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Tired of being tired. Need encouragement.

by tryingtohope 5/20/2016

written by tryingtohope

Hello SP: I am having a really difficult day and need help/encouragement. My body hurts so much today. Just can hardly move. I am so tired of being tired all the time. I’m tired of not getting restful sleep no matter how long i stay in bed. I am tired of not being able to type because my hands hurt so much (I am dictating this.)

I am so tired of it hurting to cook and clean and do laundry and even work in my garden.

I have so much to do this weekend and I am so overwhelmed and so tired.

I really need help tonight. Thank […]

5/20/2016 6 comments

Her

by alyzabelli4 5/11/2016

written by alyzabelli4

It’s been a little over two years now since she left, I know I should be happy that she isn’t in pain anymore but when I think of her and everything we had I can’t help but cry.

Its been two years since my whole world was ruined by the girl who I had known for so many years, my best friend, my rock. I could have helped her, I could have answered her phone call but I just didn’t, I didn’t pick up the phone when I should have.

I’m so sorry I didn’t pick up, im so sorry I wasn’t able to help, oh why, […]

5/11/2016 5 comments

I’m done

by sls 5/9/2016

written by sls

My children 17 & 15 really don’t want anything to do with me since there father & I separated. I had to leave him to save my sanity but now I’m thinking maybe I should have stayed for my children. My X is very heartless & has told the children lies about me. I don’t tell them anything about what there father has done to me during the marriage. I don’t think that would be right. As I watch them pull away from me, I’ve become very depressed & distant. They have always been my world & I adore them but I’m hurting so bad. […]

5/9/2016 5 comments

by shattered_dreams 5/1/2016

written by shattered_dreams

I’m sat here again staring at the ceiling with tears down my cheeks which have imbedded themselves into my pillow. Why am I the one who over attached to everything. My bffs have kindly told me they couldn’t care less if I killed myself apparently it’s like I’m invisible anyway. I don’t understand what I did wrong? I try my hardest in school, I try my hardest to be accepted for the real me and I try my hardest to be good enough but how ever hard I try it just gets thrown back in my face. I’m used to being a no one now. […]

5/1/2016 5 comments

Count my blessings.

by HannahGort99 4/30/2016

written by HannahGort99

So I’ve lost hope now. Years and years of therapy, waiting a shit load of money – sorry mum. I just feel like nothing is helping. I’m still cutting and going deeper and worse, I’m still suicidal and getting closer to death and my mind is going darker and darker, losing its contrast. I’m slowly giving up and all it’s doing is hurting my family.

4/30/2016 2 comments

I don’t know what to do..

by chinita1991 4/28/2016

written by chinita1991

I am so confused. People know me as a happy person. They dont see me getting angry. I’m not the type of person who show anger. But deep inside I’m hurting and crying. I rather cry on the corner and let it go. I feel blessed because of how lucky i am. I have complete parents, i have sisters, i have so many friends. All of my problems feels like i want to end my life. But a guy came to my life and changed everything. Were two years from now. And i love him so much. Im thankful that he never leaves me. I […]

4/28/2016 4 comments

Anger

by JiminyCrispies 4/24/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I wrote 2890 words in 68 minutes. It’s for my essay that has a word limit of 2000, and it’s still not finished. I only stopped because my laptop died and I’ve lost the charger. Usually it would take me between 2-3 hours to finish it. I did it in 1. One of the only upsides to all this energy right now.

I have college tomorrow, the essay was due in last Monday and I was off so I needed it for tomorrow morning. Oh well.

I was talking to an old friend online earlier. Needlessly to say, they are barely my friend right now. They said […]

4/24/2016 1 comment

Dying inside

by akg1229 4/20/2016

written by akg1229

I’m dying inside. I am falling further into the dark abyss where my coping skills no longer help me function. I am calling my doctor in the morning, if he can’t help I’m done. I just don’t have it in me to keep this fight up. It’s hurting everyone I love. Everything that is living that comes across my path is tainted by my diseased mind. Of I’m going to cause pain and destruction anyway, I might as well do the final deed so they can mourn and move on. They may feel it’s selfish, but it’s the least selfish thing I can do at […]

4/20/2016 3 comments

Hurting others

by DarkOvercast 4/20/2016

written by DarkOvercast

I know, i know…this is a rather touchy subject. The fact of you leaving will hurt many people.

Lets just be clear, i am not suggesting or supporting that anyone leave this world, simply stating an opinion anyone may think on.

So your there, in that moment, yes you know the one. And all you can see is you hurting people if you left. Which is true. You will. Theres no doubt in my mind of that. But lets..just…step back moment from thinking about that.

Lets talk about me. I’ll be the genii pig in this example. If i were to leave. Right now..i would hurt lots of people. […]

4/20/2016 9 comments

This isn’t fair…

by halfdead66 4/20/2016

written by halfdead66

I’ve come so far, and have tried too hard to just give up now… But I’m angry, and I’m hurting deep inside too badly… I’m angry because everyone has tried so hard to help me, my therapist, psychiatrist, friends amd family… But no one can seem to rid me of this nightmare… I have tried so many medications just to be let down in the end… I’m angry because the last thing I want to do is give in now… I HATE the fact that I’m even considering suicide; but there is nothing left for me anymore…

I’ve tried to […]

4/20/2016 6 comments

Hey…

by Harleybleu0 4/10/2016

written by Harleybleu0

Hi there.

