Rants

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Cause and effect

August 4th, 2017by PrismaticGreyZone

In the sea of life, there are those who can’t swim. There are those who have help and there are those who don’t. There are those who try to help themselves but their efforts keep getting sabotaged by others and they are delayed or they never learn to swim or drown in an attempt.

Cause and effect. I stopped blaming my abusers the moment I realized it’s not their fault at the same time it is because it all comes down to moments of decisions that leaves a lifetime of effects. I cease to hate them because I’ve finally understood them. Now I’m just sad that …

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I Need a New Body – Mine’s a Worthless Lemon

August 4th, 2017by Hopeless89

I wish that I could be reborn in a new body. Cosmetically speaking, I have got to be one of the biggest freaks ever to exist. My body is a lemon. I have hideous body acne almost everywhere – including sometimes on my forearms. I’ve lost some hair. I have hideous teeth (possibly malocclusion). I am 28 years old but look like a puny 14-year-old. I’m also only 5’3.”

Before I continue, I must state that I know that these problems, individually, are not necessarily freakish (aside from forearm acne).

Yes, some people have bad body acne, and I’ve even found some rare examples online of people …

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transparency

August 3rd, 2017by takethistoyourgrave

((follow up to oscillate wildly))

so. maybe…2 weeks after i made my earlier post we moved from the apartments i hated. and i was so happy! i was doing so well mentally because we had a better place now. i dropped out of band in another effort to reduce stress and also because i lowkey hated band now, and the new place was about 10 minutes farther away from my school. if i had to get up at 5:45 in order to make practices then, it would be 5:25 now and…no thanks.

i just got back from a trip to the lake with a friend …

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Into Darkness

August 3rd, 2017by breaking_the_cycle

Fate balances in my hands

A swaying lover

Caught up in the embrace

A flick of the wrist

Is all that it takes

To the darkness I awake

Nowhere fills the rear view mirror

As the answer

Makes itself clear

My future has become

Stained with your blood

The scars of tomorrow

Forged in the fires of tonight

As bells ring in the distance

Marking the end of a life

In your memories

I’ll try to hide

Shut out the world

To find something greater

Than this pain

But hollow hope will leave me afloat

To drown

In this mess I’ve made

Now home

Isn’t a place I stay

It’s a feeling

That’s washed away

The past has long since passed

Me by

Just a faint flash of pain

Hidden inside

These eyes

Keep on searching them

But …

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Upside Down

August 2nd, 2017by breaking_the_cycle

A whisper in your ear, signals the return of all your fear

You thought things were looking up

But only because you’ve been upside down

While your hope was leading you to drown

Such a foolish boy, don’t you know that you’re just a toy

When the fun runs out you’re cast aside

Now you’re running away, with no place to hide

Searching for a reason to live, but you’re dead inside

Why are you not surprised?  Is this what life has done to your mind?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Social Fail

August 1st, 2017by Miulei

I always say how I want friends.

But when I actually find someone willing to talk to me, what do I do?

 

Either they drive me insane with stupid shit I shouldn’t care about.

Oh, they use u instead of you. That’s super annoying.

Won’t they even pretend to be positive sometimes?

I’m really, really not interested in you that way, please stop.

 

Or I think I’m annoying them.

Oh god, I just went on a long rant about something no one ever cared about. Awesome.

They keep talking about their life and I’ve done nothing with mine…

Now they’ll want to avoid me, but can’t without looking like a douche. Better do it …

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so i just went to a concert

August 1st, 2017by Moon gazer

i just went to a concert by the killers and i just thought does anyone want a suicidal boyfriend? i am 21 looking for a girl or cute boy mostly to have someone i can be open to and spend time with ya not a dating site but worth a shot

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Smiles

July 30th, 2017by EyeOfHorus

It never gets easier, seeing you smile.
It’s something I used to draw out, take pride in. Your smile was my masterpiece. I was happy to suffer, to make it okay for you. I was happy to lay aside my pride, my dreams, to see your face light up. But it doesn’t get easier. Now you smile, but it isn’t for me. Now you smile and it isn’t my work. Now you smile and take pictures and look happier than ever and I… and I sit here, dying.

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certainly not about being fine

July 27th, 2017by submarines

Right now, I remember thinking about wanting to die standing in this huge crowd of people— and then snorting, because something about me standing at 2 P.M. in stark daylight and thinking, ‘God, what am I even doing here? I shouldn’t be here. I shouldn’t be,’ while some guy rambled on about philosophy seemed….strangely comical, for some reason. I’ve always had a very comical attitude about this whole depression thing, you know.

