Stories of Hope


Slow and steady/Dr. Visit

  April 11th, 2017 by heartlessviking

Today things set a good trend for me. I’m still at the point I can only go out a few days a week, but I’m working on that. So today came the long awaited and also long dreaded visit with my prescribing doctor. I was really dreading the concept of going in and talking about my issues from the last few weeks. I’ve been trying to be more honest with this doctor and we have a much more functional relationship for it. That does mean though if I had still be in the deep existential funk that has dominated the last few weeks I would …

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I’m still here…and smiling. (had to repost, sorry for any deleted comments and thanks for the kind words)

  March 30th, 2017 by PlentyOfRestForTheWeary

*Thanks for commenting and giving well wishes I appreciate it, @TragedyofJohn, @greeneyes7,

Hello, @who_even_cares, I read your comment and I’m sorry you’re having such a rough go of it, I was at that point for years and I was very angry because, things were hitting me all at once. It was a very dark place and I don’t wish that on anyone. I’m praying for you and I hope things will be better in time.


*Original Post*

Hello, I tried to go back to my old account so I could update what’s been going on in my life. This is the link to my first post, if anyone …

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  March 19th, 2017 by Zelrot

I lost my baby within three years of her birth. Before that, I was moderately depressed. Once in a while I would break down into tears, I was even afraid to look in the mirror. I’ve seen myself as a monster most of my life. If not I as a monster, then I as someone surrounded by them. I’ve been married to my husband for quite a while now, I love him dearly but his depression only piles onto mine. He’s put a gun to his head around 238 times now, once just recently. He pulled the trigger all but that last time, all bullets …

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Behind the closed door.

  February 22nd, 2017 by AmandaBen

A poem written by me during my darkest moments.


Behind the closed door


Behind the closed door

Lies a girl who hides her pain

Buried in so much sorrow

All hope is being drained


Behind the closed door

Lies a girl practicing to smile

To hide the truth from everyone

A mask in which will only stay for a while


Behind the closed door

Lies a girl with cuts that bleed red

From unbearable sadness

She’s only hanging by a thread


Behind the closed door

Lies a girl who could no longer cry

She starts thinking

How will she say goodbye?


Behind the closed door

Lies a girl perfectly still

Who lost all hope

Who lost all will


Behind the closed door

Was where a girl once used …

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5AM BPD/Love/Sob

  February 20th, 2017 by Elliot97

Do I get up and disappear while she lays beside me, sleeping beautifully? Even if she did no wrong I can’t force myself to believe she hasn’t, If I disappear maybe she’ll find someone better and worthy. I was always told anything said or thought after 2AM should be ignored but it seems to be my wisest moments. I don’t know how or why I think this way, I wish I didn’t. I wish I was ‘normal’… I used to say consistency is key in my previous relationships but it seems the only thing consistent in my life is sadness, suicidal thoughts and total destruction …

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The 2 Lost Souls

  February 13th, 2017 by completely_lost2

Today has got to be one very hard day… All i seem to think about is the death of my girlfriend and daughter during childbirth. Their watching over me i believe. I want to have them next to me. You guys obviously know the reason i am depressed. Let me go into detail, I was watching my girlfriend, she was 16, give birth to our child. I was in the hospital room and watched the whole gruesome death. She was already in labor giving birth too Arial Hunter on 4-20-2015. Ella was laying saying “i cant, i cant, i cant” i was holding her hand …

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  February 9th, 2017 by _lost._.one_

I feel so alone, as if I am not good enough.

Today I almost suffocated from my own self-hate. Sigh, not literally, metaphorically. There were so many people in the bathroom all of a sudden and I could not cry, I had to hold it in for approximately ten minutes while they fussed over their picture.

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I Swear

  February 6th, 2017 by acidrain

You are not alone, you are worth it.

Together we can make it through.

I swear, I will be here for you.


You are loved, you are beautiful.

Inside and outside, every part of you is lovable.

And if you don’t think I am being truthful,

I swear, I will prove it to you.

Because my love for you is irrefutable.


You are amazing and kind.

Don’t let others redefine you.

My dear, please let me remind you,

That I use you all the time as an example,

When someone asks me to describe what perfection was.

If you knew how loud they would applause.

I swear, you would drop your jaw.


You are sweet and honest.

I appreciate that the …

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An evening between Hope and Despair

  February 5th, 2017 by Foxglove7

Yesterday I found this place, where thoughts can be expressed that are so often kept silent

it is an empty place where hollow people dwell

“hollow”,  spacious to the point of echoing

empty, expectant

so i sang a song and gave a little speech

to the chorus of voices all lined up at the shore

a faceless sea of voyagers paying their’ fares

tearing their flesh and flaying the souls within

all to buy a ticket

all to buy a ticket

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No Such Thing As Love

  February 4th, 2017 by ForeverLostAndLonely

I’ve wanted my life to end before. I’ve thought of ways I can do it that would have the least amount of impact on the people around me. My family would get over it. Relationships are hard for me so I don’t have any really close friends to worry about. I’ve tried counseling and I’ve taken medication. I’ve reached out to people when I’ve needed help. But you can only reach out to people so many times before you start bringing them down. That’s when they leave you. I’ve worked SO hard to hide this side of me from my boyfriend of two years. There …

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3 years later

  February 3rd, 2017 by TheGlassChild

This week, Quebec marks the twenty-seventh National Suicide Prevention Week. The week runs from Jan. 29 to Feb. 4

I felt the need of coming back here, and read the stuff I was writing few years ago, when I was at my worst.