Well I’ve been on this site a couple of times now and I have been wanting to join for a while.

I have noticed how so many people are hurting and I honestly can empathize with some.

I hope I can share my story with you guys someday. (I’m not sure I’m ready right now)

Anyways, I really wish you guys the best of luck with whatever your going through <3

Goodnight.

4/10/2016 6 comments

Why

by kupo95 4/3/2016

written by kupo95

Why are you’s trying to hurt me ?

Make me bleed , make me crazy.

Why make me feel useless ,worthless make me grovel?

Why hold me down and destroy me take my life away , break me ?

Just let me go stop hurting me please I can’t take it anymore .

Anything I had ,you belittled made it crap, shitty, garbage.

I trusted you all stop hurting me.

Why make feel so wothless?

Why do you’s want me this way?

What do you get a crushed hopeless girl?

I was chiped […]

4/3/2016 61 comments

I’m Done

by JiminyCrispies 3/30/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I feel so lost inside myself. Everything hurts. My emotions hurt. They’re so intense to the point where it’s hurting me to feel anything. I can’t breathe. I hate it. I’m not in control of myself properly anymore. I have to listen to the voices now. I haven’t been to college all week because they said it’s not safe. I left the house for the first time in days today because it hasn’t been safe. I’m so afraid of everything all of the time. And I hate it. I hate living like this. I hate myself. I can’t cope with it all anymore. I don’t […]

3/30/2016 2 comments

Update

by LostandLonelySoul 3/1/2016

written by LostandLonelySoul

My ex-fiance broke my heart. Yep. He broke off our engagement and continues to beat me emotionally until I’m numb. I want to die. I want someone to take this pain away from me. But nobody ever does. So I think I’ll end my pain. I think I’m going to die today. Don’t tell me life’s worth the fight. My whole life has been one painful experience after another. I can’t do this anymore. I’ve been crying out for help for years. I thought he was going to help me. He broke me in ways I never thought were possible. I will probably never be […]

3/1/2016 7 comments

Consequences

by whydoiwantto 2/28/2016

written by whydoiwantto

Recently the depression has really been picking up and the desire to just end everything has gotten so much stronger.. I’ve been thinking a lot about the consequences of suicide and just feeling awful about it.

It’s like bang – gone – no more pain – rebirth or silence but at least escape – but then the thoughts of my family at my funeral, the friends who I have made future promises too, people I love and know I would hurt… Why does an act that ultimetely reflects a life long struggle and is truly personal have such a ripple effect? Why can’t I end my […]

2/28/2016 5 comments

I wish…

by iwant2_die 2/26/2016

written by iwant2_die

Where? Where was God when the bastard my brothers call ‘dad’ was hurting me? Where was he when my brother’s hand was getting burned? When Mom was beating the shit out of me? When they took me from my brothers? When my best friend and Dad were dying? I don’t fucking know. I wish i did but I don’t. I wish I believed in him everyday. I wish Mom loved me. I wish I didn’t have these thoughts in my head. I wish so many things I can’t have. But most importantly… I wish i was dead, that i never existed. That Mom would have had […]

2/26/2016 4 comments

Insane? Like in the membrane?

by red_river 2/24/2016

written by red_river

I haven’t posted in a while and I don’t respond to shit so I’d understand if everyone just waves this off. I’ve been hearing voices for a while now first I thought it was me just being stupid and it wasn’t constantly so I ignored it. I thought it was my subconscious for a while but then it got worse and I keep getting sharp headaches which follows by the voices. I still don’t know if it’s me just acting stupid or if this is genuine, but they keep getting worse and worse telling me to kill myself or to hurt others. I use to […]

2/24/2016 4 comments

Everyone goes away!

by iwant2_die 2/22/2016

written by iwant2_die

My best friend. He died. A couple of months ago he just said he’s head was hurting and then next thing you know, he’s in the hospital. Half his brain turned off and he went into coma. Two weeks later doctors told us he would never wake up. He’d been my best friend since I was five. How could he leave? Did he not realize how he would hurt not only me but the other ones that loved him as much as I did? I don’t like trusting anyone. I know thy’ll leave me behind and that will hurt. I just know it. Yet I […]

2/22/2016 3 comments

Slowly dying, so why prolong it?

by filmg1rl 2/22/2016

written by filmg1rl

At this point in my life, I feel like I’m just overwhelmed with sadness. It’s genuinely at a point where I feel like I’m going to cry all the time because I’m just so intensely sad. All the joy of life has been beaten out of me inch by inch over my 41 years.

But it’s hit me really hard recently. My best friend was just dumped by her husband of 10 years for a younger woman, so I’ve been doing what a friend does and being there as much as possible for her. But part of her initial and possibly unhealthy reaction to this has […]

2/22/2016 6 comments

Support

by NicoleK 2/19/2016

written by NicoleK

I know it’s hard to take me. I have to live with me don’t I? My youth pastor and best friend are really good about dealing with my intensity, to my face anyway. But I get the sense that they are sick of hearing the same garbage with no change. Don’t they know I’m sick of feeling the same garbage every day too? I speak up every couple weeks, because I can’t take being so alone anymore. I ask for prayer not advice, and I don’t ask to talk about it. I just let them know my head isn’t right. They say they don’t know […]

2/19/2016 3 comments

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