When I was in high school I was popular, I was the capt. of the basketball team, i was in the national honor society, didnt smoke pot or do any drugs, i was a saint in everyones eyes and i was on top of the world. Then, i met a girl who i feel in love with. i was a senior at the time. I would do anything for her just to see her smile, her friends liked me and everything. I had problems though, I was very paranoid about lossing her, never believed she loved me or in that case i could be loved. […]
I’m only 21 years old and have my whole life ahead of me. I’m in school to be an elementary teacher. I have a girlfriend who treats me like I’m the greatest thing alive. I have a good job, a loving family, an adorable iguana, talent, so many hobbies it would take an essay to name them all…but I feel absolutely incomplete.
I broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years in December of 08 because she treated me badly quite often. However, despite my attempts at being with other girls, I miss her and want her back. I tried […]
Hello. I am a 15 year old High School student. My parents only punish me. No one likes me. Every girl i try to talk to rejects me and laughs in my face. Almost all of my friends use me. I think im the ugliest person ever to exist. I am the most average person. I have nothing to contribute to the world. I am looking for a way out.
I have tried cutting myself, but I am a coward and I can not cut deep enough. I have tried hanging myself but the rope broke and it was very painful for the seconds i […]
I’m sick. I’m sick, and I feel like shit. I have warmth; I have a partner; I have a precious little kitten and awareness enough to be concerned about things like grammar.
I have all these things, but I feel like shit. I feel like shit, and I want to die.
Jenna is coming home in a couple hours, and I have to be happy so that she can be, also. You don’t know what Jenna is like. She’s wonderful. She deserves that. She deserves more than I have to give, so the very least I can give […]
After the Faux
Oh great brain washer you,
sept into my mind in disguise
Trickery, trickery
What a fool was I.
What evil thoughts I fed
Not knowing you like lucifer.
The devil wears the mask of god,
how else would he deceive?
A rotton core, a sickly soul,
a dirty unwashed mind…
In christmas paper all wrapped up,
I thought a gift, but only coal.
A talent to deceive and weive deception
into man,
of elastic plastic lies,
with substance of no substance,
you evil, evil child,
Demonic in your eyes.
Sometimes our minds are pervaded with darkness, and our light is obscured and hidden, and at these times it can seem impossible to find our way back to peace and light.
For many of this world the opportunities to communicate from an inner perspective of peace, protection and safety can be extremely difficult for days, weeks, months, years or even an entire lifetime. This can be as a result of depression, mental illness, medications, dependencies and autism.
Within each of our minds, and within the minds of those most troubled and suffering exists a yearning wish to be understood, accepted and embraced.
And for those residing in fear […]
I’m thinkin bout it a lot.. I have everything ready, it’s just next to me.
I’ve lost everyone, my family, my sister, my best friend and boyfriend, my grandparents, and now myself… I don’t want to live, what for?
I don’t have any future, i could have, i’m rich and can do anything i want, but still that’s not enough, i hate having money, i hate to have all these chances.. I don’t want anything anymore, and the world is so fucked up, it will come to an end itself soon, or we will be sickend of killed by dunno who but there’s a lot […]
I don’t feel like writing anything out. I’m just an ugly, retarded, pathetic loser. My family hates me and no one would care at my school if I wasn’t there.
I feel like killing myself all the time, I don’t feel that I need to write you all a paragraph on how much my life sucks perhaps soon I will, I just thought I might tell you that. Oh and, K3T don’t you dare comment with your fucking God can help you bullshit. Sorry to anyone who believes in God and got offended by that, I believe in him too, I don’t believe in K3T thinking that he can save fucking everyone on this website by preaching.
