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I don’t know what to do

by Snowy 5/6/2016

written by Snowy

So I’m new on here and just found the site today but I think this could be beneficial for me. I am 27 years of age, I’ve been married over a year (almost 6 years with the guy), our house and car are paid off, and I have two wonderful dogs. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. I’ve struggled with depression off and on for awhile and it’s getting bad now. I am so sorry in advance this is going to be long…

My husband is loving but not understanding at all, he is homemaker (I think that’s what it’s […]

5/6/2016 4 comments

Used to Be

by NicoleK 5/5/2016

written by NicoleK

Just a song a wrote a few years ago after having my heart broken by a stupid boy…I was reminiscing on what it was like when I had the creativity to write, and it felt good to play. This recording is rough, and I messed up obviously a few times, but doing it has helped to curb the pain today.

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/05/Used-to-Be-5_5_16-12.52-PM.m4a

Verse
Sometimes I try too hard
It never gets me very far
And this whole darn world could stop
And I’d never know
‘Cause I’m watching you go
And I don’t wanna settle back down
Into being by myself
‘Cause this whole darn world would […]

5/5/2016 7 comments

My suicide story

by lau___dufour 5/4/2016

written by lau___dufour

Here’s my suicide story

Last year was the most difficult and sad time of my entire life not only for me but for my family and friends. Having struggled for many months with severe depression and for many years with self injury, I decided to try and take my own life and overdosed on my antidepressants. I just wanted a relief from the pain I had to deal with on a day to day basis that consumed every aspect of my life. I had never felt so desperate in my entire life. 2015 would be the start of a series of suicide attempts and hospital admissions […]

5/4/2016 2 comments

Would it really matter??

by Luna 5/3/2016

written by Luna

This is my first time reaching out here. Originally I signed up to reach out at a very low point but instead found myself trying to help others. The struggle for me is so real. I put “the smile” on to often. I find myself thinking about dying more frequently.. Driving home tonight I just cried so much that it was to the point where I couldn’t see. The thought came to me….”would it really matter if I wrecked and ended it?” I struggled to find a reason why not to. By the time my mind cleared I was in my drive way. Just have […]

5/3/2016 9 comments

by jwiatesp 5/3/2016

written by jwiatesp

my boyfriend knew something was wrong. bless his beautiful soul. he held me and asked me what was wrong. i went to class and came back and he had written me a letter saying sorry. sorry for what? he is too nice to me.

he is making it harder for me to do it. im a burden on everones life. i take up space and resources. im tired all the time even when all i do is lay in bed. he still calls me beautiful. i really want him to stop caring so i can just fucking die. theres so much unnecessary pain surrounding everyone. for […]

5/3/2016 1 comment

Be careful what you wish for…

by king nothing 5/3/2016

written by king nothing

Please, can somebody help, even if it is just to talk? I’m at my wit’s end.

I’m no kid, I’m well old enough to remember the 80s. So, couple of years ago, I was getting on for that age when life begins (you know when I mean?) and thinking about being lonely. I’ve never dated anybody…hell, I’ve never done anything even most 13 year olds have done. Total level 1 noob at my age, ha.

Sure, I’d had offers but I was a robot who couldn’t feel romantic love. I felt nothing for those who had offered, so I turned ’em down (in a nice way, I aint […]

5/3/2016 44 comments

not doing so great,

by quietcheep 5/3/2016

written by quietcheep

i’ve been having a very difficult time lately. i have a lot of health issues both mental and physical and they’re finally catching up to me. it’s been very difficult holding on, but even more so now than before because my family is now explicitly honest about how they feel about my condition.

my health issues have gotten to the point where i can’t work. i can’t function on my own anymore. i am a burden. i’ve been in the gray area of suicide since the age of nine and i’ve only been open about it in the last two years. it’s gotten worse. everything has gotten worse […]

5/3/2016 1 comment

I’m All Alone

by TodSchema 5/3/2016

written by TodSchema

I close my eyes
A crimson black tide envelopes the room
A wave of chronical death washes over me
A never-ending nocturnal tsunami

It’s time for a student’s noontime meal
An expectant hush fills the room
As she kisses a box wilted grapes
And yet the withered fruit I consume

I see curdled milk in cheesecloth
Cicadas sing in the mid-summer’s day heat
As I march along to a Jew’s Harp song
A venomous serpent coils at my feet

I hear poolside laughter
The scent of barbeque fills the air
I see her standing at poolside edge
The sun glistening in her jet-black hair

I stare at the newsprint […]

5/3/2016 0 comment

Hallways

by DexQuietlyBreaking 5/2/2016

written by DexQuietlyBreaking

In the long hallways
there’s talk of love and hate.
They look down on those
who don’t look ‘right’.
Always beating them down
with such bitterness and
anger.
There’s mobs of liars
and masked monsters.
Never knowing the world
outside themselves.
In the long hallways
they’re all looking down
and she’s looking up.
The one single angel.

