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In control

by Marissa 5/11/2016

written by Marissa

Today was really hard. Couldn’t study for my final because all I kept thinking of were ways to get away with dying.

I failed my final. Possibly didn’t pass that class. Money spent for nothing. Parents are going to give me shit of course. I won’t ever finish college.

I lost a family member today. Talked someone out of not killing herself over a guy. Isn’t that weird how we can tell people it’s going to be okay and how suicide isn’t the answer?

When I’m cutting, I feel so in control of how deep I can go. I want to just hit a vein and be like […]

5/11/2016 3 comments

kms

by jasal 5/9/2016

written by jasal

watch me try to kill myself and then fail again and cost my family another $10k in medical bills because our insurance is shit and the u.s. healthcare system fucking sucks

5/9/2016 1 comment

all dressed up

by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany 5/7/2016

written by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/05/Five-Finger-Death-Punch-Coming-Down.m4a

Unequivocally I regret the time spent on the porch. Sitting. Pondering. Contemplating. I’ve never been one to dress up or down. My family being who they are, will inevitably be there for me in my passing. Not dressed up or down. However, they don’t understand who they expect me to be. I’m a loser. A fake. A fraud. Death is my only true companion. And I welcome her with open arms.

5/7/2016 2 comments

Sorry. II

by AKidWithAName 5/7/2016

written by AKidWithAName

I’m honestly sorry anyone’s even attempting to read this load of self-pity.

Am I really just a dog? I can’t be, my family likes dogs. So what does that make me? My brother and sister both talk to me as if I were a dog. My parents stand by and either continue it, or tell me to stop being such a baby about it. I know that at the end of the day, I am nothing and furthermore that my family sees me and recognizes the same thing; I am worthless.

I’ve honestly got the best friends I […]

5/7/2016 4 comments

Eating habits

by Ali 5/6/2016

written by Ali

Don’t you just love it when you’re family, who you’re not with most the day, tell you that “you’re so fat! how much can you eat?! Just stop eating the entire house!” when you’re just making a egg sandwich and its the first thing you’ve eaten for 1 and half days. Now they’re telling me I’m wasteful for leaving a boiled egg in the fridge. why don’t I just don’t eat ever again. why don’t I just not eat anything so I’m never wasteful. How about I just die so I’m wasting any of your time, not wasting space in your house, not doing anything […]

5/6/2016 1 comment

by JiminyCrispies 5/5/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

My mum found out about my relapse today, and has been demanding since this afternoon for me to tell her why I did it. No matter how many times I told her talking about it with her makes me uncomfortable and I literally can’t tell her, she’s still insistent I do.

So I’ve wrote it out in bullet points for her in the morning – and just for the heck of it I referred to myself in third person. It’s not really helpful, but it’s all she’s getting. I had to come home early from college today. I told my mum I probably would because I […]

5/5/2016 2 comments

First time……

by WeAllFallDown 5/4/2016

written by WeAllFallDown

….Hey all….This is my first time posting here, and in all honesty, I never thought I’d see myself posting on a site like this.

I’m not looking for pity, simply a place for me to talk about my problems, where no one will judge me, or tell me that I need to believe in God.

I apologize in advance if this seems like pointless rambling, as I’m just trying to get it all out.

I’m 14 years old, and honestly, I wanna die. My biological father left when I was two, and I have no memories of him, and I only found out about him a year and […]

5/4/2016 5 comments

Why why why

by Dungeon 5/2/2016

written by Dungeon

My dad got the results back from the doctors today for the weird lump on his neck. We thought it was just a swollen gland but apparently its a cancerous tumor.
What is this.
How is this happening. Its not fair, he works so hard for the family its not fair.
why does this happen, why can’t things be ok for once
why are things getting worse? why does my family have to suffer?

5/2/2016 14 comments

READ THIS POST

by Papermoon 5/2/2016

written by Papermoon

You’re most likely wondering why I so boldly asked for you to read this post. Well, I did so because I have something to say that I believe will benefit you, no matter if this site applies to you or not.

I’ve had an unbelievable amount of personal experiences in my life that in reality could have shattered me from the start but instead, here I am writing this […]

5/2/2016 4 comments

Against the Current

by TheRoadSoFar 5/1/2016

written by TheRoadSoFar

I’m starting to believe that even life doesn’t want me here. I find it funny how you can think you’ve hit the bottom and can’t go lower than that, but then you do. You sink further down into the abyss.

My family and my social life are falling apart. We’re economically fucked, I will get kicked out of school if we can’t pay the tuition (we owe like 3,000 dollars and that number will continue to go up if we don’t pay in time). The only place where I considered myself as “not so useless” (even though being good in school means nothing in real life; […]

5/1/2016 1 comment

Losing to Oregon

by HERE4UOK 5/1/2016

written by HERE4UOK

Losing yet another good acquaintance…

Let’s call him Roger. I just got an email from him saying goodbye. He’s moving to Seaside, OR

I didn’t know. WE didn’t know (one of the groups I volunteer at) he’d been planning ‘his trip’ since last year.

