Stories of Hope

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My suicide project.

June 14th, 2016by OddBlueBoy

Hey, they call me Odd. It’s nice to share my story with you.

First off, im not killing myself… Yet. I’m trying to push for another 10 months of living. I’ll be 18, in April. I’ve decided to tell my story now, just incase i jump the gun a little early.

Where do I start? This is kind of like a “my moment” type of thing. So, how can I personally catch your attention, long enough, to hear me out?

I’ll start by asking; “have you ever been sad?”

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My very first post

June 12th, 2016by SpiritualFire

Hi, i am 19. I have been suicidal for about 2 and a half years now. I have been a cutter…the first time i ever cut myself was grade 9(15 years old).

It was actually an accident the first time because i got really angry and i happened to have a scizzors in my hand and when i get and i hit things, so without thinking i hit the open scizzors on my arm. I did this once, saw the blood, felt..wow.. And did it two more times… There are times when i still feel the urge to cut, but it doesnt control me anymore. …

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@Tristeza

June 9th, 2016by HERE4UOK

 

Para Tristeza:
Você deve permitirnos para comentar seus posts.
Seu post intitulado “Um Grande Final” foi ótimo. Parabéns por seu livro!
Mas, principalmente, parabéns para a superação tanto em sua vida!
Eu sei. Nós sabemos. Há muito mais para a esquerda para caminhar, mas a estrada é interessante, se olharmos para ver além dos nossos egos.
Obrigado por compartilhar suas histórias aqui.

suesyd . nomore @ gmail . com
Kik: H4UOK

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Afraid of hope

June 9th, 2016by kamidaka

Has it happened to you? That things seem to be fine and promise that they’ll get better, but you’re afraid the hopes you’re building will make you suffer when everything finally crashes?

I’m trying to get an scholarship to Japan. But my biggest fears are the evaluation tests. Especially:

Math

I’m not going to study something related to science but they’ll still make me take that exam. And I’m so scared I even cowered from presenting my application.

Everybody keeps telling me that I’m so smart I shouldn’t worry. But THAT’S NOT TRUE. I’m the only one that knows it, I’m dumb as fuck. I’ve tried, god knows how …

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“You’re So Much Better Than That.” —Cassie, Suicide Survivor

June 7th, 2016by HERE4UOK

 

Please reconsider. If you can’t find motivation, it’s not because there aren’t reasons out there, out here. It’s because your state of mind blocks your view and your spirit from seeing ahead. And it’s ok, remember: IT’S OK TO NOT BE OK, as long as you ask for help.

I, unfortunately, am no genie. But like most of us here, I have my past. I have my experiences, and with all due respect, unless you’re terminally ill, you have every chance at witnessing how things really DO get better, but you need to do your part too. Help others help you.

Things most likely didn’t get bad …

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Thats Rock Bottom… Depressed Badly…

June 7th, 2016by nobody312

Hi… I think that most of us here not because a good thing… Well, the same with me.

Before I’d start this post I would like point out few things:

First of all, I’m not a native English speaker, so please, if I have any grammar mistakes, feel free to correct me.

second, I was inspired to write this post thanks to a memeber who used to post here commonly 3 years ago, named ‘NotReallyHereAtAll‘. I remember… a year ago I was so depressed I looked online for people I can relate to who feel the same as me, and i somehow reached her post ‘I Want To Disappear‘. …

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“I Didn’t Want To Die, But I Felt That I Had To…” —Kevin Hines, Suicide Survivor

  SeeSmith on another post here on SP said it well: “You are the LEAST qualified person to judge yourself [when you are in an ill state of mind]”. Don’t make the mistake of thinking for others, don’t assume you’re a burden or that others are just too “busy with their own lives” to care […]

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Don’t Be Sorry for Struggling. We All Do at Some Point. It’s NOT Wrong Asking for Help, Not Doing So Is..!

  Ema il: suesyd . nomore at gma il . co m Kik: H4UOK Facebook: Suesyd Nomore

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I will survive

June 5th, 2016by skysie

I want to thank everyone on this site who has commented on my posts. Many of you will know that i set a suicide which was the 1st of June well its now the 5th and i am still here.I have decided to take my life back for my little nephew who is due in 4 months and also odd reason but for my ex. I promised my ex i will not give up and he will not lose me and i am not one to break promises. But also i want to fight for my life as i have a long life ahead of …

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emotional puke

June 4th, 2016by marellius

heads up everyone, i ramble. i feel nothing and at the same time i have so many thoughts that i cant think, so this is basically emotional throw-up. read it. or dont. im mostly just putting my thoughts down so that i can understand them better myself.

i was angry and sad today, as i often am, and stumbled across this site. whoever started it, kudos to you, because its nice to talk to people who understand, rather than broken records saying ‘dont be depressed, be happy’. lovely, i will just do that then. oh wait, i dont know how. its not a simple thing, though it seems like …

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to my future self

June 3rd, 2016by thedrowninggirl

….because I’m not going to die, however badly I want to.

