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When I don’t take my Meds I lose track of my myself. I sink in to a depression. The darkness takes over. All I can think of is my demons. All the mistakes I’ve made, the people I’ve hurt, those who I’ve lost are stuck in my head. The memories replaying again and again until I want to die.
I hate all those how rant about how suicide is a sin. I think they just fear death and that makes them feel weak. They hide their weakness behind walls of hate.
Suicide is not a sin. It is not a weakness. It takes strength to do. So many times I have […]
Hi, I just want someone non-judgemental who doesn’t care whether I live or die to talk to.
I’m on skype, but don’t want video calls, just text chat.
Have you ever felt like you’re sinking deeper and deeper into yourself and you can’t seem to find a way to resurface? I feel that way everyday. At first i used to be able to find a way out. All i had to do was run the shiny, sharp razor down my arm, marking the unmarked skin. Each cut tells a story. Cutting used to be my escape for everything wrong in my life. It seems now that i’ve gotten used to that pain, i need a better outlet. Drinking and drugs helped me escape reality for the time being, until they started to wear […]
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I like to smile. I don’t know why, but it’s easier that way. I smile when she hits me. I smile when they mock me. I wipe my eyes and I smile. I smile when they scream and rant that I am not good enough. I should be perfect. So I smile. They want to believe it, so I let them.
Damn those voices. They like to mess with my mind. They enjoy my abuse. I can only smile. ******. ******. *****. I’m Aimee’s *****. ****** ***** ******. Dyke. They scream it at me. They know what I am. And so does she.
I hate […]
One person stopped emailing me after what I’m guessing was an attack of depression and no doubt suicide soon after. Now no one will tell me what the hell happened to my other friend who has tried committing suicide more than once. Why the hell!? Fuck you all. What the hell is the point of a friend if they deny you your friendship, they act friendly, piss you off, and then DIE!? What. The. Hell. Why the hell do I never make friends? THIS is why!
I hide behind a smile quite often. I really do think I might have bipolar disorder or borderline personality disorder. I’m very impulsive and I get seriously angry to the point where i start crying angrily and kicking things because of stupid little things like I don’t have control over the radio..I over think things just like i act on impulse. I feel like I have no friends but I do. I’m ugly fat and there is no reason to go on. I play a sport that I’m really good at but sometimes I just want to be with God and go to sleep forever. […]
So today my best friend said she doesn’t give a shit about me whatsoever and the girl I love isn’t going to end up being my girlfriend anytime soon. All my other friends are crap and I’ve reached the end of the line, there’s nothing left to look forward to or to believe in anymore. I might end it tonight, I don’t fucking know. Usually I just sleep it off because i’m a fucking dumbass failure at everything. Nothing I find in life makes me happy or content at all anymore except love and that’s driven me to the point of insanity, so I leave […]
I recently got charged with a misdemeanor and now I cannot find a job. All of this because I was drinking; I have stopped that but the consequences of my actions keep following me. I am broke. I have a Masters degree and am now unemployable in my field, or any field it seems. I just don’t know what to do. I am afraid of pain. I am a wreck. I don’t know what to do. I am thirty nine and my life seems over. I have blown everything due to my drinking in the past. It has been almost ninety days now since my […]
I stood there, stareing at my razor. taking in the light black coating stretched upon the sharpened edge. but then, a cold, wet nose brushed my fingers.
nobody knows how many times my dog has saved me. just by being there. more than anyone else can say.
I can barely sleep without that warm, soft fur at an arms length awat. or the gentle breathing.
<3 Gayol, my best friend.
I found his dA, just by browseing.
I fucking cried when I saw his name. I miss him so much, he was such a great friend. I didn’t understand back then, what it meant, to be him. I do now. I AM him.
I just want things back the way the where. I can’t handle this I really fucking can’t. kitty NEEDS her iggy. kitty needs someone who UNDERSTANDS.
kitty needs you.
I evaporate myself from life. My tongue is bitter everytime IÂ talk. Salty and sticky. Disgusting. my friends who were there for me morphed into bitches. lonliness engulfs me. swallows me whole. including the reason to feel, emotions. It kills me. It feels as if a black hole has been put where my heart was. Shaving parts of my life off and eating my memories. I just feel so lonely all the time. And no one can understand me. This world is arrogant, conceited, and uninterpretable.
Those happy times are gone. When will i feel a smile thats whole hearted and interpreted as a feeling of hope […]
I need these questions answered before i kill myself.Can a 13 year old girl die if she jumped of a six floor building?What can happen if i live through the jump?Can you die from taking 10 500mg. pain killers?What can happen if i live through that?And if anybody knows how it feels to overdose on pills that would be very helpful?Can i live if i jump in front of a train?Well that’s about it.Im planning on ending it on monday or something so yea.This probably the last chance for some of you guys to tell me your stories or get advice cuz you know i […]
I have been researching suicide obsessively. I ended a relationship about a year ago and have since come to realize it was the biggest mistake that I have ever made. I knew when it was ending that I was entering the abyss and I still did it. Now I am unable to function and all I can think about is what I would have said or done. It seems like alot of the people here have been screwed over by situations that are out of their control whereas I am the cause of mine. I cannot forgive myself. I am waiting a little bit longer […]
I feel forever alone. I have family, friends, a husband, a beautiful baby girl, a job, everything I guess. But I feel that no one on this earth can ever understand me, our can stand me. What I feel and what I think are simply too complicated and perhaps annoying to the “normal” people. Whoever they are, I envy them. I wish I didn’t have to feel lonely. I wish I didn’t have to think about hanging myself just to feel better; like I have control over my life. Which is ironic. But everytime I am in […]
Hi, this is my first post in here.
I’m 38, married and living in the UK. I’ve not been happy for a number of years, seem to suffer from increasing anxiety as each day passes. I have worries about my work life and home life. People just tell me to start liking myself, and that I have to want to help myself, but it’s no good. Nothing seems to help me.
I’m just wondering if there are some people (age is unimportant) local to me (London/Surrey/Berks area) that want to talk, share stories, share worries and see where it takes us. I would prefer to chat to […]
poem i wrote………
I run from the day
As it chases close behind
I try to hide
As I feel it looming right overhead
Like a heavy cloud
Each and every day
The clock clicks as the numbers pass
The hands dance
As my day comes near
I try to hide
But I cannot
As the light shuts off
From the world
I close my eyes
And drift away
I’ve been thinking about this again, but this time, the feeling is amplified 30x. How does one cope with this because I’m ready to go.
Please, nothing religious. It got me in this mess.
I feel hopeless. I’ve known about this site for awhile and I tend to use it to help myself out of my bind. Mostly, I read some posts and if I get the nerve I’ll … rant. It seems theraputic, and after almost a dozen ‘strangers’ emailed me when I choked on a bottle of sleeping pills… Well, only a select few would bother emailing. And I mean a select few were honestly being supportive and so I reciprocated. Its overwhelming, but it was awesome. Unfortunately, this is a scar in my spirit, so it will literally never go away. Memory is like that. And […]