Roger is a two-time cancer survivor.

Always the fighter, he went to own the business he started working at years ago.

His youngest ‘child’ will be heading for college this summer.

Roger’s wife’s already waiting for him having passed a few years ago after a tragic accident.

Roger has a thriving business, family and has his entire affairs in order.

He also has ALS. An aggressive case of it.

It’s […]

5/1/2016 3 comments

I’m sorry

by EmptyGlass 4/30/2016

written by EmptyGlass

I can’t handle it anymore. I can’t handle the constant stress, the overwhelming feelings of depression and anxiety, the unbelievable sense of failure. My friends and family don’t listen to or believe my cries for help. Help. Something that seems reassuring, something that seems within my grasp, yet I know I’ll never get it. I’ll always struggle, always be a burden. I’m sorry I give people grief and sadness when they see me, I’m sorry I can’t be perfect, I’m sorry I rant out my problems to people who already have enough of their own. I’m sorry I’m alive…

4/30/2016 1 comment

Count my blessings.

by HannahGort99 4/30/2016

written by HannahGort99

So I’ve lost hope now. Years and years of therapy, waiting a shit load of money – sorry mum. I just feel like nothing is helping. I’m still cutting and going deeper and worse, I’m still suicidal and getting closer to death and my mind is going darker and darker, losing its contrast. I’m slowly giving up and all it’s doing is hurting my family.

4/30/2016 2 comments

Why me… Why?!?!?!!!!!

by Sui the Bunny 4/29/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

Why do I have be afraid of my brothers whyyyy whyyyyyyyyy now I’m stuck having to do something I don’t want to do on mother’s day…… Asdfghjkl I hate my family (apart from my nephew) enough as it is but now it’s worse I have to go see my Nana… Now some of you think that’s not so bad why are you complaining just stop you’re ranting it’s annoying.

No I won’t because I need excuses because my brain isn’t working.

My Nana is the worse person […]

4/29/2016 12 comments

Worst Mistake I Ever Made

by brxken._.lxcks 4/29/2016

written by brxken._.lxcks

I had to write an essay for one of my teachers and I don’t know what I was thinking when I wrote about my suicide thoughts and my scars. And so now my whole family knows and they are giving me all of the attention, and now I have to go to a therapist. I hate all of the attention, and I hate that now I have a therapist. I hate talking about how I’m feeling to someone face to face. That’s why I talk here, I can talk to all of you and you won’t know who I am what I look like, and […]

4/29/2016 9 comments

I wish I could leave right now

by suicidalfreak 4/29/2016

written by suicidalfreak

I wish I could runaway from all this pain I feel everyday I’m drowning in my own mind. I want to leave this stupid family behide and live a better life of my own if that’s even possible

4/29/2016 3 comments

Letting Other People Sabatoge Your Happiness

by HakunaMatata 4/28/2016

written by HakunaMatata

For almost 2 years, I’ve felt this way because I live beside toxic neighbours and my uncle doesn’t listen to me to be careful of being taken advantage of. How? Simple. They threaten to sue us, get us fine and arrested for “Distribing The Peace” from the back up alarm installed on my uncle’s car. People sue for almost anything now a days no matter how ridiculous it may seem. There are various type of prices for back up alarm sold online and in-stores. Intially, […]

4/28/2016 0 comment

Last few weeks of the semester = Disaster

by Bri 4/27/2016

written by Bri

I’ll be quite honest here. I’m barely holding myself together. My family has such high hopes for me, but I just can’t handle this. As soon as I graduated I was thrown into college, being told “I know you, if you take a break you won’t go back.” Maybe that’s true, but maybe when I imagined college I had dreamed of doing something that involved something I love, like art or music. I never imagined I’d be sitting in a class room with these people who are always over dressed and at least twice my age. I never once thought I’d be a business major. […]

4/27/2016 5 comments

I cannot go to prison

by noprison 4/26/2016

written by noprison

I am a 47 year old guy facing prison for a crime with no victims, but a crime none the less. Other than the one thing I did, I have led a peaceful life and am caring and kind.

This will not only effect me, it will also devastate my family, friends and church. In addition, I am Type 1 diabetic, so a five year term is a death sentence.

I simply cannot handle this. It is impossible, and there’s only one way out.

4/26/2016 10 comments

Finally, somewhere I dont feel judged

by brighteyes77 4/26/2016

written by brighteyes77

It feels nice to write my feelings on a social media page where everyone gets me. I talk to my boyfriend all the time about my depression and bless him he’s bent over backwards to try make me happy, and as much as love him and appreciate the effort he’s going to I physically can’t change how I think or feel 🙁 its gotten to the point where he feels like he’s useless because I havent improved at all, but he’s not! And when he feels useless sometimes he gets mad and thats only been recently, I cant blame him after 2 years of having […]

4/26/2016 4 comments

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