In this life, some people will be winners, and some people will be losers. So how about the losers? There are also many people in this world who eventually committed suicide. So does this mean that some people are just not meant for this world?

Ah a place where I can actually talk and interact with people. I usually talk to myself. Or write about it. It’s been what two years since my last attempt. 100 benzodiazepines pills down the hatch. At first it was scared out of my mind, then a minute later I’m like “oh well” . it was nice, peaceful. I actually could breathe. I closed my eyes and fall into a abyss. Then I woke up next morning, you don’t understand how awful I felt. Not from the meds, but from failing. It was a horrible feeling. Next morning I was dizzy all day and felt […]

I’ve been thinking quite a bit, (my therapist called me an insightful person today, that’s progress). I’m well aware that I’m absurd, and that probably isn’t going to change. I think I’m done taking anything seriously that doesn’t have to be. Life is short, we’re all in this til the end. I have enough stuff. I have enough people. What I lack is enough kindness to myself. I think I’m just going to go with that. This year I turned 33, and with that age and frailty comes a greater acceptance of my own mortality, and a presence of mind that life is too short […]

Dear mates.

I’m planning something that can save me from any emotional fallout, I look for a method/methods that can make me get a sweet death without pain, maybe sleeping.
I kindly ask that some person could tell me in detail some method, that is not failable if possible; I cannot afford the shame of waking up in the hospital, knowing that I have struck the balance of my relatives and acquaintances.

I also want to thank those who created the site pattern, it is very calming.

This might be the end of the road

I’m going to talk about some identifying information in a bit, but first on that;

I’ve been writing on here for a few years now. For the first year I’d guess I posted maybe once or twice, responded as many times. I was very concerned about privacy issues regarding doxing, and to discuss my desire to die, I’m going to say some things I would never want to be associated with my real name. As such, I have community here, while having an outside life that doesn’t have to know. So, it becomes more comfortable as I find others of similar philosophy such that I can […]

?It’s been about five days since my last suicide attempt. That day I didn’t really want to kill myself and not right now either but I felt like it was the only thing left for me to do. I stopped myself at the last second though, thinking that there is still a lot of things that I want to do. Like having a close relationship with someone. Doesn’t matter if it’s a friend or something romantic. It would probably be best for me if it was just a friend though. I had a crush on a girl at my school which I haven’t gone to […]

few weeks ago i read a few books, i liked reading, but didn’t have anything good to read.
a few weeks before that, i was doing calming exercises, that made me feel blissful.
about two weeks ago, i watched a few movies, they gave me something to focus on other than my dumb thoughts, and there were some things that i liked about some of the movies. even though i have watched most of them before, i think i paid attention to different things in them, interpreted them differently, and liked different things about them, than i did the previous time i watched them.
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Hello world, I know it’s been a while since we last spoke like this. Things have been rough. I turn 21 this year, crazy, right? The last time we spoke, I was in a bad place. A few years have gone by, and it hasn’t been easy. I moved out of my parent’s house on my own for about a year. It was intense.
I got to look at the world by myself! It’s scary, really. Parties, nights alone drinking, it’s all very boring. I spent a lot of time drinking last year. It was the only thing to do alone. Hanging out with people […]

The problem is that this world is overrun by shitty people. Not only that but I personally keep encountering shitty people.

Hello all. For about a month now i have been planning my suicide, for a while it didnt seem real and as though i wasn’t fully connecting with the idea of dying, i spent a lot of time on the internet coping and eating junk food (why not right?) but now it is almost time and there is no more need for coping.

I purchased a ****** **** **** *** *****, it arrives on july 21. I will kill myself on july 21.

Sourcing the information for a peaceful suicide was tedious to say the least and it seems that talking to anyone about suicide makes them […]

This past Thursday was my first session with my new counselor. She must be the sixth counselor I’ve had in my life. I’ve always gone off and on and off and on therapy for god knows how long. The reason changing over time. But it always ended the same. I never felt like it was worth it. But I don’t think I ever really tried. This time I might as well give it a shot. Overall it was a productive first session. I was able to communicate well throughout and she gave me some stuff to […]

why.

I’ve done 5 treatments now.  Supposedly 8 to 12 is what people need.  I don’t feel any different.  Just slower and less sure of who I am.  It was a bit of wishful thinking to hope inducing a seizure could cure me.  It’s not going to make anyone care about me or give me any friends or the ability to make any. It doesn’t change the fact that I have no value to anyone.  Oh well.  Only a little bit further to go.

so imma write this because im not completly sure why i am depressed… so imma write smthn bout me maybe some1 can help me

My name: tjorge Amend

im from grmany and 14 years old i had a role model from 2016 to 2017 he died i think manny ppl knows him his name is lil peep also i had some evil family issues whitmy father and i cant see him annymore cause hees a dangerous person

normaly im quiet and i dont really freak out often but a guy slammed me in my face reasonless – i think he just dont like me so i freaked out,and […]

Everything is so sad and depressing. I don’t know what to do with my existence, how to pass the meaningless time during which I’m awake. I could read one of my books or learn more physics, but I’ve lost interest in both of them. Those things gave me life, and now I feel dead. My dreams don’t help; they only provide me with more depressing thoughts. No wonder I’m afraid to sleep and keep staying up past midnight.

My 16th birthday is in only a matter of weeks. I’m so old, and yet I’ve done nothing with my life. I’ve been afraid of my birthday since […]

Convicted

On the 10th of June 2021 i was obligated by forensic law enforcement to give up my DNA, on the basis of being convicted for ”resisting arrest”. They collected my DNA by swabbing the inside of my mouth with a swab stick to then store my DNA in a forensic database ”to help solve crime” more efficiently.

If you object to the storing of your DNA you can make an appeal to the judge to have your DNA material destroyed. One must have an convincing argument for the judge to overrule the decision to store your DNA material (This appeal can only be taken in to […]