Rocketman: Thanks everyone! For showing up on such short notice! Especially Hope dream love our newest member! We have a real problem if you been watching the news you know what I’m talking about! The Suicide bombers! They are crazy! They are insane! And They are killing people!

empty pluto: What? How can we stop them?

Dark willow: But our job is to stop people from killing themselves?

Hope dream love: We have to save the suicide bombers? So they don’t kill themselves and blow up people? THERE HAS GOT TO BE ANOTHER WAY!

Rocketman: I know it goes against the grain to […]

I envy people who are dying with cancer. I wish i could just go to bed and wake up the next day with cancer. Then I don’t have to cope up with this bullsh*t of a life anymore.

I was strong, i was brilliant. Now i am a failure. I have a degree, i am certified to do my job, i had a high-paying job but I was unsatisfied with the salary. Greed. I quit that job and i started my own business and failed. It hasn’t been going really well now. With the cash I have invested in the business i can last at most […]

I often say that I have an IQ of 50. It was proven to me after all. Anyway, yesterday was the day that it really shined.

I’ve murdered people before. By accident but I did it. On an old server me and my boyfriend used to go on, there was a person called Mei. One day he vented about how miserable he was. I tried to cheer him up, but in doing so made him feel worse. Worse to the point that he said he was definitely gonna kill himself now. He was never heard from again.

Yesterday I accidentally did the same thing […]

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R.I.P

I’ve fought all my life for things I believed were of value.
Life was so high on the list.
Now it’s isn’t worth the puddle of syphilitic drippings from a Mongolian grudge fuck.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like my relationship is at an end and I don’t see the point of going on. He doesn’t broke the most important promise to me, and doesn’t seem to care. If I bring it up he threatens to leave. I should just leave my life behind. No one would even notice or care.

My worst fear has happened. I’m on probation for and I know it may not seem like a big deal, but to me it is. Not sure what to make about it but I would like to go through with it by Friday. I’ve set up a password protected file for a friend with a pretty hard password and all. I told someone about the situation I was in and he told me he won’t say anything yet he tried to discourage me duh. I got my roommate in trouble two other people in trouble who weren’t even involved. I feel like I’m just slowly […]

Those people who you’d die for, no they don’t care.

Rocketman: Attention!

This special meeting of the newly formed SUICIDE PREVENTION SQUAD was called because ….. well ……. it’s special!  I have added a new member to my team! empty Pluto ! Matter of fact he is the only member other than me anyways, I have been training now for 6 months and it’s time for us to start saving lives! Are you ready! […]

is smoking a joint!!!

I don’t see a point to keep living.

I shouldn’t have gotten close to people. I shouldn’t have allowed them a chance to care. What was I thinking? Now all I do is cause them pain.
I wish someone would hold a gun to my head and pull the trigger.

I dunno where to start, it’s only a matter of time really. I have weird energy that I’ve had ever since I remember, it’s the only thing I am. Life’s not worth it Really, everyday is such a battle and hell. I don’t know how to make the suffering stop. I have such weird energy and I’m repulsed by it and others are too. Can anyone relate?

I’ve been living my life like it wasn’t my own. I was doing things for other people and not for me. For a long time, I was okay with that. With being alive to suit other people’s needs and being alive to suit other people’s wants.

A few months ago, I moved from a small town in Louisiana to a suburb of Seattle. I felt rather happy and I was excited about my new life. I moved at the beginning of June, and if I’m publishing this post after I write it, It will be almost 3 months since I moved.

After these months, two jobs, some […]

I’m not the one to stare

I know whats coming when I hurt

I see it inside the ones who care and are on alert

But I love the ones who have no care

If I try to break this cycle

will my heart and soul remain?

will I still suffer forever in vain?

or will my heart enter a new recital ?

If I conclude my life with  fresh air

if the bell strikes at once, who is left sincere?

if I  try it again will it become clear ?

or will the best moment be if I dare

I’ve been alive for too long
I should’ve died the first time

Wonder what spectacular, momentous events are taking place right now in places out of human reach. As I go about my days fretting over my sorry lot – lack of money, poor health, sucky job, low social status, zero relationships, no dreams and pathetic desires, there is something grand happening far out above, unconscious of me. Planets are floating, comets zipping by, stars exploding, molten lava furiously churning, gas clouds sparkling with the birth of stars, chaos amidst silence. Eternal unlike my time on earth and infinite unlike the ground I amble upon.

Sure they’re just dead matter whereas I’m a sentient Human of the 21st […]

im sure i will be ready to end it in about 60 days from now

Not too long ago, I was very suicidal. I had all these people “around” me yet, I still felt so alone. I felt unappreciated, uncomfortable, invisible; like I was screaming for help and no one bothered to stop and assist me. I felt as though there was nothing I could do right and my self-esteem had hit an all time low. I sat on my couch one day and I thought, “this is it.” There’s no use for me here anymore. I mean “would anyone truly miss me if I’m gone anyway?” But wait Elsie! “What about the kids?!” Oh you mean the kids you’re […]

Im feeling so much better now

Did a whole bunch of laundry, The old man friend came into town and we bought a whole bunch of fancy soft off label Cat food and dog food, drank some vodka and went out to eat. I hate that I get so bitter and hateful I hate that I dont mind going to jail, I have attacked strangers in public before I hit them in the face ,Harrased them and told them mean things.. When cops and security come im always upset and crying it gets resolved and charges never get pressed so most of the time I stay […]