….because I know I’ll come back here and read this one day.

I hope you feel better now. You MUST do- if there’s no ‘better’ than this (as I’m so afraid might be the case) it seems impossible I’m still alive.

I hope you got to feel happiness again. I wonder how? I’m in so much pain now, Even if something happens to make me happy, the pain taints it. I didn’t know that was a real thing- I thought people were ungrateful for saying that! So ignorant.

I miss him so much. I’m scared to ask if …

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Confessions of a Dead Angel

May 29th, 2016by Mexicanwhiteboy96

Hey everyone, just me- Im 19 right now and I really hate my life . I see people complaining back and forth about trivial things and the truth is I always believed they didn’t know what true pain was. But I know it isn’t right or fair because I’m just comparing their pain to mine andy oroblems aren’t anyone elses. I was molested by my cousin when I was about 8 in 4th grade. the earliest time I can honestly remember this, I was experimented on and I was penetrated my older cousin. Both my cousins fondled me though. That may not …

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I Don’t Quite Know How To Feel

May 28th, 2016by AKidWithAName

Today was the first day in months that I have gone to bed with a calm conscience. I feel out of place and joyous and all these things that are both great and terrifyingly new. I can’t even remember what it was like to sleep with a clear conscience.

I am well aware and will be the first to say that I am undeserving of this clear conscience. I am terrible, but I suppose my underlying narcissism is here to aid me to sleep. I’m so ridiculously, even though I know tomorrow will be a living hell for me. I don’t …

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Forensic Cleaning Documentary – An Antagonizing Source for Strength

  I like this documentary very much. Not in a morbid way. But in the way that where it becomes evident that there isn’t anything pretty about death, the main character in the documentary finds strength and positivism from her job: Forensic Cleaning, aka. Crime Scene Cleaning, aka. Bio-hazard Cleaning Specialists, etc. She has gone […]

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HELP or GET HELP… Talk to Someone.

  Thinking about suicide? Ok! Now let’s talk about it. Help each other out. España/Spain: www.telefonodelaesperanza.org Atención en Crisis: 902 500 002 USA 1 (800) 273-8255 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org En Español: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/gethel­p/spanish.aspx UK 0800 068 41 41 PAPYRUS www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Suicide/Pages/Gett­ing-help.aspx México 01800- 290- 00- 24 Línea de Intervención en crisis suicidologia.org.mx/podemos-ayudarte/ Australia 13 11 […]

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Acceptance

May 24th, 2016by haileewantstobehappy

Acceptance is crucial. Kind of. And it happens to be relatively difficult for me sometimes. But I’m getting there. I have to accept that no one cares, no one loves me, needs me, or wants me. I’m insignificant and unimportant to anyone but myself. It use to pain me so much and it’s still upsetting but I now realize that even though it’s not ideal, I’m all I have, and all I need. I didn’t get very many good things in this life, but the one’s I did get I am grateful for. I’ve been holding off on writing my suicide note because I want …

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The Masks We Wear

Anime fans? More specifically, any Attack on Titan / Shigeki no Kyojin fans..? 😉 This is Kay Pike (www.facebook.com/KayPikefashion/) So why this video? It reminds us of the beautiful, amazing, or cartoonesque masks we have to wear to function through our struggles. Don’t wear a mask. Seek help… Contact me on Kik: H4UOK — Email: […]

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Suicide And Me (Documentary)

It’s no walk at the park for anybody. Life I mean. We all have our good days, our not so good days, our bad days, and our wtf am I doing here?! days… But you know what? At the end of the day- scratch that, at the of the call, text message, IM, or email, […]

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Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring , not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !

May 22nd, 2016by niki

Reality is boring
real-life is boring
real-world is boring
not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !

also,
I hate Humans , Humans suck
I hate Human , Human suck
I hate Humanity, Humanity suck
I hate people , people suck

Most humans / people only think about Money ,
and this reality is boring !
reallife is boring !
realworld is boring !

people / humans are so shallow, superficial, stupid, ignorant
Humanity is hopeless

if there is God , then God is boring !
even Science is boring too !
Science fiction (Sci-fi) is much more interesting than real Science facts !

why we can’t live in movie / …

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Pain and Pleasure (a quick true story of a kid who fucks with the minds of depressed girls…)

May 22nd, 2016by emotional.monster

So I am a senior male in high school. I’m 17 going on 18 at the end of June. There’s this one kid Zack who is a freshman at my school and I fucking hate him. I haven’t really talked to him but knowing what he does makes me sick. He dates a girl and makes out with her and everything, he is all sweet and charming and everything (little does anybody know he’s really a ***** and extremely aggressive and violent with guys) but the catch about the girls he dates is that they all self-harm (usually cutting). Sounds like a sweet boy right? …