If there is anyone in London this weekend who is planning on killing themselves, and has a tiny ounce of wanting to talk to someone, someone who wont talk you out of it, or question your motives, then I am free to talk to you or see you if you wish. I feel the same but I am not quite at the finishing line yet and so I can fully understand why you would want to do it. However, sometimes talking to someone who understands can ease the pressure and make you see that you are in fact, not alone in your pain. Your thoughts […]

So I am strong… I thought I was strong….  I need to be strong. I got a job. I am doing kinda well in my studies. I have a boyfriend. It all just seems pointless.

Why do I have to pretend I am strong, why can’t I be the one who needs comforting, understanding and to be listened to? All this hard work, all this pretense and for what? To keep up an image? So when I leave this world what is my image going to do for me? Or all those times I played the strong one for everyone else, will they be there to […]

I’m drowning. I keep trying to come up for air – trying to find some hope, but no matter what I do, I’m being pulled under. And the reality is… it’s only a matter of time before I drown.

I’ve been trying so hard to tread water. But this ball and chain tied to my foot – this ball and chain of physical and emotional pain – it keeps pulling me down.

I do have a life jacket on. It’s composed of friends, my doctor, and my mental health counselor who all really want to help. But it just brings false hope. […]

Its been 2 years with no job, no friends, no money. I’m getting evicted tomorrow out of my apartment. The hospital bills of this great nation are stacking higher and higher. I just dont want to deal with it no more. And after I read http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ essay of persuasion to stay alive it just depressed me more. Reading that crap only wants me to put this gun up to my head and squeeze the trigger. I NEED HELP! You got 5 min 5:21 EST 8/14/2010

well I though I would share this last

Well as I seem to have pissed so many of the “regulars” off I thought I’d share this before I go.
In response to the earlier splinter comment I was merely saying that there are very many sick people who pray on vulnerable folks such as on here. “grooming” them – oh your my saviour from killing myself…in order to ultimately gain control. Like it or not, either way I don’t care as I owe nobody here anything. This isn’t facebook. It is so interesting that a bunch of complete strangers to one another, who claim to have […]

this is all i have to say… day one

i don’t want to ask the people around me if they would miss me if i was gone because i am afraid of the answer, and iv been thinking about suicide for about 4 years now and i slit my wist 3 times 1st left a scar and the rests just bled and i don’t know what to do… 1 more month of summer and just want to go back to school.

ill gust try to keep my mind off things and sleep the summer away.

Will I? When it is the hardest time in my life, and the worst of all my fears are upon me, will I?  When I cannot see a reason, not one at all, to continue, will I? I am sitting in this room alone and thinking that no one in this whole world gives a damn about me, or the pain I feel for just simply being, will I? Why do I need him to love me so much? Why do I need them to understand? Why can’t I admit that I know what the truth is and that it hurts so bad it makes […]

I write these letters to people who have helped me and or hurt me, just so i can express my feelings and thoughts to them. Obviously i never sent them but i tell them everything that is going on and that “i’m going to kill my self before you read this” but i’m not ready to die just yet. I have a few things that i need to finish before anything like that happens. I would really like to send these letters but i know if i do that i will regret it and not keep my words on dyeing.
I also have a confession […]

i dont get it. people here never doing. although i cant argue to that, since im contradicting myslef. i must say, im still ”surviving”. i was thinking, what about having a suicide partner? being the love of your life, or if lonely, like in my case, meeting up with a complete stranger and die toegether. at least you could motivate each other to do it <3
just leave and be happy. instead of suffering.
a suicide partner. I always wanted that. i do and in the future i think i will.
any comments?

i just wanna talk.
im- holdthatttiger

I’ve been on this site for a couple of weeks. I decided months ago to kill myself and the past month I have been preparing for that. I found this site by chance and I have enjoyed visiting it. I am going ahead with my suicide tonight and I thought I would explain why and how I feel about it just moments before I do it, in case if offers anyone anything – and I also saw a post today by someone called poppyseeds who seemed upset by the actual deaths on here and she needed some understanding of them. Maybe this will shed some […]

 

     I am not going to write the typical suicidal rant here. Rather, I am going to vent my enlarged, bilious spleen and wonder if any can give me one good reason as to why suicide is not the best alternative to a world completely and utterly sick in its soul and mind.