I can’t really blame anyone if they don’t take me seriously; I don’t know how to deal with this whole mess. A few weeks ago I told myself I would take a step forward and I’d do …

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wednesday – 1:01AM

July 25th, 2017by suicidalkitty

What frustrates me so much is that this sickness taps on my windows on cold, stormy days, begging me not to sleep. It sits on my lap taunting me to caress its soft but stinging, midnight fur. In busy crowds, it whispers my name as i walk, telling me sugar-coated stories of how it made at least 5 souls drain out all the sadness inside of them in thick red in the last 4 hours it left me so i could finally close my eyes and sleep. But on days where i sleep longer and wake up waiting for its thick cloud to suffocate me, i …

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Celebrity Suicide

July 23rd, 2017by smileysue

I can’t believe Chester Bennington of Linkin Park hung himself.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem…. and even if it’s an ongoing problem, suicide isn’t the way to solve it.

 

I’m still in shock about news.   Weird but I have that same feeling from back when my cousin ended her life.  It’s so surreal.

Despite my desire to escape this life so many times, I don’t think I’ll ever do it because of how my family would be affected.   I couldn’t put my mom through that.

Imagine Chester’s kids are now going to grow up without a father. I can’t believe he would choose …

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Somebody Has to Take Responsibility

July 23rd, 2017by Educateurself

Human race would not have suffered enormous amount of pain…if there would be no animosity between God and Satan. And God has to take responsibility for immortalising the Satan (devil). You can say whatever you want but the problem started from that point and in between the one who suffered or unfortunately will eternally suffer is human race.

There are lots of things to say but…Goodnight my fellows.

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Just have to let something off my chest. Is suicide by cop possible? Down on a dark path. I need help.

July 21st, 2017by Black Holez

It’s 2 AM in here and I can’t even sleep with so many things going on in my mind. I didn’t even have thoughts of suicide and killing myself  when first coming to this site but things have been going downhill right now that this is actually the first time that the thought of committing suicide by cop and taking the bastards down who wronged me with me. It scares me that it has come down to this. I just have to let some things out of my chest if I go through with it. I’ve been putting out the facade for too long that …

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One More Step.

July 21st, 2017by kellinandrew

I tell myself, one more step, every day. When I wake up, I think, just one more day. I try to keep my mind on one day, one moment, at a time. Because when I begin to let my mind drift, I start to slowly drift away. Sliding into an uncontrollable downward spiral. I cannot keep living my life through the small window I have allowed myself. I feel as if I am completely alone. My boyfriend, is gone. Our relationship fell apart after I lost our baby due to a miscarriage. My rape case against my father has been dismissed. So, he is on …

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Ig this is me

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Well this is my hello, might as well be my goodbye. I am a teenage girl. Recently…or maybe not. 6 months ago my mom had a stroke….fell into a coma. Has been in the hospital ever since. Being a already depressed, lonely, alone, suicidal teenager..it was extremely hard on me. I was sent to live with my sister who I was not close to at all. Here no one ever cared abt how I was feeling or if i was down bc there was so much other things to worry about. My mom could not walk, talk, move, eat, and was in a coma for …

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I’m here for you

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Hey guys, if you see this and want/need to talk. I’m always open to talk. I really want to make someone(anyone) feel like they are worth it….

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July 18th, 2017by kamidaka

Game of thrones is so grotesque, it feels like taken out from the deep web

Don’t ever bother replying, I won’t enter here ever until my day comes.

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Anyone wish they could start over?

July 17th, 2017by Black Holez

Anyone wish they could start their life all over again? I’m not talking about arbitrary change personality type, far deeper than that. I’m talking about going to a new place and start over with a new identity, community, new set of friends. A total makeover if you will. I have no hope in this place. Sometimes, the only way to solve problems is to run away from them.

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What do I do?

July 12th, 2017by Isolated

Okay so usually the depression and anxiety is constant without any particular reason as to why I feel that way. I’m sure you all get that and know what it’s like. However I currently have a problem and I don’t know how to fix it. I have been isolating myself, trying to ignore it but obviously this is only making me feel worse. So please tell me what the right thing is to do. I am already a piece of shit and I don’t fancy the idea of hurting those around me.

They story begins with me and my best friend. Everyone thought we were an …

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Does anyone listen 2 matchbox 20?

July 10th, 2017by ILoveMyDog

“I don’t know if I’ve ever been good enough
I’m a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don’t know if I’ve ever been really loved
By a hand that’s touched me, and I feel like something’s gonna give
And I’m a little bit angry”. I am really confused and reaching out for help, I dont know if my boyfriend is truely abusive or if its me, if I should kill myself over it or the stuff that’s gone on in my life or if anyone would ever love me, if I have anything redeeming and if I care, I would really like …

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