I’m trying to find some words to help those who are now in deep distress, cause I’ve been there, and I should know what to tell those people.

The truth is that I don’t know which word can be used to really help, ’cause I do remember how all those hope messages made me feel worst when I was at my rock bottom. …

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Human’s Imagination / Humans’ Imagination / Humans Imagination is better than Reality

  February 2nd, 2017 by niki

Human’s Imagination / Humans’ Imagination / Humans Imagination is better than Reality

Movie / movies is better than reality / real life / real world
Video game / games is better than reality / real world / real life
Novel /novels is better than reality / real-life / real-world /
Sci-fi / Science-fiction is better than reality / reallife / realworld
Fantasy is better than reality / real world / real life
Anime / manga is better than reality / realworld / reallife
Dream / dreams is better than reality / real-world / real-life

I hate reality !!!!
Reality it’s all about MONEY !!!!!!
Reality is BORING !!!!
Real world is boring ! real-world is …

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My reasons

  January 31st, 2017 by _beautifully.tragic

3 reasons why I haven’t tried to end it all:

1. A. She is the reason for every decision that I make because I want her to be okay and happy. She’s the kind of girl that only comes around once in a lifetime and even though I don’t deserve it, I don’t want to passbook up the opportunity of calling her mine forever.

2. I want to prove my dad wrong. I want to graduate and go to the college of my choice. I want to marry A and grow old with her. I want to get my degree and show him that I am …

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why did you become suicidel?

  January 31st, 2017 by noname_x

I was wondering why you guys did become suicidel?

If anyone is interested this is my story ..

The first time I became suicidel was about a year ago. I was already a little bit depressed but nothing much. On a friday night I went to a sort of homeparty together with my best friend for over 10 years. We were just chilling, having a good time and then suddenly he was acting strange. But I didn’t gave it much attention at the time. an hour or two went by and he was acting even more stranger than before, so i asked him what was wrong and …

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Do You Really Want to Die or Do You Just Want Your Pain or Your Struggles to End?

There is a difference. And a BIG one. …problem is, how to tell?



  January 18th, 2017 by mcor


when I was 13 years old I was sort of bullied at school, it wasn’t actually bullying but I was really marginalised, I don’t know why that happened, but I got really depressed because I literally had nobody, I didn’t have confidence with my parents either so I was completely alone, because of this I stopped eating (I was already really skinny) I would wake up in the morning, go to school, then come back home and skip lunch, then skip snack, then skip dinner..and so on, because of this I got so skinny that I had anemia, a bunch of diseases..etc and my parents thought I was going to die because I was starving I literally wouldn’t eat anything at all, so I went to many doctors I had to had blood taken out of me regularly etc, meanwhile I was completely alone and so I wouldn’t eat, i was trying to starve myself to death, when I was 15 it got much much worse and I almost died so my parents decided to change me to another school, I started to take pills that make me feel hungry, I started to gain weight and make friends, now that I’m 17 and I’m still in this school I’m talking about, I feel much better but I still feel like I’m not happy, I’m sad here because of what I’ve lived in this city..I still even think of killing myself i just want to leave, I want to go to university in another city to forget what I’ve lived but I’m afraid not to be picked because the university I’m applying for is reaaally picky


Frustrating. When Life Keeps Betraying You Even After Death. “A Ballad of Life: Aram Niakan’s Suicide Story.”

It’s a slap on the face. It’s fu*king insulting how some unfortunate ones are screwed over in death, just as they were in life. There are so many places/countries where they don’t give a rat’s ass for somebody’s last will that it’s enraging..!


My Story

  January 14th, 2017 by 90Grayson

Hello everyone, my name is Daniel, and I think I’m going to commit suicide very shortly, I want to anyways, not sure if I will though, since things in life change so much, but I hope that moment arrives in a week or two. I don’t know where to start, I’m done trying to figure out why I’m like this, why I have suicidal thoughts, why I cut myself, why I feel so much pain all the time. It sucks, it really sucks to be this way, I don’t believe in destiny, but I cannot avoid feeling like I am trapped, and have absolutely no …


A drop into the ocean

  January 8th, 2017 by mato42

Warning: it’s a wall of text.

So here I am, 25 years old, just months shy of my master’s degree that I am letting slip through my fingers for no other reason than a lack of motivation. I could have gotten it I think if I put more effort into it. I am not super intelligent but I think I had a fair shot. I got through 9 semesters after all. Sure I struggled but something pulled me through. Yet I don’t feel sad or depressed about it. I do feel scared, but somehow happy at the same time. Not overly enthusiastic, but content. My family …


stopping the stigma on mental illness or suicide prevention?

  January 7th, 2017 by beautifulsinner

every person on this planet has problems. issues of their own that they wish werent existent in their lives. some have bigger problems than others, but we shouldnt be allowed to dismiss other peoples problems just because they dont seem “big enough”. big or small, problems are problems, and my question is; why do we have to feel guilty about feeling emotion over issues that seem irrelevant.

we should be allowed to feel however we want to feel. a major problem to someone, might be considered a minor one to another. but we shouldnt be allowed to judge people based on that. emotions are something …