     For a start, I am staring down the business end of fifty. In the blink of an eye, an entire life was wasted in the pursuit of everything our families, our pastors, our teachers, and our government told us were the worthwhile things. Married at 23 and a father of two by […]

I hate what I am feeling. I am closer now than ever and no one really understands. I don’t know why death seems to be the only way to peace, but it does. I have been on this earth for a long time, 40 years, and not once have I achieved my happiness that I perceive to be worth living for. In the whole world I cannot find comfort. For the first time in my life and I mean for the first time, I am seriously considering just ending it all. I cry every day, sometimes all day. Tears fall constantly. No one will rescue […]

I know that I’m a nice person, but how can I be when I cause so much pain to others like my friends and family. Everytime I look I have hurt someone else that I really care about. Cut to make the pain go away but as soon as I feel good I hurt someone. I don’t know why I do it, it just happens. So I just keep cutting because I don’t know what else to do with myself. As hard I try to be nice it keeps coming out the wrong way and someone is hurt again. I think it’s time to end […]

I have recently joined this site….and i have already read many stories on how people want to die and people yelling at people. I’ve decided it’s time for my story. i have been depressed since the age of 12. there was a very personal life changing experience at that point in my life. Recently after my 13th birthday i made my first cut during church. how ironic was that. i was at church to be saved but yet i was “mutilating” my self. My depression began to grow to the point where i started to “halucinate.” i didn’t know that what i was seeing […]

There was this guy who posted in here recently called Splinter. I would just like to say that I have spoken with this man on the phone for a couple of days and he has moved me beyond all imagination, I just feel compelled to tell you a little about his story because, sadly, he his committing suicide this weekend. I can’t let that happen without printing why he is doing that, it might give people another perspective on why people feel it is their only answer. 

His wife (who was 7 months pregnant) was murdered, the murderer was never caught, despite there being some lines […]

So I guess a lot of people of this site are dead now?  I’ve been going over a large number of suicide notes on here and my hearts bleeds when I read them, and  I noticed that the majority of them don’t seem to have come back on even though some well wishers plead with them no to go though with it. So I guess they went ahead and killed themselves. It has been haunting me all night knowing that I have been reading a dead persons thoughts in their last hours or days, could they have been stopped I wonder, if someone said the […]

jjgg,
You and I are the same species.

http://suicideproject.org/wp-admin/edit.php?author=3345

You can’t solve a soul’s problem by the materialistic shrinks who don’t even believe that souls exist, but believe everything just originates from the brain.

You came as reincarnated but brought along the faded memory of the past life.
That extra but odd wisdom is shown evident in your eyes, glittering profound since a baby.
Also marking on body to signify, such as an outstanding dot or mole.

Destiny is planned. A floor map still with routes to choose.
For instance, a route if to certain death can be avoided, if you know how to turn, but only suffer […]

Hey there, I came across this site last night and I really couldn’t help but post about some of my own suicidal feelings.

For the past few years now my zest for life has slowly slipped away to barely anything. I look at the world, the people I am around, the things I do and I can’t help but feel tired of it. I look at myself and can’t shake the feeling like I should be somewhere else.

It’s not like I can’t feel happy, it’s not like certain things here can’t make me happy, it’s just that the happiness I feel here is so shallow and […]

I have sat here countless times with the exact emotions I’m feeling right now; so desperately wanting to speak to someone or at the very least simply to explain to anyone or anything how things are but who is there to turn to? Depression, ill-health, pain – they are things non-sufferers can’t relate to and I imagine that any time I try to speak to someone about my situation I am perceived to be whining.

“There are people worse off than me, who am I to complain?”

Next month I will have been ill for ten years, having started at the age of 15. I […]

Hey there, I just decided to end up my life, the thing is, I don’t want my family to notice that is a suicide, any ideas?