5/2/2016 1 comment

I don’t know..

by headupunderdarkcloud 5/1/2016

written by headupunderdarkcloud

It just feels like too much has happened. Too many things gone wrong, and here I am left with the fallout of all of it. For a time I’d wake up with enthusiasm to fight it, figure I’d do this or that and things will get better, try to improve the situation, but where it’s led me is just so utterly depressing. Details don’t really matter, I feel it’s more once you get stuck in this frame of mind you just feel stuck. I don’t know. Just found out a good friend of mine from back in the day killed herself. She was so beautiful, […]

5/1/2016 0 comment

The shittiest way to go …Hey I’m talking to you!

by Cold_Sleep 4/30/2016

written by Cold_Sleep

FANTASY STORY

art? not real. don’t shoot! I’m naked!

– amigo english not my numero uno tongue, sorry for any bad cooking mistakes! –

WARNING SHITTY STORY AND EVEN SHITTIER SHITTING SCENE.

I send my girlfriend to a 7 day vacation out of town.

I need some time for myself to deal with my emotions and depression and possible something else,

I will stay home while she is gone. And take a friend with you, don’t go alone, will even cover some cost

for her or him I say to my girl, she smiles too me and agrees to it, few days later, its time!

she has left the house […]

4/30/2016 1 comment

by Wintergirl 4/30/2016

written by Wintergirl

I’m sitting here in the dark, listening to the rain. It’s been raining a lot lately in the past month or so. I remember a few years ago the river flooding in low lying spots and coming within inches of flooding over the train track bridge. I don’t mind this rain at night or when I’m sleeping but during the day when I have to function it about kills me. I am not very tolerant of the cold and lately this has felt like an ice cold rain. There was one night in February I had to catch the bus home from work in an […]

4/30/2016 9 comments

Protected: young years

by Dungeon 4/30/2016

written by Dungeon

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

4/30/2016 12 comments

Protected: I’ve been analyzing myself and my risk.

by whiskered-fish 4/30/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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4/30/2016 13 comments

by Soco 4/29/2016

written by Soco

From what was essentially a pretty good week, not including a slight double up of meds, things have really taken a downhill slide today. Woke up thinking about feeling very dark and very quickly progressed into fantasizing about the big leap. Had to catch a train to get dosed at my clinic and was picturing myself kissing the train. Now im home and its still there. Worse than ever. I know it has alot to do with been alone today but I dont want to be near anyone. That would just remind me of my difference to everyone around me. So im […]

4/29/2016 9 comments

I have to stop putting make up on

by kupo95 4/28/2016

written by kupo95

So like every time I put on make up I end up crying it all off. Why am I crying today well it started off ok. The house was fliped the girl I live with refuses to clean the bathroom properly but whatever. Im crying because it my fucking husband mother fucking birthday and I have barely any money to buy him somthing . but keep in mind I the spouse that makes money. He buys me somthing with my money in his pocket. Or he brought what ever it is on a credit card which I pay …won it at the casino my […]

4/28/2016 19 comments

LOST AND BROKEN….

by Giaahhh 4/28/2016

written by Giaahhh

No matter how hard we try…..there are times that actually disappoint an individual… A very common reason is the past that haunts us and those things that we really aren’t able to get over….n what if the past repeats itself or just comes back…knocking the door….saying…”Hi darling….m back!” We simply can’t decide how to react…The dilemma of the present situations adds up too……Every human in the world is born with the right to make mistakes….that is how each one of us learns….n frankly…there is no such mistake that can’t be forgiven……then why do people have a generalization on basis of a mistake and judge you………they […]

4/28/2016 1 comment

I can’t find the remote.

by noneedforaname 4/28/2016

written by noneedforaname

The Wendy Williams show is on. I can’t find the damn remote, I can’t change the channel on the frickin cable box without the damn remote. And I swear on all that is Holy that if I hear these women yell whoop-whoop one more time I just might end it. ( it gonna take a talk show to drive me over the edge ? ) screw it. I’ll be in the garage if anybody needs me.

4/28/2016 40 comments

Protected: Liar

by Dungeon 4/27/2016

written by Dungeon

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4/27/2016 6 comments

Checkmate

by InhalingAnxiety 4/27/2016

written by InhalingAnxiety

(Maybe this is an official “I’m back” post? We’ll see if my mind can keep on track. Good luck following my thoughts.)

I thought I was set for life because I had it planned out until retirement. Graduate high school, go to college and get my degree in accounting, get a job and earn promotions for the next 40 years of my life, retire and move to someplace beautiful and expensive, then wait to die. And I thought no more about it other than just a basic, simple, normal life. That was when I was in 9th grade when I made that plan. I have gone through […]

4/27/2016 5 comments

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