thought i was actually getting better, but i just got worse. Also, if anyone remembers, my name here was MarissaSucks. Changed it since it negative and sounded odd. Your welcome.
I finally got the guts to tell my mom that i’m really depressed that i want to see a therapist since that would be helpful i guess. She said ok, but now its been like a month, i’m sure that she hasnt done anything. She thinks that this isn’t serious. I could be dead by tomorrow.
I’ve never hurt myself this bad before. I cry everynight […]
hey world …. hey people .. hey life ? ..
34 years old female from the uk – long term mental health problems
( depersonalisation , derealization , dissociation  ,depression * hey whats with all the friggen d’s ? )
anxiety , blah de blah blah – yeah i know im boring you *sigh*..
to cut a long story short …. ive come to a point in my life where i feel i have no other choice but to give up , everything i try to do DOESNTÂ and everyones lives ive come into contact with ive fckd up ! .. im […]
I cannot do this anymore. My life is falling apart faster every second. I’m falling back into depression. My anxiety is eating me alive, panic attacks lasting all day. I’m never happy, I just want to be unconscious. I am pathetic, I use/abuse any drug I can get my hands on; anything that will take this feeling away and numb me. Everything good crumbles to pieces and I can’t fix any of them. Everyone is leaving me, anyone who is still here will eventually leave like the rest. I’m failing in school.  I am not okay. I am in so much pain. I can’t stand to […]
I don’t know. Humans just suck. Pollution. Genocide. Homicide. Racism. Bullying. It’s all so stupid. We’re destroying our beautiful planet and paving forests over and trophy hunting and all sorts of unnecessary shit. We take more than we give. I just hate being human, hate being a judgmental naked stupid ape trapped in this concrete hell of so called civilization. So ironic that the least humane of all creatures is the human. All I want is to be free from the burden of this stupid life. My Grandfather had the right idea in killing himself. Why can’t I find the courage that he had?
my life goes in a very predictable circle. I go a little while, recovering slowly bit by bit. Something goes wrong. I stop improving. Something else goes wrong. I start getting worse. Something else goes wrong, I give up on life, go back to cutting and drinking and drugs. Straw breaks my back, I try to kill myself. I find someone that says they really care about me, that asks for me to tell them everything so they can help. Things get better for a little while. Then the person snaps and can’t take caring for me anymore. I try to kill myself again. Repeat […]
It’s gettin harder each day to act like I’m ok.
I’m not.
I’m so tired of feeling like this, I want it all to end.
I can’t go on.
I wake up a and the feeling of dread washes over me like a tsunami of angst.
Upset I woke up at all.
This needs to end.
I have read many of the stories here. Its funny I never read any of these where somebody has said to themselves that at that exact moment that they are feeling so down and out that someone else in the world is a lot worse off. I don’t say this to be mean, Its just something I have learned to use in my own life “empathy”. I know the daily struggle of suicide. I myself have been locked away in the bin a few times. I too am a cutter and burner and lots of hitting in the head and face. I have thoughts of […]
all of this pain…it didnt just come alive inside of me. it brought on throughout the years. i remember myself being such a happy child. i remember loving life and i remember i hated thought of dying. then i got to 5th grade and thats when everything started to change. people started to make fun of me because of my weight and because i wasnt all that smart.6th grade was the worst. the kids in my class tricked me into thinking that this guy really liked me and after a while i started to really like him too. then they told me that he never liked me […]
I was taught to believe you exist and you are the creator of all things.
Through my own thought and reasoning I do believe you exist and I do believe you created all things as everything is too intricate and complicated to have happened by chance.
But as you are the creator, the point of origin of all existence, I feel you have some explaining to do.
As God and creator even if you created the big bang and evolution, you are singularly responsible for all things. This means you are evil. This means you are good. As these did not exist otherwise. Yes evil is your creation. […]
Okay, so it’s been this bad for a year now. Everytime I look on the mirror I feel sick with frustration of why I have to look the way I do. Everytime someone would call me ugly or fat I would just laugh. Wishing that they would like me so they won’t have to hurt me ever again.
I’ve had my boyfriend for one year now. He is the est thing which could of ever happened to me. He’s so beautiful and smart. But I’ve even so hurt in the past I feel so jealose. Not like normal jealosey, because everytime he looks in the […]
After doing a lot of research trying to help myself, i came to the conclusion that maybe i just need to start talking to anyone. I came across this website and thought an unbiased opinion might help. I’m going to try to summarize everything that’s been weighing heavily on me so please bare with me because i could use a strangers ears to listen. I have never wanted to be an unhappy person, even writing this right now feels somewhat like a cop out to me because im unable to handle it all on my own. The very beginning of my life started out in […]
well ive been with this amazin guy for 1 year, 5 months, nd 1 week.. evryday i feel soo grateful for havin him.. nd hez fixed the problems i had wit my family.. he evn helped me thru the pain of the past 15 yrs of physical abuse ive suffered.. nd evrythin is perfect.. my grades culd use a little help.. other than dat, evrythin is perfect. but wen im alone.. all those thoughts of suicide nd alcohol nd drug abuse come rushin thru my head.. nd i feel like im abt to fall over nd jst pass out.. i get light headed nd feel a […]
Why do people care about me? Why do they pay attention to me? Why don’t they just walk by with giving a look at me? Why can’t they just leave me alone to suffer? Why can’t they waste their time on something besides me? Why me? I’m a worthless, stupid person that needs to be left to suffer and die.
I’m 44 years old. I’m not in a relationships. Never been married. Both my parents are deceased and I’m estranged from my siblings. I am handcuffed to an ever increasing 6 figure student loan debt that I accumulated getting some useless degree. I hate my job. In fact, it’s the only thing in my life that I hate. Unfortunately, my job is my only source of income and, without it, I couldn’t pay my rent. My coworkers hate my guts and I’m not too crazy about them either. Imagine high school at its worst. Then imagine a clique of the most obnoxious, arrogant, lazy, immature […]