Pain is a feeling the same with love lust and the rest. I live in a world that I am a stranger to, a world I hate, a world I despise, one I’d like to get away from. I’ve been dreaming of a thousand ways that would lead to this life being a mirage and my true destiny being the exact opposite. I have even dreamed of this not being my true family. This life I came to hate till I begun to hate myself, the person looking at me from the mirror truly became a stranger, a stranger I hate and one I never […]
I don’t know if I should sit here and cry or if I should scream in anger? I’m depressed and have anger issues. My mom says it’s a sin to kill youself and my dad can’t even look at me without staring down at my wrists. I’ve lost many yet so few. I guess because they meant something to me. I carved a heart in my arm one night when I was at my cousin’s. No one noticed, no one cared. Everytime it makes me think back to when I was little. I was just a little daddy’s girl. I didn’t mess up […]
I’ll be 38 yrs old soon. Tonight the pull is strong. I wonder if I’ll make it. I’m losing hope again. How could the future possibly get better? I don’t want to be remembered for killing myself because I’m black and ugly.I wish I didn’t wish and daydream of a better life all the time. I know beauty doesn’t guarantee love. Is that trite ass shit about loving yourself true? tell me your thoughts
I have contemplated suicide way too many times to count. Never anything too violent because i wouldn’t want to embarrass my corps. My mother was a victim to suicide in 2001. It was accidental, so i was told. We had a great mother daughter night the night before and i really felt like i had my mother back. she had been in and out of jail tons of times. but this time i really felt like she was mine. Until i woke up. The last thing i remember of my mother was her rubbing my back to make me fall asleep next to her. When […]
I done with of this.I going to end it all on the Monday we come back from spring break on the 29th….I want some people to feel bad for what they could have done to help.I’m planing on taking about 50 Tylenol pills with some wine……not much like a little less than a cup…..I’ve already taken about 20 Tylneol three different times so who knows how bad my liver is now……I wonder if anyone would even care…
Probably will but I don’t care that much.No would even care after awhile.Let alone even notice I was gone after a few days.Oh well I guess I’m done […]
hi im new. im young and i feels stressed all the time. the weight never lets up. hearing “dont give up” makes me want to hurl. i dont believe i can be fixed. i dont want to tell anyone. life will still stay the same even if my thought change. you go to school to get stressed and go to college to get stressed to get a job to be stressed at so stress never goes away until your old and cant do anything but sit around. plus im to chicken to actually commit the suicide action. this sucks. you guys probly al have tried […]
I’m living in a nightmare
I don’t know what to do
I’m haunted by the thought
Of you being through
My smile is non existent
My laughter is now tears
How could my life turn to this
After 3 happy years
Every night I pray
That I will wake up soon
If it never happens
I am headed toward doom.
I can’t stand the pain
I can’t stand the strife
Please now my love
Come back into my life
Six months I’ve been dreaming
I’m ready to wake up
From this haunting nightmare
Before I am corrupt
The smiles are fake
The tears are real
Its […]
Hi. My name is Lucy, I am 20. I feel much older. Before dismissing me as an emo teenager, please read a little of this. I might be 20, but I’ve been through more than most people ever do – both good and bad things. But it’s the bad things that get to you, wear you down.
I don’t know where to start – it seems like there have been so many starts, so many horrible life events and so much negativity. I am currently actively suicidal. The thought of dying will not leave my head – I’m pretty sure by this point that I only […]
I thought this site would help me change my mind. i planned on doing “it” next monday.
My name is Larry and suicidal thoughts began when i was 16 ( im 18 now)
My dad left my mom since as long as i could remember.
me an my mom been through alot of hard times, like sleeping in cars, at aunts house, and moving from place to place.
but one thing about her tho, she would go to the ends of the earth for my happiness
when i was 16 we actually got a pretty decent 2 story house
that was probably the happiest ive […]
In junior high and grade school I had a fantastic group of friends. I knew many people and wasn’t shy at all. My freshman year was when things started to change. In retrospect it doesn’t seem like I changed; it’s like everyone else was changing around me and I was helpless to do anything about it. Friends I had known for years started distancing themselves from me, and not knowing what else to do, I became a loner. My sophomore through senior years were spent by myself. I never went anywhere on weekends, I never did anything in my […]
I have a  problem. I have recently come off anti depressents, I do 2 jobs, both part time. i recently put my mother in a home because her altzsimers was getting too much for my dad seeing as he is about 84,… I can’t do life anymore. it is too hard. I have recently discovered that one of my ex girlfriends is rapidly becoming a world famouse poet, and unfortunutly for me i really loved her.
I can not go on with this.
I always don’t have enough money… I hate wher i live.
wtf am i supposed to do….
pleae help me
everything i do seems bot to be enough. I can’t […]